Ready for life
Natasha was never fond of nights. She always loved days. She wanted to enjoy every moment of life in pleasant day. She had many pleasant plans for her day. She was counting what she was going to do in that day. She used to fix everything. She had decided entire week. On which day she would wear which dress then she would read which book. She always planned every thing. She liked life that way. She didn't like uncertainty about anything & her life was never that way. She had big family which was staying in different flats of one building. Actually once upon a time her father's grandfather was rich man who have large house but then slowly entire business started to diminish. Then kids went away their ways. But when it came to selling of house they all started arguing. Majority kids wanted to sell few wanted flats. Builder who took it agreed to whatever they wanted. So they had large building. Some were sold by builder to other people but many belonged to her family specifically in her wing. She was so happy to stay inside them. On each floor her Auntie stayed. They all showed concerned about her. She felt so happy in that house. It was just perfect. She could get support on every day. She was so interested in going out. Even today she started to go out. She needed a book to read. But she also needed to talk with people. She needed to discuss her troubles. She wanted to feel confident about her choice of book. She went down. She stopped on first floor. Her Sarita Auntie came out & smiled. Soon Sarita Auntie stopped her. She knew that how Sarita Auntie would go inside & bring something for her. Sarita Auntie was such great cook. She loved all items Sarita Auntie cooked. But she didn't know how Sarita Auntie always managed to cook something she liked. Actually she never did anything great for Sarita Auntie. She just took care of her daughter for a week when her father was sick & Sarita Auntie needed to go to her parent's home. Uncle was not much cooperative in babysitting. In fact it seemed as if he was not cooperative in any thing. She felt as if Sarita Auntie's husband her Uncle was just burden on family. She never understood that why did her Auntie married to him? She never asked this question to anyone. It was too personal thing. She couldn't ask like that about adults. But she always loved to take care of their daughter. Now their daughter was grown up. She did all on her own. In fact her daughter didn't even say "hey" to Natasha any more. It was little shocking to her at beginning but then slowly she sensed that Auntie's daughter was acting just like Uncle. Any way Natasha did all for Auntie so she didn't care. She wanted just her Auntie to be happy. Soon she started to smell sweetness of food. She began to feel that her favourite food was coming. She could sense her stomach was literally screaming to her that she needed to eat it. She sensed that her favourite Gulab Jamun was coming today. She started to smile. She hoped tomorrow it would be her favourite Jalebi. She knew that she was acting too greedy but no one could cook like her Auntie. She took them & she immediately started eating. Her Auntie started laughing. Auntie " Come on seat peacefully then eat." She nodded. She sat on staircase. She began to talk with Auntie when suddenly two people came. They were not happy to see her sitting like that. That lady said in slow voice " How could member of society sit on staircase like that. It would be surely risky." Natasha stood up & immediately went inside Auntie's house. She was so nervous. She didn't sense that she was breaking rules. She didn't understand that she might manage to throw sweet syrup on floor. She looked back carefully. She noticed that nothing was fallen & she took breath of relief. That lady said loudly " How much we try to teach people don't eat in open & don't throw garbage they just don't understand. These kind of people are burden for country. Don't you sense by sitting like this on unauthorised places you are doing wrong things. Now they are just sitting slowly they will start even to occupy it. We need to teach these people to behave properly. Everyone need to respect rules of law. We need to talk. We must object." Natasha sat inside. She tried to eat that Gulab Jamun but suddenly it started test strange. She began to regret her decision of trying to eat it on stairs. Auntie started to look nervous too. Natasha asked slowly " Who is this lady?" Auntie answered in low voice " Remember your Tanvi Auntie!" She nodded. Tanvi Auntie was one of her favourite Auntie's. She always kept cracking jokes. Natasha was favourite to her. Tanvi Auntie always kept admiring her. Slowly her Auntie continued " She sold her flat." " When? She didn't mentioned it to anyone! " " Actually she didn't want anyone to know. I don't know much details. But I know since your Uncle is related to law so they came to show contract to him." Natasha nodded. Natasha felt so upset & lonely. She didn't understand what was wrong with her. Auntie asked " Are you scared of this lady?" Natasha nodded. Auntie " Don't worry. She is only one member she will not harm us that much." Natasha nodded. After talking with Auntie she began to feel more relaxed. Then she went away to collect book of her choice from book store. She knew that she needed to cheer up her thoughts & it would be possible only by purchasing books of her choice. She wanted to feel happy. She began to search books when she suddenly saw same woman on magazine. She took it. She sensed that this woman was some great influencer. She was some upcoming leader. Clearly she didn't seem like someone small. She had big popularity & fan following. Natasha sensed that her Auntie was unknown about her or just trying to cheer up her. She knew that this lady was going to become big trouble. She could read Lectures given by this lady. This lady was insulting many great people so clearly Natasha was nothing before her. Natasha didn't understand how could people let this lady talk like this. She didn't understand why did they like her. It was so wrong. But she knew one thing that this lady was going to harm her. She didn't doubt it at all. She didn't want to purchase that magazine. She didn't want to waste her money so she kept it back & she went inside book store to check books.
When Natasha came home, she immediately ran to Mom. Her Mom looked towards her with shock. Mom " What? I don't know anything about this! Tanvi should have told us. They never treat us like family." Her Mom was clearly very angry due to attitude of Tanvi Auntie. Her Mom didn't like Tanvi Auntie that much. Her Mom always felt that Tanvi Auntie was just creating drama. Tanvi Auntie used to admire Natasha for hours & her Mom used to criticise. Mom just kept saying that Tanvi Auntie was lying but Natasha never believed her. But today she sensed that her Mom was right. Tanvi Auntie backstabbed them all by selling flat to such people. Tanvi Auntie knew that this lady was not nice woman. Natasha didn’t understand how could someone act like that. She began to sense that admiration was just artificial. She didn’t understand cause. Then she felt that it might be because of her father’s money. She didn’t understand why this artificial relation was created but any way it was shattered now. She knew that Tanvi Auntie lied. It was so upsetting. But she didn’t want to keep thinking about negative side of life. She began to think that this famous lady might be upset today. If she talked nicely to this lady. She started to remember her name Isha. She didn’t know what did she supposed to call this Isha. She was so confused. But now she knew one thing that now she would never sit on staircase. It was wrong. She needed to accept it. Her Mom started calling all. Soon her Mom found out that everyone was fond of Isha. They all called her Ishaji. It was already decided that she would become secretary soon. Her Mom was so shocked. Mom “ I don’t understand what was special in that Isha?..no.not Isha.. they all said we must call her Isha Madam!” “ But Mom finally it was my mistake? I can’t sit on staircase!” “ Really do you feel this lady will truly follow all rules?!” Natasha said nothing. Natasha soon began to see how much respect Isha was getting. Isha was talking sweetly with everyone. In fact on her entry they kept one nice get together. All came down. Natasha came down too. Her parents were not much interested but they didn’t have much option. Isha was centre of entire ceremony. Everyone was jumping around her. Isha was clearly full of superiority complex. Isha kept advising & every person was nodding. Her all relatives were so busy in admiring Isha that they didn’t even came to talk with them. Even her favourite Sarita Auntie who gave her sweets was busy in talking regarding Isha but she immediately came back to them. Natasha was always her favourite. Her parents started chatting. Sarita Auntie gave happy smile to them. She began to describe Isha as good woman. Then she introduced them to Isha. Isha gave wonderful smile this time. Isha didn’t say anything bad directly to her. But Isha just ignored Natasha. Isha avoided chatting with her. Isha kept distance from her while Isha admired all of her age. Isha kept ignoring Natasha. Natasha didn’t say anything. Soon Natasha was sitting alone in corner. She felt so sad. Once she used to sit with many friends. Suddenly now all started to avoid her. She could hear their voices but they all seemed far away. She wanted back her life but it was too late. She began to feel that she might be needed to apologise. She stood up & went before all group. Then she slowly said “ I am sorry. I will never sit on staircase.” Isha looked towards her. Isha looked in a way as if she didn’t recognise her. Natasha explained entire incidence. Isha gave small laugh. Isha “ It’s alright. If you are smart you will not repeat it. Actually you need to learn it from your parents.” Then she looked towards Natasha’s father. Her father gave angry look to Natasha. He said “ I told her many times but these young girls..” her Mom was angry. Isha smiled again. She sensed that Isha managed to insult her parents before all. It was important to Isha. Isha changed subject immediately. Her Mom took hold of her shoulder & took her away. Her Father “ I don’t understand why did you need to confess before all?” Natasha said slowly “ I thought if I apologise all will be over!” “ What will be over stupid girl?” She told every thing to her father. Her father started laughing. “ Ohh my old God! On our society staircase! I thought that you went to company & did something in her office.” Natasha said no with head. Natasha was so confused. Natasha sensed that whatever happened could be forgotten. She smiled. She began to get restless. Still she returned back to her old seat. She began to feel so upset by entire incidence. She started to sense that she needed to just eat & relax. She sat in corner. She was no longer interested in talking with people. She decided that she could stay in world of her books. She needed to just feel her soul with imagination. She didn’t wanted to feel so upset. She began to think positively about everything. She started to enjoy her life if she began to live in her world of mind. She started to get restless. She began to feel tense. She was so scared. She began to feel nervous in heart. She needed to feel happy. She began to think about positive thoughts & she started to smile. She began to feel happiness in her heart. She was feeling so pleased in soul. She started to get nervous. She didn’t want to feel nervous. She didn’t understand why she couldn’t live in dream world. Then she started to talk with her parents. It was truly pleasant. She was so happy from soul. She began to imagine everything in positive way. She knew that her parents were with her so she didn’t need to worry. She kept talking with them. Soon she started to forget her tension. She began to get happy. It was so pleasant. Soon she forgot all that happened. She started to enjoy that evening. She managed to feel happy with her family. She went back home. She knew that she was happy but she also sensed that she was no longer with big family. Now she had just small family. Her society was no longer her big house. She was living with outsiders. She felt so sad. But she still hoped that everything would be fine. She kept telling herself that her life would be pleasant. She went to sleep with one fear. She felt so scared. But she was positive.
Next day she once again went outside with same hope that her Auntie would meet her. But Sarita Auntie didn’t came out. She sensed that she couldn’t expect this from someone every day. Sarita Auntie wouldn’t cook for her daily. She was so upset by all. She wanted to convince herself that she didn’t have right but she kept watching towards closed door. She went down. On entire staircase there was strange emptiness. She wanted to reduce it but it was not working. She was feeling more & more sadness. Finally she came out of building. She started to sense hopeful in life. She began to sense that no one was showing affection to her. She went to library. She took book that she decided to read. She wanted to share it’s story with all. But she knew that no one was interested now. This Isha managed to broke all. Isha was admired everywhere in world. Natasha was no one before her but still Natasha kept feeling that Isha didn’t have any right to destroy her life like this. But she knew that Isha was not doing anything. People just liked Isha better than her. She felt so sad. Her life seemed like life of defeated person. She didn’t understand what extra did that Isha did for them. She did babysitting of Sarita Auntie’s daughter it was precious until Isha didn’t enter. But after Isha’s entry all wanted her. Natasha sensed that she just needed to pick more books & stay at home. She didn’t needed to spend more time at home. She began to understand every page of book now. Since her life was turning in one strange sort of nightmare. She returned home. Her Mom was cooking. Mom was clearly upset. Mom “ Entire Society become strange due to that woman. She is celebrity. Every one is reading about her in media or watching her on TV then they began to admire. She didn’t done anything worth admiring before us! Did she? You all know her history. She is nothing worth admiring. She is not even enough educated. I admire those who can’t get education since they do it due to situation but this woman is different. She left education. She feel that education is not important...” Natasha stopped Mom. Natasha “ Mom you can’t question her success. She got admiration. They like her not us.” “ But why?” “ It was complicated matter. She will give them future & hope. She can manage to create something for them & we can’t.” Her Mom laughed. Mom “ She will do nothing for them.” Natasha didn’t say anything on it. Natasha went ahead with life. She didn’t like to go out anymore. Her room became better place for her. She knew that entire society was just fond of Isha. She didn’t want to even try now. She kept sitting in house. Her parents began to feel that something was wrong. They started to see that Natasha was getting depressed. Natasha kept looking out of window for hours. It was purposeless. It was clear that Natasha was not any more that Natasha who used to talk with people freely. Natasha’s parents knew that Isha did it by humiliating her before all. They knew that Isha sent indirect signals to all that they must not make friendship with Natasha. They didn’t understand cause but they could see results. Then one day they decided to throw party on Natasha’s birthday. They knew that Natasha loved these parties. They were so wonderful. They arranged all in perfect way. Once again Natasha looked like her old self. Natasha was so happy. Every one came but they didn’t seem like people who they knew in old days. They didn’t invite Isha. Still every one kept talking about Isha. It was literally frustrating. Natasha kept so sad. Finally all went away. They gave many gifts but they had nothing in it except expensive return for food they were offered. Natasha didn’t sense them that feeling which she feel by sweets which give Sarita Auntie use to give. Today Sarita Auntie didn’t even cook anything for her. Sarita Auntie just gave her sweets from shop. They didn’t want to waste their time on her. She started crying loudly. She was feeling so sad. She wanted back all. Then finally Isha sent one big gift. It was most frustrating. After that Natasha began to stay locked in room. Finally one day her father suggested “ Let’s take her to counsellor.” Her Mom looked confused. But Mom nodded. Natasha was in her room. She was looking out of window. Her Mom slowly began to convince her to visit counsellor at beginning she tried to talk against it. But then soon Natasha agreed. They took appointment. They were tense. They knew Isha did it but they couldn’t stop her. Natasha was getting in depression step by step. Isha taught & convinced all to hate & dislike Natasha. It was wrong but that couldn’t be stopped. Since all were standing with Isha & no one was cooperating them. They wanted to fight but they knew that it was useless. They were confused. They didn’t understand how could they make everything normal. Finally they decided that counsellor would help them. They waited with patience. They were so scared. They sat peacefully. Then finally their number came. They went inside. Step by step they told all to counsellor. Counsellor listened to them. Counsellor “ We need to teach Natasha to fight with situation. It is mistake of Isha but concentrating on that point doesn’t help us. We need to teach Natasha to fight against it. Natasha needed to learn to fight back. If they didn’t want to pay attention then she needed to make new friends. We must not concentrate on what Isha did. We need to concentrate on what Natasha needed to do.” They all agreed. Then Counsellor started talking to Natasha. Natasha at beginning found it hard to follow his advice. At beginning she even started to get sick. But then slowly Natasha learnt it & finally one day Natasha managed to get over it. On that get together of Society she ate nicely. Then she said “ Bye.” to all who ignored her sweetly but she didn’t feel hurt. She sensed that she was hurting herself more with negative thoughts. If she decided to not hurt herself Isha couldn’t harm her. That feeling set her free in her life. She smiled happily after so many days her parents were so happy. Finally their daughter became ready for life.
The End
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