Charu's job
Charu was hoping for best. She was working so hard to complete project. She was creating different ideas for clients since long time. She knew that she was favourite of her Boss. Ajit Sir always treated her as best. Charu checked her look in mirror carefully. She could see that she was so beautiful. She knew that she was not extraordinarily beautiful but still her beauty managed to capture attention of many. She wanted to get admiration from world & step by step she was getting it. She worked so hard to achieve success. It was very important for her. She waited for long time to get chance. She was working for hours to get things as per her wishes. She began to get them step by step. She wanted to work hard. She started to create new heights of her achievements. She was running towards her car when Ajit Sir called. She immediately took his call. “ Hello Sir.” “ I want you to go in one jewellery shop & purchase one beautiful necklace for my wife. I will send you price range. You can make payment on Company Account. After that I will handle it.” She was so confused. “ But Sir I was going to client to explain plan..” “ Listen to me. Just go & purchase beautiful necklace one for my wife & another for my client. I tell budget to jeweller. He will show you within budget. Then you will get two necklaces. Give one to client before explaining & contract will be given to our company.” She didn’t say anything. She began to get so restless. Then Ajit Sir said “ I send you address.” She said slowly “ Yes Sir.” It was so painful. Her Boss was telling that they would get contract due to these necklaces not due to her intelligence. She suddenly began to feel that she was not on path of progress. She was just becoming one corrupt person who delivered corrupt gifts. She didn’t like it. Then she told herself that this was way of world. She got this job with such efforts. She didn’t want to return in her home jobless. She was living in one joint family. It was so upsetting. She didn’t want to appear less before world. She started to work in this company because she wanted to prove herself to family with her every effort that she was great. It was shocking & sad for her. But still she needed that big company name to bring reputation so she could easily buy some jewellery to please her Boss. “ Okay Sir I will buy some..” “ Just relax. Do you remember that necklace you wore last week?” She didn’t but she could surely find out since she loved clicking selfies. “ I will find out. Do you want that design.” “ Yes! Exactly same one if possible.” She nodded. She didn’t even sense that she was talking on mobile her gestures couldn’t be seen. “ Do it properly & send them at my home & client’s office. After that you can show project etc..it’s more important to gift than work.” She nodded. She was so stressed. She spent her hours in searching of information & creating that project. She needed perfection in it. Now her Boss declared just his corruption & gifts were important. It was so wrong. She wanted to win client’s favour for her company through her hard work. But she needed to purchase jewellery. She didn’t want to become part of this corruption. She suddenly remembered Diya. Diya was bubbly girl. She knew better about fashion. She immediately called Diya & told all. Diya “ My God! Boss told you to purchase exclusive jewellery? You are so simple. You doesn’t even purchase or use real Gold.” This was true. Her family never purchased any Gold ornaments for her. Her father always wanted to spent money as per his choice which never included her things. She didn’t say anything. Diya added “ Don’t worry. I will do that.” She thanked her & disconnected call. Then she smiled happily. Now she could concentrate on her work. She went to client’s office. Then she explained for hours about their project. She showed success of their last projects. Suddenly one person from client’s office asked her “ You were head of this last project?!” “ No Sir but I learn all properly & complete this project same way.” “ Why last project head left job?” Now she didn’t know about it. She needed job & she got one so she was happy. “ I don’t know but I am with company almost for two years.” “ & you haven’t got chance to do another project during this time?” “ Actually I was completing work of last project which is over now & I can..” “ So this head left job when project was half done? & you don’t know cause or you don’t want us to know it?” She sensed that all was going in wrong way. She never discussed much about office management. She just concentrated on her work. She decided to say it straight way “ Ajit Sir decide all those things & I never interfered in those matters.” All looked at each other. Then one of them said “ We will discuss with your Sir so continue with your presentation .” She nodded. Then she explained for hours about her project. She answered their every question while they were enjoying snacks she couldn’t even touch her plate. She was so tense & sad. Life was not going the way she wanted. Finally when it was over, clients left & she was full of uncertainty. Then she received call from Boss. “ Why does you need to send Diya for purchase of jewellery? Can’t you do such little purchases?” He was literally screaming on her. She said slowly “ Client was waiting in office for me Sir. Diya can’t do presentation instead of me.” “ Yes..yes you need to do that too. Otherwise they will suspect. Any way I don’t want you to discuss this with any staff member & Diya will send three invoices make their payments.” “ Three? Okay Sir.” She did as per Boss’s instructions but she sensed Diya got one jewellery for herself too. So she got nothing after hours of work & Diya got gold jewellery. But if she had purchased still she couldn’t have got one. She was there just to work. She was glad that she was not part of that gifting procedure. She wanted to do some real work. She came back home tired & she began to admire her position in office. She started to tell all how much respect she got in office. She soon got full attention of her Uncle & Auntie too who used to stay on top floor of building & they used to stay on first floor with their grandparents. She knew that she needed to prove herself.
Charu’s Dad Prakash alway knew that he needed to get attention. He wanted some appreciation so he wanted Charu to appear like someone great. As soon as Charu entered in home, she began to tell some stories about greatness of her job. She wanted to prove all that she was someone great & very important. She kept thinking about project in different angels. She began to feel that she needed to understand how great her work was. She was trying so hard to get things as per her wishes. But she couldn’t. She started to think ways to find suitable which would prove her great. She didn’t understand way which could make her look great. She tried for such long time but when Prakash saw his brother in balcony he immediately started boosting Charu. Prakash “ So you got contract don’t you?” “ Yes..yes Dad will you let me come inside?” “ Of course honey. I was so tense. I mean you were dealing with them all alone. Really it’s scary.” “ Come on! Every thing is just fine. You don’t need to feel scared.” “ But do you sense how many people might be against you?” “ I don’t understand what do you mean? Don’t be dramatic.” “ You never understand to value what you have my child. In your eyes every thing is simple….” & her Dad continued. She didn’t like it as she once used to like it since she knew that her Dad had some motive behind this admiration. Her Dad never admired anyone without cause. As soon as she went inside her Dad began “ My one friend wanted some help from you.” “ Dad you know I can’t do much.” “ But still you can pretend..” then her Dad began to tell how did he pretend that she helped. She began to feel so stressed. She just went in washroom for bath. She began to bath twice. She didn’t understand how could she get so dirty so quickly. She kept using different soaps. It was so stressful. She kept getting dirty. She looked around. She understood what was wrong. Her house needed painting. She smiled at that thought. When she came out she went in kitchen & said to Mom “ I feel we need painting.” Her Mom looked towards her with tired expression. Mom “ I know we need it but it’s going to be costly.” “ Don’t worry. We will manage.” Mom nodded so she called people who could do painting. She started fixing when her Dad came & began to scream “ Why does you plan all alone?” She ignored him & ordered all. She needed to arrange all. It was very important. She said slowly to him “ Let me handle.” “ You are not so smart. I kept telling world good things about you but you need to understand you are not smart enough to handle all.” She decided to feel positive about her but when her Dad began to talk like that she started to remember how does her Boss said that he needed just to gift those necklaces. Suddenly her confidence vanished. She gave number of painting contractor to Dad & went away. In her room she kept thinking about her entire day. Her life was not so simple. It was complicated. She needed to move ahead positively in her life. She was working hard but her work was not something which was important. She didn’t understand if that was case then why she needed to work hard. She started to cry but she needed to hide it so she ran in her room. She felt so nervous & sad. Her entire work always appeared as useless thing. She began to get restless. She didn’t feel positive. She was working for such long hours. She didn’t understand why she was wasting her so much strength it just those gifts were important. But she couldn’t question anybody. She knew that she needed job. She tried to relax. Her Mom called her for dinner. She came out. It was her favourite food. Her Mom always tried to cook something special for her. Her Mom was so nice. She felt as if she got guardian angel. Mom gave her sweet smile & asked “ What happened?” She looked around to confirm no one was there. She began to get restless. She told all to her Mom. Her Mom looked angry. “ I don’t like your Ajit Sir.” She gave nervous look. “ Mom he is my Boss. I get good salary &..” “ He is now telling you to give bribes to people.” “ Mom it’s just gift!” With just eyes Mom forced her to accept her mistake. She said “ I know it’s wrong,” she understood one thing. This job was no longer pleasant thing. Her Boss was doing crime & mostly crime managed to damage criminal. Sadly whenever it happened she would suffer too. She said “I know but I am not doing it. Other girl was doing it.” Her Mom nodded. Then her Mom slowly added “ I feel you might need to change job.” “ Mom it’s not easy.” “ I know but you are not even trying.” She didn’t say anything. She was too scared to try. Her Dad kept telling her that she got best job. In her heart she agreed with him. She knew that she couldn’t find better. She needed to get more intelligence to get better job which she didn’t have. She knew that her Mom was over estimating her. She began to work on that project. She started to do it. It took long hours. She didn’t sleep on time. When she completed she had just one question in her heart when no one admired her work & it was not essential why she was working so hard? But she knew that she needed to do it. She could face Ajit Sir without it’s completion. She needed to work hard to get things as per her wish since her Boss didn’t need work. It was fixed by gift. She began to feel so tense. She did her best. She slept on bed while watching ceiling for hours. She was observing it with full attention. She kept watching it. She was feeling so sad. She knew that she worked for hours. She needed to sleep. She still closed eyes. She kept thinking negatively. She started to feel so sad. One darkness began to capture her mind. She closed her eyes tightly. She slowly opened her eyes. She began to look around in her room. She started to get so upset. Her eyes were no longer sleepy. She just wanted to look around happily. She began to feel so negative & depressed. She didn’t understand why she couldn’t sleep. This was first time when she suffered from insomnia like that. She felt so nervous. She tried to control herself at beginning then she started to crying.
Charu was woke up next morning. She was so nervous. She worked hard for hours. She began to feel that she was so stressed & upset. She didn’t sleep on night but when she went in office she acted positively her best. She tried to hide all stress of night. She presented her work to Ajit Sir. Ajit Sir was giving her odd sort of angry look. She didn’t understand cause & she was not interested in that cause too. She was feeling so upset by all. Ajit Sir looked towards work & said “ You always keep working like that. You will never go ahead.” She didn’t say anything. Her heart was beating inside her chest in strange way. She was feeling odd. Clearly it was fear & stress. She just didn’t want to vomit there before her Boss. She kept taking deep breathes & trying to relax herself. She was so negative about entire incidence. She wanted to look positive but she couldn’t. Ajit Sir continued “ I kept you on job with great expectations but you are not something which I felt you will be.” She smiled nervously. She needed this job so she didn’t say much. Ajit Sir gave odd smile. “ You are such ignorant girl. You don’t know anything. It seemed as if you have not learnt anything.” She felt so sad. She didn’t say anything. “ The way you are acting trust me you will not have much future. You will not get success in your life.” She felt so sad & nervous. She didn’t understand what she supposed to say. She just kept blanking her mind & nodding. She was so nervous. She wanted nice future but it was clear that it was not going to happen. She looked around. She felt so frustrated. She sensed that she needed to go since Ajit Sir pointed towards door. She stood up. Her head was getting light. She was feeling so uneasy but she kept her confidence. She stood up & went out of room. She was not sure that she didn’t faint. She kept holding chairs. She sat on her chair & relaxed. She looked around. Luckily no one was watching her. But truthfully no one ever watched her. She was not admired by all. In fact in office most of staff preferred to mind their own business. Ajit Sir didn’t like if they talk with each other. She slowly managed to feel normal. She took breath of relief when she finally began to feel normal. She tried to control herself. But she couldn’t. She wanted to cry. She went in washroom. She cried there for hours. Then she checked her face. She never applied makeup but today she felt need of it. She needed to hide her tiredness from her face. She kept feeling so nervous. She kept washing her face but noting was working. She started to feel so negative. She just wanted to stay in washroom instead of facing other staff. She tried to calm down her soul but it was not happening. Finally some other girl entered in washroom. She managed to create fake smile & ran towards her chair. She sat in chair when she noticed Diya. Diya was looking so beautiful & confident. Diya had everything which any girl could desire but she didn’t. She had nothing. She didn’t understand what was her mistake. She didn’t want to do wrong things. She didn’t want to do corruption. It was so confusing. She began to think giving gift was not wrong. But when Diya gave gift she got one too. Charu didn’t demand it. Charu suddenly began to feel so easy. She knew that she needed to go out of office. She just ran out. She needed Doctor. She immediately stopped Cab & went towards Doctor’s clinic. She felt so nervous. She didn’t understand what was happening to her. She sat for sometime. When she went inside she explained all. Doctor observed her then he checked her. Finally he gave some medicine & said “ Nothing is physically wrong. I feel it’s mental.” She looked nervously towards Doctor. She nodded. She knew that it was her mental issue. She felt so scared but she didn’t have much option. She needed to confess it. She said slowly “ I have some mental tensions.” “ Have you consider visit to psychiatrist?” She did but she was too scared. She said “ I wanted to but I am scared.” “ Ohh! Psychiatrist will reduce your fear will not increase them. I suggest you might just visit one. It will help you to learn about your psychology.” She nodded nervously. Doctor wrote down one name on paper with number. She made payment & went away. She was so nervous that she called that number without second thought. She requested an appointment. She was lucky to get one on that day. Receptionist told some patient cancelled appointment. “ Our Patient keep doing it. This damage schedule but what is use of complaining.” It sounded very normal. She went there. Soon she went inside. Psychiatrist talked nicely with her. She was so happy. After such a long time someone was talking pleasantly with her. She discussed her issue for hours. She felt so relaxed. She decided to listen to Psychiatrist. Step by step she began to get convinced that her work was not useless. Her Boss was doing it since she didn’t want to increase her payment. She needed to act like Diya. She had her own personality which was very impressive. She felt so nervous at beginning when Psychiatrist told her to take her stand. Then she returned home. She sat on laptop. She began to find chance to get job. Suddenly she found out her one colleague already started new company. She asked her to join. She was so happy without thinking about salary she said one month notice to Ajit Sir. She knew that she needed change. Next day she woke up to go in office. She told her parents about her decision. Her Mom supported her but her Dad literally started abusing her. She decided to ignore. She was scared but she kept remembering words of Psychiatrist. She told her Dad “ I am quitting job.” She went in office. Ajit Sir taunted her. He kept giving her lots of work. During that last month she literally worked like robot day & night. She was happy to quit. When she joined new company staff was nice. She enjoyed work. When she went to Psychiatrist it became clear that she didn’t need help. Psychiatrist smiled & said “ You just needed to change job.” She laughed too. But she knew that was not true. She needed to learn to handle lots of things including saying no to her father. Due Psychiatrist she learnt them on time. She smiled happily. Her treatment was over & she went ahead with life happily.
The End
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