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Pari was so excited about each thought. She began to watch design of her dress. It was so beautiful. She created it with just one dream. She was planning to find her dream boy in this party. It was so important to find that dream boy. She started to laughing to herself. She knew that her grandmother was waiting outside. She was favourite of her grandmother. She knew her parents didn’t care much for her so they decided to keep her with her grandmother. She loved her grandmother. She was special for her. She wanted to stay with her Grandma forever. She began to arrange all properly. Her Grandmother was taking her to one special gathering of their community. All would come in it. They would have programme to entertain all. She loved to attend such functions. She was so excited. On that time her grandmother came in. Her Grandma “ Honey today you need to pack your stuff.” She was so shocked. “ Why Grandma?” Grandma sat on her bed. Grandma said “ I am getting older... I can’t take care of all. I want to live peacefully now. I will call one maid to stay with me. But I can’t take your responsibility. You are not grown up. You need guidance. I want to take rest now.” She didn’t like this change but she didn’t have much option. She needed to adjust. It was her grandmother’s house. Her maternal grandmother’s house! She could decide whatever she wanted to do. She didn’t have any right on it. It was made clear to her from beginning but it was hurting so much to accept now. She looked towards her bed then she sensed that it was not her bed. She didn’t have any right on anything in room. She smiled sweetly & said “ Don’t worry I will pack all.” “ Great then I call mover & packers. You need help.” She wanted to argue but she didn’t. She decided that she would do as Grandma suggested. She said “ I will pack dresses & valuables or jewellery..” “ & Books too. They will not carry all your heavy books.” Pari nodded. She suddenly pushed her dress aside. Her Grandma smiled happily & went away. First time she sensed that her grandmother didn’t want her to stay with her. She didn’t want to ask questions but she knew. It was because Ravi was calling her. Ravi was her good friend from office. Her family would never approve that friendship. But he was just friend. She was planning to marry as per her family’s choice but still her Grandma got upset. On that time Ravi called. She took his call. “ Hello Ravi” “ So when I shall come tomorrow to take you to office?” “ It’s not needed.” “ What? You are resigning?” “ No. I am shifting to my parents.” Ravi didn’t said anything. Then he asked “ You never mentioned it.” “ Grandma just told me. She is too old now. She didn’t want my responsibility. She have servants to take care of her.” “ But you could have helped?” Pari took one proper breath to calm herself & said “ She is my grandmother. It’s her greatness that she did favour of taking care of me. I am not her responsibility.” Ravi didn’t say anything then he said slowly “ You are right. Sometimes we over expect from some people.” Pari felt so happy that Ravi understood. Pari said “ Bye.” Then she began to pack her things. Pari began to look around her house. She was no longer sure that it was her bed. It was not her bed or it was her room. She was not sure if Grandma gave those cupboards too. It was difficult to shift them. It was punishment to her for keeping friendship with Ravi. She was not actually involved with her. But still her parents didn’t like it. She knew that they wouldn’t permit this marriage. But she was not planning to marry him. She was planning to find suitable man in today’s function. Then she sensed that she couldn’t be going to that function now. Her Grandma didn’t expect her to take luggage there. She was not going anywhere. She looked towards her dress. She decided that she needed to obey her Grandma. She began to pack all. She was so sad in her heart. But then she began to plan things she could do in her parent’s house. She had two sisters. She would enjoy their company. She knew that they admired her. She needed to go back to house which was her own. She knew that she couldn’t stay with her Grandma forever. She smiled to herself. She began to pack her things. She decided to call her Mom. She called her Mom “ Mom I am coming.” “ I know but I am going out for my meeting. Your sisters would be in school. Do one thing take key from neighbour. Actually our regular maid Swati went on vacation too. I want you to clean house too if possible.” “ Yes..yes I will do that.” She said sweetly. She wanted to please her Mom. She was shifting back to her house. Then she suddenly remembered her brother. She slowly asked “ Where is Anand?” “ Ohh he went abroad on his trip. His school arranged it. You must not disturb his stuff.” Then her Mom told her that where she must not touch. She immediately agreed. She wanted to get adjusted in her house. Then she said bye to her Grandma. Her Grandma seemed very happy to get rid of her. She didn’t understand why this was happening. She took as much of her things as possible. Then she called Security soon she loaded all in Cab. Security looked more sad than her Grandma when he understood she was going back in her house. She didn’t understand why she had suddenly became such big burden. She returned her home. It was her home. She used to visit it time to time but she didn’t know anyone from that building. She slowly called Security who was not happy to take her luggage. He was opposite of what Security of her Grandma’s house did. This Security didn’t like her. She was one unwanted burden in his view. She didn’t understand why Security disliked her so much. Finally she went inside house. She searched hard around house. One after another room. Finally she found one room with three beds & three cupboards. She knew that she needed to search for empty cupboard. Soon she found it. It was hard to accommodate her stuff in it. But slowly she began to arrange all in that cupboard. Then she sensed that she didn’t feel it was her home. But it was her home now. She started crying.
Pari cried for sometime then she once again looked around. That was her house & it was great. She kept looking around. She knew that she had one room in Grandma’s house in this she shared two sisters. But she needed to adjust, She began to think about Trupti & Smita. They were her little fairies. She could share anything with them. She knew that they were her favourite. Both girls showered so much love on her. They kept wandering around her like her small angels. They always copied her. Sometimes she felt that they worshipped her. She didn’t like it but she knew that her parents didn’t have much interest in them. Her parents were always busy with Anand. Pari knew that she needed to help her sisters. She began to arrange all. She started to clean her room. Then slowly she managed to settle her things. She found one wall. Near it she kept cupboard. Then she slowly kept books one by one in it. She began to arrange all books in alphabetical order. She was so happy. On that point her Mom entered. Mom “ Why did you bring those garbage?” She was so hurt. She said “ They are my books Mom.” “ Yes I know. Your Grandma encouraged this bad habit in you. Look towards those books! You are hardly going to read them all!” She knew that she had too many books but she wanted them. She would read step by step. She hated idea of not having them. She felt so sad. She said “ Mom I will reduce all other things..” “ No doubt you need to reduce them. Maybe you should give some to our maid Swati tomorrow. I can’t believe you have wasted so much money.” She looked towards her luggage. She knew that she purchased too much. She just wanted to enjoy life. She wanted to feel emptiness in her soul by those things. Her heart was so empty. Her Grandma was giving her affection but whenever she came home her parents made sure that she should understand that she was unwanted child. They didn’t like her. They didn’t like her any habit. Then her Mom said “ I am getting late for meeting. I came just to pick some files. I hope you are planning to go to your office from tomorrow.” “ Yes..Ravi will come to take me.” Her Mom get one angry look. “ Ravi stayed near home of Grandma I hope now he had not shifted near us with you?” She felt so ashamed. “ No..no Mom he didn’t.” “ You need to understand you are grown up now. You must not make friendship like that. I don’t want you to spend more time with him. Do you understood?” She felt so nervous. She was not having any affair with him. It was just friendship. He kept admiring her & it was increasing her confidence. She was never admired much by anyone. Boss kept demanding work faster & faster. In house Grandma was not exactly admirer of her. Grandma wanted everything to be perfect & she was never perfect. It was frustrating for her. Ravi was one person who used to admire her & spoke positive about her. But still she was not planning to have an affair with him. She knew that love marriage was worst thing. She needed to marry according to choice of her family. She said “ Mom don’t worry. I will not go with Ravi.” Her Mom nodded & went away. Pari began to look around. She didn’t understand what she was searching but suddenly she sensed that she needed to clean room on that point her mobile rang. It was Ravi. She didn’t want to talk to him. She just kept her mobile on silent mode. She kept her mobile hidden inside cupboard. She managed to hide her mobile under her clothes. She began to feel so nervous. She began to watch different looks on wall. She saw wonderful designs on wall. She knew that they were expensive gifts given to her parents by their clients. She didn’t exactly understand what was their business deals. She never took interest. Her Mom worked for one airlines & her Dad worked in bank. They both had busy life. She supposed to do all properly in her life. She needed to give respect to her parents every decision. She was so nervous. She slept on her bed when her Mom came in room again. Mom “ What about your office? Are you planning to quit job?” She immediately stood up & ran in washroom. She immediately started to get ready. She wanted to look nice. Then she searched for her hidden mobile. She saw Ravi’s five missed calls but she decided to ignore. Then she called Cab. She immediately sat inside it. She began to go to office. She was so sad. She didn’t want to marry Ravi. She was sure about it. She told herself that she must not think about him. She was feeling so sick in her stomach. She began to feel as if she was falling sick. She needed Doctor. She looked around. She didn’t find much options so she called her Grandma. “ Grandma I am feeling so sick. I need a doctor.” “ Then call your Mom sweetheart she will arrange one. You are not staying here any more.” “ Ohh so sorry.” She immediately disconnected call. Cab Driver said “ Manage sometimes in Taxi people feel sick. Open windows take breath of fresh air.” She did it. She began to feel little bit better. She said “ I am feeling okay now.” Cab Driver “ Sometimes such things happen in traffic people began to feel nauseous. It’s normal. Do you want to go to Doctor or your office?” “ Office.” She said without second thoughts. She didn’t want to tell her parents that she was feeling sick. It would invite more troubles in her life. She wanted to feel healthy. She smiled & said “ You are right. I am just fine now.” She sat once again peacefully in Cab. She waited for office. When she finally reached to office she literally ran out towards it. It was such a relief to go back in her office. She knew that her Boss was demanding but still she could manage it. She sat peacefully & began working. She knew that Ravi was observing her. But she decided to ignore him. She was no longer interested in talking to him. She knew that she needed to obey her parents. She was earning from this office but if her parents decided she could lose her job & if they created issue Ravi would lose job too. She knew that she must not object them at all. She kept working.
Pari began to her life in new style. She didn’t go to parties or enjoy chatting after office. She always went straight home. She was expecting her sisters to adore her. But they were so frustrated when they saw that she brought so many books & other things. They kept complaining. One thing was sure that she was unwanted in that house. She began to feel so stressed. She was avoiding Ravi her best. Ravi tried to talk at beginning then slowly he began to ignore her too. So she was totally alone in world now. She didn’t understand why this happened to her but one day she heard her Dad talking about her Grandma’s cancer. Her Dad said “ We kept nurse now we can’t do more.” Her Mom immediately agreed. “ At this age any treatment is not to help.” Dad “ Now don’t start talking about treatment! I don’t have stamina to waste on one old woman who is at such age that she couldn’t survive more than ten years. You can’t expect your Mom to cross hundred? Do you?” Her Mom didn’t say anything. She knew that her Mom was sad but her Mom needed to obey her Dad. Her Mom earned but all managed under guidance of her Dad. Her Mom couldn’t do anything. Pari was so sad. Pari sensed that Ravi wasn’t cause of her shifting but cancer was. She felt so sad. She went in her room. But her sisters were chatting happily between themselves. They gave her one look which told her that she wasn’t wanted there. She wanted to share her sorrows but she couldn’t. Then suddenly Mom appeared from behind. “ Anand is coming tomorrow. Pari I want you to act nicely with him. He must be treated properly by you.” She felt so sad. Pari never wanted to hurt anyone. She was trying so hard to adjust with this house. It was truly sad. She didn’t understand what she supposed to do. She just nodded. Then she sat on bed reading a book. It was better to remain in her book. “ Mom don’t worry. She just keep reading some book.” One of her sister said. Pari didn’t look upward to see who was it. She was glad that someone spoken instead of her. Her Mom went out. Then Anand came. All kept avoiding in getting his way. Pari tried her best. But he kept irritating her. Whenever she sat in room to read something. He came in room & began to do something which would create noise. She began to feel so restless. But she didn’t complaint. She knew that he had one room for himself still he kept coming here. Still she couldn’t complaint since this was his old room now he shifted to new room which was too small so he could come in this room. He kept throwing his things on her books. She hated it but she didn’t find any option. She was feeling so nervous. She needed to feel positive in her life but it was not happening. She began to plan to put something on those books for protecting them. She knew that those books were her life. She wanted to protect them. Anand was enjoying it. She put something on those books he immediately started throwing it. Soon he even started putting his cup of coffee on them. She felt so sad. She was going in office & doing all but her heart was just in her books. One day finally a boy came who was recommended by her parents. She was so happy. She liked him. She talked nicely with him. He kept smiling sweetly. He didn’t talk negatively. Pari got encouraged. She took him in her room. She showed him all her books. He suddenly looked pale. Clearly he didn’t like her room. He said “ All three sisters stay here.” “ Yes we share one room.” Then he turned towards bed of her sister. He said “ These cosmetics looks lot better. I like jewellery too.” “ It’s my sister’s.” He smiled happily & asked “ She like gold jewellery?” “ Yes. But this is artificial one.” He suddenly looked upset. Then he began to talk about himself. He wanted her to purchase ornaments & save them as investments. She nodded. But her eyes kept going towards books. She suddenly asked “ Do you like books? I love them.” He said slowly “ No & I can’t take all those books inside my house. You can’t act so madly. You can’t keep them.” She felt so sad. She wanted them. She said slowly “ I love them.” He said angrily “ You can’t have them.” Then they went away. Her Mom came in room at night when she was ready to sleep & started taking away her book. She cried screamed but Mom just took them away. Something managed to break inside her on that point. Her tolerance vanished. She took one chair & threw it on her Mom. Her Mom fall down. Her sisters screamed & ran out of room. Her Mom also went out. Her Dad was planning to enter with Anand but she locked door. She pushed everything against it. She kept screaming “ I want my books. I want my books.” For long time she didn’t come out. Then finally she heard voice of ambulance. She was so scared. Slowly Doctor & nurses came inside after breaking door. She was injected & taken to hospital. Next day she wake up on hospital bed. Nurse immediately called Doctor. She was so nervous she never acted this way in her life. That Doctor introduced himself as psychiatrist. She asked “ Am I mad?” “ Well you got nervous breakdown. It can be called madness but this happened since you learn about your Grandma, doesn’t it?” She started crying. “ It must be so painful. First you lost Grandpa then Grandma now books given by them only become their replacement don’t they?” “ Yes! I need them as moral support & strength.” “ You don’t need books you need person who appreciate them. You need to insist.” “ I did but my Mom threw them away.” “ Then you need someone who purchase them once again for you. You need to search for that one.” She suddenly understood all. Doctor discussed with her then she was discharged. At home Mom threw away all her books already. She was sad but not hopeless. She began to learn from Psychiatrist how to cope this attitude. She slowly started to talk with Ravi again. She told him about book. He smiled & said “ I will purchase all books for you just marry me.” She said “Just show them to me.” He showed his library. She laughed. After sometime Ravi came in her home with his parents. She declared that she wanted to marry him. His parents gave sweets. Her parents forced to accept. Her parents were not happy but she choose to ignore them. Finally she married to Ravi. She still showered affection on books but Ravi loved them same way. All said that they had too much books but they didn’t care.
The End
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