Poem 380. Complicated

                                                       Complicated
So complicated is my life from each and every point I just don't understand those thought inside
My life I feel that those thoughts are something so important for life that on every moment I just
Feel one thing from my mind that I must try to understand those thought inside life but still
Sometimes I feel that I can't understand those thoughts inside life I have just one thought from
My thinking and from my mind that on every moment I just feel one thing about life I have
Just one feeling that I don't able to understand any truth of life on any point because then
I just feel that my every thought is so confused on many points in life I just never understand
Even after spending lot of hours in life that truth of matter is important for our mind then
I just feel that those thoughts which I have inside my mind are so confused with each other
That I just don't understand those problems on sometimes I just have one feeling from inside
My mind because when I start walking on some puzzles I just feel one thought inside life
After all those thoughts are something which tell us truth and right but still sometimes those
Puzzle which are confused inside life are something so complicated that I feel that something
Which can't be understood are those puzzles of wrong and right inside life I just have one
Thought from inside of our mind I feel that right and wrong are just two sides so when
We look at thing we can't identify inside life because those things will just change from point
To point in our life after all those things have two different things which are something so
Important in our life because those things are some thing which are so important to go ahead
In life I just feel that on every point I feel one thing from inside of my mind that on every
Moment and thought I need to understand decision for our thinking inside every point in life
After all those right and wrong things are important for life because when we start thinking
About them we just feel one thing from my mind that those right and wrong things are
Just important part of our future and our life I have just one thought inside my mind that
One some moment people tell me one thing is truth and on other moment they began to
Admire other side of life so without understanding which one is true I began to believe it
Inside life because on every moment I just feel one thing that I am on wrong side because
Those moment manage to confuse me by minute inside life I know that I don't want to be
Judge inside life but sometimes I am force to be judge inside my life after all our thinking
Will look perfect inside life I just never understand those thoughts of life I never feel alone
In my life when I want to judge in life I just feel one thing from my mind that I have some
Thoughts are something important in life but then I just feel one thing inside in life
After all just by judging every one I have to support some people on some occasions and
On sometimes inside my life on every moment I just feel one thing from our mind that
I have to decide what is wrong inside our life because as we went ahead in our life but
Then I just think that on every point inside our life I just feel that on many occasion in life
I feel that one thing which truly enter in life because as I went ahead on some point in life
But on those occasions I need to decide that which one is truth because this is one thing
We just can't avoid on each and every time I just feel one thought from my mind that
On every spot we can win just as we prefer and as we like but it will not happen inside life
As I start to decide inside our life which one is wrong and right in our life after all those
Thoughts are something which are nice for our life I have to decide what is wrong and right
But when I get those information they all seem so wrong in life I just feel one thing from
My mind that on every point I need to understand truth of each concept in life but when
I start searching for some logic and for some points I just feel that I am on wrong side
Of my future and my life I have one feeling from inside of my mind that on every moment
I need to understand and take decision in life I have make decision about things in life
Because those things will not look as perfect as I thought on every point I feel as if I am
In one puzzle which is wrong from every thought and every point inside life I have just
One solution on every thoughts which are wrong or right but then I just feel one thing
From my mind I feel that on every point I need to understand those thoughts in life
But then I just feel that puzzle is some important part of my life because it will help me in life
But still I don't like it much in life because it will always manage to complicate my future and life.

Adventure story 43. Roll No.99

happy independence day

                                                         

                                                                     Roll No.99

As usual Nisha wanted to reach on time to college.After all this was her first day.She was going to choose who was going to sit beside her on this day.It was an undecided rule in their class.That on first day you sat with a person, you had to sat with her for whole year so getting best seat today was very important to her.She literally started running in direction of college and that was her biggest mistake.She didn't able to see a bike coming in her direction.Then as soon as that bike hit her,she felt a pain.She could not bear.She started screaming.She just could not able to move.She could believe it.That was happening with her.She always thought that she was so careful that it would never happened to her.But one impulse of hurrying took her in to hospital.She saw all people trying to help her.But nothing helped her.Until she reached to hospital,when finally her pains stopped because of doctor's medicine.She understood that she made worst mistake of life.Now she didn't get a best seat in class with her friend instead of that she got best bed in hospital.She clearly understood that she was going to be in hospital for many days so there was no need to worry about best seat.When she would go back to college all her favorite friends would be busy with their studies and they must had chosen partners who would sit with them.She made a big mistake and she had to pay for it.She sat in that hospital with hope for the best.She was so shocked when she tried to walk.She just couldn't able to walk much.It felt as if her leg was made of stone.It was so heavy that she couldn't able to move it.She began to more and more hate the idea of going to college.She even thought that distance education would be better option.But her parents were strictly against it so after some days when she got permission of her Doctor.Then she forced to go in college.
         Finally her worst day came when she had to go in college.As soon as she reached college she knew that it was mistake of her life.She had prepared herself best to bear but when she saw everyone was looking at her stick instead of her beautiful face.Her worst dream turned true.She wanted to go in her classroom as soon as possible.But she couldn't walk so fast.In attempt of walking fast she tripped.A boy stood near by hold her.But there was nothing romantic in it.It was most awkward situation for her.Everyone was laughing and cracking jokes.Then she tried to stand but that boy was too weak to hold her weight so instead of helping her.He fell on the ground.Everyone started laughing.After hearing those voices her professors came out."What happened?"Then he saw Nisha was standing in strange position trying to steady herself with wall and the boy fall on the ground."Oh my god!Call some one from gym to help her.This boy is useless.He can't able to bear her weight.She needs someone healthy to hold her."So she was fat.It was clear to her.Until now her Doctor told her.She was okay.That weight was proper for her height.But now she was convinced otherwise.She had to lose her weight and she was going on diet.But she was not happy that whole college would knew about it now.Everyone was watching her with such amusement as if she was a humpty dumpty who had a great fall.She was sure that they all were going to it discuss afterwards.Then someone finally came near her and gave her stick.All students were scared.She could see fear in their eyes.They all were thinking that they would harm her by touching.She wanted to scream on them and tell them that she was not made of glass so they could come and help her.But she didn't want to create a scene so she kept quiet.Finally with help of a stick she started standing.One girl"Don't stand you may hurt yourself?""Don't worry.If I continued standing like this,it will harm me more."Suddenly everyone convinced with her and they started to help her.She finally managed to stand and thanked everyone for their help.At that spot she suddenly understood.No one was laughing at her.They all were concerned about her.She was not alone.Everyone was there to help her.Even one girl took her bag from her hand and told her that she would take her in classroom.She had many friends here.But problem was none could able to sit with her because everyone had their own best friend.She felt sad again.She wished the girl who was carrying her bag would be in her class.But just wishing would not change the things.That girl was not in her class in fact she was her senior.But other girl who was helping her by telling crowd to move away was in her class.But sadly she already got partner on her bench and she was happy with her.Nisha just didn't understand.What did she suppose to do?She couldn't sit alone.She always thought that sitting alone mean having no friends in class.In other word a most unwanted girl and she didn't want to be it so she was too scared to go inside the class.But she had to go inside so she took deep breath and step inside.  
         When she went inside all seats were selected,accept one.She had no option except to sit in it.She sat there and looked around.Everyone was arranged in their work.No one was seemed to be interested in Nisha.She felt so alone and left out.After some time some of friends noticed her.They inquired about her.Nisha was thrilled so finally she had someone concerned.But they talked for sometime and then they all went back to their seat as if she never existed.She was sitting alone waiting for person who would sit beside her.While talking to her friends she made inquiries regarding girl who was sitting on that bench.They all saw her but knew nothing about her.She was just a quiet girl who never seemed to be interested in talking to anyone.They all said that she to be a good girl with no visible problems.But personally they didn't know even her name.They all called her "Roll No.99."That was her name in this class.But Nisha can't believe any girl could be that shy.She decided that they all might be exaggerating.But her sitting alone like this could be proof of her strange nature.Then she thought it might be just coincidence.Finally Nisha started waiting for that mysterious girl.Finally bell rang and on that moment a girl came inside.That girl was dressed in such a style that no body could guess what was her nature.Then she looked around.When she saw her bench and she was very upset to see Nisha there.Nisha was scared to see her response.She never thought anger would be first expression.She expected irritation.But anger too much.Nisha just started to search for another bench.But there was no bench available.Nisha looked at that girl as she once again hide her expression and sat on bench.Nisha"Sorry.I hope you don't mind if I sit here." That girl just looked at black board.Their teacher had entered in class.It was good excuse for that girl who should be called now as Roll no.99.Nisha was whole time nervous because of her.She never even bothered to smile.She looked just at black broad and she sat in that position.She didn't even changed position of her hands.She was sitting there all time like a statue.Nisha was confused but it was first day so she decided not to bother her.But then on second thought she knew that she had to bother her.She needed notes given by her teacher during her absence and girl who was sharing your bench mostly supposed to do that favour on you.Nisha had to bother her.Nisha"Hallo,I am Nisha."After that Nisha expected a nice name but she received just a silence.How did now Nisha should talk to Roll No.99?She was not responding  to anything.She just didn't want to talk to Nisha.Nisha could had ignored her completely but Nisha needed those notes.Nisha"Actually I wanted some notes.I was sick so I could not..."Suddenly she threw her notebook in Nisha's direction.Nisha was shocked.Then she understood that Roll No.99 was giving her notes.It was strange way to help someone.But Roll No.99 really helped her.Then suddenly classroom bell rang for recess and before Nisha could say thanks.Roll No.99 vanished out of the class room.
         Slowly all students of class room went away.Now Nisha knew that she didn't have one true friend.No one was interested in her.She sadly took out her tiffin and started eating it alone.After all she was already started feeling hungry.That was the first time when Nisha understood what was the meaning of loneliness and depression.In school there were always your teacher to support you.You didn't have to stand on your own.But in college you had to find your friend by yourself.Nisha was finding it hard to crop up with it.Especially after her sickness she was in mess.But even before that her life was not in flying colours.She never found a good friend so even now she was all alone.Even Roll No.99 was not ready to give her company.Nisha just didn't know why did everyone hate her company.Finally once again bell rang and Roll No.99 came inside.Nisha smiled at her.But she didn't gave any response.This time she was using her book as a cover so Nisha had to accept her attitude.Nisha slowly began to get used to Roll No.99's attitudes.She no longer accept an answer from her.She just carried on talking whenever she wished.Roll No.99 never answered her questions but at least didn't scream on her.Nisha thought  that slowly she would change her attitude.But it never happened.Roll No.99 never changed.Then one day while studying Nisha suddenly remembered that she forgot to bring her text book.Her teacher was very strict.If she knew about Nisha's missing textbook.Nisha was sure she would be thrown out of the class so Nisha was very scared.But she was already sitting in classroom and teacher was standing before her.Teacher"Nisha take out your textbook and read chaper no.34 from page 256."Now Nisha stood up.It was her worst day.How did she suppose to explain to teacher about her textbook.Then suddenly a sweet voice came sweet but unknown voice.It was Roll No.99 who was first time talking in class.In fact before whole class.Everyone was shocked even teacher could not able to hide her shock."She don't have her textbook."Now teacher started looking angrily at Nisha.Nisha was sad because Roll No.99 betrayed her one sided friendship."Why are you answering for her?I thought you don't have voice.Now it seems that her voice is missing.""Mam I am saying this because it was my mistake that her book is ruined.She didn't want to blame me before the class.Actually yesterday by mistake I put my wet umbrella on her book so her book got spoiled.Can you please give her one chance?""That is no excuse.She should have bought a book yesterday only.Any way on your request I will give her one chance because I like to see that finally you started making friends.Great.Nisha you may sit down now.Bring that book tomorrow and always remember this is your last chance.""Okay Miss." Nisha was so shocked Roll No.99 had saved her and for that she had spoken before class which was one of the greatest wonder in eyes of whole class so finally Nisha got one friend.Her name was Roll No.99.Now Nisha didn't like it so she once again began to ask her about name.But once again she ignored her.It was strange way to keep friendship.Roll No.99 would help her in need but Nisha should not expect answers or talking from her.After all friend in need is friend indeed so Nisha excepted Roll No.99's condition.
            Finally one day Nisha's birthday came.She invited many friends from class.But since Roll No.99 was turned out to be her best friend her attendance was required.Nisha"Will you come to my birthday party tomorrow.Please come.I will give you my address..."Before Nisha could say something.Roll No.99 spoke"Sorry.I never go to social functions."After that Nisha asked her many questions.But all seemed to be crashing to wall.Nisha was very hurt after all Roll No.99 had to come.During that whole birthday Nisha missed Roll No.99 on every spot.Next day she brought some pieces of cakes and return gift for her.But she was shocked when She saw Roll No.99 had brought a beautiful imported pink lipstick for her as birthday gift.Nisha was so happy.But Roll No.99 gave that gift without as smile and with just coldness.As if she was forced to give it.But until now Nisha knew very well that no one could force Roll No.99 in doing anything.It was gift of their friendship.After that Nisha started to inquire about her birthday.But Roll No.99 told her coldly that she never celebrate her birthday.Then suddenly one day Roll No.99 stopped coming.Her absence started hurting Nisha.After all she was her friend.But she didn't where to inquire about her.She asked in whole class and all claimed that they didn't even knew that Roll No.99 existed.In a way it was true.She never talked with any one so a girl sitting quietly on last bench in corner was not a girl worth noticing.Finally after seven days when Roll No.99 didn't come,Nisha decide to ask teacher about her.It took a lot of courage to ask a teacher.But Nisha gathered it.Nisha "Miss can you please tell me why Roll No.99 is not coming?""What did you call her?Roll No.99!!I thought that you are her best friend.""I am.But she never told me her name.""That is most silly statement I ever heard.You are sitting with her whole time in college still you didn't got a time to ask her name?""No Miss I asked.But she didn't tell.""Now that is enough.You shall have to learn how to make friend with other students.Any way go to clerk tell him I send you and he will give you her address.Of course only if you interested in visiting and inquiring about your friend..."Before that teacher could start blaming Nisha more.Another teacher interfered"Come on .Now don't be so old fashioned.Don't you know now a days these young girls called each other with strange names.It is all just to show affection."Nisha knew it was not truth.But she didn't want to say anything.That teacher started smiling"These young students and their trends!Come on hurry.Today you can take half day.Go to your friend Roll No.99 and when you return tell me what's wrong with her."Nisha nodded.Then she took address and she began to search for friends who would give her company.But no one was interested in meeting Roll No.99.Finally she had to go alone so she asked her Mom to come with her.She wanted correct address and her Mom knew it.When they reached there.Her Mom told her to rang the bell.A middle age woman opened the door.Now it was time to say Roll No.99's real name.But due to fear Nisha asked"Is this Roll No.99's home?"That woman looked at her in strange way.Then before she could say anything.She saw Roll No.99 was sleeping on bed.Nisha"What happened to her?""Pneumonia.She got wet while going to school.Who are you?"Nisha's mother"She is her classmates.Since she was absent for so many days,we thought may be we should come and meet her.I hope you don't mind."That woman smiled happily"Why shall I?I am so glad that my daughter manage to make at least one friend."Nisha and her Mom was shocked.As soon as they entered the room Roll No.99 immediately went out without even saying hello.Nisha's Mom didn't like it.Roll No.99's Mom"I am sorry.But she is like that from her childhood.At first I thought she would improve but she got worse and worse.She doesn't show any feeling.She always remain cool and detached.You know.She didn't cried on her grandfather's death.She is never ever want to talk to anyone.Finally I took her to psychiatrist.But he told me that she is suffering from Schizoid Personality Disorder.She never made any friend.You are her first friend.""My god what did doctor said she can be cured?""They are trying.""But why did this happened to her?""I just don't know.Doctor said I might be too aloof to her.I just don't know.I am a single parent.I tried my level best."Nish's Mom patted on that woman's shoulder."You know madness is may be in heredity of my husband.He is mad .Schizophrenic.We have to put him in mental hospital.He just kept standing in same position for years.I hope that will not happen to my daughter.""Don't be silly.She will be just fine and my daughter will always remain on her side."From that day Nisha became a best friend of Roll No.99 for life time.She continued talking to her without caring if Roll No.99 liked it or not.But every year Roll No.99 came first and always reserved best bench for her and her friend Nisha.
                                                                    The End

Poem 379. Failure

                                                        Failure
Always I use to have one question from each side and from each point I just have one thought
From inside my life that on every point in mind why in list of failures my lovely name always arise
Because on every point in life I just feel one thing inside our life that when something goes wrong
My name appear on each and every time in our life I just feel that one thing from our thought and
Our mind that if we work so hard failure must not enter in our life when we start walking from
Time to time we just have one feeling that we are doing all wrong things in life because if we do
Rightly why failure even seem touch us on some point but I just have one feeling from inside
That failure is going to be my part of my life so on every occasion I just try with such depression
In our life but then I feel one thing from our mind I just feel one thought from my mind that
This thought of failure just upset me so much from inside that I just run from one point to totally
Different thought and point I just feel one thing that failures are not that nice part of future and
Nice part of life I have just one feeling from inside of my mind that failure will remain stuck
With me on sometimes I just feel why did it happen to me on any point because I wanted to
Live happily inside my life but when life went ahead I just understand things in life that failure
Will come after some part in life but when I get that success I just have to learn to accept that
I must enjoy that success for some time because after some time that success will leave me
And I will remain alone for some time of life I just never understand those failures as part of
Future and life I just feel one thing from our mind that those failures which enter in our life
Are something totally wrong for our life we just have to accept one thing that even if failure
One day enter in our life we will just have one feeling that our think will  get destroyed after
Some time inside our life we just never understand one thought from our mind that we want
To win our future only when we accept that we can fail but we must not take it to our heart
In our life I just feel that every failure manage to destroy my peace of mind and it just harm
On every angle and on every side because I let that failure rule inside my life on every moment
I just feel one thing from my mind that failures are those part which will just hurt us on some
Occasions and on some points I just feel that when I see failure may come I just get so much
Upset by it that it become worse for our life I just have one thought from my mind that in life
I need to find some person who teach me to accept failures in life so I started to find such
Teacher who will teach me this and improve my life I just have one feeling that I am hurt by
Each and every point I just have one thought from my thinking and from my mind that I can't
Win any part of my future and my life I never able to understand how wrong can I be in life
I just feel one thought from my thinking and from my mind I never have feeling of depression
If I don't let myself be upset when I fail on some time but I just have feeling that it is not
Happening inside life because as I went ahead on each moment I feel one thing from mind
That our success will help us on each and every point only when we manage to say that
We can win inside life I just have one thought from mind that I need to understand that thinking
Which is important to our mind I feel that on many moments I am just stuck on wrong thought
In our future and in our mind I just kept one feeling alive inside our life that when we start
Moving ahead even in case of success failure scare us from inside of our mind I just never
Accept it because I never want it to turn into truth in life many people just say this but truth
Is that everyone is always scared of failure from inside of our mind I just never understand
How can I be so wrong inside our life and how I can just say that I hate failure when I indeed
Just always remember them that success in life I know sometimes we think too much of that
Thing which we get but then we just feel that it become no longer better for my future and my life
We just keeping thinking about it more than good things inside our life so when failure become
Something big I just feel one thing from our mind after all those failures are something so
Nice for our future and our life then I just feel one thing from mind I feel failures are
Something so important for our future and our life after all those failure will always remain
Alive inside our life after all those failures are something which are precious inside our life
Not because we love them but because we hate them inside life I use to think that one day
I was going around inside my life then suddenly I just feel one thing from my mind that
From every point I just feel one thing from my mind that I must forget those things that
Really did exit on any moment inside life and slowly failures turn into one biggest truth of life.

Poem 378. Future

                                                               Future
Future is like a gift under curtain which is unknown to us on each and every way because
Those gifts are hidden inside our life on each and every day after all those gifts are something
So nice for us on every day but then sometimes they are even bad and worst for us on every
Thought and on every way because those gifts which are hidden are something not nice for
Us on any moment I just feel that those things which I see in future are something so nice
And perfect for us on every day and on every way when I start walking around in my life
I just feel one thing on each day that those gifts which look nice to us are something hidden
Inside such way that we can never guess that if it will be perfect gift or something which is
Totally wrong and harmful on every day I just never think about things in normal way I just
Feel one thing from mind that those gifts which are hidden in our life on every thought and
On every moment when we look at those gifts which are so hidden behind some thing on
Every day and I just feel still I think many times I can guess my future as we want to think
In life on each day I just never feel one thing from my mind on any day that when my future
Will come before me it will be something that I have never guess I just feel from inside
My mind that my future is still hidden inside some where if I can dive in my mind then I will
Just fish future out of that water on some day because my future is something so nice in
Each and every day only if we can able to guess it as we said but if you ask me truth in life
I just feel one thing on each and every day that my future is not that easy as I wish it to be
But it is some mystery beyond our guess I just feel one thought from my mind on every way
That I can't able to guess things which look so nice and perfect to our future and our thinking
In our life on every way I just never feel that those gifts are something which look so nice
And then turn worst when future turn in worst way and even if it turn right I just feel that
My too much thinking is not doing anything to help because beyond that thought and thinking
I just went every day and then I feel that I am totally wrong because I have thought about it
In any way or on any day when I went ahead in my life on every thought and on every
Spot from my heart I have just kept one thing from our heart those future which is gift
From my thought and my heart because on every moment and every part I just have one
Thinking and one thought from our heart after all those future are something which will
Hurt me on each and every spot when I think about future from my heart because when
We began to think that in our future is something nice for our thought and our heart but
Then I just feel one thing from my heart that those things which called future are just nice
Sort of future's part then I feel just one thing from heart that our future is so perfect
From our thinking and from our heart then I think that in my life I have something so important
For our heart then I just feel one thing from our heart I just feel one thing that future is hidden
Inside our thought and our heart after all future is never perfect but it is hidden behind something
Which is going to hurt us on every part as we went ahead on every point I just feel one thing
From my heart I feel that future is under strange curtain from our heart I just feel that on
Every moment and from every thought I need to understand those feelings and from thought
I have some thinking in our heart I have just one thinking from our heart but then  suddenly
I feel that one thing happen inside our heart I just feel one thing from our heart that on every
Moment I just feel one thing from heart that when future is hidden on every thought and
On every part I just think one thing that may be instead of just thinking about it from heart
But sometime when I feel that my future is hurt from every thought of heart because on every
Moment I just feel one thing that I must work more and hard to get things properly for
Our future and our heart I feel one thing from our heart then I began to think I must work
Hard so then I feel one thing from our heart after all when I think from my future and heart
But then I began to think instead of running just hidden behind that future which are important
For our heart we just feel that we are on wrong part we feel that on every moment and
On every heart we just need one thing that tell us we are not on right thought or on right part
I just feel that I went too much time of that future which never comes before me even
If someone can understand it what is it's use for me so inside our mind and on every part
I just feel one thing that I need to understand my future but only when it become present
And no longer it will remain that future or that unknown part for any one or me from heart.

Poem 377. Dry well

                                                           Dry well
One day when I went to a old nice village and in that town I just saw a small well and
When I see that well I just feel one thought never ever I have made any point which will
Rise some negative thoughts from my heart and from my every point I just always think
One thought from my mind which tell me on every moment that well is something so nice
For our heart I feel that in this well I have just one thought I just always felt how nice
Was that well on every moment I use to look for hours after hours towards that well
After all that well is something so perfect for our thinking on each and every moment
But when I look at that beautiful and lovely well I just feel that it's beauty is something
So natural pure that it use to touch my heart on each way when I walk in life I just observe
For hours that well it look so pretty on every day after all that well look so beautiful
In nature that when I look at that well I just feel one thing from my heart it was
About that well which look so perfect with that nature will look so refreshing on each
And every day when I look at that well I just feel happiness from every moment in world
It is just one sort of freshness and nice feeling enter inside life on each way because that
Well which look so perfect is something which will nice for our future on each and
Every day but never once I remember on those days I think about one thought what will
Happen if one day that well went dry and manage to destroy my fears or maybe they just
Never manage to enter inside my brain because on every point inside our life on every day
I just feel one thing that my well is not that perfect but since I never thought once in
Negative way I just always those things and I always love that well because on every point
And on every day I just have one feeling that I just never have thought about those well
In wrong way after all my well is so perfect for me on every day I use to feel that
It will remain for me on every day I just keep thinking about one thought in every way
After all those thoughts are something so perfect for us on every day but still in that well
I never find anything which will look so nice and perfect until I don't find anything which
Will look nice and so perfect when I look at that well and I will feel just one thing on each
And every day that this well is like some god it will remain filled on every day because
When I look at that well negative thought never touch my brain I never thought while
People are taking water from it that this water will finish one day I just feel one thought
From my mind and on every day that my life is destroyed on each and every day only
When I start thinking that this well may destroy on one day this thinking which enter
In my mind on every occasion and on every day I just feel one thing that water will be
Enough not on each day when that thought began in my mind I feel problems are started
I have began to feel so scared from my heart on every day and on every way I began to
Hate that sharing because I feel so scared on every way I just never able to think how
Wrong was my thinking on each day and on each way I just feel that I will lose everything
If I don't be practical and start to store it on every day when I start giving many times
I began to make face this is happen with us when we began to feel in negative way when
We all know that when sun comes with such heat that water will stay but if crisis comes
Do you think storing is going to help I just feel that when crisis come then maybe we must
Learn to use it less but question is that just because we are scared is it right to take those
Things away from others on everyday when I look at those things I just feel negative
Thoughts manage to destroy me on every day and take me on wrong point in every way
Some people even do crimes just because they think this way while trying to protect
Their benefit I feel just one thing from my mind on each day I have just one feeling
On each day I have just one thought from inside mind on every way I just feel one thing
From every thought and in my mind's every way I just have one feeling from inside
That I need to understand those thoughts which are part of our life are wrong in every way
So when I went ahead in life I just feel every thought will be part of our life in one way
Or other way I just have one thought from inside my mind and in every way that I need
To understand things in life but not have to learn negative thoughts in life even if people
Will say that those thoughts are so important and needed in our life on each and every way.

Poem 376. Easy

                                                            Easy
Why winning so hard and losing is so easy on each and every part when we try to win
We always feel same thing if only winning was little bit easy then it could change our world
On each and every part because winning means getting things from every point and from
Each and every heart when I just feel that I must learn to win from my heart I always
Find it is so impossible and hard task on each and every moment inside our world we just
Feel one thing from our thought and our heart I just have one feeling from my heart that
Those winning take so lot of efforts still we have to walk ahead on every part how hard
It seem to fight for things on every occasions and on every time we just never understand
Those thought which are part of my heart because when I think about them I just have
One thought from our heart that on every point winning never seems nice and perfect
For our future and our heart I just feel that winning is not something nice for our heart
Because it seems so easy when people just create self pity and then keep crying about pains
Which are part of their heart because when I went ahead on every thought and every part
I just have one thought from my mind on every part because while winning I take so many
Hours just while learning thing and even while trying many times I fail and lose so sometimes
I feel from my heart why should not I just fail and forget that thinking about winning from
My thinking and from my heart because on every moment I just have one thought is was
So easy to lose without trying in some task don't you think sometimes you feel same thing
In your brain and same thing in your mind that one very moment inside our life I just feel
One thought from my mind that in life when I have that thought they just manage to hurt me
On each and every point inside our life because when I went ahead on every moment in
Our future and our life I just have one thought from my mind that why should in life I have
To give so many tries every one love to rest peacefully so when I once lose while trying
To win in life I just began to think that it's better to quit that in life after all those things
Which I have to try on everything and on every point but then I feel just one thought
From our mind that on every spot I need to understand those thoughts which tell me that
I can't win in life until I try hard enough in life but when I lose once suddenly that self pity
Develop inside mind then I feel that in life on every point we need to understand those
Types of thoughts in life but then I suddenly feel that winning is so hard so why don't
Just cry and say that world is not fair in life since on every moment we have just one
Thought that we can't win if we try in life but then I just feel that we think in our life but
Then I just feel one thing important in life after all those thoughts are something nice
In our life so then I feel that maybe I just don't want to try with more efforts inside life
After all those thoughts which are important in life but then I feel one thing maybe that
Thinking is on wrong point inside life then I just feel one thing from my mind that winning
Is never easy on every point inside life so can we quit every thing in life after all we can't
Just cry on every point in life we need to make effort to win sometimes when we try to
Grow something is always take efforts and time as apply to us and our human mind we
Need to make efforts hours after hours to understand our mind but still we can't get that
Thought which take us ahead on every moment of life because easy thing are so simple
In life but we can't just do simple things on each and every time we need to make efforts
To get things properly on every point of life I just feel one thing from inside of my mind
Then after sometime inside our life I just feel one thought from my mind that we can win
On many points inside our life because we just feel one thing that our mind will not win
So easily that war of losing everything inside life after all those thoughts are something
Not totally right inside life when I want ahead on every moment of our life I just feel
One thought from our mind that on every second in our life I need to understand that
I should not let myself fall in that sort of trap of my mind because on every point I need
To understand that winning is not that easy and simple inside our future and our life
But I should not fall in trap of those thoughts which are simple and easy for our future and life.

Poem 375. Suspicion

       
                                                           Suspicion
Why did when I want to do something good I have to prove that I don't have any wrong motive
In life because on every moment I just feel one thing from my mind that on every moment in our
Life on every point I just feel one thing that I am doing good and people will understand it in
Some limited time in our life when I start walking in our life I feel that something which are
Nice but then I feel that those thoughts are perfect for our life those motives are something
Which have something important in our life but then I feel just one thought from our thinking
And my mind that on every moment it feel we have no suspicion inside life when we move
Around in life we just feel one thought from our mind that those suspicion which are about
Having problems which can be proved wrong on any point in life when we feel that those
Thoughts which are so nice for our thinking on every thought of life after all those things
Which are important but still then I feel I have some suspicion inside life after all every thing
Will turn good inside our life I just feel one thing from my thoughts that I have done something
Good but then it will turn into good inside our life when I start to have suspicion then I feel
One thing in my mind that even if I do many things still I will not win inside my life because
Even when I do something good still I just can't escape from those suspicion on life but
Then I just feel one thing that I want my life to be perfect on each day of life but then I have
Just one thought that my thinking are wrong in our life after all those thoughts which are
Precious become so wrong when we look at with suspicion on them in our life we just began
To feel one thought that those suspicion become so wrong on every point in life when I began
To think properly about those thoughts which give increase to our suspicion I feel just one
Wrong thought will enter in our life that will destroy every thing but still those thoughts are
Part of our life when I let those suspicion rule our hearts then every good turn bad in our eyes
Even that angel which look so perfect to whole world look so wrong inside our life when I walk
In my life on each and every point I just have one feeling inside my life after all those thoughts
Which are important for our life are something so perfect for my mind but just until I think
That people will think good about me after getting success inside life on every point I just
Feel one thing in life that I don't want people to think about me with doubts in our life as
We went ahead on every day and on every point we just feel one thought from inside of mind
We never let our suspicion took hold of our mind every day we just try to understand those
Thoughts inside life when I act best in someone's interest and still that person find some motive
In life I just feel one thing in life that on every moment inside life that those thoughts which
Are important for our life are thoughts of happiness from every point but still even when I act
Good I feel one thing from my mind that my thoughts are not happy one because I can see
Suspicion even those eyes who use to keep faith on me on every point seem so hurt us on
Many time but sometimes it happen inside life when circumstances stood against us on each
And every thought and on each and every point when I think about it I just feel one thought
From my thinking and from my mind that on every spot I just feel one thing from mind that
On every point we need to understand one thing in life if we keep acting that way one day
That suspicion will leave our thoughts and our mind after all those thoughts are important
For our future and our mind because they are something which just stay with us on every point
Then one day that person will realize inside life that on every moment on every point we just
Feel one thing from inside of our mind that those suspicions are something so perfect and
Nice for our life's every moment then slowly I realized one thing from my life that those
Suspicion which enter inside our life are something totally wrong from every position and
On every side of our life after some days and after some time I just feel one thing from my mind
That when we start doing something different in life people will never believe it is just for
Morals in our future and in our life so for many moments inside our life we just feel one thing
That suspicion is perfect thought for our future and our life since on every moment in our life
We just have one suspicion on every point inside our life that those thoughts are completely
Wrong but still we can't fight against them on every point so I feel sometimes it is better to
Ignore them in life and went ahead with just one faith that one day every one will see that
We are honest inside life because time is just one powerful thing which will turn us on right
Thoughts and points that I began to think we should not think who trust us we should just walk
As per right way inside life because it is not something for other it is just to watch our face in life.