Imagination of a lady
Nisha's story began in strange way in that library. She used to love library. She just couldn't live without books. Those books were her life. She knew that no one would understand but from childhood she knew that she would find something in that library. It was her gut feeling. Something wonderful that could change her life. She kept waiting for it. She didn't understand when did she began to create dream. She began to form different meanings out of it. She kept thinking. She was searching every day in library and on that day. This strange lady entered. She was looking like adult. She was not college kid but still she entered in library. She looked around. She tried to find Librarian. Then she sat in far away corner. Nisha was observing all sliently. She wanted to understand everything. She could sense something fishy was going on. She was observing that lady with full attention. She was adult still she was sitting in college library and Nisha knew very well that she was not teacher. Nisha turned to another girl who was unknown but sitting beside her for long time. " Did you notice that lady?" That girl gave her frustrating look out of her spectacles. " What about her?" " Why did an adult sit in college library?" " Because she is friend of librarian. Mystery solved!!" " No. I don't think so. She didn't even chatted with her." Once more that girl gave angry look. That girl " Truthfully I don't give damn to that lady. She is just irritating woman to me." " Why? Do you know her?" " No but she is nothing special. She is just like one lady I see every day in market!!" Nisha was so shocked. Nisha sensed that this girl must be friend of that lady otherwise why did she see her every day in market? But then she felt that she was jumping on conclusion. It was easily possible that this lady was unknown stranger but since that girl seeing her every day she felt that this lady was harmless. But Nisha knew that she was not harmless. Nisha could sense it. Nisha was irritated that no one was observing her. Suddenly that lady looked towards Nisha and smiled. Nisha shivered in fear. This lady was someone totally vicious. She could see it in her eyes but others couldn't. She knew it but no one was cooperating to her. She liked this library but due to this lady she suddenly began to feel that this library was scary. She decided that she was no longer interested in sitting there. She kept watching that lady she was so scared that she might follow her. She was so upset by all this. She kept looking around. She was so upset. She knew that woman was watching her. She took breath of relief when she sensed that this woman was not following her. She didn't understand why did she felt so scared of this woman. Then she opened her bag. She began to check out story book she just borrowed from her library. She was so shocked to see it's cover. Woman on that book looked exactly like her. This was so scary. She didn't understand what would be reason. She didn't understand how could she see same woman. Then she turned behind. She decided that she would go in library and locate that woman again. She ran inside and she was shocked since that woman was missing. She shivered in fear. She observed the girl with whom she was discussing about that woman. She ran towards her and asked her " Did you saw that woman?" Now that girl was clearly irritated. " Woman? Which woman? I don't see any woman!!" She was so upset. So she was seeing an invisible woman. It was totally upsetting. She couldn't be seeing such things. She shivered. She was so scared. Few days ago she was introduced to her one Auntie who was in mental asylum for treatment. She never heard of her until now since no one mentioned her. They were telling her that she murdered someone due to this madness. She began to think about it. Then she started to feel similarities. She was so scared. She didn't understand what was happening to her. She began to shiver with fear. She sensed that she was dreaming a woman. She ran away from Library. She was so scared. She took Auto and went home. She ran in kitchen. She wanted to talk with her Mom alone but her sister was standing there. She didn't want to share anything before her sister Rita. Since Rita always talked negatively about her. It was not just about her but it was about everyone. Rita felt that everything was going to turn worng for others but for herself she always expected the best. Rita was so sure that she would get everything as per her wish. But Rita didn't like when others started discussing their problems so she immediately started to taunt them. On this issue Nisha didn't want to hear taunts. She decided to keep quiet. But she kept pointing Mom. Her Mom was busy in cooking. Mom didn't even gave any attention to her. She was feeling so confused. She didn't understand how could she handle things. She needed to tell her Mom about her trouble. It was not something which could be ignored. She was showing signs of madness and it was something serious. She was so upset. But instead of Mom Rita turned her attention towards her. Rita " What happened? Why you are looking so pale? Are you sick? If you are..just stay away from me." Rita moved away. Nisha didn't want her near any way but she wanted to talk with Mom. Rita was becoming biggest obstacle in that process. She needed to send Rita out. But she didn't find any idea for it. She started to get upset step by step. She wanted to send her out of kitchen. Rita had different idea in her mind. Rita already sensed that something was wrong with sister. Rita wanted to dig in this matter. Rita always felt that she was superior than Nisha and she wanted to prove it on every moment. Rita felt that this was perfect moment. She turned towards Nisha with full determination of forcing her to tell entire thing while their Mom was busy in preparing new recipe. Nisha was upset. She didn't understand what did she supposed to do. She just decided to left room. She said " I need to go to restroom." Rita wanted to stop her. But Nisha began to go and she didn't object. She kept watching her.
Nisha was so frustrated. She felt as if bad luck was following her everywhere. She went in washroom and started washing her face. She was feeling so frustrated. She didn't understand why did she needed to suffer like that. She began to curse her Mom for acting so inattentive towards her. She wanted her help. She started to feel so upset. She was sure that she saw that lady who was not actually standing there before her. She knew that she was having mental problem. But she didn't understand if she had treatment on it. She shivered with fear. She kept feeling so upset. She felt that she didn't understand what she suppose to do. She knew that she saw that lady. She was so sure that she was truly existed. She felt so scared. She wanted to be normal. She was feeling so upset that she was getting tense on every moment. She kept sensing that she was not normal. She was dreaming a woman who didn't exist. She didn't understand what was wrong with her. She was so upset. She kept seeing different human beings. She sensed now that those human beings didn't exist. She knew that she was just dreaming them. She was so scared. She didn't understand what did she supposed to do. She felt that her body shivering like leaf. She kept looking at mirror. She could see her face in mirror. She looked in mirror and saw her tired face. She felt so much scared. She was not looking normal. Her face had that haunted look. She kept watching herself. She was not normal human being. She could see it on her face. She didn't understand why it all suddenly became visible. Few time ago in morning she was perfectly ordinary girl. She was studying like normal girl but not now. Then she sensed that her Mom was knocking on door of washroom. Mom " What happened? Are you alright?" She controlled her tears and said " I am fine." She washed her face and came out of washroom. Her face was not looking normal any more. But still she smiled and pretended as if everything was just perfect. Her Mom started to watch her face carefully. Mom " What happened?" Nisha gave nice smile and said " Nothing." Nisha was so upset but she didn't want to show her trouble. She didn't want Rita to know about it. She wanted to appear normal. She started to think that soon she would appear mad before whole world and she didn't want anyone to know before she reach to that point. She wanted to hide everything. She didn't want to world know. She smiled and said "Nothing Mom I just want to go to movie today." Her Mom looked shocked. She never showed desire to watch Movie until now. Nisha always preferred library. Even today it was just slip of tongue. She just wanted to appear normal before world. It was so frustrating and upsetting. She didn't understand how could she hide her trouble but she decided to hide them. Her Mom was confused but she immediately controlled herself. Mom " Great let me check movies." She nodded. She just needed to get out of house. She felt so happy when Mom selected movie but then most scary part entered. They needed to invite Rita. Nisha didn't want to take her with them. She was so upset. She decided that if Rita was going to come she didn't want to go to movie. She must do something which Rita didn't like. " Mom let do something two of us!!" Mom smiled and said " Don't worry. Rita was going out to some five star with her friend so you don't need to worry." Nisha smiled. She knew that Rita just got one boyfriend and it was best thing for Nisha and Rita both. Due to this boyfriend Rita didn't have time to interfere in Nisha's matter. Nisha smiled and said " Then let's go to movie." Her Mom selected movie and theatre. She nodded happily. Then she started to dress up. She was so tense. She felt as if this was last day of her life. She wanted to get dressed in best way. She began to choose her dress. She selected best dress out of cupboard. Then she tried it. When she came out Mom was shocked. Mom patted on her cheek and said " You are looking so beautiful!!" She smiled. Then she started to hurry up. She didn't want to meet Rita before going out. Rita was always so discouraging for her. But suddenly Rita appeared. Rita looked at her with shock. Rita " Where are you going?" " Just to watch movie.." " And you got all that dressed up just to watch movie." Nisha was so upset. She began to feel so unhappy. She didn't want Rita to interfere. But Rita was spoiling everything. She was turning entire matter in wrong direction. Nisha didn't want to feel negative when she was going to enjoy movie. Rita was observing her with jealousy. Rita had perfect boyfriend as per her wish. She had money to buy things. Still she kept asking things from Nisha. Nisha didn't understand why did she kept demanding. Rita had all but still her desire never stopped. Nisha was thinking about Rita and she wanted to stop it. Rita didn't argued further since Mom started to look towards her in anger. Rita began to feel scared so she immediately ran inside her room. Mom smiled and said "Let's go." Nisha nodded. They went out. Nisha looked around. She was searching for woman. She was sure that soon she would see her. But she didn't see her on that point so she took breath of relief. She began to feel relaxed. She started to sense that she needed some way to move ahead with happy thoughts. She began to remember her childhood memories when they used to live in joint family with their Uncle and Aunty. Before that argument when they used to enjoy every meal together as happy family. She knew that Uncle was no more now. She knew that Aunty didn't want to see their faces now. Aunty didn't like visitors that much. It was not about them. She hated any one coming in home. But still she imagined world when they were happy together. She kept remembering it all until they didn't reach to theatre where Mom pointed towards poster of Movie. It was family drama. She always loved family dramas since they bring back those memories. She happily went inside with her Mom to watch movie.
This time while watching movie Nisha had strange feeling. She felt that something was wrong with her. She kept checking her temperature again and again. It was normal. Still she kept feeling that she was soon going to fall sick. She was feeling so cold. She felt that it was surely sign of sickness. She didn't understand why did she needed to fall sick on such wonderful day. She wanted to enjoy but she knew that she had one evil sickness inside her. It was living inside her body. She could sense it. She kept feeling so scared. She didn't understand how could she take out this evil. She needed to do something about it. She was feeling so upset. She knew that she needed to take that evil out of body. She needed to remove it. But that evil was stored inside her body and she knew that it would grow. She knew that soon she started to see that woman. She knew that she was going to become mad. She tried hard to concentrate on movie but she couldn't. She could easily sense that her Mom was involved in movie while she was sitting beside her feeling frustrated. Clearly she was not getting involved. She just kept waiting for movie to end. She didn't want to leave theatre in middle but first time in her life she felt desire to go out. She sensed that something was wrong with her. She was not as normal as she supposed to be. She was not moving in right way. She was feeling so upset. She kept watching movie but she was getting more and more upset. Finally interval came. She was so angry. While entire audience seemed pleased. She was only one who was not happy about movie. She didn't understand why did she hated it. But she didn't like movie that much. She turned to Mom. But Mom started talking excitedly about movie. It became clear to her that Mom loved it too. Nisha was only person who hated it and Nisha began to feel that she was not normal. She didn't tell Mom how much she hated that movie. She wanted to look normal. She managed to hide her entire feelings. She didn't told her anything. She just kept nodding and smiling. She didn't felt any emotion but she pretended. She was so upset. She sensed that her entire attempt was one big failure. She kept thinking about it in positive way but it was useless. She kept looking around. She was sure that she would see that lady soon. She kept searching for her without success. But soon she found out that this lady was not appearing. She was clearly upsetting people since many people started looking towards her. But she kept searching for that lady. Finally Mom started to notice too. Mom " What happened? Why you are looking around?" " Nowhere specific.." Nisha took deep breath and she planned to tell Mom. But that point Mom suddenly located food counter which she wanted. " Ohh I like that chat. I want to eat it for such long time. But it doesn't seem safe on road. Now in this shop it seem so clean." Nisha was so angry but she couldn't object Mom's desire. She nodded and Mom went to buy chat. Nisha kept observing. She didn't see anyone suspicious like that lady. But she knew that she would see her soon. She was searching for that lady. She didn't even sense her Mom was near her. Mom " What happened? Tell me you are searching for whom?" " There was one lady..in my library. I feel that I kept seeing her." " Really!!" Her Mom started searching for her. Mom kept looking around. Mom didn't see her. Mom asked " Where is that lady?" She was so confused. She was also not able to see her now. Nisha didn't understand what she supposed to say. Nisha " She is not here. She was in library." Mom looked more confused. Mom " Why did we need to find her now?" " No..no we don't need to find her." Nisha decided to change subject. Nisha started to talk about movie. Mom soon forgot about other things. Then they went inside theatre. But this time Nisha liked movie little bit. She felt little relaxed about everything. She started to enjoy it. She began to think different ways to forget her real trouble. Finally movie was over. They came out. She started to feel fresh. She began to think that she wanted to live happily for few days. She started to insist on taking dinner in hotel. But Mom objected this. Mom " I don't have that much money. Let's go home." Nisha nodded. They returned home. Her Dad was waiting for them. Mom immediately ran in kitchen to heat food. Nisha was so irritated. Her Dad was already giving angry look. Dad " I am so hungry. Just hurry up." Nisha didn't understand why didn't he eat anything in restaurant. But he never did when they went outside. Her Dad didn't like to eat outside as per other's wishes. He ate only when he wished. Nisha knew that it was his choice but today she wanted to discuss with Mom. Then she looked towards her Dad. She felt that she could discuss with Dad too. After all Dad knew about that Auntie too. She slowly sat beside Dad. Dad was busy with mobile. She didn't want to disturb him but she didn't have much option so she started discussing. Nisha " Dad do you know that Auntie who was mad?" Dad looked at her with confused expression and then he asked " What did you asked?" She didn't dare to ask again. She just smiled and said " I asked how was your day?" Dad smiled and said " Perfect. What about you?" " We went to movie." " Really?!! Without me!!" "Sorry but you are always so busy.." Dad smiled and said " It's alright. Just learn to enjoy yourself." Nisha nodded. Then he started asking about Movie. Nisha began to describe it. Soon her original issue was totally forgotten. She managed to forget it for sometime. By end of conversation she began to feel that she would never see that lady again. She started laughing and enjoying. It was perfect day again. She began to doubt even existence of that mad Aunt. She started to feel sure that it all was just fiction. She was happy about it.
Nisha was so normal by next morning that she began to think she would not see that lady again. She was confident about it. She took her breakfast and went in college with full confidence. She was so shocked when she opened door of library. That woman was sitting there. She didn't understand how could she saw that lady again. She didn't sense what could that lady do. She saw that lady was sitting in library. She couldn't believe her eyes. She just ran away. She didn't stop in college. She ran out and took auto. She immediately entered in house. Rita was there but she didn't care. She kept running towards Mom. It was frustrating. Mom was so shocked. Mom "What happened?" She started crying. She couldn't stop herself. She kept crying. Her Mom tried to console. Even Rita tried to calm her. But she didn't stop crying. She kept crying until she didn't become too weak and she didn't fainted. When she woke up, Doctor was checking her. Doctor slowly recommended psychiatrist and she sensed that it all was over. Then after few days she visited psychiatrist. Psychiatrist " Are you sure you were imagining?" She was so confused. Then suddenly Dad spoke up " That Aunt was mad no doubt but it was issue from her mother's side. I don't think related to us." Mom " No..no she was from our family." Dad gave Mom angry look and psychiatrist said " Enough!! Don't act like that." Psychiatrist looked angrily at Dad. Nisha was so happy. She didn't want her Dad to keep bullying others. It was so upsetting. She finally decided that she needed to get over it. Nisha " I think I saw that lady and no one saw her." " Then I want you to confirm it tomorrow and then come to me." She nodded. Next day she went with determination and asked other girl about that lady. That girl said " Give us a break. She is elder sister of librarian." Nisha started laughing. Next time she went to Psychiatrist and told him all. Psychiatrist " As I thought. But I feel she need little counseling otherwise she might develop generalized Anxiety disorder step by step." They all agreed. Nisha kept visiting psychiatrist for some days. Soon she was okay. She didn't discuss this with others but she wasn't ashamed of visiting psychiatrist since this psychiatrist taught her how to handle people too. Nisha never felt so happy in life before. She began to feel happy like child again.
The End
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