Sudden death
Rita was watching movie. Her entire family was sitting beside her. She was so confused. She had table before her full of snacks. She kept watching them. It was really hard for her to decide which one she wanted to eat. Some snacks were really unknown. But she loved them. Her Dad brought them for her. He always brought snacks whenever he went abroad. She was his favourite daughter. He never forgot to bring snacks for her specially sweets. He never said it in straight way but he always kept claiming that it was for someone else. But truthfully it was just for her. She was his favourite. He had two kids. His elder son, her brother Tarun was always considered special by others since he was boy. They kept telling her that this house and entire things of this house belonged to him. She was guest after all she was going to get married. And she never had much objection to this idea since she knew that her parents were planning to find rich husband for her. She didn't need this small house after finding big bangalow. She could clearly gift it to her brother. It was her destiny. She was going to become rich. She knew it since every astrologer told it to her. They all informed her about her financial strength in future. She knew that her future was secure and happy. She was eating her food happily. Then she suddenly began to feel that she needed peanuts. Her Dad was sitting beside her. She decided to tell him to pass them. Rita " Dad will you pass peanuts?" Her Dad said nothing. She felt so confused. She didn't understand what was going on. It was so confusing. Her Dad never acted that way with her. He was nice man. He always loved her. But today he was not even talking with her. She didn't understand this change of attitude. Every one in family adored Tarun more but not her Dad. In eyes of her Dad she was best and she knew that very well. She was so happy that her Dad always showed respect towards her. She knew that she was small in age but still even small kids deserved respect. Like if they asked to pass something,they felt that other person should pass it. Her Dad always did it. But today he didn't pass peanuts. She felt so upset. She screamed loudly without second thought and her Mom got angry. Mom " What happened? When you learn to behave yourself?!! You are getting more and more spoiled every day. Your Dad is pampering you too much. You need to learn some discipline. Today you will not get any more peanuts." Tarun started laughing while showing off his peanuts. She felt so hurt. She kept watching TV. But then slowly she sensed that her Dad was not moving at all. He had pizza in his hand but he was not taking it to mouth. She looked at him with confusion and asked " Dad why you are not eating this Pizza? It is getting colder in your hand." Dad didn't answer her. Now she felt scared. Something was wrong. Dad was holding Pizza in strange way. Cheese from Pizza was dropping down on plate but he was not putting it in mouth. She felt so confused. She didn't understand why didn't her Dad move. She slowly touched him on shoulder and pushed. He straight way fall on Mom. Mom screamed with fear. Soon it became clear that he was not alive. But they didn't find it easy to accept. She was so shocked. She kept hoping that her Dad would open his eyes and started joking and laughing. But nothing like that happened. Her Mom kept screaming. Tarun called Doctor. But she could feel it. He was no longer alive. He would have surely passed on peanuts if he was alive. She wanted to cry but she couldn't. Something stopped her from crying. She kept feeling locked. Soon she saw people started coming. She was watching everything. She locked herself in her soul. She was so frustrated. She didn't understand pains which were hurting her heart. But she couldn't show them in public. Her Dad wanted her to be strong. Her brother Tarun was crying loudly. He was creating big showoff. It really hurt her in soul. He needed to control himself. He was elder and he was boy of family but she needed to do all. She didn't have much option. She showed strength. She kept doing everything. She acted as if she was mature and elder woman. She did all. She could see admiration on some faces which encouraged her more. She needed to be careful. She didn't want to feel so natural as if she didn't feel sorrows. But she didn't want to cry in public like some character from TV show. She wanted to feel strength of her soul but she didn't want to appear cruel. Life was so complicated. She wanted to cry for her love of Dad but before people she didn't want. She tried her best to appear perfect. She never wanted look something less. She did all like mature person. She liked it. It seemed perfect. But she didn't sense how much she worked in this process. She did everything while her Mom kept crying with Tarun. No one came towards them until they didn't need to discuss about financial matters. It became clear that financial matters needed person like Tarun. She didn't understand why but they all suggested it. She was not smart enough. She must not ask about financial matters. It was unwritten rule. She sensed it first time when her Dad died. Her Dad never permitted any financial pressure on anyone but he didn't just give permission to few members. At end of day she was tired. She worked so hard. She went in her bedroom to take rest. Her entire body was paining. She didn't sense how hard she worked until she didn't fall on bed. She wanted to go to sleep but she couldn't. Her mind was still wanted to plan something about next day. She didn't understand why did this happening. It never happened to her before. She never felt so restless before. But on that day she was tired still she couldn't sleep since her mind was too busy. She needed to plan all. She knew that Tarun would just keep money but he would not work. Her Mom might help from tomorrow but it was not enough. She knew that she needed to plan. She slowly fall asleep but even during her sleep she was planning everything. She needed to turn everything just perfect. She needed to be just perfect to please people otherwise they damage her future. So she was even planning in her sleep.
Rita wake up, she was so confused. She looked around. She felt as if she was working for entire night. She didn't understand why didn't she feel fresh. She was sleeping but still sleep didn't seem to help her much. She looked at her reflection in mirror. She was looking normal. It seemed as if her body was refreshed with this sleep. But she knew that her mind was still feeling so tired. She didn't understand what was wrong with her mind. She knew that she needed to feel fresh and happy. But she couldn't. Then she sensed that it was due to her father's sudden death. It was yesterday. She needed sometime. She took deep breath. She began to choose her dress. She didn't want to wear anything colourful. She didn't want anyone to think that she was not sad. She didn't want to break any tradition. She didn't want to upset anyone. She wanted to be happy. But still on this moment she needed to remain sad and she was planning to do it. She searched hard and finally found a decent dress. She took it out and got dressed. Then she went in hall and began to arrange all. Her door bell rang. Her cook came in. Her cook Shanti " Madam what are you trying to do?" " Nothing. Just cleaning house." " On such occasions you must not clean house so loudly. This is moment of sorrow so your house should be quiet." She nodded. Her Mom was in her room. Rita was confused about traditions and her Mom was not planning to help her. She knew that her Mom was going to remain in her room. Her Mom just claimed big things but when actually crisis entered, she just sat in room and kept crying. Rita didn't like this attitude. But she didn't have much option so she tolerated it. Rita knew that she needed to remain dependent on other's advice. Luckily her maids were faithful and nice. She could trust them. Rita turned to Shanti " So what did you feel I should do?" " Well. Do you have dull curtains? Like those which they keep in hospital?" Rita knew that they never kept separate things for sad occassions. They never suffered like this. Her grandparents died when she was small. She didn't remember much but they didn't change curtains. They kept them same. Rita " But last time we don't change." Shanti looked upset. It was clear that she didn't like Rita's attitude. Rita was her employee but still she wanted Rita to dominate her. She kept telling Rita that she needed to learn many things. Rita knew that too. Shanti was wiser than her in many ways. Shanti always tried to protect her. Shanti was working for Rita since long time. She never permitted wrong people to enter in Rita's life. Rita was sure that she had good intentions in heart. Shanti was suggesting right thing she knew. Then she sensed difference of situation. Her Dad died suddenly while her grandparents died at proper age when they knew that it couldn't be avoided. She sensed difference herself. She looked towards Shanti. Shanti was so tense. Shanti didn't like those situations. Rita could see it on her face. Rita " Actually I don't have curtains.." Shanti " Forget them. Did you brought things for rituals?" Now Rita didn't even knew what ritual she supposed to do. She never arranged for any ritual. She decided that she must call her Mom. She needed to consult her. She started to go in room of her Mom. But Shanti stopped her. Shanti " I know what did we need? Do you have money?" She nodded. Rita " But how much we need?" Shanti started to create list. Rita stopped her. " Let me bring pen and paper." Rita went in room. She soon sensed that she needed to search in her Dad's drawer. She began to feel so uneasy suddenly. She began to feel that she wanted to vomit. It was strange sensation. She never got acidic this way. It was so strange but she knew that she was going through strange incidence too so it was not shocking. She was so upset and stressed. She needed to understand every emotion that she was suffering and it's effect on her body. She needed to open that drawer and took out pen and paper. She did it. Then she began writing. She wrote everything perfectly. She started to plan how did she manage to purchase it. Shanti " You must order on phone. If you visit shop, it will look odd." Rita agreed easily since she didn't want to visit shop. She didn't want to face anyone who could ask questions. After that she did everything as per Shanti's instructions. She felt so lonely. She didn't want an unknown person to decide her future. She knew that she was just arranging funeral as per Shanti's instructions but truthfully she felt as if Shanti was her employer. But she knew that she needed to do all. Rita did everything. Finally when everything was arranged, Tarun came out. He started asking her about money she spent. She felt so upset. It seemed as if he was her Boss. She also owned that money but she didn't dare to say it. She knew that they all planned to give everything to him. She was going to get her share in jewellery and she might get rich husband. She was so upset. After her father's death she began to feel uncertain about her entire future. She started to get upset about it. She needed to feel sure that Tarun would take care of her but it was not happening. Tarun didn't seem to care that much about her. He kept asking about spending and kept insisting that she shouldn't spend this way. Finally he said that she was spoiled and she didn't understand value of money. She wanted to scream on him. But she didn't. Mom gave entire financial responsibility on him. She was going to stay there until her marriage. She didn't need to feel scared. Soon her education would finish. She was in her last year of college. She knew that her Dad was even planning to search suitable groom for her next year. But now it was not possible. She needed to wait. But somewhere in her heart she was scared. She didn't feel that she was safe any more. She needed to fight for her rights but she was not ready. She just kept explaining regarding every purchase to her brother.
Shanti was watching all. Soon she sensed that her employer Rita was too weak. She sensed that she didn't get anything by showing honesty towards Rita. Shanti was honest person but she needed her benefits too. She had one family at home. She knew very well that she couldn't just keep helping Rita if she didn't increase her salary. She needed to push Rita. Shanti turned to Rita as soon as Tarun went out of room. Shanti " Why did you explain everything to him?" " Well finally he will handle all finances." " And what about you? What did you get?" " I will marry someone.." "Stop this nonsense. I felt same way and look at me." Rita shivered with fear. She knew that Shanti's husband hit her and he took away her entire money. Rita had seen her wounds. She didn't understand how did Shanti tolerated him. Now she sensed that Shanti did it because she was without option. Rita shivered with fear. She didn't want to live life like this. She wanted happiness in her life. Shanti " I didn't got any thing from my parents so I don't have any money of my own. My husband know it very well so he take full benefit of it." Rita began to feel so scared. She didn't want to land in mess like her. Suddenly marriage didn't seem like promising thing to Rita. She started to feel so upset. Rita " So what is your advice?" " Well you must try to keep hold on money." Rita nodded. She decided that she must talk with her Mom. But she couldn't since her Dad died yesterday. Rita " I will talk to Mom later." Shanti nodded. " Yes..yes you can't now but you must talk." Then Rita started doing her work. She started working on each day. She was doing her every duty but Tarun didn't seem to care. He kept screaming on her regarding every expense. She began to sense her Mom was not recovering as she expected. Mom kept sitting in room and crying. Her Mom kept searching for her Dad around house. It seemed as if her Mom was lost in her own world. Rita waited and waited. Slowly one month passed. Rita tried hard to make her Mom normal. But soon she sensed that it was not working. Her Mom was not normal. She went in room and started talking to Mom. " Mom we need to discuss about our finances too. You can't let Tarun control all alone." Her Mom smiled and said " I am not concern about anything now. I just want to join with your Dad in heaven where he is." " Mom what about me?" " You will find husband!" " But how? And what if I decided not to get married?" " You can't. You must get married and find suitable husband to settle with. You can't put your burden on Tarun. If you keep staying here then Tarun can't able to get wife and even if he found wife then she will abuse you." "Mom you are talking just about Tarun what about me?" " I will tell Tarun to find husband for you. He will fix day when that boy and his family will come if that boy like you then it will be over." " I don't understand?!! I can say no to that boy too. I have that right!!" " No you can't. Girls are not supposed to reject boys. It will create lots of trouble for us. You might remains unmarried." Rita was so angry. She was shocked by this entire concept of marriage. She didn't want to marry anymore. Mom " No you can't. Tarun need a flat to stay with his wife." " Then he could buy one on loan. I am not going to marry someone just because Tarun need this flat." Her Mom suddenly got so angry. Her Mom slapped her. She was so shocked. She started rubbing her cheek. It was hurting. She felt so much pain. Mom " I am calling your Auntie. She will arrange this meeting. Your Dad is dead now I can't keep your burden on your brother. You must marry this boy." She shivered. Rita was so scared. She knew that this was her last year. But she knew that Mom might fix her marriage before completing her education. She knew that Mom didn't care. She was so upset. She ran in her room. She began to observe her cheek. It was first shock for her. Her Mom hit her today. She sensed that it was just beginning. Her husband would treat her surely same way. He could abuse or hit her. She sensed that she was no longer safe. On that point she sensed that Tarun came home. He looked at her. Rita sensed that he wanted his coffee or tea. She wanted to tell him to go to hell but she didn't dare. She didn't have money. Her Dad was dead. She must act nicely with Tarun otherwise he might throw her away out of house. She was so scared. She did everything without any complaint. She nodded to his every word. She knew that she wanted to fight but it was not possible for her. She didn't have money or strength for it. She was feeling so frustrated. She did whatever Tarun told her without argument. She felt that if she kept working like that for him. Then he might not force her to marry wrong person. It was so frustrating. She needed to do all he ordered. Tarun didn't sense her weakness. But still he kept demanding. She knew that he was too tired. She did all he wanted then she finally decided that she must discuss regarding future with him. Rita " Tarun I don't want to marry." He started laughing. Tarun " Why? Few days ago you were dying to marry. You are so childish." She felt so angry at soul. She wanted him to understand her troubles. Rita took deep breath and said " Mom is forcing me to get married. I will not do it. If you force me then I will kill myself." Tarun was shocked now. She didn't understand what he was saying. She just kept screaming on him " You can't just throw me out of house like that. This is my house too. I want to complete my education. I will not marry like this." Tarun kept looking at her with confusion. But she felt that he knew all. He was just pretending. She ran out of that room and locked herself in her room. She didn't care anymore about anyone. She wanted to be alone and keep crying. Her Mom slapped her. She didn't understand cause. She was never treated like that. She wanted to kill herself. But she couldn't since she knew that Tarun would surely open door with keys. So she screamed " Go away. I want to be alone for some moments."
Tarun was so shocked. He never planned to marry her sister without completing her education. This was too much. He didn't understand how could his Mom decide such thing. He didn't expected this from his Mom. He went in Mom's room. His Mom was sitting on chair. She was reading some book. He didn't understand what kind of book she was reading but it was not her regular book. It seemed like some spiritual book. He didn't understand how could a spiritual book managed to take her on wrong track. According to religion person must act peaceful and forgiving. But Mom was even acting wrong way with her own daughter. Tarun sat near her. Mom smiled peacefully towards him. He returned her smile. Then he started chatting. Tarun " Mom I feel Rita must complete her education." Suddenly Mom's face changed. She began to look like some woman who wanted to murder someone. She began to abuse Rita. Mom " She forced you to discuss this. Didn't she?" " Yes. But it was needful. She didn't want to marry someone unknown to her?!! She is right. You must not force her in marriage like that!!" " Really?!! What about you?" " What about me?!! How could this affect me?" " If she doesn't got married, no one will marry you." Tarun started laughing. Tarun " Who told you this nonsense? I can buy my flat so my wife don't need to suffer due to lack of space. I don't need to married off my sister to get married and even if I don't got flat, I am sure I will find girl who will adjust with my sister. Rita is nice girl. She will not harass my wife. And any girl can sense it after meeting her." Mom started screaming " You are stupid. You don't even have enough brain to understand your own good. Your sister managed to kill your Dad too. He died because she kept screaming on him for peanuts." Tarun was shocked by this statement. Tarun " Mom are you out of your mind? How could you blame Rita like that?" Tarun was so angry. He never expected this from his Mom. Mom " I don't want daughter. I just want you my son. I wanted son not daughter." His Mom touched his cheeks with affection. But he felt so disgusted. Tarun " Mom but I wanted sister and I love her." His Mom clearly looked upset. She was shocked. His Mom suddenly ran towards Rita's room. She began to abuse her. Rita started to shiver with fear inside. Mom began to tell her to open door. Same time Tarun started screaming to keep it shut. She was so confused. But she didn't understand whom she should obey. Then she heard Tarun screaming " Mom you can't force her to marry someone she doesn't know." " She killed her Dad by screaming on him. She must die or she must marry. I will not keep her in this house like this." Rita started crying loudly inside. Tarun was so scared. He was concerned about his sister now. He sensed one thing. That his Mom didn't care for his sister. Tarun began to scream " Rita stay calm. Don't open door. I will try to handle Mom." Rita was crying loudly inside. She knew her Mom didn't like her that much but she never expected this. Tarun tried to drag Mom away from door. But Mom started hitting door with chairs. She was working hard to break that door. Tarun was so scared. He immediately called family Doctor. Doctor " Don't worry. I will call my psychiatrist friend." Tarun agreed. It became clear to him that his Mom was acting like mad person. He knew that it was useless to deny it. He kept dragging his Mom but she kept hitting door. Mom was cursing Rita so loudly. Soon her hysterical voice managed to go out of their house. She was throwing everything on door. It was getting worst step by step. His Mom even pulled out TV out of plug and broke it on door. It was horrible. Tarun managed to protect his face with efforts. Mom's face was clearly injured due to glass particles of TV. It was not important for her Mom. Due to those noises slowly security guards came to their door. Tarun didn't want them to enter. He was so scared that his Mom might harm them too. But before he could say something, his Mom ran to door and they entered. Mom began to tell them to open Rita's door. On same point Tarun told them to call Cops. They started to get confused. Mom began to scream like mad person on them too. She began to throw more showpiece on door. It was so scary. Then suddenly they heard voice of ambulance. They felt relieved. Doctor,nurses and ward boys came running inside. They took hold of Mom and injected her. She was taken in hospital and Tarun ran towards door. He told slowly Rita to open it. He was so scared that Rita might do something to herself. But she came out. She hugged him and started crying. It was horrible for her. Then slowly they started to collecting mess in room. Soon Doctor called Tarun. When he went down, finally his Mom was sleeping in ambulance. Psychiatrist " She is extreme case of post traumatic symptoms. I need to check her proper. I will keep her in hospital for few days. Will you able to pay expenses?" Tarun " No problem." Then they took her to hospital. Tarun was so scared of her now. That he didn't want to keep her in home. Psychiatrist saw it in his eyes. Psychiatrist " She said everything in her madness don't desert her for it." Tarun smiled and nodded. Then he took cab and went back to Rita. He knew that Rita needed him in these moments. He was her elder brother. He knew that he never behaved that way like responsible brother but he was planning to do it from that day.
The End
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