Tara's cakes
Tara was following every instruction properly. She was very important for that party. She was going to supply cake. In every function cake was important. She baked cake after long hours of efforts. She was working so hard. She decorated cake with full attention. She managed to create wonderful item for party. Her cake was soul of those parties. Tara knew that they all loved her cakes. She smiled happily. She was widow with one kid. Money was very important for her. Her husband was nice man but he died very soon after marriage. His family blamed her as bad lucky for them. She was married for a year & her husband died. She was pregnant on that time. She needed support. She didn’t have any option but to stay in house which her husband had but she couldn’t work in that condition. After suddenly death of her husband she got all investments. Her husband made proper investments even had insurance but when she couldn’t able to work slowly all started to get reduced. She had siblings but none of them wanted to support her. She was burden for them. When her husband was alive she was so important they used to admire her so much but after his death she was bad luck. They didn’t want to see her. When her daughter Sarika was born just her parents came in hospital. No one was interested in watching her face. It was so painful for her. When she returned home for few days her parents stayed then they went back to village. They wanted her to come with them but she knew her siblings wouldn’t like it. They didn’t want her to capture house of their grandparents. So even when she wished still she denied. She rejected that idea. She kept staying alone. She began to search for work. Sarika was too small so she wanted to find some work from home. She began to type on computer but she was slow so she never managed to finish all on time. It was problematic for her. She was working so hard but still it wasn’t much. Finally one day she got good job. It was Sarika’s birthday. She needed to invite all kids. She did & she managed to do most of cooking but then she sensed that she needed a cake. She began to search for recipes. But she was so confused. Finally she managed to make her own. Then she also planned it in beautiful style. Soon she began to put all her efforts in that cake. She did her best. Then slowly guest came. All began to enjoy birthday party happily. She felt that her party might look cheap & lower level party. But her guests began to encourage her. She felt that guest were enjoying balloons. There were colourful balloons. She used different showpieces with unique colours & designs. She could see wonderful look in them. She even kept every showpiece carefully today. She didn’t have much money & she needed to save it all for Sarika’s college but on that day her cake became favourite to all. Many parents recommended many designs & she created them all. Today she was little late. She called her customer “I am coming.” “ Sorry. We don’t need your cake..” “ But I am on the way!” “ I know. I will make payment but don’t bring cake. It’s my mistake. My daughter wanted cake from her favourite cake shop not homemade.” She didn’t say anything. She felt so sad. Customer said slowly “ I am so sorry. But now kids wanted those branded cakes.” “ But my cake is a lot better. Let me bring it..” “No..no my daughter doesn’t want to even see that cake. She disliked it. Bye.” Call was disconnected. Immediately Tara began to feel so restless. She knew that this was happening too much. She began to feel so sad. She knew her cakes where no longer famous. She had one in hand. She needed to control her emotions & breathing then she needed to return home to her small daughter Sarika. Sarika didn’t need to know all this. Tara had enough saving by now. She could manage all. She looked towards cake. Then she knew that she couldn’t waste it so she needed to take it back. She was trying so hard to calm herself but it was not working. She was feeling so upset. She kept breathing for sometime while holding lamppost tightly in her hand. She was so nervous. She didn’t understand what was happening to her. Until now her life was stressful but she always managed to come out with smile. She never permitted any negativity in her life. This time she was getting negative. She began to tell herself to calm down. She looked towards her cake. She suddenly remembered her husband. It was her first birthday after marriage. She was not hoping much but still she was expecting at least few roses. Her husband was gone for work. Boss didn’t give vacation to celebrate birthday of wife. She was not childish to expect it. She didn’t mention her birthday & kept working. Finally her husband came home. He was not carrying rose but plant of rose. He said “ I want to gift you a permanent rose.” She began to laugh. Even today while remembering it she started laughing. Her husband was so nice. It was so wonderful. Now she was on road holding one cake & laughing to herself. But she didn’t care. She wanted to relax. She looked towards cake & said “ Today I will celebrate birthday.” She began to purchase all stuff for birthday celebration. She decorated every wall of her house. She was so happy. She arranged all properly. She kept decorating. Then she went inside & she began to cook for guests. It was so much fun. She managed to decorate entire house for one birthday party. Then she sensed that she forgot to invite guests. She invited them all by mobile. She was so happy. She understood that most of guests were ready to come. She began to arrange seating arrangements. She prepared all for a perfect birthday party & then finally she kept that cake in middle. It was with candles & name of girl for whom it was made. She decided to keep it. She didn’t need to change it any way. She just needed to celebrate. It was most pleasant thing for her. She needed happy memories like one she had with her husband. It was so necessary. She went in room & she got ready herself. This time she wore different look. She knew that all would feel shocked but she didn’t mind any way.
Sarika was so shocked when she came home after school. Guests were already laughing & enjoying party in her house. She didn’t understand why she didn’t know that it was someone’s birthday. Now in her little mind she started calculating possibilities. But she knew that her family had just two person. She & her Mom! They both didn’t have birthday on that date. She had few Uncles & Aunties & cousins too. But they never visited them much. Sarika felt that it was very odd. She decided that she would go inside & pretend as if she knew all. Sarika went inside. She looked around. She was so shocked. Entire house was decorated so much. It seemed so better than her birthday decorations that she felt hurt. She was feeling so nice in this decoration but she was shocked when she saw her Mom. Her Mom was dressed like some princess of fairy land. Her Mom was even wearing crown. She felt that it was so unique. Sarika began to think that her Mom was acting so different. Normally her Mom never wasted any money on anything like that. But this time her Mom wasted so much. It was so shocking. She slowly went near Mom. Tara smiled & hugged her daughter. “ We are celebrating birthday!” “ Whose?” Tara sounded hurt. “ Is it so important?” She didn’t want to hurt Mom so Sarika said “ No. It’s okay. I like birthdays.” Then they enjoyed entire day. Finally in end all guests went away. Tara kept watching them. When all guest went away, Tara started crying. Sarika was so shocked. “ What happened Mom?” Sarika asked nervously. “ This was my last cake. No one want them. It’s death of business. First your Dad died & now this business. Honey I bring bad luck on you. I just don’t want to stay with you. But there is no one who could take care of you. I can’t leave you alone.” Sarika didn’t understand but she knew that bad luck could be fought with lucky charms. She got one. She slowly gave one picture to her Mom. It was just one small picture that would bring good luck. She kept looking towards that picture nervously. She began to feel that this picture was so unique. It created effect. Sarika slowly gave that picture to Tara. Tara took it in her hand & her mobile rang. It was customer for cake. She was so happy. She took hold of that picture looked towards it. It was unique. It was so beautiful. She could see different part of nature in it. She kept watching it with full attention. She began to sense that this picture had odd sort of third dimension. She could see that there was odd sort of shine coming from it. She looked carefully towards card then mobile. Tara couldn’t believe it but that good luck charm seemed to work & Sarika gave her new breath of life. She felt so positive. She looked towards Sarika & said “ I got my work.” She smiled very sweetly. She began to get so nervous. She needed to keep this picture carefully. She kept it inside locker. She went back. She laughed & said “ This is truly party time. Since that customer said one brand want to keep me as cook.” Sarika laughed & started eating. Now Sarika was grown up so Tara could keep her in home with help of some babysitter. Her maid was willing to do it so Tara could cook for that brand. It was truly lucky day for her. She started laughing happily. She was planning to join that brand now. She looked towards cupboard where that picture was locked. She needed to see that picture. She once again opened cupboard & started watching it. She couldn’t stop herself from admiring it. She opened cupboard again. She looked inside. Then she closed cupboard again. She felt so nervous. She needed to keep it safe but at same time she wanted to see it. It was painful for her. She didn’t understand what she wanted in her life. Her life was stuck in odd way. She wanted positive but she didn’t get it. She knew that picture would bring it. She looked towards Sarika who was happy. Sarika already started to remove decorations one by one. Sarika knew very well where her Mom kept them. She smiled sweetly. Then she said “ Thanks honey. But you don’t even changed your dress.” Sarika was planning to change her dress but in excitement she just kept her uniform. Now she began to laugh. Sarika “ I enjoyed entire party in school uniform! Now I will be in photos & video in uniform.” Tara started laughing loudly. Tara felt so nervous. Tara hugged Sarika. Tara “ Honey now I need to go on work. You need to do manage all on your own.” Now Sarika didn’t like this idea. Sarika “ How can I clean & cook?” Tara started laughing. Tara “ Honey I will keep servants but still you will be alone without family.” Sarika gave her questioning look. Tara suddenly sensed that Sarika never had any family. The way her family & her extended family treated her as bad luck Sarika was considered bad luck too. Tara heard her own mother saying “ This girl brought nothing good for her from cradle. From birth your daughter seem to stuck with bad luck.” She used to get angry & scream “ Mom enough! She is angel. My husband died since it was written in destiny stop blaming those who alive for it. It’s not our crime that we are alive & he is dead.” “ It’s easy to say but when you move ahead in life without husband & support of family slowly you will feel it’s crime yourself.” “ Stop it Mom. If you want to stay with me then don’t bring this negativity.” Her Mom never said it again. But she could read it in her Mom’s eyes when her daughter was born. She decided to not stay with her parents since her Mom never liked her daughter. She looked towards Sarika. Sarika brought good luck to her today but Sarika considered bad luck for all. It was so stressful for her. Tara wanted them to just remain friendly with Sarika. But they didn’t. Tara kept thinking just about that picture. She was so pleased to have that picture with her. It was locked in cupboard but in her dream she saw that picture. She took hold of that picture & demanded for her husband. She knew that he wouldn’t return but still she wanted try. She was so sure & certain. She began to demand for him.
Tara woke up by knocking on her bedroom door. She was so confused. She checked timing but her eyes were so tired. She couldn’t see anything. She began to feel so upset. She started to look towards door. She began to get nervous. She knew that she needed to go & open. She opened door & her husband was there. She asked with shock “ You are dead?!” He laughed “ No..no honey it was all mistake. I am here before you. They always confuse like that. It was so careless.” She hugged him happily. She kept saying that it was just stupid mistake. She began to chat it when she woke up due to voice of dog barking. She looked around. Clearly their neighbour was taking his dog for a walk. It suggested that she needed to wake up. She immediately ran in kitchen. She began to cook. But somewhere in her heart she was hoping for her husband to appear. She cooked breakfast which was favourite for her husband. Then she heard footsteps. Someone was running towards kitchen. She smiled. Her husband was coming. That lucky picture managed to bring luck in her life. Then she saw that it was Sarika. Sarika said “ Mom I am late for school.” Then Sarika began to make face & said “ You know very well I don’t like this why you made it in breakfast?” Tara didn’t understand what she supposed to tell her small daughter. She was expecting Sarika’s father to return home who was dead since her birth. She couldn’t say this to her so she lied. “ Come on. It’s healthy.” Sarika gave shocked look. Clearly Sarika didn’t feel that it was healthy. Sarika “ This isn’t healthy Mom. It’s not even tasty.” Tara just smiled & said “ Let’s hurry up.” Sarika nodded. Then Sarika asked “ When you are going to work with that new company?” “ Next month.” “ Then when those servants will come?” “ I start searching for them soon.” Then she arranged all properly for Sarika & slowly got her ready for school. When Sarika went away to school, she sat. Once again she felt as if her husband was calling her. She looked around. She began to sense that her husband was not happy. She heard his voice inside her head. “ You can’t leave our daughter in hands of unknown person like that. What type of mother are you?” She looked so nervous. She began to ask for help. But no one was in house. She understood one thing. She was alone in this world so she needed to do all by herself. She began to search for hospitals on internet. Finally she found good one according to many. She called & took appointment of Psychiatrist. She was lucky to get appointment of Morning . She needed to come back before returning of her daughter. She literally ran to hospital without even eating anything. She needed help. She took her credit card & money. She knew that this would create hole in her budget but she needed to stop voice of her husband. She knew after sometime her parents might come to visit her. She didn’t wanted to look like nutcase before them. She must look happy. She waited there with patience. Then after sometime she was called inside. She immediately began to tell all. Psychiatrist listened to her properly. “ Do you actually see his alive before you?” “ No..no just in dream & voices.” Then she once again told all. Psychiatrist wrote all. Sarika “ So can you cure me in week or month?” Psychiatrist laughed. “ This is not so easy.” “ But I need to go on new job.” “ Don’t worry. Many people go on new job & do better even in their old job after starting treatment. You just need to show patience & keep coming on appointment.” Then Psychiatrist smiled. “ Let me start some pills. You are having nervous breakdown.” “ So I need to keep taking them forever.” “ Who told you that? Just don’t hurry up like that! Slowly step by step you will fine.” Then they discussed for long time. She took prescription & made file. She was so nervous. She was not sure that it was working. When Sarika came she tried to appear relaxed. Sarika was so tense about new maid. Sarika finally said “ Mom can you permit me to stay alone?” “ You are so small.” Sarika felt so nervous & upset. Tara began to feel sad too. Tara could sense her husband’s voice again. Tara wanted to scream but she controlled. She remembered words of Psychiatrist. “ You are hearing it since your daughter is nervous. You need to increase her bravery no need to feel scared. She needed your support not your fear. It was so upsetting. She began to feel so nervous but she controlled herself. She smiled & said “ Don’t worry. We will find a lady you will like.” Then she went in her room. She tried to control herself but she cried. It was so upsetting. She knew one thing that she needed to control herself & Psychiatrist was her only hope for cure. She decided to call him. She told Psychiatrist about voice. Psychiatrist said in calm voice “ Come on. You just began your treatment. You can’t get well so soon. Call your daughter.” “ My daughter? She don’t need to know this.” “ I know better than you what she need to know.” She called Sarika. Psychiatrist talked with Sarika for long time. Then Sarika wrote one number & thanked Psychiatrist. She gave that number to her Mom. “ Mom you don’t need to hide. I know all. I am happy Doctor will make you better.” Tara nodded nervously. It seemed as if her daughter was wiser than her. Then Sarika gave number. “ This Agency will send nice lady.” Tara smiled. So Tara managed to find some nice babysitter on next day. That lady was really nice & trustworthy. Soon Tara began to get relaxed. That lady even reminded Tara to take her medicines sometimes. Tara knew payment wasn’t cheap but Tara wanted best for her daughter. Then after a month her new job started. Psychiatrist was right. She didn’t stop treatment but she felt more confident. She began to feel positive. Step by step she improved mentally. She learnt all from that company. Finally she settled as cook & at house Sarika settled happily with babysitter. Slowly she stopped dreaming about her husband. She moved on in her life. Her treatment was stopped. She became ready to enjoy her life without her husband. She knew that it was destiny & she needed to accept it.
The End
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