Walking on beach
When Samir started walking on beach, he felt different touch of tides on leg. He loved them. It was important for him. Whenever water touched his legs he felt so relaxed. He always came to beach. As a child his Dad introduced this habit. His Dad! He smiled sweetly at his memory. His Dad was always special for him. His Dad used to do all he wanted. He was so happy with him. His Dad bought that cricket bat for him! It was special gift for him. He used to think positively after watching it. He used to plan to become cricketer. He was so hopeful. He wanted his life to turn positive. His Dad! His Dad was such nice man. He smiled towards tides then he sensed that time had come to return home. He slowly went back towards his building. His Mom was watering plants. She was not happy to see him. Samir was acting so odd for long time. He kept admiring his father. She knew that he didn’t like his second marriage. But still she didn’t have much option. Her first husband Samir’s father left lots of loan repayment. As a widow she was going daily to different people who were making different demands from her. She was not so young still she was young enough for them. Only her Second husband Mandar asked for marriage. Mandar was old man & his looks were ugly too. But still when he made marriage proposal she immediately agreed. When she told this to Samir, he got so angry. He said “ How could you replace my father so quickly? Can’t you control your desires?” “ I can control my desires but who can control amount of loans your father had created! That man was useless when he was alive & he was useless even after death.” Samir was so angry. But Samir didn’t say anything. Samir already heard people talking about taking over their house. Samir needed his house. It was full of his fathers memories. It was so upsetting when he thought that he needed to give it. Samir slowly asked “ This man will pay loans?” “ Yes & call Mandar “ Dad” he is paying for house & other luxuries.” Samir didn’t say anything. Soon his Mom got married with his step father. Samir demanded many things on wedding. His rich step Dad gave all. In return he needed to pretend he was happy about this marriage & he did it very well. He knew one thing. If he kept pretending that he liked his step Dad he would get everything. He began to feel positive about all. From that day Samir was pretending in excellent way. Samir’s Mom was watching him coming back from beach. Samir’s Mom looked towards her stomach. Soon she was planning to give birth to baby of Mandar. Mandar wanted his child. Samir was not happy about this idea. But Samir didn’t object it. Samir said clearly “ I am not his son. So he wanted child for himself. I understand.” Then Samir was going ahead with his life. She wanted Samir to try some career but Samir didn’t seem to settle in anything. At beginning he was taking interest in sports. He was good swimmer but then he lost interest in it. He was doing graduation. He took degree but he was not interested in taking job. Finally after some time he took one job. He worked for some months then one day he didn’t went for job. When she asked he said “ I resigned.” She was so confused. “ I don’t understand why did they told you to resign?” “ They didn’t. I done it by myself!” “ Why?” “ Since I don’t like that job.” Then he stood up near bed. He said “ Don’t worry. I will found another job.” She was sad but she thought that it was okay. He just said it but he never got any job. He kept trying. Even today he was for hours on beach. He came back home but he was not planning to get job. She was so upset. Samir’s Mom slowly went to him. She asked “ Do you want anything?” She never dared to insult him or question him. It was very risky. She felt so scared. She didn’t understand since when she developed fear towards her son. But she developed it. She decided to let him live his life. Mandar insisted on it. Mandar said “ We have money. We can arrange all. You don’t need to keep getting tense. I am keeping watch on him. He is trying to settle in his career. Sometimes it take time.” She just nodded. She didn’t understand what she supposed to do. No one was there to force Samir to get serious towards life. Samir slowly said “ Do you have some fruit juice?” She nodded. “ We have some sweet limes.” “ Mom they doesn’t suit me. Do you have something else?” “ Sorry we don’t.” He clearly looked angry. “ Fine. I don’t need anything.” “ I can make tea or coffee..” Samir smiled. “ Mom it’s okay. You are doing all that you can. You must take care of baby too.” She smiled. She was so happy that Samir cared for baby. Then Samir went in his room. His Mom began to cook. His Mom asked “ What did you like for breakfast?” Samir told items. She started cooking. She always did what Samir want. She knew that Samir was choosy when it came to food. Samir was nice boy but he was just not able to settle down. He kept wandering from one career to another. He kept getting restless. He wanted to feel positive about all. But he was feeling so negative. She knew as his mother she needed to change it & she was working on it too. She smiled & began to talk sweetly with him. “ So what is your plan of future?” As always he felt pleased when conversation shifted to this. He started to describe what was his plan. She didn’t understand what was his plan actually since every day he changed his plan. It was different on first day & it became totally different on next. He didn’t feel steady while planning his life. He suddenly began to talk about learning hotel business. “ I will make hotel near sea. It will be pleasant. I like sea.” His Mom was happy. She was not sure that he would work in hotel but Mandar could easily manage to run hotel even if Samir didn’t took interest. She smiled & said “ It will be great idea. I am sure we can find some hotel.” Samir looked towards in tense way. “ Not just any hotel Mom! I will select special hotel.” His Mom smiled. It was so nice finally Samir was taking interest in something. Mandar would surely appreciate it. She smiled & she went back to cooking.
Samir was happy at beginning when he imagined a hotel but suddenly as he went in room to change & to fresh up. He began to feel strange. He suddenly began to feel so upset. He didn’t need hotel. He never wanted hotel. He was feeling so frustrated. Then he just decided it. He put on his bathrobe & went in kitchen & screamed “ Mom I don’t want that hotel.” His Mom was so frightened by his noise that spoon fall out of her hand. Luckily she managed to put hot pot on Gas properly on it’s place. She turned slowly & said “ Fine! If you don’t want we will not buy one. There is no need to scream.” “ I need to do this since you keep pushing me to choose something. Just because you are planning to give birth to your child at this middle age. You must not force me to settle!” She nervously took her hand towards her stomach. She slowly started to move hand on it as if to console the baby. She knew that baby couldn’t hear but still it was scary for her. She said slowly “ You don’t need to taunt me like that. I love my baby & I don’t want anyone talking like that about my baby. This is your sibling too.” “ But Mom people will talk like that only. When baby will go out world will say same thing what I am saying. You can’t hide your age from world.” She started counting numbers to relax herself. Then she gave one forced smile & said “ Fine. I will not tell you to choose career you can go as per your choice.” “ Great.” Samir turned back. It was so odd. Samir was acting so strange lately. His Mom didn’t want to force anything. She kept cooking. Then Samir went out. He was so confused. He didn’t understand what he wanted. Then he knew what he wanted. He wanted to talk with his Dad. His Dad was dead but when he sat on beach sometimes he felt as if his Dad was talking with him. He knew that his Dad was not there but still it helped. He began to jog towards beach. It was little bit away. He could run few kilometres easily. He had just changed dress. He knew that he would sweat again but he wanted to go. On that point his mobile rang. It was his old boss. He took call. His Boss began to explain the issue. His Boss “ I really need you today. I know you have resigned but can’t you help me just for today? I will give payment.” Samir didn’t interested in amount. Samir just needed that mood. But he didn’t want to say no to his last Boss. He just said “ I will come.” When he reached to his last office, he saw one woman was sitting on his seat. She was trying to work. It was clear that it was impossible for her to do job. He immediately sensed that it was his replacement. He turned to Boss & asked “ Why you kept her? To do work or please your eyes?” Boss was so angry but Samir was needed so insulting Samir was out of question. “ She is qualified.” Boss showed her degrees. Samir checked them then he said “ Either these degrees are fake or she is suffering from some accident & had memory loss.” Samir laughed loudly on his own joke. Boss was clearly not planning to join. His Ex Boss never got respect out of Samir as employee but still Samir was needed so Samir always managed to earn respect. Samir “ Fine. I will teach her.” He sat beside her. He gave her one look which told her that she was most useless thing in world. “ What is your name? Useless people like you must not take job.” She gave him upsetting look. She was angry & on verge of crying same time. “ I was just trying..” “ Is this your name?” He turned to Boss & said “ She doesn’t even know her own name.” Boss “ I hired such useless person. I regret it. Just need to tolerate for one month..” He laughed negatively & said “ That month will be worst for you.” She was feeling so depressed. In her heart she also wanted to get over this month soon. She didn’t mind if at her house all began to taunt her jobless. She didn’t want to work for them. She told her name “ Nisha.” Samir sat beside her & began to teach her. Samir told her step by step. He was teaching her in worst way. Nisha was so scared by Samir’s attitude. He was bully. His every word was like insult. She felt that he loved abusing others. She didn’t want to learn anything from him. But she didn’t have choice. Slowly she understood her mistake & she started working. Then Samir went away. He stood with Boss & kept chatting. She kept working for hours & kept desiring for approval. But she never got. It was so upsetting. By end of day when she began to catch Taxi, she felt totally depressed. She knew that she was wasting money on Taxi. Her earning was less that her travelling expenses. She began to regret taking that job. She slowly entered in society which was near beach. She got flat in this Society since her maternal grandfather gave it to them. Her maternal grandfather was rich. He gave nice houses to all children. But his children were not smart enough to earn enough. Her father managed to remain stuck on one job but still she knew that he was not enough smart to earn much while father of her friends kept earning so much her father brought limited amount. Now she was expecting to earn more. She was so upset by all. She didn’t like her job at all. Actually she couldn’t exactly feel that it was mistake of that job. She was incapable to do it. She didn’t deserve job. She began to think that she might needed to find some simple job. But she couldn’t understand what sort of job would be okay for her. She felt so stressed by just thought of that job. She sometimes just wished that she could give up. She shivered with fear when she started to think about job. Samir managed to create that fear in his soul. It was so stressful & upsetting. She went in her house. She was expecting some questions from her parents but they didn’t say anything. She sensed that they were busy in something else. She slowly asked “ What is it?” Her Mom slowly told her “ My friend was suggesting one boy.” She smiled at this thought. She wanted to get married. When she smiled, immediately her father decided to give them a call. They happily discussed & gave her mobile number to boy. She was so happy. Suddenly job no longer seemed so important to her she started to live in different world of happy married life & love. She was so happy. She went in room & started singing a song. She began to decide dress she could wear for this special occasion.
Samir returned home. He didn’t want to go back to old job but he didn’t like that woman sitting there. He didn’t like the way she was taking over his work. He wanted to go back to his job again. He was so confused. On that point his Mom called him. He didn’t want to talk with her. But he knew that his Mom wouldn’t give up. He was becoming her obsession after her second marriage. He didn’t wanted her to get married to Mandar but today he suddenly had change of heart. He smiled to himself. Mandar was ready to threw his money on him. Mandar wanted to become good step father & for it Mandar was not going to question his expenses. He began to laugh loudly. He didn’t sense his Mom was standing in room. Samir’s Mom shivered. He was laughing in such odd way. It was not normal. Samir’s Mom sensed one thing that something was wrong with her son. But it was not easy to convince him. She slowly went in room. She asked “ Samir what did you want for..” “ Mom how many times I need to tell you what food you supposed to cook? You must ask my Papa your husband sometimes!” She was shocked. Samir never showed respect for Mandar behind Mandar’s back. “ He really don’t mind.” “ Well then until this baby doesn’t learn to speak I need to decide what we suppose to look?” She nodded innocently. Samir was angry but he told items & she went in kitchen. Samir was so upset. Then he suddenly began to feel as if he wanted to talk to his Dad. He knew that it was possible only on beach. His Dad didn’t appear everywhere. He once again laughed. He was not mentally so unsound that he could feel his Dad truly come. It was just for fun. He looked towards time. It was too late to go on beach. But still he decided to give it a try. Nisha went to meet that boy. He was interesting. Their conversation kept going on. It took hours. They didn’t sense that Sun was about to set. When they sensed it was already night. Nisha had selected restaurant near her house. She could return home easily. She just needed to take small walk on beach. That boy was not happy when she suggested that she would go alone. But she insisted. She said “ I walked there daily. Don’t worry. I will go fast.” Finally that boy went away. Nisha was walking on beach when she sensed wind was running very fast. She didn’t like crowd of beach. Clearly drunken people were slowly began to come there. She ran towards her Society. She was about to turn when she received shock. She saw that Samir was entering. Samir was looking around in strange way. As if he could see someone whom she couldn’t. Then he suddenly began to talk with that person. He was talking to empty air. He was calling it Dad. She felt so scared. She wanted to rush but then Samir called her “ Nisha what are you doing here on beach this late?” She turned & pointed towards her building. “I am just returning home.” Samir smiled. “ Ohh you stay here.” She nodded & hurried inside her building. She didn’t understand what did she witnessed. She saw clearly that Samir was talking to air then he talked to her in a way that his behaviour was completely normal. It was so strange. She didn’t understand anything. She ran in her house. She was shivering. Her parents came running towards her. Her Mom asked “ What happened? Are you alright? Did that boy..” she sensed what her parents assumed. She gave forced smile. “ Mom! My date was perfect. We planned meeting again.” Her Dad “ Then why you are looking so scared & shivering like that?” On that point their door bell rang. Her Dad opened door. The boy who she just dated was standing there. She smiled. That boy “ Are you alright?” She smiled & nodded. But she was still shivering. Her Dad “ Who are you?” She introduced him to her parents. “ This is Rishi. Mom suggested him & I am dating.” Mom added “ & plan to marry..” that boy blushed. It was clear that they didn’t have dispute. Her Dad asked “ What happened?” Rishi “She was talking to one man who was talking to air!” Nisha felt so nervous now. Her parents were looking towards her. Nisha “ Mom Dad he is my senior he used to work before me but now he left job since he got better. He came to teach me.” “But you are going to left that job don’t you?” She nodded. But in her heart she was confused. She didn’t like the way Rishi was looking towards her. Rishi was upset that she was talking with another man. It was clear he might be jealous. “ Mom I am working for some time.” Rishi suddenly changed his tone “ We are not exactly sure about our relationship. We need sometime.” She was so shocked. She was expecting him to give her some chance to explain. But Rishi just said bye & vanished in darkness of night. She was so shocked. Her Mom touched her on shoulder. She turned around. Her Mom “ He was odd. It’s better that we sense it in beginning only.” She nodded. She knew that now she once again needed to remain stuck to that job. She was so frustrated by all. But she didn’t have much option. She returned to her room. She once again started working while crying. She was so restless. She didn’t wanted to sleep until middle of night. When she woke up next morning she was feeling tired. She watched her face in mirror. She was looking okay. She got dressed up & she went out. She entered in office. On that day she managed to do a lot better. When Boss came he was so happy with her, she waited for Samir but he didn’t appear. Finally she decided to tell Boss what happened. She began to talk & she didn’t sense Samir was behind. When she sensed it he was screaming on her. “ I was just pretending.” Boss “ But talking in air is not normal. Fine just stay with us today & don’t do it.” Samir said “ Okay.” But soon Samir began to feel it was impossible. He left his job just because he wanted to go on beach. Samir slowly said to his ex Boss “ I can’t stop.” Boss put hand on his shoulder & said “ let’s go to Psychiatrist.” Samir agreed. Nisha was sitting on chair watching all.
After sometime one day Samir came to his Mom & declared that he took on hotel on loan. She was so happy. Mandar was on top of the world. Samir was finally doing all perfectly. They never knew about his Psychiatrical treatment. He never felt need to inform. Soon they would be welcoming new family member. Now Samir was planning all for that member too. Samir learnt one thing instead of concentrating on dead one he needed to concentrate on alive one. He wanted better future for his family. He could see lines due to tension on his Mom’s face. He wanted to remove them & he wanted nice life for them all. He began to joke & laugh soon his parents joined him.
The End
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