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Sameera closed her eyes. She needed to sleep. Tomorrow she would have to go in college. She needed to take some rest. She forcibly closed her eyes. She knew that this bed was new but she had to sleep on it. She didn't want to express her fear. She didn't want to show any one that she was less excited about this. She needed to smile about it. She was the one who demanded for this big house. Her sister Tanuja always kept complaining that it was far away from city. Tanuja always hated traveling. She just loved life of city. Sameera wanted a big house and they were not rich enough to buy big house in city. They needed to stay in small flat. Other people might be okay with this. But she was not. She wanted a big house. When Dad got retired, they started discussing for house. Since until then they used to stay in company flat. Dad had kept budget but they never planned place. It was not decided that in which house they should stay. Mom always kept arguing that this way they might land on road if they didn't found house soon. But then Dad found it on time. There were two choice. One was flat on busy city. Other was big house on long distance from main city. Then they saw different houses. One was small house and other was big house away from city. She just wanted to buy big house. But Tanuja started fighting against her. She didn't give up this time. She wanted big house so she kept fighting day after day. Her fight was so strong that Tanuja decided to give up. She finally convinced every one that they needed a big house. Tanuja managed to get a nice car for reaching to town. Every thing just turned nice way but they needed a new loan which Dad decided to pay by selling their old property from town step by step. Dad needed time to sell it so he took loan. But Mom hated this. She kept saying that they must purchase house in our limited budget. She didn't like this extra budget at all. She felt those were going out of control while purchasing. Until now her Mom always used to tell them limits of expenditure and Sameera never argued. But this time she just kept insisting on her point and finally they decided that she might get her dream house. After all this was permanent investment. They needed to make it wisely. They were not going to buy house again and again so finally Dad convinced all that it should be something big. When Tanuja saw it, she hated travelling but when Sameera and Dad had decided that house. Others had to agree. When Mom saw that house, she just fall in love with it. She decided that extra expenditure was not waste. So it became clear that Tanuja alone against it. Sameera was so happy. Finally on one point she won against Tanuja. She got her dream house. It was strange. When they settled in their room, Tanuja settled in her room happily. She took big and nice room and arranged her things in way she wanted. Suddenly Sameera began to think that Tanuja just wanted car that was the reason why she pretended not happy about house. Sameera began to feel so hurt in that night. So finally here she was having sleepless night, while Tanuja was sleeping happily in her room. She just didn't understand why did everything went against her. She wanted this house still she was not happy in it and Tanuja was happy and sleeping peacefully in room. In her soul she wanted to go in parent's room. But she was too old for those stunts. She just wished only if she was in old house. But then she told herself that she must not think like that about this house. She wanted this house so she must admire it. She took deep breathe and kept trying to sleep. But nothing was working. She just kept walking up. She sensed one thing that it was going to be long night. She just looked at TV set in her room. She just wished that they should connect it as soon as possible then she might enjoy TV behind closed door. She wanted privacy and she told herself soon when facilities would enter she would enjoy it. She smiled to herself and closed her eyes with one hope that she would get tired now so she might get some sleep. Sameera tried so hard to get some sleep but nothing seemed to work. She was getting upset on every moment. She finally decided that she tried enough. She might need to take some walk. She needed to get little tired. She just needed to exercise so she went in hall. She was no longer scared of dark. She started to walk in hall. She began to imagine different hopeful things. It was really wonderful. She was imagining every positive thought. Then slowly she began to feel bored so she just went inside room. She needed to sleep. She went in that room. She started to force sleep on her. But it was not just working. She looked at wall clock. It was just 1 o'clock. She started to go out for walk in hall again. She just kept taking round until 2 o'clock. She was so panicked that she started crying. She was sitting alone in sofa. Then she understood that she must sleep so she fall on bed while crying. It was worst day of her life. Finally she closed her eyes. Then she began to feel sleepy. She began to feel relax.
Suddenly Sameera sensed light on eyes. She was feeling sleepy. She didn't want to wake up. She was so tired. But her Mom started yelling. " Wake up Sameera. You need to get ready early." She needed to wake up early since her house was far away from city. She was so tired. But she knew that she forced all so she must not argue now. She just stood up and went in bathroom. She started brushing teethes. She looked at mirror. She saw that there was little bit swelling under her eyes. But it was so small that she was sure no one was going to notice it. But she needed to sleep on next day. She started getting ready. She began to dress up in best way for college. She wanted to tell all her friends about her big house. She wanted to see them getting jealous. She wanted to see that envy in their eyes. She began to feel that she was happy now. She started to think about it in positive way. She began to see hopes from mind. She needed to take every thing in positive way. She did everything to look great and confidant. She was so happy. She went to bus stand. Weather was really wonderful there. She was so happy to stay in that wonderful weather. She just wished that she had shifted before. She could easily sense that it would create good effect on her skin. She was so happy. She knew that in few days she would glowing and every one would ask reason of her glow. She was so happy. She went inside bus. She easily got seat. She sat on it. She began to look out of window. Her whole day was just wonderful. She was enjoying it. She was moving around as per her choice. She felt that first time she took one decision and they followed her. When she entered in college, she sensed that every one was interested in her house. She was always shy one. She never talked much. But today every one wanted to talk with her. She began to feel so important before all. She slowly explained how did her big house look great. When Rati her best friend entered in class, she noticed that Sameera was surrounded by their group of five and four children. But Rati could see that in dreams of Sameera she must be feeling that whole college was around her. Rati knew Sameera's dream nature. She many times felt that Sameera insisted on that big house just because she wanted to get appreciation. Rati smiled. Since she was happy that Sameera got appreciated. Now she would keep dream whole day. But when Rati came near her, she saw that Sameera was looking little bit different. She sensed that Sameera was dressed in best way. She even used some make up to hide. But that make up was telling that something was wrong with her face.Since she never used make up normally. Rati " So lucky girl how are you? Did you enjoyed your big house?" Sameera gave big smile." Sure. I want to show it to you. Will you come to my house some day?" Rati was confused now. Rati never liked to visit any one. She always preferred her house. Rati " Well now let's not talk about over night stay in your house. I will visit you and then go back to my house." "Do you have trouble in sleeping when you change place?" Sameera started it in serious tone. Rati " Yes. I do." Then Sameera was about to say something when bell rang. They both had to sit quietly in bench. Then professor started teaching. Slowly their attention turned into that subject. Sameera could have discuss it again. But she already started regretting bringing that subject. She just kept smiling and kept talking about other things. Rati wanted to discuss but then slowly she managed to forget it too. Rati started discussing other things. So Sameera kept talking happily through out that day. She decided that she needed some exercise so she did some jogging and walking to cheer up herself. She did every thing that look great for tiring her. She was exhausted. Finally she enjoyed her day in college. Then she returned to her big house. She enjoyed walk in garden of cottage. She moved around that house. She went in special room to watch big flat screen TV. She felt as if she was living in some serial. That house was such beautiful. Finally they ate on big dinning table and once again she went in her room to sleep which had small TV too. Her parents shifted one old TV in Sameera's room. Tanuja didn't argue about it since she got her big car. So Sameera was happy that finally she could watch TV at night. She went in room. She tried to sleep when she began to feel sleepless. She started watching TV. She started searching for TV shows. She expected some nice horror movie or some suspense serial. But her hopes were shattered. Since she found that they were just running repeat telecast of shows. Nothing new was going on that TV. It was really boring but she just kept it on. She didn't want to feel lonely. That TV gave her feeling of company. She slowly began to feel sleepy. She switched of that TV and closed her eyes. It was strange. Suddenly she felt so sleepless. She never understood that TV was so important for sleeping. She decided that she might watch it once again. This way she kept watching TV. When finally she felt sleep, she looked at clock. It was hard to see but she saw that it was 3 p.m. so she kept on 3 o'clock on that night.
When morning came Sameera was more tired, she knew that she had to walk up. Her Mom was calling her. She slowly opened her eyes. She was so tired. She just could able to see world in normal way. But then she stood up and went to take bath . She looked at herself in mirror. She could see face in mirror. She saw that there was red mark swelling under eyes. She felt one thing that everyone was going to feel it. She knew that she needed sleep which was necessary thing for health. She decided that she must do something about it. She just needed to sleep for some hours. She couldn't go on like that. She didn't want to tell her Mom since she would clearly started point out towards her. She wanted this house so Mom's attitude was clear. Mom wanted her to adjust with that house on every day. She knew that if she complained then she would be blamed about it. She never wanted to get blamed about anything. She decided that she would hide it from Mom. She needed help. Then Rati's face came before her eyes. She knew that Rati would surely find some idea. She began to sense that she had to trust Rati. That day she sat in bus took ticket. Then she started looking outside. That cold wind managed to touch her face and she felt so relaxed. She started to feel sleepy. But she was sure in her heart that she shouldn't sleep like that bus. She just began to look out. Then she suddenly felt touch on her shoulder. She woke up with shock. Conductor was trying to woke her up. " What are you doing? You must not sleep in bus like that. I think you must have miss your stop. Since this is last stop." Sameera rubbed her eyes. She tried to look around for known things. When she went out, but she sensed that she was far away from city. She was standing on that corner where she was feeling so sadness. She started to feel sorrows from mind. She started to look in different direction. She began to sense that she didn't know any thing about that side. She began to see different look on each side. She started to look in different directions in life. She began to sense that she didn't know name of road. She soon sensed one thing. That she didn't know any thing about that road. She started to look around. She was so scared. She began to feel every person was looking at her. She started to remember all those crime stories which she started to see all those villains on that road. She was so upset. Then she took out her mobile. She didn't want to call at her home but she didn't have option. She called her Mom. Sameera" Hello Mom can you come and collect me?" " Collect you? Are you sick? Don't worry I will come in college." " No..no..Mom I can't able to reach to college. Actually I missed bus stop of college and I am last stop." " Where?" She looked around then she started asking people name of road. Many people didn't know that name. Finally she found one who knew that name. She told name to Mom. Mom " My god. I don't know that street. I will come by bus on last stop." Then she heard voice of Dad from behind. Dad " Why did she come by other bus? She could surely locate other stop on other side." Mom " She is scared and I must go." " And she should wait there alone. No need to do that. She can catch another bus and go to college." Mom didn't seem to convinced. But she knew that Dad was right. Mom " That was one of the reason I want to reduce traveling." " So she was going to move on your guidance for entire life. Come on. Let her grow up." Sameer started searching for another stop and soon she found it. She went to that stop. Once again she took bus. She decided that she would attend next lecture. She told name of her college bus stop. When she got ticket, she felt relaxed. She called Mom and told her that she was going to college again. When she reached late, she made some common excuse of family function. Then she attended her lecture. But she was tense now. She sensed one thing that she needed to sleep. But she couldn't able to sleep. She was so scared on that night. Her parents noticed some thing was wrong. Her Mom asked her on dinner table " Are you scared?" Dad laughed. " Of course. She was scared due to morning incidence. From now on just tell some one to point out bus stop. Few people are helpful. You can find some surely." Sameera nodded. But she was not scared of bus stop. She was scared of those endless nights. She just didn't able to sleep. It was so scary. Once again she didn't able to sleep on that night. She tried hard but finally she slept after 2 o'clock. One extra hour was not enough for her health and she sensed it on every moment. When she woke up next morning, she didn't dare to see her face in mirror. She knew that she was going to see worst face on every day. She caught the bus. Then she told Conductor to wake her up. He assumed that she did some job at night. She didn't break his assumption so this way she at least started to get little sleep during her traveling. She hoped that it would make her look fresh in college. She just always kept positive thoughts but somewhere in her soul she already started sensing negative thinking from mind. She knew that she was not looking so fresh in college. She started to feel so scared that one day she would fall asleep in college. She felt lucky that it didn't happen so she thought that her sleep in traveling was enough for her. She started moving ahead with limited sleep. She hoped from soul that it would work for her.
Sameera's Mom was watching her every day. She saw clear signs of not sleeping on face of Sameera. Mom decided that she must ask Sameera now. She asked her on dinner table. Mom" Sameera are you alright?" " Yes Mom I am fine." Tanuja " You are not. I can clearly see dark circles under your eyes. You are not sleeping properly." " No..No.. I am fine." " Really I heard every day that voice of TV for entire life." " This is impossible. I always keep my door shut." Tanuja started laughing. Tanuja " So you confess by your own mouth. Actually I have heard just once that voice when I was going to wash room in night. You managed to confess it by yourself." Sameera was so angry. She never liked it when Tanuja started to show that she was nothing but a stupid girl. Slowly tears started to gather in her eyes and it was worst since Tanuja was surely going to call her crying baby due to it. Dad " Enough. How could you tease our younger sister like that when she is not well?" " Not well? She is fine Dad. She is just not mature enough to sense when she should enjoy and when she should go to sleep. You gave her a room but she didn't have enough sense to understand that she must sleep on time. She kept watching TV. She just used her freedom in wrong way. She need punishment instead of pampering. " Sameera was so angry." If you feel this way, you can give TV to her too. She is doing everything for TV only. "" Don't talk nonsense. " Tanuja was angry now. Sameera was so happy to see this. Finally she managed to hurt Tanuja." You were protesting so much against big house but now you are happy in it. It seem you just needed a car. " Tanuja was so angry now. She started coming towards Sameera. But Mom screamed" Enough!!" Dad " I never expected such behavior from my daughters. What's wrong with you?" Sameera felt so scared. She never saw her Dad so angry. She started eating slowly. But Tanuja didn't stop talking. Tanuja " She was watching TV for entire time so my sleep got disturbed." " Stop lying. I kept my door closed." Mom" Stop arguing. Just eat your food and go to sleep." Tanuja nodded. Then they both started eating dinner. After it they finishing dinner, they went inside room. She went inside room but she didn't start TV. She didn't want Tanuja to blame her. She didn't understand why did Tanuja kept irritating her. She just sat there. Then she slowly turned on light. She started reading book. That book was nice. It was her favorite book. But due to lack of sleep she just couldn't able to read anything. She started to feel so weak and sleepy. She began to sense one thinking. She couldn't read in night. She started to sense that it was just worst moment for her. She decided that she had to sleep. She slept on bed but she couldn't able to get sleep. It was so strange. She just kept looking at ceiling. She decided that she must not look at watch. She didn't want to feel nervous. She just kept watching ceiling. She start to feel depressed. She began to sense different thoughts. She slowly began to feel her life was nothing but just one big burden. She wanted to sleep. But she couldn't able to sleep. She didn't sense any hope on any point. She was just useless thing for her family. Every one had Tanuja who was just perfect daughter. She was just nothing useful for them. She started crying slowly. From that she sensed one thing that her sleep during bus was not enough. She started to sense different concept. She began to feel different thought which kept telling her that she was nice. But her soul started to tell her that she couldn't move ahead in life like this. She suddenly felt so scared. Last time she slept in bus. She didn't want to sleep in college. She didn't able to sleep for long time. Finally she slept. When she woke up next morning, she kept trying to hide her face from Mom. She was lucky that her Mom was so busy in some work that she didn't have time to ask question. In that day she slept in bus. But she decided that she needed some idea to sleep. She slowly began to tell everything to Rati. Rati " What? You can't able to sleep. That was reason behind your dark circles." Sameera took deep breathe so every one saw them. Rati " And I have noticed sometimes you even get sleepy during lecture. You are lucky. Professor didn't notice it since we sit so behind. But this is not safe." Sameera was shocked when she sensed that she was sleeping during lectures. Sameera " I just want some solution on this. Do you know some sleeping pills?" " No. You can't buy them unless you have note from Doctor." " Then what about cough syrup?" " It might help for few days." Sameera smiled. She was so happy so she bought one cough syrup from chemist. She manage to hide it in her room. She took it after dinner. On that day she managed to sleep peacefully. She was so happy. She felt that finally she found solution to her trouble. Even her Mom began to feel relax. But that happiness was temporary since one day when Sameera woke up, she suddenly started to develop strange feeling in stomach. She just couldn't tolerate it. She had to run in bathroom. Her stomach was clearly upset. She kept having sensation of vomiting. Finally her Mom decided to take her to Doctor. Her Dad took out their car and went to visit Doctor.
Doctor checked Sameera carefully. Doctor " Your stomach is upset due to acidity? Did you taking some medicines?" Mom" What medicine?" " Just look at her eyes. She still seemed little bit sleepy. Did you took cough syrup?" " Yes I have." " But why? I didn't notice any trouble in your throat." Sameera was so nervous. Finally she told Doctor " Because I wanted to go to sleep." Doctor " What? Why don't you sleep in night?" Doctor turned her parents. " Is there any mental tension to her?" " No..No.." Sameera " I just can't able to sleep in new house." Doctor started laughing. Sameera felt so nervous. " Why did you hide it? It is common. You must not take medicine like this to get sleep. Are you scared to sleep alone?" " No I am fine. But I just don't feel sleepy." Doctor gave them a number of psychiatrist. " Your daughter is developing insomnia. She needed to treated soon. It might effect her life." Sameera started crying. She was so nervous. Mom " Don't worry sweet heart Doctor will help you then you can sleep." Dad " Why don't you told us? Are you scared of us? We never scream on you." " Mom Dad I told you to bought that house then this started happening." Mom " So what? You can't tell this before? You can't guess that you will develop this problem. We will not blame you for this." Sameera smiled. " We will go to that psychiatrist tomorrow. Then slowly he would solve your problem." Sameera nodded. That night she didn't took cough syrup. Her Mom kept coming in her room. But Sameera didn't want to be treated like baby before Tanuja so she told her to go away. She tried to close her eyes. But once again she couldn't able to sleep. She sensed one thing that she didn't want to close her eyes. She just didn't able to sleep so she woke and started TV. Now she didn't need to hide it. Since every one knew that she couldn't sleep, she hoped that TV would relax her but soon she sensed nothing was working on her. She just kept praying to god that she would feel sleepy soon. But nothing happened. Finally she slept on 3 o'clock. Her usual time to sleep which was causing her lot of harm. She was so upset. Next day she just couldn't able to woke up in morning. She was feeling totally sick. Her Mom gave her medicine for stomach. Then finally after some time they went to visit psychiatrist. She had to sit for long time before their number came. She went inside. She was feeling so sick on that day. She just needed to go to washroom again. She vomited there. When she came out, she apologized. Doctor smiled. " I am Doctor and you are patient. I don't feel you did something different than other patient." Sameera relaxed. Sameera smiled. Then slowly she started to tell everything. Doctor " So this new house was cause of trouble. Have you slept alone before?" " No never but I am not afraid to sleep alone." " I know. I want just asking for information that's all." Sameera nodded. Psychiatrist " Can you sit outside? I want to talk with your parents alone." Sameera " Sure." As soon as Sameera went out, Psychiatrist told her parents " She is scared to sleep alone." Mom " But I tried to sleep with her. She just didn't listen to me." " Because she didn't want to be taunted by her elder sister." Dad " Tanuja always kept harassing her. She never understands her duty as elder sister." Psychiatrist " At this point we need to concentrate on Sameera. She must not be pampered since it would make her more weak. She needed to deal with Tanuja in her own way. But you must create some excuse to sleep in her room with her. Do this for few days then she will adjust and sleep alone?" Dad " I can say we need to repair something." Mom nodded. Then they went out. In few days her parents started interior of their room so they were forced to share room. Mom slept with Sameera on her bed and Dad slept in guest room. They told girl that guest room bed was not strong enough and other rooms required repairing too. No one wanted to argue so they kept sleeping for few days. Mom saw that Sameera started sleeping properly. After few days Mom returned back to her room. Sameera was scared that she might lose her sleep. But her sleep managed to return to her. She once again started sleeping in normal way. She began to feel safe and secure in those rooms. It was really strange. Few days ago she felt so much depressed that her life became burden. But when she started sleeping once again. She began hopeful person who loved life. She sensed one thing that sleep was most precious thing. She didn't required much treatment from psychiatrist. In just few visit she felt that she was okay. Finally during last visit she asked psychiatrist " What was wrong with me?" " Nothing. Actually even a grown up person have little child in heart which get scared of monster in new room. But we don't want express that child in world openly that start to create trouble for our mind." " So I was just scared to sleep alone in new place." " Yes that's all." Sameera started laughing. She sensed one thing that she paid too much attention to Tanuja's taunts. She just decided to ignore them. From that day she learned to understand and express her problem. She no longer cared what world thinks. She decided to live her life for herself.
The End
Sameera closed her eyes. She needed to sleep. Tomorrow she would have to go in college. She needed to take some rest. She forcibly closed her eyes. She knew that this bed was new but she had to sleep on it. She didn't want to express her fear. She didn't want to show any one that she was less excited about this. She needed to smile about it. She was the one who demanded for this big house. Her sister Tanuja always kept complaining that it was far away from city. Tanuja always hated traveling. She just loved life of city. Sameera wanted a big house and they were not rich enough to buy big house in city. They needed to stay in small flat. Other people might be okay with this. But she was not. She wanted a big house. When Dad got retired, they started discussing for house. Since until then they used to stay in company flat. Dad had kept budget but they never planned place. It was not decided that in which house they should stay. Mom always kept arguing that this way they might land on road if they didn't found house soon. But then Dad found it on time. There were two choice. One was flat on busy city. Other was big house on long distance from main city. Then they saw different houses. One was small house and other was big house away from city. She just wanted to buy big house. But Tanuja started fighting against her. She didn't give up this time. She wanted big house so she kept fighting day after day. Her fight was so strong that Tanuja decided to give up. She finally convinced every one that they needed a big house. Tanuja managed to get a nice car for reaching to town. Every thing just turned nice way but they needed a new loan which Dad decided to pay by selling their old property from town step by step. Dad needed time to sell it so he took loan. But Mom hated this. She kept saying that they must purchase house in our limited budget. She didn't like this extra budget at all. She felt those were going out of control while purchasing. Until now her Mom always used to tell them limits of expenditure and Sameera never argued. But this time she just kept insisting on her point and finally they decided that she might get her dream house. After all this was permanent investment. They needed to make it wisely. They were not going to buy house again and again so finally Dad convinced all that it should be something big. When Tanuja saw it, she hated travelling but when Sameera and Dad had decided that house. Others had to agree. When Mom saw that house, she just fall in love with it. She decided that extra expenditure was not waste. So it became clear that Tanuja alone against it. Sameera was so happy. Finally on one point she won against Tanuja. She got her dream house. It was strange. When they settled in their room, Tanuja settled in her room happily. She took big and nice room and arranged her things in way she wanted. Suddenly Sameera began to think that Tanuja just wanted car that was the reason why she pretended not happy about house. Sameera began to feel so hurt in that night. So finally here she was having sleepless night, while Tanuja was sleeping happily in her room. She just didn't understand why did everything went against her. She wanted this house still she was not happy in it and Tanuja was happy and sleeping peacefully in room. In her soul she wanted to go in parent's room. But she was too old for those stunts. She just wished only if she was in old house. But then she told herself that she must not think like that about this house. She wanted this house so she must admire it. She took deep breathe and kept trying to sleep. But nothing was working. She just kept walking up. She sensed one thing that it was going to be long night. She just looked at TV set in her room. She just wished that they should connect it as soon as possible then she might enjoy TV behind closed door. She wanted privacy and she told herself soon when facilities would enter she would enjoy it. She smiled to herself and closed her eyes with one hope that she would get tired now so she might get some sleep. Sameera tried so hard to get some sleep but nothing seemed to work. She was getting upset on every moment. She finally decided that she tried enough. She might need to take some walk. She needed to get little tired. She just needed to exercise so she went in hall. She was no longer scared of dark. She started to walk in hall. She began to imagine different hopeful things. It was really wonderful. She was imagining every positive thought. Then slowly she began to feel bored so she just went inside room. She needed to sleep. She went in that room. She started to force sleep on her. But it was not just working. She looked at wall clock. It was just 1 o'clock. She started to go out for walk in hall again. She just kept taking round until 2 o'clock. She was so panicked that she started crying. She was sitting alone in sofa. Then she understood that she must sleep so she fall on bed while crying. It was worst day of her life. Finally she closed her eyes. Then she began to feel sleepy. She began to feel relax.
Suddenly Sameera sensed light on eyes. She was feeling sleepy. She didn't want to wake up. She was so tired. But her Mom started yelling. " Wake up Sameera. You need to get ready early." She needed to wake up early since her house was far away from city. She was so tired. But she knew that she forced all so she must not argue now. She just stood up and went in bathroom. She started brushing teethes. She looked at mirror. She saw that there was little bit swelling under her eyes. But it was so small that she was sure no one was going to notice it. But she needed to sleep on next day. She started getting ready. She began to dress up in best way for college. She wanted to tell all her friends about her big house. She wanted to see them getting jealous. She wanted to see that envy in their eyes. She began to feel that she was happy now. She started to think about it in positive way. She began to see hopes from mind. She needed to take every thing in positive way. She did everything to look great and confidant. She was so happy. She went to bus stand. Weather was really wonderful there. She was so happy to stay in that wonderful weather. She just wished that she had shifted before. She could easily sense that it would create good effect on her skin. She was so happy. She knew that in few days she would glowing and every one would ask reason of her glow. She was so happy. She went inside bus. She easily got seat. She sat on it. She began to look out of window. Her whole day was just wonderful. She was enjoying it. She was moving around as per her choice. She felt that first time she took one decision and they followed her. When she entered in college, she sensed that every one was interested in her house. She was always shy one. She never talked much. But today every one wanted to talk with her. She began to feel so important before all. She slowly explained how did her big house look great. When Rati her best friend entered in class, she noticed that Sameera was surrounded by their group of five and four children. But Rati could see that in dreams of Sameera she must be feeling that whole college was around her. Rati knew Sameera's dream nature. She many times felt that Sameera insisted on that big house just because she wanted to get appreciation. Rati smiled. Since she was happy that Sameera got appreciated. Now she would keep dream whole day. But when Rati came near her, she saw that Sameera was looking little bit different. She sensed that Sameera was dressed in best way. She even used some make up to hide. But that make up was telling that something was wrong with her face.Since she never used make up normally. Rati " So lucky girl how are you? Did you enjoyed your big house?" Sameera gave big smile." Sure. I want to show it to you. Will you come to my house some day?" Rati was confused now. Rati never liked to visit any one. She always preferred her house. Rati " Well now let's not talk about over night stay in your house. I will visit you and then go back to my house." "Do you have trouble in sleeping when you change place?" Sameera started it in serious tone. Rati " Yes. I do." Then Sameera was about to say something when bell rang. They both had to sit quietly in bench. Then professor started teaching. Slowly their attention turned into that subject. Sameera could have discuss it again. But she already started regretting bringing that subject. She just kept smiling and kept talking about other things. Rati wanted to discuss but then slowly she managed to forget it too. Rati started discussing other things. So Sameera kept talking happily through out that day. She decided that she needed some exercise so she did some jogging and walking to cheer up herself. She did every thing that look great for tiring her. She was exhausted. Finally she enjoyed her day in college. Then she returned to her big house. She enjoyed walk in garden of cottage. She moved around that house. She went in special room to watch big flat screen TV. She felt as if she was living in some serial. That house was such beautiful. Finally they ate on big dinning table and once again she went in her room to sleep which had small TV too. Her parents shifted one old TV in Sameera's room. Tanuja didn't argue about it since she got her big car. So Sameera was happy that finally she could watch TV at night. She went in room. She tried to sleep when she began to feel sleepless. She started watching TV. She started searching for TV shows. She expected some nice horror movie or some suspense serial. But her hopes were shattered. Since she found that they were just running repeat telecast of shows. Nothing new was going on that TV. It was really boring but she just kept it on. She didn't want to feel lonely. That TV gave her feeling of company. She slowly began to feel sleepy. She switched of that TV and closed her eyes. It was strange. Suddenly she felt so sleepless. She never understood that TV was so important for sleeping. She decided that she might watch it once again. This way she kept watching TV. When finally she felt sleep, she looked at clock. It was hard to see but she saw that it was 3 p.m. so she kept on 3 o'clock on that night.
When morning came Sameera was more tired, she knew that she had to walk up. Her Mom was calling her. She slowly opened her eyes. She was so tired. She just could able to see world in normal way. But then she stood up and went to take bath . She looked at herself in mirror. She could see face in mirror. She saw that there was red mark swelling under eyes. She felt one thing that everyone was going to feel it. She knew that she needed sleep which was necessary thing for health. She decided that she must do something about it. She just needed to sleep for some hours. She couldn't go on like that. She didn't want to tell her Mom since she would clearly started point out towards her. She wanted this house so Mom's attitude was clear. Mom wanted her to adjust with that house on every day. She knew that if she complained then she would be blamed about it. She never wanted to get blamed about anything. She decided that she would hide it from Mom. She needed help. Then Rati's face came before her eyes. She knew that Rati would surely find some idea. She began to sense that she had to trust Rati. That day she sat in bus took ticket. Then she started looking outside. That cold wind managed to touch her face and she felt so relaxed. She started to feel sleepy. But she was sure in her heart that she shouldn't sleep like that bus. She just began to look out. Then she suddenly felt touch on her shoulder. She woke up with shock. Conductor was trying to woke her up. " What are you doing? You must not sleep in bus like that. I think you must have miss your stop. Since this is last stop." Sameera rubbed her eyes. She tried to look around for known things. When she went out, but she sensed that she was far away from city. She was standing on that corner where she was feeling so sadness. She started to feel sorrows from mind. She started to look in different direction. She began to sense that she didn't know any thing about that side. She began to see different look on each side. She started to look in different directions in life. She began to sense that she didn't know name of road. She soon sensed one thing. That she didn't know any thing about that road. She started to look around. She was so scared. She began to feel every person was looking at her. She started to remember all those crime stories which she started to see all those villains on that road. She was so upset. Then she took out her mobile. She didn't want to call at her home but she didn't have option. She called her Mom. Sameera" Hello Mom can you come and collect me?" " Collect you? Are you sick? Don't worry I will come in college." " No..no..Mom I can't able to reach to college. Actually I missed bus stop of college and I am last stop." " Where?" She looked around then she started asking people name of road. Many people didn't know that name. Finally she found one who knew that name. She told name to Mom. Mom " My god. I don't know that street. I will come by bus on last stop." Then she heard voice of Dad from behind. Dad " Why did she come by other bus? She could surely locate other stop on other side." Mom " She is scared and I must go." " And she should wait there alone. No need to do that. She can catch another bus and go to college." Mom didn't seem to convinced. But she knew that Dad was right. Mom " That was one of the reason I want to reduce traveling." " So she was going to move on your guidance for entire life. Come on. Let her grow up." Sameer started searching for another stop and soon she found it. She went to that stop. Once again she took bus. She decided that she would attend next lecture. She told name of her college bus stop. When she got ticket, she felt relaxed. She called Mom and told her that she was going to college again. When she reached late, she made some common excuse of family function. Then she attended her lecture. But she was tense now. She sensed one thing that she needed to sleep. But she couldn't able to sleep. She was so scared on that night. Her parents noticed some thing was wrong. Her Mom asked her on dinner table " Are you scared?" Dad laughed. " Of course. She was scared due to morning incidence. From now on just tell some one to point out bus stop. Few people are helpful. You can find some surely." Sameera nodded. But she was not scared of bus stop. She was scared of those endless nights. She just didn't able to sleep. It was so scary. Once again she didn't able to sleep on that night. She tried hard but finally she slept after 2 o'clock. One extra hour was not enough for her health and she sensed it on every moment. When she woke up next morning, she didn't dare to see her face in mirror. She knew that she was going to see worst face on every day. She caught the bus. Then she told Conductor to wake her up. He assumed that she did some job at night. She didn't break his assumption so this way she at least started to get little sleep during her traveling. She hoped that it would make her look fresh in college. She just always kept positive thoughts but somewhere in her soul she already started sensing negative thinking from mind. She knew that she was not looking so fresh in college. She started to feel so scared that one day she would fall asleep in college. She felt lucky that it didn't happen so she thought that her sleep in traveling was enough for her. She started moving ahead with limited sleep. She hoped from soul that it would work for her.
Sameera's Mom was watching her every day. She saw clear signs of not sleeping on face of Sameera. Mom decided that she must ask Sameera now. She asked her on dinner table. Mom" Sameera are you alright?" " Yes Mom I am fine." Tanuja " You are not. I can clearly see dark circles under your eyes. You are not sleeping properly." " No..No.. I am fine." " Really I heard every day that voice of TV for entire life." " This is impossible. I always keep my door shut." Tanuja started laughing. Tanuja " So you confess by your own mouth. Actually I have heard just once that voice when I was going to wash room in night. You managed to confess it by yourself." Sameera was so angry. She never liked it when Tanuja started to show that she was nothing but a stupid girl. Slowly tears started to gather in her eyes and it was worst since Tanuja was surely going to call her crying baby due to it. Dad " Enough. How could you tease our younger sister like that when she is not well?" " Not well? She is fine Dad. She is just not mature enough to sense when she should enjoy and when she should go to sleep. You gave her a room but she didn't have enough sense to understand that she must sleep on time. She kept watching TV. She just used her freedom in wrong way. She need punishment instead of pampering. " Sameera was so angry." If you feel this way, you can give TV to her too. She is doing everything for TV only. "" Don't talk nonsense. " Tanuja was angry now. Sameera was so happy to see this. Finally she managed to hurt Tanuja." You were protesting so much against big house but now you are happy in it. It seem you just needed a car. " Tanuja was so angry now. She started coming towards Sameera. But Mom screamed" Enough!!" Dad " I never expected such behavior from my daughters. What's wrong with you?" Sameera felt so scared. She never saw her Dad so angry. She started eating slowly. But Tanuja didn't stop talking. Tanuja " She was watching TV for entire time so my sleep got disturbed." " Stop lying. I kept my door closed." Mom" Stop arguing. Just eat your food and go to sleep." Tanuja nodded. Then they both started eating dinner. After it they finishing dinner, they went inside room. She went inside room but she didn't start TV. She didn't want Tanuja to blame her. She didn't understand why did Tanuja kept irritating her. She just sat there. Then she slowly turned on light. She started reading book. That book was nice. It was her favorite book. But due to lack of sleep she just couldn't able to read anything. She started to feel so weak and sleepy. She began to sense one thinking. She couldn't read in night. She started to sense that it was just worst moment for her. She decided that she had to sleep. She slept on bed but she couldn't able to get sleep. It was so strange. She just kept looking at ceiling. She decided that she must not look at watch. She didn't want to feel nervous. She just kept watching ceiling. She start to feel depressed. She began to sense different thoughts. She slowly began to feel her life was nothing but just one big burden. She wanted to sleep. But she couldn't able to sleep. She didn't sense any hope on any point. She was just useless thing for her family. Every one had Tanuja who was just perfect daughter. She was just nothing useful for them. She started crying slowly. From that she sensed one thing that her sleep during bus was not enough. She started to sense different concept. She began to feel different thought which kept telling her that she was nice. But her soul started to tell her that she couldn't move ahead in life like this. She suddenly felt so scared. Last time she slept in bus. She didn't want to sleep in college. She didn't able to sleep for long time. Finally she slept. When she woke up next morning, she kept trying to hide her face from Mom. She was lucky that her Mom was so busy in some work that she didn't have time to ask question. In that day she slept in bus. But she decided that she needed some idea to sleep. She slowly began to tell everything to Rati. Rati " What? You can't able to sleep. That was reason behind your dark circles." Sameera took deep breathe so every one saw them. Rati " And I have noticed sometimes you even get sleepy during lecture. You are lucky. Professor didn't notice it since we sit so behind. But this is not safe." Sameera was shocked when she sensed that she was sleeping during lectures. Sameera " I just want some solution on this. Do you know some sleeping pills?" " No. You can't buy them unless you have note from Doctor." " Then what about cough syrup?" " It might help for few days." Sameera smiled. She was so happy so she bought one cough syrup from chemist. She manage to hide it in her room. She took it after dinner. On that day she managed to sleep peacefully. She was so happy. She felt that finally she found solution to her trouble. Even her Mom began to feel relax. But that happiness was temporary since one day when Sameera woke up, she suddenly started to develop strange feeling in stomach. She just couldn't tolerate it. She had to run in bathroom. Her stomach was clearly upset. She kept having sensation of vomiting. Finally her Mom decided to take her to Doctor. Her Dad took out their car and went to visit Doctor.
Doctor checked Sameera carefully. Doctor " Your stomach is upset due to acidity? Did you taking some medicines?" Mom" What medicine?" " Just look at her eyes. She still seemed little bit sleepy. Did you took cough syrup?" " Yes I have." " But why? I didn't notice any trouble in your throat." Sameera was so nervous. Finally she told Doctor " Because I wanted to go to sleep." Doctor " What? Why don't you sleep in night?" Doctor turned her parents. " Is there any mental tension to her?" " No..No.." Sameera " I just can't able to sleep in new house." Doctor started laughing. Sameera felt so nervous. " Why did you hide it? It is common. You must not take medicine like this to get sleep. Are you scared to sleep alone?" " No I am fine. But I just don't feel sleepy." Doctor gave them a number of psychiatrist. " Your daughter is developing insomnia. She needed to treated soon. It might effect her life." Sameera started crying. She was so nervous. Mom " Don't worry sweet heart Doctor will help you then you can sleep." Dad " Why don't you told us? Are you scared of us? We never scream on you." " Mom Dad I told you to bought that house then this started happening." Mom " So what? You can't tell this before? You can't guess that you will develop this problem. We will not blame you for this." Sameera smiled. " We will go to that psychiatrist tomorrow. Then slowly he would solve your problem." Sameera nodded. That night she didn't took cough syrup. Her Mom kept coming in her room. But Sameera didn't want to be treated like baby before Tanuja so she told her to go away. She tried to close her eyes. But once again she couldn't able to sleep. She sensed one thing that she didn't want to close her eyes. She just didn't able to sleep so she woke and started TV. Now she didn't need to hide it. Since every one knew that she couldn't sleep, she hoped that TV would relax her but soon she sensed nothing was working on her. She just kept praying to god that she would feel sleepy soon. But nothing happened. Finally she slept on 3 o'clock. Her usual time to sleep which was causing her lot of harm. She was so upset. Next day she just couldn't able to woke up in morning. She was feeling totally sick. Her Mom gave her medicine for stomach. Then finally after some time they went to visit psychiatrist. She had to sit for long time before their number came. She went inside. She was feeling so sick on that day. She just needed to go to washroom again. She vomited there. When she came out, she apologized. Doctor smiled. " I am Doctor and you are patient. I don't feel you did something different than other patient." Sameera relaxed. Sameera smiled. Then slowly she started to tell everything. Doctor " So this new house was cause of trouble. Have you slept alone before?" " No never but I am not afraid to sleep alone." " I know. I want just asking for information that's all." Sameera nodded. Psychiatrist " Can you sit outside? I want to talk with your parents alone." Sameera " Sure." As soon as Sameera went out, Psychiatrist told her parents " She is scared to sleep alone." Mom " But I tried to sleep with her. She just didn't listen to me." " Because she didn't want to be taunted by her elder sister." Dad " Tanuja always kept harassing her. She never understands her duty as elder sister." Psychiatrist " At this point we need to concentrate on Sameera. She must not be pampered since it would make her more weak. She needed to deal with Tanuja in her own way. But you must create some excuse to sleep in her room with her. Do this for few days then she will adjust and sleep alone?" Dad " I can say we need to repair something." Mom nodded. Then they went out. In few days her parents started interior of their room so they were forced to share room. Mom slept with Sameera on her bed and Dad slept in guest room. They told girl that guest room bed was not strong enough and other rooms required repairing too. No one wanted to argue so they kept sleeping for few days. Mom saw that Sameera started sleeping properly. After few days Mom returned back to her room. Sameera was scared that she might lose her sleep. But her sleep managed to return to her. She once again started sleeping in normal way. She began to feel safe and secure in those rooms. It was really strange. Few days ago she felt so much depressed that her life became burden. But when she started sleeping once again. She began hopeful person who loved life. She sensed one thing that sleep was most precious thing. She didn't required much treatment from psychiatrist. In just few visit she felt that she was okay. Finally during last visit she asked psychiatrist " What was wrong with me?" " Nothing. Actually even a grown up person have little child in heart which get scared of monster in new room. But we don't want express that child in world openly that start to create trouble for our mind." " So I was just scared to sleep alone in new place." " Yes that's all." Sameera started laughing. She sensed one thing that she paid too much attention to Tanuja's taunts. She just decided to ignore them. From that day she learned to understand and express her problem. She no longer cared what world thinks. She decided to live her life for herself.
The End
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