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On that day every one was laughing so loudly. They all started playing around when they heard about that accident. One small group came running towards them. She started telling that a train had slipped and there was big accident. Urvashi " Where was bus going?" " It was going to Sonapur." Little Urvashi started to say in confused tone. " Sonapur? Our school trip was going there." Other girl " I heard that from fifth 4 there were ten kids in that train." Urvashi looked around. She was so scared. " All other girls belonged to other classes. She knew that out of all class ten kids went. There were three girls and one of them was her best friend. She needed to ask question to some other class mate. She was sure that her best friend was alive. She knew that kids couldn't die like that. But then she knew that they die since she watched TV news on every day. She was so scared. She needed to confirmed it. She ran around then she located her class teacher. Urvashi smiled happily. She knew her class teacher would take away her all pains like she did every time. When she could solve that problem of maths, her class teacher taught her how to solve it. She knew that her class teacher would turn everything in right way. She ran to her class teacher. Tanuja was busy in revising what she supposed to teach in class. She was so busy whole time that she totally forgot to watch TV. But she was totally confused when Urvashi came running towards her. Urvashi was good girl. She always study hard and managed to get good marks. She was not extraordinary student but then Tanuja didn't expect such intellectual student. She was expecting normal kid. But Urvashi was shy girl so when Urvashi came running towards her then she immediately sensed something was wrong. Urvashi was getting breathless due to running but she was still not ready to stop talking. Tanuja just didn't understand what was she talking about. She was talking in such fast way. Tanuja " Take a breathe and talk properly. Tell me what you want to say?" Urvashi took deep breathe and then talked " Kirti was telling all students who went on trip from school where in bus which had accident with train. Is it true Madam?" Now Tanuja started stammering. She was in such hurry every day that she mostly read paper during recess of school but she knew that today she needed to read paper for that knowledge. Tanuja gave sweet smile to Urvashi. " Honey now just relax. We don't know any thing for sure. First let me go to principal's office and check." " Madam they all can't die. Can they?" Now this was worst question. Tanuja knew that answer was yes but she didn't want to give it. Tanuja " How can I tell it while standing here? I need to go inside." Urvashi was smiling in strange way as if she wanted to wake up from this nightmare. Tanuja was so scared. Tanuja just started walking fast. It was worst. Her class was never victim of accident. It was something totally strange and unacceptable to her mind. She couldn't believe it was happening. She just ran inside school. But soon she sensed that it must be truth. She could see every one had that shocked look on face. It seemed as if no one was believing this. They all knew that accident might happen but they never expected it for their school trip. It was so wrong. Then suddenly one teacher stopped her. " Did you heard it?" " Yes. A student told me. It was horrible. I heard all students were dead. " " What? Are you sure?" " It was your class?" " Of course. It was time of your class to go to trip. But I heard less number of students went to trip due to exams. Did you know who went?" Tanuja nodded. She could easily list their names but their faces. She suddenly felt as if they were vanishing from her mind. She didn't want to remember them. But she knew that she had to remember them. She had to go to their funeral. She had express her sorrows. But she knew that it was going to be hard. She didn't understand how could such little kids die this way. She had read and heard about it. But she never believed it could happen. Somewhere in her mind she always felt all those news where never reality to her until now. She felt that they were just television shows but today she sensed one thing. Now she had to see those facts which she never wanted to see. She was going to see faces of those parents whose kids were killed. She might even needed to go to identify those bodies. She was so scared. Then she suddenly thought that it was not about just kids it was about teachers too. It was not just her class. It had group of class so at least four teachers were with them so if their teacher survived then they would identify those bodies. But then she started to shiver with one thought what if those teachers were dead too. She went inside. She turned to other teachers. " What is news?" " Well I don't know properly about it." " But this is horrible. I mean. We have convinced those parents about trip and now this happened." " It was due to train. That train slipped from track and crashed with bus." " But what about kids?" " I am not sure about anything until now." Tanuja started to searching for some clue like mad person. Then suddenly she started to hear on mobile. Parents were calling. She knew that she had to answer them but sadly she didn't know those what she was supposed to say. She finally found principal. Tanuja " Madam Did you know what happened?" " It is just worst accident. According to my knowledge no one survived from that bus. Tanuja started shivering. She could hear her mobile was ringing. She knew that she was the one who was going to get blamed. She started crying. Then she suddenly woke up by touch on her shoulder. She started to look around. Other teacher " Why are you standing here like that?" She looked around. She was standing in school. She sensed that it was perfect day. She was so happy. She sensed that everything was just dream. She started looking around and started laughing loudly. When she suddenly heard sounds " What was wrong with her? She is having nervous break down and once again she came back to same room. Her students were dead. She knew that mobile was ringing and she had answered. She went out of room. She just took call and said " They have died." She could hear them cursing and abusing blamed. She heard it all. She kept taking every call and kept answering them slowly her mind became emotionless she just kept answering.
Urvashi slowly followed her teacher. She was standing outside principal's room with hope of answer. But she did move ahead. But then she heard Tanuja coming out. She was shocked when she saw her face. On that point Urvashi sensed it all. She had confirm it so she stopped and heard her teacher. Then she just ran away from there without thinking. She just went in her classroom. Few students were preparing for next lecture when she screamed " They all dead." Every one looked at her with shock. Then they all started reacting in different way. Some started calling her mad and some started crying. But soon every one sensed that she was telling truth. They all started crying. She looked around. Suddenly her class become so small. They had thirty students in their classroom. Now there were just twenty remaining out which many were playing in ground. They didn't know any thing. Then Urvashi started crying too. Soon a peon came and told them that today they would not have school so they could go home in school bus. Urvashi " But I want to see my best friend Nita for last time. Are they going to bring her here?" Peon clearly looked upset. Peon " I don't know but you must go now." Urvashi " But.." Then suddenly other teacher appeared who gave them angry look. Teacher " Don't you understand situation. Act like good kids now. Just go home." They all nodded. But in their heart they all wanted to see their friends for last time. But they knew that it was not possible. Urvashi went out. She sat in school bus. She felt so strange. Now she was going to be alone entire time. She knew that it was not going to be easy. She needed a new friend. But she knew that it was hard to get one. Since she wanted to get her friend back again. She didn't want to search for a new friend. She just wanted to move back and tell her friend not to go to that trip. But she knew that it was not going to happen. She was feeling so confused. She decided that she must go home and tell it to her Mom. But she knew that her Mom was not home at this time. She must had gone to office. Her grand mother was going to be at home. But she didn't want to stress her now. She knew that her grand mother would surely start crying. Her grand mother knew her best friend every well. She didn't even want to take her name now. She was feeling so sad. She knew that it was not her teacher's mistake but she could easily see that every parent was screaming on her. Urvashi suddenly spoke " It was not mistake of Madam." Then she turned to other side. That seat was empty. Her best friend was gone. She knew that now no one was going to care for her feelings. Her best friend was only person who cared for her in school. She could clearly hear other kids gossiping. They all were bus students. But many belonged to other classes. They started talking about accident victims. But suddenly a girl from her class stopped them. " She said not before her. Madam told us not to discuss." " But she is the one who advice to go to trip." " She did it just to stay in good looks of principal. She didn't really care for kids otherwise she could have never advised such a thing." " Come on. Until now every trip was perfect, even this time that train was slipped from track. It was not mistake of bus driver." " Really? Then why don't he keep bus away from tracks?" " Are you stupid? I mean when a train fall from track. It would destroy every thing on road. No one can avoid it." Then teacher in bus screamed " Enough. This is not matter of gossiping. Just shut up." All students looked scared and stopped talking. Teacher smiled and sat near her. Teacher " Why are you sitting alone? You can join those kids." " No Madam. I am fine." Teacher " As you wish sweetheart but take care of yourself. Don't feel stressed." Then teacher patted on her cheek. She loved this special treatment. But then she suddenly began to feel guilty. She should not feel happy about this. She was treated this way because her friend was dead and it was not good news. She just kept sorrowful face. But then after some time she started to feel that she might like to smile after seeing few beautiful things in nature. She wanted to laugh again. But her heart was feeling ashamed about it. She couldn't laugh now. She must sense sorrows. She was so confused. She just decided that she might just engage herself in something else. She soon found one book and started turning it's pages. She knew that she must not read it in bus. But still she decided that she must look at picture. She started to observing them. Soon she began to look in picture. She began to enjoy world in her imagination. She started to create dreams like she used to create with her friends. Then she saw that she had finally reached home. She knew that she must control her emotion. She went in her house with stone face. Her grandmother was about to ask question when she told her that she must talk to her Mom. She immediately dialed Mom. " Mom do you know about our School's trip?" Her Mom took deep breathe " Yes honey. As soon as I entered in office every one asked me about you so I know." " Okay. Will you tell grand ma about it? I don't want to repeat it." " No need honey. Why don't you order some DVD and watch it?" " Great idea." Then she gave mobile to her Mom. Her Mom started telling all to her grand mother. She went inside her room. She started searching for her favorite book. Soon she found it and started reading book. She felt so happy while reading it. Soon her grand mother came inside and asked " Honey are you alright?" She gave nice smile to grandmother and said " I am fine." Then her grand mother patted on her back and went away. She suddenly began to hate this attitude. She was fine and she could get over it. She knew that she didn't have to feel so sad about it. Since every one who was born going to die one day. She knew that it was not bad. They would go to god and god took good care of them. But then she didn't feel trust on god. Why did god let those all kids die? She was confused. But then she knew that god knew best. It must be because their future might be going to worst like they might going to become..she didn't find any excuse. She just didn't found any thing worst than death. Then she started thinking about many crimes and handicaps. But still she kept feeling that if Helen Keller could survive then any one could so finally death seemed worst. So suddenly her faith on god was reduced. She felt tense about her best friend. Then she thought that she couldn't help her so she started reading book. She decided that she must had to forget her best friend. She had to do it. If she wanted to smile once again in life, she had to forget her.
Tanuja tried to keep her mind clam. But still situation kept getting worst step by step. Soon parents started to come. They started to scream on teachers. Tanuja could see anger towards her too. One Mom screamed " You said it is safe and now our kid is died. You killed our kid. God will not forgive you. God will not let you live happily." Tanuja " But no one know train would slip from track like that." " But why did you keep trip on such far away spot? Just stop sending kids like that if you don't able to take responsibility." Tanuja " We never had such incidence." Then suddenly peon came running from Principal's office. " We have informed that all kids are not dead. They were in different hospital. Those people confused." Parents stared screaming with happiness and praying to God. Tanuja felt so nervous. Since she knew that all kids had not survived, she slowly went in Principal's office. Principal smiled. " There is good news. All kids managed to survive with burns except one girl who had asthma." "Asthma? None of the student had asthma." " Police said one girl had since they found few prescription in her bag." Tanuja was so confused. She didn't able to guess which parent managed to hide such important fact from her. She was so confused. Tanuja " I don't know about that asthma." " It was not strong enough to sense on daily bases. But she had medicine and when smoke started spreading then she had that attack. Her friends tried to pull her out but she could survive. So in end of story. Just one girl died and her asthma is going to get entire blame for it. So you can take breathe of relief. " Tanuja was so confused. She was not sure that she was happy about it. But she was little relieved. She ran outside. Tanuja " Did any of your kid had asthma?" No one came forward on first time. Tanuja " All kids are in hospital. They are injured but safe except this girl." Suddenly Isha's parents started crying. Tanuja was shocked so only Urvashi's best friend Isha died. Tanuja was sure that it was not good for Urvashi. Tanuja sensed that she had to talk with Urvashi's parents. Tanuja knew that this was not just going to be about Isha. It was going to effect to Urvashi in worst way. She needed to show way to solve Urvashi's problem. But she knew that she didn't know proper solution of this thing. It was hard to guess way in which you could console death. Since Tanuja hated death herself. But she knew this time. She had convince her student that death was not worst thing. Tanuja called Urvashi's Mom. She took phone immediately. " What happened Madam? How did this happened?" " Listen to me. That first news was totally wrong. All student had survived except one Isha and she was best friend of your daughter." " But how did this happened?" " Actually Isha had asthma but her parents never mentioned it. It was not that big problem in normal days but when she stuck in fire. She had tolerate smoke. Then she had that attack. She couldn't survive in it. She was special friend of your daughter." " I know. Urvashi just talk about her. It was going to be hard for her." " I know. But she will survive slowly." " Yes she had survive this. But she will need your help." " I know I will help her in school but you need to take care of house front." " Actually I am working woman mostly her grand mother take care of these things. But I might take vacation of few days just to pay attention to her." " Well. It is not thing of few days. You need to understand. It is not about quantity of time but it is about quality of time." " Sure I can understand it." "From tomorrow our school is going to start and Urvashi needed to sit alone. Since all other girls had their partner sitting with them. " "Can't you manage some thing?" " Let me think. Okay fine. There is one new girl in school. I might convince principal to let her sit with Urvashi. Do you feel it will help?" " I don't know but I feel Urvashi must not sit alone." " I will try to do something." Then Tanuja called Principal. Principal " We can't just change things for one girl's wimp." " It is not her wimp. It is her genuine problem. Aren't we responsible for this mess?" " I don't feel responsible for mistake of train driver. Our bus driver was innocent and that girl's parents never told about asthma otherwise we should have never permitted her on that trip. I mean a girl with condition of asthma can't be included in trip without proper precaution." " Madam are you saying that you should have reject her from all school trips since she had asthma!! Then that is cause behind hiding it. Her parents wanted her to have normal life." Principal " Stop arguing. I want to keep things normal in school so nothing changes. Matter is over." Tanuja sensed in Principal's voice that matter was not going to get any further. Tanuja sensed one thing that life was not turning in helpful way. She had to manage every thing on her own. But then she sensed that it was not even responsibility. She decided that she just message to Urvashi's Mom and she did it. Urvashi was inside her house. She was trying her best to forget all. She knew that she was going to do it. She managed to get her things done. When her Mom came, she started to feel relax. Her Mom wanted to discuss something but she just kept avoiding it. Finally her Mom told her that all other kids were alive except Isha. She didn't feel any thing since she stopped feeling. She decided that she must not feel any thing since it would manage to hurt her. She began to think it was better that lot of kids of her school survive now she could have to adjust with them. But somewhere in her heart she kept feeling scared. She kept feeling lost. But still she smiled and told her Mom. " Mom don't worry I will handle it." Her Mom smiled and said " I know you are such good girl." Urvashi started moving ahead in normal way. She was acting as if nothing happened. As soon as she went to sleep, her grand mother came near her Mom. Grand mother " This is not right. She is not crying." " I know. I tried so hard to bring out her feelings but she preferred to keep them hidden. But it was not working for her." Grandmother " But we have to do something." Mom " Yes. I think Sumit might do it. She might share her feeling with her Dad!" " I hope so. But Sumit will come late today. She must be fallen asleep by then." " You are right. But will talk with her tomorrow." " I hope so. But I don't like this situation. She is not acting normally." Then they waited for long time. When Sumit came, he was too tired. But he noticed tension of wife's face. " What happened Rani?" Then he saw that even his Mom was standing. So he sensed that it was some serious issue. Sumit " Can I eat dinner first?" They both nodded. During Sumit couldn't tolerate silence. " Now tell me. I am feeling so tense and uncomfortable in silence." Then Rani said everything in one breathe. But Sumit couldn't able to manage to absorb it. Sumit " My God. I want to take look at Urvashi." " She is sleeping." Then Sumit went in her room. She was sleeping. But he could sense that it was not her peaceful sleep. He could sense that she was having nightmare. She was controlling herself. Sumit decided that he would talk with her tomorrow.
Next morning when Urvashi started to get ready. She didn't mentioned her friend. Sumit decided that he must begin that topic himself. " I am feeling so sad and Isha." Urvashi suddenly stood up from table. Urvashi " I need to go to school." Sumit sensed one thing that Urvashi didn't want to discuss it. She kept thinking about other things. She just kept to doing her work. She kept remembering every chapter of school which was taught to her. Then she went in school. She went in her class. She sat on her chair. Lots of chairs were empty but Urvashi knew that after some days all other students would return. In recess she sat alone but then she slowly started to hear what was said around her. They were discussing death of Isha. Those girls who sat near other girls started telling. " Isha didn't able to breathe since she had asthma. She was moving around. She was screaming like some one whose throat was choked." Then that girl started to hold her throat. She suddenly began to make strange sound and then she immediately left her throat. Urvashi was so shocked. She never dreamed about such thing. Then suddenly those girls called her. " Urvashi did you know that she had asthma?" Urvashi moved her head in negative way. That girl " Strange. If she was your true friend then she must had to tell you!!" Urvashi felt so hurt. It was right. She was her best friend and still she lied to her. It was not good news for her. It just didn't seem right before all. Urvashi felt as if she was some failure. Urvashi decided that she must clear her front. Urvashi " Actually she used to sit with me but she was not my such good friend." " Ohh so teacher told you to sit?" " Sort of." " So she didn't have any friend in class." " True. When you are hiding something you can hardly have friend." " It all happened because they lied to teacher." " Mom always tell me never lie to teacher." " We need to act in truthful way on every point with teacher." " True. She got killed because she lied." Urvashi was so hurt and confused. She wanted to her dead friend to be considered good. But she considered bad. Finally she had tell every one that she was not her friend. Her life was not moving that way which would create worst effect on her. She started to feel so sad. Her friend was considered bad girl. She needed get over her as soon as possible. She started to pretend that she was happy with that empty bench. Tanuja was watching her carefully. Urvashi was acting as if nothing had happened. She could sense whole class wanted to discuss Isha but then every one decided that they must not try to enjoy other people's sorrow so they all decided to keep quiet about matter. It was so strange day. Nothing was moving in way which Tanuja had expected. Urvashi was acting so normal. But Tanuja didn't like it. Since she sensed that Urvashi was not talking much. Urvashi was little shy girl but she never kept quiet like that. She was avoiding many subjects which might have any thing related to her classmate. Soon Tanuja sensed that whole class wanted to avoid Isha. They all wanted to tell world that she was not existed. It was strange but Tanuja couldn't talk about it. Since as soon as she entered in school, Principal called all teachers in room. Principal told them that they must not discuss that accident with any one. Tanuja had to obey it. It was strange that students were also following same rule. Then Principal came in their class. She gave smile to all. " Kids we must move ahead so let's forget all worst so I insist. You must not talk about it when other kids came from hospital. Will you do that?" Every one in classroom said " Yes." Urvashi also agreed happily. She didn't want to hear more worst things about Isha. But Tanuja just didn't like this idea. She sensed one thing burying past was not right thing. Whole time while teaching she kept looking at Urvashi. Her face seemed like a face made of stone without expressions. Tanuja went to her. She gave her smile. Urvashi sensed that she was coming. Urvashi started to feel scared. She didn't want to chat with her. But when Tanuja went ahead with just smile, Urvashi took breathe of relief. Tanuja sensed it all. She wanted to talk but she sensed Urvashi's fear so she just went ahead. That day went ahead with incidence. Urvashi took breathe of relief. When she went home, she acted like normal. She sensed that her Mom had cooked her favorite food. She ate it happily. Then she went ahead with her daily activities. From that day her Grand mother sensed one thing. Urvashi no longer managed to brought any friend in home. In fact she didn't seem to make many friends at school too. Her parents tried to talk with her about friends. But she just kept avoiding topic. They knew that they couldn't force her to make friend. So life kept moving ahead. But every one who was related to Urvashi sensed that something was not right about her. She was hiding her feelings. She just preferred to be alone. She didn't want to make new friends in class at all. She didn't participated in any activities. She just kept doing studying. But no one could point out mistake properly so they kept moving ahead.
One night suddenly Urvashi woke up, she began to sense that she couldn't breathe. She tried so hard to take breathe. But she just couldn't. She started screaming. Rani and Sumit were sleeping peacefully when they heard screams from their daughter's room. They ran towards her. Urvashi was trying so hard to take breathe. But she couldn't. It was horrible. Rani tried to tell her to clam down. Sumit " This is strange. She is having attack of Asthma. But she never hard Asthma?" Rani " Stop discussing. Call ambulance and Doctor. This is not time to discuss." Grandmother came running from behind. She was so shocked. Grandmother " We need pump so that she could get little air." " But at this time all chemist's would to closed." Sumit called Doctor. Sumit " Doctor said just take auto and take her to near by hospital. Sumit took her in arms. He could sense that his daughter was moving in his hand like fish who was out of water. It was horrible. They immediately took one auto and ran towards hospital. As soon as they entered, Doctor immediately gave Oxygen to her. Slowly she started breathing. Doctor angrily " If your daughter have such big problem of Asthma why don't you keep pump and medicines with you. She could have died." " But she never had this problem before." Doctor " Are you saying? This is her first asthma attack?" " Yes Doctor." Doctor started to look confused. " Did any one in your family had asthma?" " No. I mean Rani's grandmother developed it at age of 93 years and she died due to it." " That is different story. It happens due to young age. But your daughter is having it in such young age. It is shocking." Doctor " I can't believe it. Where is your family Doctor?" Then suddenly their family Doctor appeared. " They are telling truth." Doctor " This is strange." " Don't worry. I have called specialist. He will come in morning." They all nodded. After medication slowly Isha started to breathe normally. But she started feel relief. It was worst day for them all. Sumit " I just don't understand how did it happened? I mean she was just fine." Family Doctor " It was really strange. Did she do something which might cause allergy?" " No. She ate her normal food." " Tell me what she ate?" Then Rani told every item she ate from morning. Family Doctor smiled and asked " Is it some special occasion? I mean every item seem like special thing." " Well it was not special occasion. We just want to bring cause of more happiness in Urvashi's life." Family Doctor looked confused. " Why? What happened?" Then Sumit told him every thing step by step. Family Doctor " My God!! I don't know that trip was from your daughter's class. It was horrible. That girl died to due to Asthma and now suddenly your daughter started to have attack of Asthma. Is it possible that both things are linked?" Rani and Sumit looked confused. Sumit " But person can't stop breathing just because person decide not to breathe." " Asthma can be started due to psychological stress. It can be post traumatic symptoms." Rani started crying. Then other Doctor came out. " What happened?" Family Doctor discussed matter with him. Doctor " I can call psychiatrist now. Since he is in hospital regarding some case at this moment. But you have to pay charges for him too." Doctor turned to Sumit " Do you want to call him or you want to wait until specialist confirmed his view." Sumit " I want psychiatrist. I feel our family Doctor is right. My daughter was good swimmer and good runner too. She never got breathless in her life suddenly began to have asthma attacks? Now a days she didn't even make friendship with other girls in school. She just keep studying all other activities were left behind. I want to see my daughter normal again." " Great I will call him and you can go inside and talk with your daughter. " Rani smiled happily and she immediately called grandmother to tell Urvashi was fine. Then they went inside. Suddenly Uravshi began to tired and weak. It seemed as if she was scared and her breathing would stop again. She went in Rani's arms and started crying. Sumit was so upset. He felt as if his hands were tied and he was just useless. Then psychiatrist came inside room. He slowly started chatting with Urvashi. Then Rani and Sumit sensed it was helping. Since Urvashi was shy at beginning but slowly she started talking with him. She even took that doll which he had offered to her. She smiled first time from heart since Isha's death. Then after some time Doctor told them that Urvashi must go to sleep now. When they came out, Psychiatrist spoke " Your guess is right. This is mental. I need to pay attention to her during night. Since it is induced due to nightmare, I feel she might be dreaming about her Isha who was choked due to Asthma. Then she suddenly became her. She didn't manage to create difference between dream and reality. They got mixed up and these attacks were started." Rani " So she had it every time she sleep?" " No..no..relax. It might happen few times. But today it is possible since she is scared in this hospital atmosphere. Just relax. Let me handle this. She would be fine." Sumit " It is such hopeless situation. We can't help her at all." " Don't panic like that. You can't help her since you don't know ways to help her. I will tell you those ways and specialist even give you medicine to handle." " But if it is mental why did she need medicine?" " Mental stress is cause. But when illness happen, it is not imagination. It is truth." " So she had asthma." " We can say that. But it will be cured after mental treatment." Rani " So we must tell in school?" " Of course. Don't repeat mistake." Rani nodded. She looked at timing. It was too late. But she decided that she could message so she messaged Tanuja about Urvashi's Asthma attack and hospital in which she admitted. Rani decided that she would tell truth instead hiding and taking risk over her daughter's life.
The End
On that day every one was laughing so loudly. They all started playing around when they heard about that accident. One small group came running towards them. She started telling that a train had slipped and there was big accident. Urvashi " Where was bus going?" " It was going to Sonapur." Little Urvashi started to say in confused tone. " Sonapur? Our school trip was going there." Other girl " I heard that from fifth 4 there were ten kids in that train." Urvashi looked around. She was so scared. " All other girls belonged to other classes. She knew that out of all class ten kids went. There were three girls and one of them was her best friend. She needed to ask question to some other class mate. She was sure that her best friend was alive. She knew that kids couldn't die like that. But then she knew that they die since she watched TV news on every day. She was so scared. She needed to confirmed it. She ran around then she located her class teacher. Urvashi smiled happily. She knew her class teacher would take away her all pains like she did every time. When she could solve that problem of maths, her class teacher taught her how to solve it. She knew that her class teacher would turn everything in right way. She ran to her class teacher. Tanuja was busy in revising what she supposed to teach in class. She was so busy whole time that she totally forgot to watch TV. But she was totally confused when Urvashi came running towards her. Urvashi was good girl. She always study hard and managed to get good marks. She was not extraordinary student but then Tanuja didn't expect such intellectual student. She was expecting normal kid. But Urvashi was shy girl so when Urvashi came running towards her then she immediately sensed something was wrong. Urvashi was getting breathless due to running but she was still not ready to stop talking. Tanuja just didn't understand what was she talking about. She was talking in such fast way. Tanuja " Take a breathe and talk properly. Tell me what you want to say?" Urvashi took deep breathe and then talked " Kirti was telling all students who went on trip from school where in bus which had accident with train. Is it true Madam?" Now Tanuja started stammering. She was in such hurry every day that she mostly read paper during recess of school but she knew that today she needed to read paper for that knowledge. Tanuja gave sweet smile to Urvashi. " Honey now just relax. We don't know any thing for sure. First let me go to principal's office and check." " Madam they all can't die. Can they?" Now this was worst question. Tanuja knew that answer was yes but she didn't want to give it. Tanuja " How can I tell it while standing here? I need to go inside." Urvashi was smiling in strange way as if she wanted to wake up from this nightmare. Tanuja was so scared. Tanuja just started walking fast. It was worst. Her class was never victim of accident. It was something totally strange and unacceptable to her mind. She couldn't believe it was happening. She just ran inside school. But soon she sensed that it must be truth. She could see every one had that shocked look on face. It seemed as if no one was believing this. They all knew that accident might happen but they never expected it for their school trip. It was so wrong. Then suddenly one teacher stopped her. " Did you heard it?" " Yes. A student told me. It was horrible. I heard all students were dead. " " What? Are you sure?" " It was your class?" " Of course. It was time of your class to go to trip. But I heard less number of students went to trip due to exams. Did you know who went?" Tanuja nodded. She could easily list their names but their faces. She suddenly felt as if they were vanishing from her mind. She didn't want to remember them. But she knew that she had to remember them. She had to go to their funeral. She had express her sorrows. But she knew that it was going to be hard. She didn't understand how could such little kids die this way. She had read and heard about it. But she never believed it could happen. Somewhere in her mind she always felt all those news where never reality to her until now. She felt that they were just television shows but today she sensed one thing. Now she had to see those facts which she never wanted to see. She was going to see faces of those parents whose kids were killed. She might even needed to go to identify those bodies. She was so scared. Then she suddenly thought that it was not about just kids it was about teachers too. It was not just her class. It had group of class so at least four teachers were with them so if their teacher survived then they would identify those bodies. But then she started to shiver with one thought what if those teachers were dead too. She went inside. She turned to other teachers. " What is news?" " Well I don't know properly about it." " But this is horrible. I mean. We have convinced those parents about trip and now this happened." " It was due to train. That train slipped from track and crashed with bus." " But what about kids?" " I am not sure about anything until now." Tanuja started to searching for some clue like mad person. Then suddenly she started to hear on mobile. Parents were calling. She knew that she had to answer them but sadly she didn't know those what she was supposed to say. She finally found principal. Tanuja " Madam Did you know what happened?" " It is just worst accident. According to my knowledge no one survived from that bus. Tanuja started shivering. She could hear her mobile was ringing. She knew that she was the one who was going to get blamed. She started crying. Then she suddenly woke up by touch on her shoulder. She started to look around. Other teacher " Why are you standing here like that?" She looked around. She was standing in school. She sensed that it was perfect day. She was so happy. She sensed that everything was just dream. She started looking around and started laughing loudly. When she suddenly heard sounds " What was wrong with her? She is having nervous break down and once again she came back to same room. Her students were dead. She knew that mobile was ringing and she had answered. She went out of room. She just took call and said " They have died." She could hear them cursing and abusing blamed. She heard it all. She kept taking every call and kept answering them slowly her mind became emotionless she just kept answering.
Urvashi slowly followed her teacher. She was standing outside principal's room with hope of answer. But she did move ahead. But then she heard Tanuja coming out. She was shocked when she saw her face. On that point Urvashi sensed it all. She had confirm it so she stopped and heard her teacher. Then she just ran away from there without thinking. She just went in her classroom. Few students were preparing for next lecture when she screamed " They all dead." Every one looked at her with shock. Then they all started reacting in different way. Some started calling her mad and some started crying. But soon every one sensed that she was telling truth. They all started crying. She looked around. Suddenly her class become so small. They had thirty students in their classroom. Now there were just twenty remaining out which many were playing in ground. They didn't know any thing. Then Urvashi started crying too. Soon a peon came and told them that today they would not have school so they could go home in school bus. Urvashi " But I want to see my best friend Nita for last time. Are they going to bring her here?" Peon clearly looked upset. Peon " I don't know but you must go now." Urvashi " But.." Then suddenly other teacher appeared who gave them angry look. Teacher " Don't you understand situation. Act like good kids now. Just go home." They all nodded. But in their heart they all wanted to see their friends for last time. But they knew that it was not possible. Urvashi went out. She sat in school bus. She felt so strange. Now she was going to be alone entire time. She knew that it was not going to be easy. She needed a new friend. But she knew that it was hard to get one. Since she wanted to get her friend back again. She didn't want to search for a new friend. She just wanted to move back and tell her friend not to go to that trip. But she knew that it was not going to happen. She was feeling so confused. She decided that she must go home and tell it to her Mom. But she knew that her Mom was not home at this time. She must had gone to office. Her grand mother was going to be at home. But she didn't want to stress her now. She knew that her grand mother would surely start crying. Her grand mother knew her best friend every well. She didn't even want to take her name now. She was feeling so sad. She knew that it was not her teacher's mistake but she could easily see that every parent was screaming on her. Urvashi suddenly spoke " It was not mistake of Madam." Then she turned to other side. That seat was empty. Her best friend was gone. She knew that now no one was going to care for her feelings. Her best friend was only person who cared for her in school. She could clearly hear other kids gossiping. They all were bus students. But many belonged to other classes. They started talking about accident victims. But suddenly a girl from her class stopped them. " She said not before her. Madam told us not to discuss." " But she is the one who advice to go to trip." " She did it just to stay in good looks of principal. She didn't really care for kids otherwise she could have never advised such a thing." " Come on. Until now every trip was perfect, even this time that train was slipped from track. It was not mistake of bus driver." " Really? Then why don't he keep bus away from tracks?" " Are you stupid? I mean when a train fall from track. It would destroy every thing on road. No one can avoid it." Then teacher in bus screamed " Enough. This is not matter of gossiping. Just shut up." All students looked scared and stopped talking. Teacher smiled and sat near her. Teacher " Why are you sitting alone? You can join those kids." " No Madam. I am fine." Teacher " As you wish sweetheart but take care of yourself. Don't feel stressed." Then teacher patted on her cheek. She loved this special treatment. But then she suddenly began to feel guilty. She should not feel happy about this. She was treated this way because her friend was dead and it was not good news. She just kept sorrowful face. But then after some time she started to feel that she might like to smile after seeing few beautiful things in nature. She wanted to laugh again. But her heart was feeling ashamed about it. She couldn't laugh now. She must sense sorrows. She was so confused. She just decided that she might just engage herself in something else. She soon found one book and started turning it's pages. She knew that she must not read it in bus. But still she decided that she must look at picture. She started to observing them. Soon she began to look in picture. She began to enjoy world in her imagination. She started to create dreams like she used to create with her friends. Then she saw that she had finally reached home. She knew that she must control her emotion. She went in her house with stone face. Her grandmother was about to ask question when she told her that she must talk to her Mom. She immediately dialed Mom. " Mom do you know about our School's trip?" Her Mom took deep breathe " Yes honey. As soon as I entered in office every one asked me about you so I know." " Okay. Will you tell grand ma about it? I don't want to repeat it." " No need honey. Why don't you order some DVD and watch it?" " Great idea." Then she gave mobile to her Mom. Her Mom started telling all to her grand mother. She went inside her room. She started searching for her favorite book. Soon she found it and started reading book. She felt so happy while reading it. Soon her grand mother came inside and asked " Honey are you alright?" She gave nice smile to grandmother and said " I am fine." Then her grand mother patted on her back and went away. She suddenly began to hate this attitude. She was fine and she could get over it. She knew that she didn't have to feel so sad about it. Since every one who was born going to die one day. She knew that it was not bad. They would go to god and god took good care of them. But then she didn't feel trust on god. Why did god let those all kids die? She was confused. But then she knew that god knew best. It must be because their future might be going to worst like they might going to become..she didn't find any excuse. She just didn't found any thing worst than death. Then she started thinking about many crimes and handicaps. But still she kept feeling that if Helen Keller could survive then any one could so finally death seemed worst. So suddenly her faith on god was reduced. She felt tense about her best friend. Then she thought that she couldn't help her so she started reading book. She decided that she must had to forget her best friend. She had to do it. If she wanted to smile once again in life, she had to forget her.
Tanuja tried to keep her mind clam. But still situation kept getting worst step by step. Soon parents started to come. They started to scream on teachers. Tanuja could see anger towards her too. One Mom screamed " You said it is safe and now our kid is died. You killed our kid. God will not forgive you. God will not let you live happily." Tanuja " But no one know train would slip from track like that." " But why did you keep trip on such far away spot? Just stop sending kids like that if you don't able to take responsibility." Tanuja " We never had such incidence." Then suddenly peon came running from Principal's office. " We have informed that all kids are not dead. They were in different hospital. Those people confused." Parents stared screaming with happiness and praying to God. Tanuja felt so nervous. Since she knew that all kids had not survived, she slowly went in Principal's office. Principal smiled. " There is good news. All kids managed to survive with burns except one girl who had asthma." "Asthma? None of the student had asthma." " Police said one girl had since they found few prescription in her bag." Tanuja was so confused. She didn't able to guess which parent managed to hide such important fact from her. She was so confused. Tanuja " I don't know about that asthma." " It was not strong enough to sense on daily bases. But she had medicine and when smoke started spreading then she had that attack. Her friends tried to pull her out but she could survive. So in end of story. Just one girl died and her asthma is going to get entire blame for it. So you can take breathe of relief. " Tanuja was so confused. She was not sure that she was happy about it. But she was little relieved. She ran outside. Tanuja " Did any of your kid had asthma?" No one came forward on first time. Tanuja " All kids are in hospital. They are injured but safe except this girl." Suddenly Isha's parents started crying. Tanuja was shocked so only Urvashi's best friend Isha died. Tanuja was sure that it was not good for Urvashi. Tanuja sensed that she had to talk with Urvashi's parents. Tanuja knew that this was not just going to be about Isha. It was going to effect to Urvashi in worst way. She needed to show way to solve Urvashi's problem. But she knew that she didn't know proper solution of this thing. It was hard to guess way in which you could console death. Since Tanuja hated death herself. But she knew this time. She had convince her student that death was not worst thing. Tanuja called Urvashi's Mom. She took phone immediately. " What happened Madam? How did this happened?" " Listen to me. That first news was totally wrong. All student had survived except one Isha and she was best friend of your daughter." " But how did this happened?" " Actually Isha had asthma but her parents never mentioned it. It was not that big problem in normal days but when she stuck in fire. She had tolerate smoke. Then she had that attack. She couldn't survive in it. She was special friend of your daughter." " I know. Urvashi just talk about her. It was going to be hard for her." " I know. But she will survive slowly." " Yes she had survive this. But she will need your help." " I know I will help her in school but you need to take care of house front." " Actually I am working woman mostly her grand mother take care of these things. But I might take vacation of few days just to pay attention to her." " Well. It is not thing of few days. You need to understand. It is not about quantity of time but it is about quality of time." " Sure I can understand it." "From tomorrow our school is going to start and Urvashi needed to sit alone. Since all other girls had their partner sitting with them. " "Can't you manage some thing?" " Let me think. Okay fine. There is one new girl in school. I might convince principal to let her sit with Urvashi. Do you feel it will help?" " I don't know but I feel Urvashi must not sit alone." " I will try to do something." Then Tanuja called Principal. Principal " We can't just change things for one girl's wimp." " It is not her wimp. It is her genuine problem. Aren't we responsible for this mess?" " I don't feel responsible for mistake of train driver. Our bus driver was innocent and that girl's parents never told about asthma otherwise we should have never permitted her on that trip. I mean a girl with condition of asthma can't be included in trip without proper precaution." " Madam are you saying that you should have reject her from all school trips since she had asthma!! Then that is cause behind hiding it. Her parents wanted her to have normal life." Principal " Stop arguing. I want to keep things normal in school so nothing changes. Matter is over." Tanuja sensed in Principal's voice that matter was not going to get any further. Tanuja sensed one thing that life was not turning in helpful way. She had to manage every thing on her own. But then she sensed that it was not even responsibility. She decided that she just message to Urvashi's Mom and she did it. Urvashi was inside her house. She was trying her best to forget all. She knew that she was going to do it. She managed to get her things done. When her Mom came, she started to feel relax. Her Mom wanted to discuss something but she just kept avoiding it. Finally her Mom told her that all other kids were alive except Isha. She didn't feel any thing since she stopped feeling. She decided that she must not feel any thing since it would manage to hurt her. She began to think it was better that lot of kids of her school survive now she could have to adjust with them. But somewhere in her heart she kept feeling scared. She kept feeling lost. But still she smiled and told her Mom. " Mom don't worry I will handle it." Her Mom smiled and said " I know you are such good girl." Urvashi started moving ahead in normal way. She was acting as if nothing happened. As soon as she went to sleep, her grand mother came near her Mom. Grand mother " This is not right. She is not crying." " I know. I tried so hard to bring out her feelings but she preferred to keep them hidden. But it was not working for her." Grandmother " But we have to do something." Mom " Yes. I think Sumit might do it. She might share her feeling with her Dad!" " I hope so. But Sumit will come late today. She must be fallen asleep by then." " You are right. But will talk with her tomorrow." " I hope so. But I don't like this situation. She is not acting normally." Then they waited for long time. When Sumit came, he was too tired. But he noticed tension of wife's face. " What happened Rani?" Then he saw that even his Mom was standing. So he sensed that it was some serious issue. Sumit " Can I eat dinner first?" They both nodded. During Sumit couldn't tolerate silence. " Now tell me. I am feeling so tense and uncomfortable in silence." Then Rani said everything in one breathe. But Sumit couldn't able to manage to absorb it. Sumit " My God. I want to take look at Urvashi." " She is sleeping." Then Sumit went in her room. She was sleeping. But he could sense that it was not her peaceful sleep. He could sense that she was having nightmare. She was controlling herself. Sumit decided that he would talk with her tomorrow.
Next morning when Urvashi started to get ready. She didn't mentioned her friend. Sumit decided that he must begin that topic himself. " I am feeling so sad and Isha." Urvashi suddenly stood up from table. Urvashi " I need to go to school." Sumit sensed one thing that Urvashi didn't want to discuss it. She kept thinking about other things. She just kept to doing her work. She kept remembering every chapter of school which was taught to her. Then she went in school. She went in her class. She sat on her chair. Lots of chairs were empty but Urvashi knew that after some days all other students would return. In recess she sat alone but then she slowly started to hear what was said around her. They were discussing death of Isha. Those girls who sat near other girls started telling. " Isha didn't able to breathe since she had asthma. She was moving around. She was screaming like some one whose throat was choked." Then that girl started to hold her throat. She suddenly began to make strange sound and then she immediately left her throat. Urvashi was so shocked. She never dreamed about such thing. Then suddenly those girls called her. " Urvashi did you know that she had asthma?" Urvashi moved her head in negative way. That girl " Strange. If she was your true friend then she must had to tell you!!" Urvashi felt so hurt. It was right. She was her best friend and still she lied to her. It was not good news for her. It just didn't seem right before all. Urvashi felt as if she was some failure. Urvashi decided that she must clear her front. Urvashi " Actually she used to sit with me but she was not my such good friend." " Ohh so teacher told you to sit?" " Sort of." " So she didn't have any friend in class." " True. When you are hiding something you can hardly have friend." " It all happened because they lied to teacher." " Mom always tell me never lie to teacher." " We need to act in truthful way on every point with teacher." " True. She got killed because she lied." Urvashi was so hurt and confused. She wanted to her dead friend to be considered good. But she considered bad. Finally she had tell every one that she was not her friend. Her life was not moving that way which would create worst effect on her. She started to feel so sad. Her friend was considered bad girl. She needed get over her as soon as possible. She started to pretend that she was happy with that empty bench. Tanuja was watching her carefully. Urvashi was acting as if nothing had happened. She could sense whole class wanted to discuss Isha but then every one decided that they must not try to enjoy other people's sorrow so they all decided to keep quiet about matter. It was so strange day. Nothing was moving in way which Tanuja had expected. Urvashi was acting so normal. But Tanuja didn't like it. Since she sensed that Urvashi was not talking much. Urvashi was little shy girl but she never kept quiet like that. She was avoiding many subjects which might have any thing related to her classmate. Soon Tanuja sensed that whole class wanted to avoid Isha. They all wanted to tell world that she was not existed. It was strange but Tanuja couldn't talk about it. Since as soon as she entered in school, Principal called all teachers in room. Principal told them that they must not discuss that accident with any one. Tanuja had to obey it. It was strange that students were also following same rule. Then Principal came in their class. She gave smile to all. " Kids we must move ahead so let's forget all worst so I insist. You must not talk about it when other kids came from hospital. Will you do that?" Every one in classroom said " Yes." Urvashi also agreed happily. She didn't want to hear more worst things about Isha. But Tanuja just didn't like this idea. She sensed one thing burying past was not right thing. Whole time while teaching she kept looking at Urvashi. Her face seemed like a face made of stone without expressions. Tanuja went to her. She gave her smile. Urvashi sensed that she was coming. Urvashi started to feel scared. She didn't want to chat with her. But when Tanuja went ahead with just smile, Urvashi took breathe of relief. Tanuja sensed it all. She wanted to talk but she sensed Urvashi's fear so she just went ahead. That day went ahead with incidence. Urvashi took breathe of relief. When she went home, she acted like normal. She sensed that her Mom had cooked her favorite food. She ate it happily. Then she went ahead with her daily activities. From that day her Grand mother sensed one thing. Urvashi no longer managed to brought any friend in home. In fact she didn't seem to make many friends at school too. Her parents tried to talk with her about friends. But she just kept avoiding topic. They knew that they couldn't force her to make friend. So life kept moving ahead. But every one who was related to Urvashi sensed that something was not right about her. She was hiding her feelings. She just preferred to be alone. She didn't want to make new friends in class at all. She didn't participated in any activities. She just kept doing studying. But no one could point out mistake properly so they kept moving ahead.
One night suddenly Urvashi woke up, she began to sense that she couldn't breathe. She tried so hard to take breathe. But she just couldn't. She started screaming. Rani and Sumit were sleeping peacefully when they heard screams from their daughter's room. They ran towards her. Urvashi was trying so hard to take breathe. But she couldn't. It was horrible. Rani tried to tell her to clam down. Sumit " This is strange. She is having attack of Asthma. But she never hard Asthma?" Rani " Stop discussing. Call ambulance and Doctor. This is not time to discuss." Grandmother came running from behind. She was so shocked. Grandmother " We need pump so that she could get little air." " But at this time all chemist's would to closed." Sumit called Doctor. Sumit " Doctor said just take auto and take her to near by hospital. Sumit took her in arms. He could sense that his daughter was moving in his hand like fish who was out of water. It was horrible. They immediately took one auto and ran towards hospital. As soon as they entered, Doctor immediately gave Oxygen to her. Slowly she started breathing. Doctor angrily " If your daughter have such big problem of Asthma why don't you keep pump and medicines with you. She could have died." " But she never had this problem before." Doctor " Are you saying? This is her first asthma attack?" " Yes Doctor." Doctor started to look confused. " Did any one in your family had asthma?" " No. I mean Rani's grandmother developed it at age of 93 years and she died due to it." " That is different story. It happens due to young age. But your daughter is having it in such young age. It is shocking." Doctor " I can't believe it. Where is your family Doctor?" Then suddenly their family Doctor appeared. " They are telling truth." Doctor " This is strange." " Don't worry. I have called specialist. He will come in morning." They all nodded. After medication slowly Isha started to breathe normally. But she started feel relief. It was worst day for them all. Sumit " I just don't understand how did it happened? I mean she was just fine." Family Doctor " It was really strange. Did she do something which might cause allergy?" " No. She ate her normal food." " Tell me what she ate?" Then Rani told every item she ate from morning. Family Doctor smiled and asked " Is it some special occasion? I mean every item seem like special thing." " Well it was not special occasion. We just want to bring cause of more happiness in Urvashi's life." Family Doctor looked confused. " Why? What happened?" Then Sumit told him every thing step by step. Family Doctor " My God!! I don't know that trip was from your daughter's class. It was horrible. That girl died to due to Asthma and now suddenly your daughter started to have attack of Asthma. Is it possible that both things are linked?" Rani and Sumit looked confused. Sumit " But person can't stop breathing just because person decide not to breathe." " Asthma can be started due to psychological stress. It can be post traumatic symptoms." Rani started crying. Then other Doctor came out. " What happened?" Family Doctor discussed matter with him. Doctor " I can call psychiatrist now. Since he is in hospital regarding some case at this moment. But you have to pay charges for him too." Doctor turned to Sumit " Do you want to call him or you want to wait until specialist confirmed his view." Sumit " I want psychiatrist. I feel our family Doctor is right. My daughter was good swimmer and good runner too. She never got breathless in her life suddenly began to have asthma attacks? Now a days she didn't even make friendship with other girls in school. She just keep studying all other activities were left behind. I want to see my daughter normal again." " Great I will call him and you can go inside and talk with your daughter. " Rani smiled happily and she immediately called grandmother to tell Urvashi was fine. Then they went inside. Suddenly Uravshi began to tired and weak. It seemed as if she was scared and her breathing would stop again. She went in Rani's arms and started crying. Sumit was so upset. He felt as if his hands were tied and he was just useless. Then psychiatrist came inside room. He slowly started chatting with Urvashi. Then Rani and Sumit sensed it was helping. Since Urvashi was shy at beginning but slowly she started talking with him. She even took that doll which he had offered to her. She smiled first time from heart since Isha's death. Then after some time Doctor told them that Urvashi must go to sleep now. When they came out, Psychiatrist spoke " Your guess is right. This is mental. I need to pay attention to her during night. Since it is induced due to nightmare, I feel she might be dreaming about her Isha who was choked due to Asthma. Then she suddenly became her. She didn't manage to create difference between dream and reality. They got mixed up and these attacks were started." Rani " So she had it every time she sleep?" " No..no..relax. It might happen few times. But today it is possible since she is scared in this hospital atmosphere. Just relax. Let me handle this. She would be fine." Sumit " It is such hopeless situation. We can't help her at all." " Don't panic like that. You can't help her since you don't know ways to help her. I will tell you those ways and specialist even give you medicine to handle." " But if it is mental why did she need medicine?" " Mental stress is cause. But when illness happen, it is not imagination. It is truth." " So she had asthma." " We can say that. But it will be cured after mental treatment." Rani " So we must tell in school?" " Of course. Don't repeat mistake." Rani nodded. She looked at timing. It was too late. But she decided that she could message so she messaged Tanuja about Urvashi's Asthma attack and hospital in which she admitted. Rani decided that she would tell truth instead hiding and taking risk over her daughter's life.
The End
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