Nina's memory
Nina was working so hard to get things as per her husband's choice. Her husband, Pradip was rich man who had his demands. He had his plans. His wanted everything as per his decision. Nina never minded it. She didn't desire to have any independent thought or identity. He was her best support. He kept having everything planned. He decided to every concept & it was creating good impact on her. She was so happy. She needed to understand every thought. She needed to learn different things. But she never needed to take any decision. He was not dominating. He kept telling her many times " You can do as you wish!" But she felt that he was always right. He did all as that was beneficial to her. She felt so stressed when she needed to decide. It was frustrating. She decided that she could manage to hard work but not decide. She didn't want to mess her life. She was totally sure that she couldn't take right decisions. She knew that she needed help when it came to decision making. It was frustrating. She knew that one day she would need to decide but she couldn't now. It was upsetting. She kept thinking different ways with which she could decide but she didn't take right decision. She knew that she was not capable. She couldn't even decide what she supposed to cook. She needed someone to tell it to her. She was feeling so upset today. She didn't understand cause. She was feeling so uneasy. She knew that she did all in perfect way. She obeyed everything. She didn't obey. Actually she did what she wanted to do. She wanted to cook all those things. Then she also wanted to write those emails. It was her thought. She knew that Pradip didn't order. She always asked him & he kept suggesting. He was much nice man. He always concerned for her. It was so nice. She began to check once again her dinner. It was perfect. She knew that she was confused about keeping maid. He suggested to wait for few days so she waited. Now soon he would suggest maid. She knew that this maid would be perfect too. She was so confused. She didn't have child. But she was not sure that she was ready. Her Mom called yesterday. Her Mom was asking about it. She said " Mom I don't know. I feel as if I am little bit confuse." " What did Pradip say?" " He said I can do as per my wish." Then they both took long pause for long time. It was so frustrating. She began to feel so restless. She knew that her Mom wanted to hear Pradip's opinion. She didn't want to tell it. Pradip didn't force her but he suggested that he didn't want to hurry up. She knew that she was not ready too. But if she told this to her Mom. She felt that Mom would say Pradip forced it. She didn't want that type of comments so she said " Mom I am not sure so I don't ask him!" " & he didn't suggest?" " Mom I am not ready." She nearly screamed on her Mom. Mom said angrily "Okay..okay I am not going to force you to give me a grandchild. It is your choice. But are you sure that it is your choice? I feel your husband might be deciding for you this time too." " Mom don't drag him in this issue!" " So you are planning for a child alone?" " Mom enough!" She didn't talk further just disconnected call. Her Mom didn't call again. Now it seemed as if her Mom was not interested in interfering. Her Mom didn't call her. She kept entire matter there. She didn't like the way her Mom insisted on starting family. It was not right. She could decide it. She knew that Pradip would take right decision for her. She always trusted him. She suddenly felt confused. She was deciding for herself. He was not deciding for her. She was sure about it. She sensed that her cooking was not going well. She turned her attention to it. She tasted. It was not going ahead as per her expectations. She began to add spice. She managed perfectly last time. But this time it was not so good. She didn't understand what went wrong. She was so upset. Then her door bell rang. Her cook Tara came. She had cook but still she always cooked special items for her family. She always cooked whatever Pradip suggested. She knew that maid couldn't manage perfect taste. Today she didn't manage too. Tara looked towards her face. Tara was looking so tense. Tara " I feel you manage to burn it too much. Are you in your thoughts?" She shivered. She knew that Pradip would not say anything. But still she felt so tense. She smiled & said " Well I was thinking about Movie last night I watched on mobile." Tara looked frustrated. " Why do you watch such movie Madam? You must not watch those movies which take away peace of mind instead of watching proper movies which entertain you. Which film did you watch?" Now she was confused. She didn't know name of movie. It was confusing. She didn't understand what name she supposed to give. Tara was waiting for it. Then suddenly her mobile rang. She knew that it was number from Advertisement company still she made excuse & began long conversation. She knew that it wasn't important. But she needed excuse. She knew soon Tara would be busy in doing her work. Tara needed to cook in time. Tara didn't have time to waste. Nina slowly went in kitchen & threw away food she cooked. She knew that it would not taste good. She was so tense. She was trying to cook food in her best way. She did all cooking but it was all wrong. She didn't want her maid to notice. She began to feel scared. She knew that Pradip was not going to taunt her. She didn't understand why she felt so scared but she started cooking her special item again. This time she paid full attention. She could smell & she sensed that her food was perfect now. She jumped with joy. Even Tara started admiring it after tasting. Then she took out tablecloth. She arranged everything in perfect way & set table in perfect way. Then she went in bedroom. She started arranging different things as per her want. She began to set things in right way. She kept that room perfect. She wanted to keep all in it's place. She knew that Pradip hate when things were misplaced. He didn't say anything to her directly. But she could sense. She arranged all perfectly.
Pradip managed to complete his work today. He started to come home. Then he had second thoughts. He didn't need to go home. He could enjoy company of other lady. He smiled at that thought. Pradip never planned to remain honest to his wife. He didn't care for Nina. He never understood why he agreed to marry. She was nothing but burden. He had his maids & servants. He didn't need her help even at household. At beginning he did it for heir. But then he felt that he didn't need that burden. He was not so excited to become father. It was one responsiblity. Nina was so stupid. She couldn't even manage to decide food items she supposed to cook daily. She was same way from beginning. Her Dad told him about her stupidity. Her Dad said " She is disappointment for me. I am so smart. I was expecting smartness from her. My other kids are different but this girl is stupid. You need to adjust with her." He nodded & adjusted. He never screamed on her. He treated her nicely like some pet. But he couldn't remain honest to her. He didn't like her that much. He called another lady. She agreed to meet him. He immediately went there. This woman had her husband but she didn't mind. He smiled at her thought. It was so nice when a woman cheated her husband for him. He felt strange strength in himself. He felt that he could fight with all. He was so happy when he managed to get wife of other man. He had that habit from beginning. He loved to capture things belonged to others. He kept feeling so restless. He never understood reason. But he felt happy when he started to spend time with another woman. He called one. She immediately agreed. It seemed as if she was desperate. He smiled. He told driver to take vacation. Driver was happy. Driver took money & gave him car keys. He entered in car. He was so happy. He started to plan all. He knew that he was going to enjoy that day. He went in her society. He was so excited. He didn't sense that his mother-in-law was standing nearby. Nina's Mom was so shocked to see him. Nina's Mom kept watching him. She sensed that something was suspicious. Her son-in-law was going in Society with red roses & wine. She couldn't believe that it was friendly visit. She went slowly towards that building. She started following him. She went towards that direction where he went. Then she saw him going inside. She could smell perfume from there. She knew that a woman was inside. She was shocked. She sensed that she managed to get wrong son-in-law. She wanted right type of son-in-law. She was so upset. She knew that he was visiting some woman. She controlled her anger & went to wacthman. She asked watchman about flat as if she wanted to purchase it. Watchman told her "A couple stay there & they are happy with it. I don't think they want to sell it." She pointed towards way in which her son-in-law went & asked " That was her husband!" " No..no that was boyfriend." Then watchman gave meaningful laugh. She shivered. She said bye to watchman. She even gave him tip for his information. He took it. She went towards her car. She called Nina. Nina was shocked to see call from her. Nina took it immediately. " Nina Pradip is at home?" " No." " Called his office!" Nina was confused. But Nina agreed. Nina called Pradip in office. He was gone. She told it to Mom. Her Mom told her everything. She couldn't believe it. Her Mom told her to come & watch it with her eyes. Nina didn't went there. Nina knew that she couldn't disobey him. She was not interested in checking his truth. He was her husband & she was his wife. She was not getting abused or hurt by him. She didn't need to replace him. She was truly attached to him. " Mom I am not interested." " What?" Nina's Mom couldn't believe what she heard. " He is cheating you & you are not interested?" Nina " Mom ignore it." " Ignore what?! Do you know this all along?" Nina didn't say anything. But it was true. She knew all. Soon after her marriage her mother-in-law told her everything. She knew that her husband was flirt. He kept changing his girlfriends. She supposed to stay wife. She was hoping that they would have baby but he didn't want it too. It was confusing. But she didn't mind it too. She didn't want more burden. Mom " Why didn't you came back Nina when you understood it?" Nina didn't answer. She didn't come back since she didn't want to enter in another marriage. She knew that after her divorce her father would find another boy. Her Dad taught from childhood that marriage was essential. He was not going to keep her in house. She knew that her Dad was nice man. But he didn't understand those modern thoughts. He kept his traditional view. She called it traditional. But her Mom called it wrong view. Her Mom said her grandmother was traditional but she never kept such a views. Any way Nina didn't want to marry anyone else. One marriage was enough for her. But it was so frustrating. Nina was happy with Pradip. She didn't understand how could she convince her Mom that she didn't want to leave this life. She had everything. She had luxuries. Her husband acted nicely. He was just dishonest with her but she could accept her fault. She didn't want to start again. She still remembered her trying. All her boyfriends were arrogant. She couldn't find right way. Now this was perfect. She had one husband who respect her. She took deep breath & said " Mom I am happy with him I don't want any help.." she disconnected call. Nina's Mom kept looking at mobile with shock. She couldn't believe love could be such blind but it was. Nina didn't want to left her husband even when he was not honest. Nina was happy that her Mom didn't call again. She didn't want to talk. She once again started TV. She tried hard to focus on it. Soon she managed & she totally forgot about Pradip's affair. She developed this skill. She could forgot anything. Soon she started enjoying show & even laughed. She didn't remember her Mom's call. It managed to vanish from her memory.
Pradip was shocked when he received call from his mother-in-law. He was with his girlfriend & enjoying when he saw it. He didn't want take it but he had no option. He took it & immediately she started screaming on him & abusing him. In end she even started saying that he was doing something to her daughter. She claimed that her daughter didn't understand her words. She was still in his enchanted love. She started to say he was giving something to Nina. He was so confused. He decided that he must hurry up towards home. His mother-in-law soon disconnected call. He was so confused. His mother-in-law was upset but not his wife. Then he decided to wait. His girlfriend started to ask questions. When she sensed truth, she told him to go away. She didn't want to risk her marriage for him. He was so frustrated. He immediately left angrily. He reached home. Nina looked shocked to see him so early. She didn't seem to know anything. He didn't understand what was happening. She was in strange mood. She didn't show any anger. She arranged his food with same affection. She was so dedicated to him. He didn't understand how could his mother-in-law didn't tell it. He kept talking with affection. Nina was so happy. Nina felt that he was finally started to fall in love with her. It was upsetting for him. But it was pleasant for her. Then when she went away, he called his mother-in-law. He started to thank her for not telling but she screamed in anger " I told her everything but she didn't want to leave you.." he was so shocked. She was so devoted. She was doing everything for him. She sat next to him when he was eating. She immediately served in his plate whatever he desired. It was so perfect. He began to feel as if he was living with some robot. She didn't seem angry. Finally he couldn't control himself & he asked " Sorry for that incidence.." " What incidence?" He was confused now. Her Mom told him that she told her but she was claiming she didn't. It was so confusing. He didn't understand it at all. He just smiled. He began to feel strange fear. He acted lovingly through out that day. He kept hoping for her forgiveness. But she didn't seem to mention it. He woke up next morning. She didn't give any reaction. He kept waiting for it. He decided that for few days. He would keep acting like honest husband. Soon he sensed that she truely didn't remember anything. His mother-in-law stopped calling. Nina kept disconnecting her calls. Nina was determined to call him great husband & he was happy about it. He kept feeling shock in soul. He couldn't believe that he found such a wife. He kept acting honest for few days. He was feeling so stressed. He began to feel desire to go out with girlfriend again. He once again went to another woman. He enjoyed her company. He was so happy. He sensed that someone was watching him. Soon he found out that his mother-in-law managed to keep detective on him. She came with proof next day. Nina watched them. Nina looked upset. She cried. But then after sometime she didn't seem to remember it. They were shocked. Since it happened suddenly before them. She was crying for one movement. Then next movement she looked towards them with shock. It was so upsetting. She didn't understand what was his mistake. She smiled towards Mom & began to tell her that she must not insist on baby. " Mom we want to wait. Don't insist." Pradip was shocked. In fact he was little bit scared too. He sensed that something was wrong with his wife. She didn't remember conversation before few seconds. He was sure that his mother-in-law didn't want them to plan family. Nina's Mom tried to explain her but Nina didn't understand. Her Mom tried to show proof again. But she was not interested. She went in kitchen. She started serving snacks. It was so strange. He didn't like it at all. His mother-in-law gave angry look to him. " You have done something to her? Some medicine or black magic.." his mother-in-law also started to lose her mind & he didn't have much doubt about it. He looked so nervous. He didn't understand what was going on. He finally decided to confess himself. He went to Nina. He told her to sit in hall. Before his mother-in-law he confessed his countless affairs, he saw tears in her eyes. He knew that now she was going to hurt him. He was ready for slap. But it didn't came. Suddenly she seemed to forgot all. She asked him " Did you want baby?" He was so confused. He was accepting his unfaithful behaviour to his wife & she was asking about planning family. She didn't want his faithfulness? He began to sense that something was wrong. He tried to confess his mistake again. She once again ignored him. She was hearing him but she didn't sense it. She kept talking about their baby which they were not planning. Finally her Mom screamed " I don't want you to give birth to his child. He is cheating you & he even confessed." She gave strange smile & asked " When?" He shivered with fear. Nina's Mom hugged her. Then Mom started to convince her to return to her parent's house for sometime. She nodded. But she still didn't able to grasp. Pradip was so upset & tense. He didn't want her back. He started having nightmare about her. He decided that he didn't want her. He started to talk about divorce. He offered very large sum. Her parents were willing. But Nina still didn't understand. She once again came back home & started acting as if everything was normal. He was so scared. He just packed his bags & ran away to abroad. She kept working in home & waiting for him. Finally her parents shifted there. They tried to calm down her. But nothing was working. Finally they needed to take her to psychiatrist.
When Nina reached to psychiatrist, she asked him " What is wrong with me?" Psychiatrist smiled & said " Let me search." Then her Mom told all about her husband before her. She even showed proof to Nina. Nina cried then in few movements she returned to normal. She started talking in such way as if nothing had happened. Psychiatrist watched all. Psychiatrist " Actually she didn't want to break her marriage at any cost. Her past experience managed to hurt her so much. She kept feeling that she must remain stuck to Pradip while Pradip began to feel scared of her. Since she started blocking her memory. We need to convince her that she must face truth of failure of her marriage.." they all nodded. But Nina was confused. Still she kept feeling that he was in love with her. Psychiatrist slowly started counseling her. Her parents went outside after receiving promise from Psychiatrist that their daughter would be fine. It was long process but Psychiatrist knew that they could manage it. Nina began to accept fact.
The End
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