Guardian angel from train
Ravi was counting days. He was so excited about visit to Auntie’s house. They planned it all. He was so happy to meet his cousins. They always enjoyed their time. On that day he truly able to relax his mind. He was so happy when it all planned. His cousins were always too busy these days. They didn’t have time for him. He decided that this time they all would watch horror movie or action movie, He was so happy about it. It was exciting day for him. He packed everything. He was so happy. He booked a nice ticket of train. He managed to get window ticket. He was looking out. He was so excited by scenery outside. He kept looking towards nature which was so pleasant. He was so happy at beginning but he was enjoying those scene. He was watching every part of nature which was so pleasant. He began to feel delighted. He started to feel happy. He began to observe different thing & started creating stories out of them. He began to live his imaginary life. He started to express happiness in it. He began to see different scene. He started to imagine wonderful life in it. He started to feel so happy. He kept hoping wonderful things. He started to feel so happy. He kept watching out of window. He started to feel so happy about it. He began to see scene which were so pleasant. He started to sense happiness in soul. He knew for such a long time. He was waiting for something like this. His life was moving in wrong track. He tried to find job. But he didn’t find good one. So he decided to do some business. Actually his father helped him in purchasing shop. That shop was already settled one. He hoped that it would give him good income. But he sensed that his income was not enough. It was just basic income. It was just okay. After paying all those things which were needed to arrange properly. He earned very limited sum. His parents were discussing about his marriage but he was not much interested. He couldn’t provide enough amount for family. He knew that his relatives were suggesting to marry who earned more money. He was not that sort of person. He wanted to earn himself. His sister got married. His sister managed to get good job through influence of her husband. But she was not happy. He could read it on her face. She always kept complaining about her husband. It was clear that her husband was jealous about her higher salary. Her husband kept targeting her for every small mistake. Ravi didn’t find it very promising. He began to feel so upset. He didn’t want to think about marriage. He was happy in his shop. But people kept insisting. It was so upsetting. He wanted to go away from those situations. He could see girls were not interested so much when they understood his financial position but their families insisted on dating him. He didn’t want forced marriage. But his parents kept telling that he needed to get married. It was so irritating. He wanted escape. Sometimes he began to plan for shifting but soon he sensed that he didn’t have enough financial capacity. He wanted to forget all. This trip was perfect excuse. He was so happy. He kept watching different scenes. He began to imagine his party. This was something which he was planning for long time. He remembered how did last time his cousins planned all. It was so nice. He felt as if he was not prepared. He remembered how much he wanted to play football but he was not fit for it. This time he was ready & prepared. He was so happy. He kept thinking about different positive dreams. He was so excited. On that time he suddenly felt as if someone was tapping on his train window. It was impossible. He knew that no one could tap on window when he was travelling in train which was running so fast. He looked around in compartment. He was alone. He wished train was crowded like it was normally. But this was off season. Many people were not travelling to village. He knew that his Auntie was staying in far away corner. It was sort of village. Other people disliked it but he loved it. He would have loved to settle in that big house permanently. He was so excited. He was thinking about that house when he sensed that it was night. Lights were closing. He slowly closed his lights too & went to sleep. He was feeling so restless. He was so upset. He didn’t understand why. Then he sensed someone entered in his berth. He knew that it was booked for him. But he was so confused. He screamed “ Who is it?” Before he could do anything else that person went towards his bag. He grabbed his bag with full strength & screamed. He hoped that soon other travellers also started to sense something was wrong. He was screaming on top of his lung. He didn’t gave up his bag. Suddenly he sensed that someone came towards his door. It was one woman who was travelling in other berth but she came for washroom. She began to scream. Soon she started banging on door of every berth. That thief sensed that he was in risk. That thief ran out of his berth. He wanted to keep hold of his bag. He kept dragging it. Finally that thief gave up. Since other travellers were awake. Someone managed to pull chain. Ravi sensed that train was stopped. He watched face of that thief carefully. He was so shocked. It looked so much like his cousin Tarun. He was so shocked. Before he could say anything. That thief ran out. That thief jumped out of train without second thought. Ravi ran after him. But it was too late that thief jumped before another train which was coming on other track. Ravi was so shocked. He even forgot to close his eyes. He saw it all before his eyes. He wanted to scream but words didn’t come out of his mouth. Soon he sensed that crowd gathered towards door. All his fellow travellers were watching with shocks. Some were even carrying children. They all were saying in low voice. “ He jumped before train since he didn’t want to be caught by Police.” He didn’t say anything. Cops came. They asked questions. He answered peacefully. They told him to check luggage. He did it. He told them that all was in it’s place. Then Cop told to take ahead train. Cop “ One thief died. We can’t do anything about it but train must not be delayed otherwise more people will suffer. Just carry on as usual.” He nodded & slept peacefully. He tried so hard to forget all but he kept seeing that face. He couldn’t forget it.
Next morning when Ravi woke up in train, everyone was discussing same thing. He sensed that many travellers wanted to chat with him. He was some celebrity for them. They were admiring his bravery. Some person said “ You are brave so he didn’t able to push you under train!” “What?!” He asked with shock. He never thought that way. He never felt even for moment that this thief might be planning to push him. He shivered at that thought. He didn’t say anything. Another traveller began to tell story how did one passenger fall down due to this. They all began to discuss different stories among themselves. It was causal thing for them. But he was very scared. He took breath of relief when he sensed that his station came near . He immediately ran to pack bags. He just wanted to left that train. When he came down on station he felt so happy. Finally he was safe. But soon he noticed that no one came on station to take him home. He was not expecting it. He knew that how could he reach to Auntie’s home but still he wanted them paying attention to him. He was so happy about it. But this time they seemed to forgotten his arrival. He was about to go away when suddenly one Cab driver appeared. Cab came running towards him. "Your uncle send me. Sorry I am late. I was stuck on road." He wanted to ask where. Since in that village it was impossible to have traffic. But then he decided to ignore it. He just picked his luggage & started to follow that driver. He sensed that they were concerned about him so they sent driver to take him. He sat in cab with relaxed smile. Village was looking different. But he didn’t understand what he should say about it. He couldn’t understand those streets at all now. It might be development but he missed touch of nature. House of his Auntie was far away. When he reached home, he was expecting at least some welcome. But no one even came to welcome him. Just Auntie came. She tried to appear normal. But he sensed that no one wanted to spend time with him. He sensed that coming here was big mistake. He began to feel so upset. He was shown room. He sat in it before TV. He began to watch movie. Suddenly he felt as if someone was holding his shoulder. He turned behind. He was hoping that it would be his cousin. He smiled happily. But he was shocked when he saw it was that thief. He could see his face. It was horrible after going under train. He screamed loudly. Then he woke up, he looked around. He was in room which Auntie had given. He didn’t sense that he fall asleep. He looked around. He sensed that servants & Auntie all came in room. He smiled & said “ I just got scared.” “ By what?” He looked towards TV. A family drama was running on it. One servant “ He must be scared by thought that heroin is getting married for third time.” Every one started laughing but Auntie gave them angry look. Ravi felt so nervous. Ravi decided to tell entire incidence of train. He told them everything. But they didn’t seem much impressed. This was confusing. Entire crowd was impressed. Auntie “You don’t need to act so careless. From next time tie your bag to cot of train with chain. Remember the one I gave you.” He nodded. He almost forgot about it. “ I will.” Then everyone went back. He supposed to watch TV again. He didn’t want it so he decided to go out. He began to wander in garden. But entire time he kept feeling someone was around him. He knew that it was not possible. He knew that no one was watching him. He kept telling himself that it was just his imagination. On that point it noticed a red mark on his shirt shoulder. He shivered with fear. He remembered that he was touched in dream by dead man exactly on same point. He started to feel so scared. He decided that he made big mistake by coming here. He immediately started searching for return ticket & luckily he managed to get one. He booked it & he was so happy. He went inside & declared it. His Auntie was looked little bit upset. But then she gave pleasant smile. “ This time all were busy. We will plan better next time...maybe I will call..” she kept chatting but he was not interested. He just wanted to go out of that house. He just had lunch & then he immediately went towards station for next train. Soon he received call from his father. “ What’s wrong with you? You are just wasting my money! First went there then you don’t stop for a day & came back running. You don’t have brain to earn but you have too much brain to waste.” He was so sad. He heard this every day. He tried so hard but he never managed to earn enough. He didn’t say anything. He sat in train’s window & he began to wish that only if he was died instead of that thief. He felt that it was better. Since he was not earning for his family but this thief was earning for family. He kept thinking about his day. He achieved nothing but pain. It was not about today. Every day was moving same way. No one liked him. He was so upset. He suddenly began to feel desire of jumping from that train. He wanted to do it. But he couldn’t. He suddenly began to feel that he was too coward. He supposed to act brave & jump from train. He started to move towards window. He needed to find strength to jump from door of train. He knew that he needed to end his life to find new life. He began to feel so restless. He was not sure about reincarnation. But then he felt that this life was useless anyway. He began to walk towards door of train. He was about to go towards it. Suddenly some traveller came out of washroom. That person thought that he came there for air. “ Friend don’t get too near door it is risky.” He suddenly sensed what he was doing. He was trying to do suicide. It was wrong. He was not even sure that he should killed. He didn’t understand why he needed to do that he had more options. He went back to his seat. He was shivering with fear. He sensed that he was on verge of killing himself.
Ravi reached home. His Dad was sitting there. His Dad was ready to taunt him. His Dad kept discussing about how useless he was but this time he was not concerned. He was scared. He sensed that something was wrong with his brain. He was beginning to lose his mind. He could feel it. He kept seeing that thief. He wanted to hide himself & cry. He needed help. He didn’t understand where he should go. He just took appointment of his doctor. He didn’t say anything to anyone at home. He didn’t want to lie but he didn’t dare to say truth. It was so complicated. He just ran out of house. He sat in line for hour in line to get his number. Finally he went inside. He slowly told everything to Doctor. Doctor nodded. Then Doctor said “ This is not trouble of my side. I give you number of Doctor who will give you proper treatment.” He nodded. He took card. He went home. He was feeling so restless. He didn’t understand what he could do. He didn’t want to keep visiting doctors. He kept crying that entire day. His Mom tried to talk him but he avoided. He didn’t want her to know that he was having mental trouble. He didn’t understand why he was suffering like that. He didn’t want to even visit his shop anymore. He kept feeling sad. He wanted to lock himself in room. He was feeling so sad. He was so disturbed. He didn’t understand what he wanted to think. He kept seeing that thief again & again. He felt that he killed that thief. He began to feel he was killer. After all that person was just thief. He kept screaming. He managed to alert all so that thief needed to jump from train. He was feeling so upset. He kept remembering all incidence. He didn’t even tell it to his family. He was so restless. Then his mobile rang. He saw his cousin was calling. His cousin didn’t have time for him when he was visiting now this call was looking like insult. He was so upset. He decided to avoid it. But then he sensed that he didn’t want visit from this cousin. If he didn’t take call this cousin might plan to visit. They didn’t need to know that he was angry. He took call. He immediately started “ Sorry I left so early actually I got call from client. You know Client is alway right.” “ Of course!” It was clear that his cousin was happy that he was not angry. They kept talking about different things. Then finally he disconnected call. After talking to his cousin he sensed that he needed to prove world that he could live happily. He needed to prove all negative things spread about him were wrong. He stood up. He tried to read. But he couldn’t concentrate on it. Then he took out that card. He took appointment. He got one in next week. He felt so happy. Finally he found way to get out of trouble. He was feeling so scared. He needed someone who could help him & finally he found that person. He began to get restless. He was feeling a strange need to stop everything. He just wanted to kill him self. He was so upset. He forced himself to listen to music. He tried his best to concentrate on positive. Next day he went to shop. But he was no longer interested in it. He was not even ready to attend customers. He felt that it was all useless. That entire week seemed like centuries to him. He was feeling so sad. He needed to escape his negative thinking. He was so upset. He began to search for ways to reduce his frustration but nothing was working. He began to feel he was murder of his thief. He was feeling so guilty. He felt so happy when he understood that his problem would be cured by psychiatrist. He discussed with his Doctor again. His doctor showed patience. For hours his Doctor explained how much he needed Psychiatrist. Finally he went for appointment. Once again he waited. Then finally he went inside. He told all to psychiatrist. Psychiatrist “ That incidence in train might have triggered it but it was going to get triggered one day any way. This is happening due to depression. You are feeling frustrated due to less success & your father’s taunting on it. I will start counselling today. I will start some medicine but it will be just for few days then we will stop it.” Ravi nodded. Then for long time Psychiatrist kept talking with Ravi. Ravi felt so relieved by it. He began to sense that negative thoughts were reducing. They were not gone but reduced. When Ravi came out of clinic, he was not changed man but he knew that it would take some time to change & he was going to do it. He went to shop. He wanted to sit in corner. But he forced himself to attend customers. When his shop was empty he began to clean & redecorate it. He began to redecorate it for countless times just to keep himself busy. He felt it was perfect. Until his psychiatrist told him that it was not. Psychiatrist told him that this way he might develop another disorder so he made plan. He started to work in shop accordingly. Soon he began to love his shop. He was no longer concern what other people felt. He loved it & he was happy to become it’s owner. After some time a girl in neighbourhood started coming there. She began to smile towards him. He returned smile. He liked her innocence. Slowly he started discussing different things of shop with her. She kept encouraging him. One day her proposal of marriage came to his house. He agreed to it. She was nice girl. They got married. Before their marriage she even met his psychiatrist, She was perfect life partner for him. She loved him & managed all in his budget. He never sensed when his depression problem was gone. He was so happy. But he always felt one thing. He was lucky that unknown fellow stopped him from jumping from train. He knew everyone was not so lucky. So when he saw suicide news anywhere he thanked God for sending that angel in train. That unknown person was his guardian angel for him always.
The End
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