Alone in house
Samir was watching rain carefully for hours. He knew that for hours he could keep doing it. He didn’t want to. He wanted to do something special but he knew that he couldn’t. He didn’t have any chance to do anything special. He tried so hard. It was so sad. All his hard work got wasted. He was trying so hard to get things as per his wish. But they never got that way. He tried so hard to work hard on his project. He tried to sell things he had created. But they didn’t manage to sell them. He knew that he was not lucky. He had dream of perfect life too but it didn’t work. His every effort got wasted. He felt so sad. He knew that he was still working & creating products but he knew surely that these products didn’t going to sell. He was so upset. He knew that his work was precious to him. He was so stressed. He needed to arrange different products. He kept feeling restless. He started to find those products which he could able to sell. He began to arrange his thoughts. He was feeling so sad. He started his life in such good way. He was not child of rich family but still he was loved. He was so pleased with life. His grandparents used to admire him. His Mom used to love him. He was not rich but no one used to target him. But now life was changed. They all disliked him. His father told him plenty of times. He was nothing but burden in eyes of world. No one liked him. He needed to accept it too. His products were not great enough. Sometimes he wished to change his products but he knew that it wouldn’t help him that much. He was so frustrated. He needed to earn. He looked around his house. He knew that it was same old house given to him by his great grandfather. It was small house. But he was comfortable in it. He was hoping peaceful life in it. He was so happy to stay alone. But on that time he suddenly sensed one noise. He turned & looked towards it. He felt so sad. He knew that it must be house from upper floor. It must be rat. He didn’t want to set poison for mice. It was so frustrating. He knew that it was not easy task to get rid of mice. He was not living in big house. He was living in small house. But it had different noises. He was so stressed. He began to feel such suffocation. He didn’t understand what was happening. He looked out. He saw it was raining heavily. He kept watching streets. He kept listening to storm. He could see different look of it from window. He knew entire street must full of water. In this building he was staying alone. It was old building one by one all began to shift. It was nice but without modern look & comforts. It was little bit frustrating when they left one by one. He felt so scared that they might decide to break it. But soon one by one shops started coming. Slowly his building was full of commercial owners. He was so happy. He didn’t want families around. They kept telling him that they needed to go for redevelopment. He didn’t want it. He never understood why. But he was so scared to shift but today he was feeling strange suffocation. He didn’t want to increase his stress. He wanted to go out. He knew that it was raining. But he decided that he couldn’t go out. He began to sense that his clothes & umbrella were not enough. He was feeling so upset. He decided that this house was not made for him. He began to get dressed. Then he went out in rain. He looked around. He sensed all shops were running in normal way. He wanted to feel happy. But he was not feeling nice. He wanted to go out in rain but now suddenly he didn’t. He felt so stressed. He wanted to enjoy his life. He told himself that he needed to walk in rain. Then he suddenly sensed that someone was watching him from window. He didn’t sense at beginning then he started to sense that it was his own window. He kept looking out. He was feeling so nervous. It was so scary. Someone was watching down from his own window. He ran to his house. He searched for his key & opened door. He ran inside. Slowly he sensed that it was not human but it was just his raincoat. He smiled. He took umbrella & totally forgot he had one raincoat too. He took out from cupboard specifically. He wanted to wear it. He looked around in his house. Suddenly he began to feel that he didn’t want to go out now. His mood was so upset. He decided that he wanted to work. He went to his computer & began to work on his product again. He did it his best but still it was not making enough progress. It was so stressful. He kept observing product’s picture. He didn’t understand what was wrong. He didn’t wanted to move at all. He began to imagine different things. He started to hope. He wanted to feel so happy but he was not feeling. He didn’t understand where did his happiness vanished. He was so frustrated. He didn’t sense what was happening. He was hoping that his products was going to make him happy. Once his product used to do that but now it didn’t. His product didn’t create that appeal for him. He was so pleased when at beginning he started them. But now he was confused. He knew that he created that product for his own pleasure but now it was not given by product. He was so unhappy. He knew that his father was no longer alive. He knew no one was going to criticise him. He told himself that he needed to relax. He smiled & he began to work on his product again. He began to do research that what changes would make his product beneficial. He was feeling so sad. He didn’t understand what he supposed to tell himself. He was so nervous. He knew that he did this many times. But he couldn’t manage to get any success but he told himself that he must do it again. He started to plan all. He once again started to search for more websites to sell his products. He smiled happily when he felt hope. In his heart he kept feeling as if someone was watching him & laughing on his hope but he told himself that it was just his feeling worth to ignore. He kept doing his work with new hopes to refresh his mind. He smiled happily to get positive hopes. He decided that he needed to feel positive about all. He ignored those negative voices & smiled happily. Then he started to work again.
Amit was about to open his shop when he heard strange sound of laughing from next door neighbour. He knew that Samir lived there alone. He never saw any guest in that house. He felt so confused. He decided to ignore. Then he heard someone talking. He wanted to listen but he needed to open his shop on time. So he began to do it. He was so confused. For sometimes he was noticing strangeness in Samir’s behaviour. He owned this shop for long time. He was watching Samir since he was in college. He never liked the way Samir’s father treated him. Samir was nice boy. But his father always kept screaming on him. His mother was so nervous minded she just kept crying. Amit sometimes went to their house. Samir’s father was friendly with Amit. But Amit couldn’t become friendly with Samir. He tried but Samir’s father always began to taunt Samir & Samir immediately went in his room. But today when Amit heard that strange voices inside house, he decided that he needed to do some inquiries. Amit opened shop. He began to arrange all. He waited for his employee Tushar to come. Then Amit said “ I am going in flat next to us.” Suddenly Tushar said “ Yes you must. I keep hearing strange voices of talking from that house. Samir is talking to himself.” “ What?” “ I know people stay alone. It was not unusual. But this man is talking to himself. If he didn’t want to live alone he could find some wife or call some relative. But he is talking to himself.” Amit laughed. “ I think he is practising for his product’s ad.” Suddenly Tushar looked confused. Then Tushar smiled. “ Yes..yes he was saying something that Papa you must go away. It might be dialogue from Advertisement.” Amit nodded. But on that Amit saw customer entering & they began to talk with customer. Samir took breath of relief when he saw that customer. Samir kept talking loudly with just one intention that they must not come in this house. He didn’t want guests especially Amit. He hated him. Amit used to come daily in their house & with his father he used to insult him. He saw for hours his father used to tell Amit how bad person he was. Amit kept listening. He hated Amit so whenever Amit came near his house he began to talk loudly. He hoped that after hearing this Amit would go away. Amit wouldn’t harass him by knocking on door. He knew that Amit was coming. He started to look out. Rain was reduced. He immediately got dressed up & ran out of house. He locked door & started walking on road. He knew that it was raining heavily but he didn’t want to go back in his house. He knew that Amit might come. He disliked Amit so much. In fact he disliked every human being. He knew that they all laughed on him & taunted him with his father. He began to walking in heavy rain. Amit came out of shop. Amit was so shocked to see Samir walking away like this. Amit didn’t understand what Samir was running in & out of his house like this. It was so odd. First Samir was talking to himself now he was running around odd way. Amit sensed one thing that he needed to talk to him. Amit just decided to follow him. But soon he sensed that Samir was already out of his range. Samir started walking. Samir went ahead. He didn’t want to go on road but still his leg took him towards house of Rita. Rita was his dream girl from long time. He wanted to see her. It was his desire. Then she came in balcony suddenly. He supposed to smile towards her. But he suddenly sensed that she was looking old. He began to think that he was too old to get married & it was over for him. He suddenly became so frustrated. He just decided to walk away. Rita looked towards him with hope. She didn’t understand what was wrong. She was hoping that he might ask her. They could still manage nice life. But she was supposed to send proposal to him. She never send. He just turned away. He didn’t wanted to cry but he was crying. He wanted to say something else but his negative thinking always kept forcing him to back down. He always kept feeling sad & hopeless. His life seemed so doom. He kept walking for long time. He wanted to cry loudly for his sad life. He knew that no one liked him. He started to feel so tired. He finally decided to come back. He opened door & sat on bed. He took deep breath & went in kitchen. Now he needed to cook for himself. It was so frustrating. He couldn’t cook nicely. He began to try his best. On that time his door bell rang. He had no option. Now he needed to open door. He opened. Amit was standing outside. Amit smiled nicely but he knew that Amit disapproved him. He knew that Amit was pretending. He didn’t understand why. He was so tense. He couldn’t just tell him to get lost so he gave nervous smile & said “ I am little bit busy.” Amit smiled & said “ I know. I use to busy like that too. When I started my shop whole day I use to work. Can I come in?” He wanted to say no but he couldn't. So he just smiled nervously. Amit took this as yes & came inside. Amit looked around. That flat was looking so much better. Amit said “ You have taken great care of your grandfather’s flat than your Dad.” Samir gave him odd look. He didn’t like the way Amit was admiring him. Samir felt that it was bait for something. Samir didn’t want to talk further. Samir said “Actually I am busy..” “ I know you are practising for your AD! We always hear you practising me & Tushar. Actually I came here to ask about that ad only. If you do it then will you show me?” He was not doing anything like that but he didn’t have much option but to nod. Amit stood up. “ Good I want some cheap ad for my shop too. You are good looking man. I don’t need some costly star for ad. You are okay. I want limited budget too.” Amit was excited. Then soon Tushar joined them. Tushar “ I will arrange camera even I can do video shootings. I feel we can do it perfectly.” Samir was confused. But he couldn’t say no to them. He needed this Advertisement too. So they began to discuss concepts. In few seconds they finalised concept. They laughed & enjoyed.
Samir did shooting & Tushar started editing with Amit. On that point customer came in shop without second thought Samir ran inside shop. Samir began to show products happily. He made few confusions but he managed to make joke out of them. Customer watched all. But customer didn’t purchased anything. He felt so sad. He came back to his house. Tushar laughed. “ So you entertained them? My God! You are so good. I find it hard to tolerate.” Amit “ Yes so frustrating! But you handled them so great. Frankly not shocking they were lot better than your Dad.” Samir looked towards Amit with shock. Tushar “ His Dad was so bad? I never heard you criticise anyone before people like this!” Samir “ I thought you liked my Dad.” “ No..no I use to talk nicely with him since I needed to keep my shop going. He keep threatening to complaint & stop it.” Samir suddenly understood all. His father was trying to close those shops. It was cause of respect given to his father. Actually no one liked him. Samir felt little relieved. But Samir knew that he couldn’t get too friendly with anyone. He didn’t need to move ahead like that. Samir looked towards his watch & said “ Sorry but I need to return to work.” Amit & Tushar both nodded. They went out of flat & Samir felt so happy. Samir just wanted to be alone. He was no longer interested in making friendship with anyone. He felt so stressed. He wanted to feel happy but he kept getting invitations from Amit. He began to feel he needed to buy some house which might be far away from civilisation. He was so happy at that thought. He decided to sell this house. But then he sensed who was going to purchase it. He felt so sad. He began to cry slowly. He needed to escape but he couldn’t. He began to remember all his bad memories. He looked towards mirror. He started to look towards his image. He was looking so old & tired. He didn’t have any chance for wonderful future. He started to tell himself that all was fine. His father was dead & he could have future but he knew that he couldn’t. He wanted to change all. He suddenly decided that he needed some one with whom he could talk. He was feeling so confused. He went out. Tushar was closing shop door. He confirmed that it was locked perfectly. Samir slowly went towards him. Samir touched his shoulder. Tushar looked towards him with confusion. Samir slowly said “ I am so scared.” Tushar looked scared. Tushar started looking around & asked “ Of what?” Samir said slowly “ Of human.” Tushar looked at him. Tushar sensed odd madness in Samir’s eyes. Tushar sensed that Samir needed help. Tushar didn’t understand from whom. Tushar was so confused. Tushar said “ I will call Sir.” Tushar slowly called Amit. Tushar “ Sir your friend Samir is afraid of something!” “ What?” “ I don’t understand. Can’t you stay with him for a day?” Amit “ I am coming.” Samir didn’t want Amit to come. He was about to deny but Tushar went away in hurry. Tushar “ I need to catch train. Sir will come soon.” Tushar ran way fast. Clearly he was getting late to catch his train. He had his family in his house & Samir didn’t know his responsibilities. But Samir felt that he must be busy person. Samir went in his flat. Samir kept watching around. He didn’t understand what he supposed to do now. He felt that so alone & lost in this world. He wanted to avoid Amit. He decided to call Amit. “ Hello Amit I am fine now. It was nothing. You don’t need to come ” Amit didn’t say anything but then Samir heard voice which of car stopping before house. He sensed it was too late. Now Amit would stay with him. He began to feel so risk & feverish. His stomach started to feel odd. He told himself that he was fine but it didn’t work. He began to feel uneasy. Soon he started to vomit. He knew that he was sick. Amit began to knock on door. He washed his face & dry it with towel. He was still feeling so uneasy but he needed to open door since Amit began to scream his name. He went to door & opened it. He was feeling so weak. Amit shocked after seeing him. Amit “ What’s wrong with you?” “ Nothing I am just fine.” He wanted to feel normal but he was feeling so sick. He once again ran in washroom. Amit immediately began to call Doctor. Amit requested for home visit. Since it was evening Doctor didn’t seem willing but then Doctor agreed. Samir was not feeling okay at all. Amit was literally holding him. When Doctor came, he was sleeping on bed. Doctor checked him. Then slowly Doctor checked BP & asked “ Are you tense about something?” Samir turned head negatively. Then Doctor said “ BP is high & I feel this is due to stress or mental issues. I recommend medicines.” Doctor wrote them. Then Doctor gave proper instructions. Amit nodded. Finally Doctor gave name of Psychiatrist & said “ Take him to Psychiatrist.” Amit nodded. Amit called his home & told he would stay with Samir for week. His wife agreed. Then Amit & Tushar kept taking care of Samir. But Samir began to get more & more nervous to go out. Finally Amit suggested “ This is Psychiatrist Doctor suggested. I am telling you that you need to go there & cure yourself.” Samir wanted to deny. But he was so scared even to say ‘ No.’ Samir just decided to keep quiet. Then one day he got dressed up & went to Psychiatrist with Amit. Samir was not happy. Samir was feeling so sad & scared but he had no option. Then finally Samir sat across Psychiatrist while Amit waited outside. Slowly Samir told all about his childhood. Samir talked how did his father destroyed his days. He kept telling his pains. Slowly Psychiatrist started to talk step by step he felt little better. He didn’t feel normal but little better. Then after that session Psychiatrist called Amit inside. Psychiatrist told Amit that Samir suffering from Personal Avoidance Disorder. It developed when parent kept criticising. Child began to think all hated him & didn’t want to meet anyone when other people hated parent not that child. Then Psychiatrist recommended treatment which Samir agreed to do. Slowly step by step Samir began to feel so nice. Finally one day he managed to sit in Amit’s shop with his products. He sold just few goods but he enjoyed it. Then he started going in Amit’s house with him. He understood Amit had two sons both settled in abroad. They enjoyed his company & one day they took out Rita’s name out of his lips. They arranged his marriage. Rita was perfect for him. Samir’s life was not without troubles but now he understood that world didn’t hate him & he could handle every trouble with his confidence.
The End
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