Fear of dead
Tushar was so happy. He was finally going back to his village. He wanted to go back to his native place for such long time but his Boss never permitted him. He was working for an old man as watchman. His salary was wonderful. He liked his job. But sometimes he wanted to go back to his family. His parents kept telling him to come back. They wanted to fix marriage of his sister. They were searching for proposal. They needed his help. They wanted him to manage all. He knew that it was his responsibility too. His sister was so nice. He was very attached to her. He wanted best husband for her. He knew that his parents didn't able to judge person as good as him. He had resources to find information. He was needed to go. He arranged all. It was so frustrating when his Boss objected. Captain Bhuvan was retired military man. Captain Bhuvan was very nice person. He always treated Tushar with respect. But people around Captain Bhuvan were not so fond of him. Captain Bhuvan was too disciplined. He was like principal of school. Tushar started laughing after remembering incidence when he came for interview of job. He was trying to go to place on time but he got stuck in traffic. He knew that he was late. He wanted to reach on time. He was on walkable distance from house when he stuck again. He was so confused. He paid auto driver and told him that he would walk and he could take u turn. Auto driver didn't want to stuck in traffic so he agreed. He took out his luggage and started balancing. When he came near he saw a strong, smart old man was arguing with young fat fellow. He didn't know on that point this old man was his Boss. But still he decided to interfere since long line of vehicles was stopped due to them. Tushar asked " What happened?" " This fellow throwing wrapper in my garden." " I am sorry." " You are doing it daily." Tushar sensed issue. He looked around. He noticed CCTV. He got idea. " Sir we got CCTV. So we can show it to Cops. What is need of argument?!! You got it on every day CCTV right?" Old man laughed and that fellow shivered. He started apologizing and promising he would never do it again. He even fall on feet of that fellow. Then old man forgive him and sent him away. That road was cleared and vehicles started moving ahead. All vehicles drivers seemed to be thanking him so it must be every day argument. It was upsetting for them. Then that old man said " I am Captain Bhuvan!!" It was first introduction to his Boss. Captain Bhuvan was wonderful man but if someone broke rules he started argue sometimes those matters were not related to him. When flower plucked in public garden he argued every one said fair, but then someone plucked flower from unknown garden he argued every one thought that it was too much. But Tushar understood his feelings. Captain Bhuvan was concerned about nature. In fact Captain Bhuvan was concerned about everything. He kept telling kids to study hard. He kept telling young girls and boys to concentrate on studies instead of romance so they all felt that he was irritating. On few points he was wrong too like that one day he lectured a boy of neighborhood. He saw that boy with his girlfriend. They were romancing. That scene went in Captain Bhuvan's head. He started lecturing that boy. He kept saying that he was neglecting education which was not true. Since that year this boy got wonderful marks. His Dad distributed sweets to all except Captain Bhuvan. Captain was not upset about it. He didn't care if people ignored him until they didn't disobey rules. He wanted everyone to obey rules. He was happy when his boy stopped romancing before him and on road. He told Tushar " Kids came out of their houses. I don't want that boy doing that romance in front of them. If they hate me, well fine.. I am just doing my duty." Tushar nodded. But truthfully he never felt that romance was offensive it was like something out of movie. But then on few days they even crossed limits. Tushar knew that it was embarrassing on many points. He needed to correct his attitude. But on other hand it was freedom of that boy who had right to judge him like that. It looked bad. He needed to stop that boy. But any way soon that boy fixed his marriage with this girlfriend and suddenly everyone started blaming Captain Bhuvan. After that few people told Captain Bhuvan nicely that he should not interfere in other people's life but Captain Bhuvan did not took it that nicely. He argued. This way every one started to stay away from him. Captain Bhuvan was nice man but people were not ready to appreciate him. He decided that it was better than he should keep to himself. After that he began to turn back towards road while sitting in garden. He didn't want to suggest anything to anyone. He just wanted to concentrate on his work. He kept enjoying his life. But he never included anyone in it. It was not as if he was not invited. He was invited on many occasions. He had few friends and relatives. But he never went out that much. Once Tushar asked about cause. Captain Bhuvan took deep breath and said " Life is not as it once use to be. It is changed. Now whenever I go out people talk about just earning more money. They are not interested in books or movies. They just wanted to talk on those topics which I don't want to discuss. Those topics have negative thinking. On border I killed people but I never enjoyed it. I did it to just protect my land. I did it for country but these people enjoy killing innocents just to fulfill their ambitions. They are different and when I try to object they began to suggest with my age I began to lose my courage. I am getting soft day by day. It really hurt. I never hurt anyone without cause in my entire career. They are picturing me like some man who killed any person who spoke one word against nation. No.. I warned them. Few understood I gave them chance but those who were cruel enough to kill other people and encourage wrong things I only gave punishment to them. I was never cruel. Soldier needed to be brave not cruel to innocent human beings. So I never go out that much." Tushar nodded. He sensed that Captain Bhuvan was very hurt by some people. Tushar never suggested him to go out after this.
After that Tushar kept working there for days. He didn't want to go back since Captain Bhuvan was so nice. He taught him many things. Tushar felt so nice with him. But then sometimes he began to miss his family too. He started to get homesick. He wanted to meet his parents and his sister. His sister was his soft corner. He was always protective towards her. They both shared special bond. He kept remembering her every day. He wanted to meet her. One day when his parents began to talk about her marriage. He decided that he needed to go and meet her. He wanted to see what was her thinking. He wanted to know that she really wanted to marry. He knew that her parents were not so concerned about her opinion. He wanted to choose her husband but he didn't want to decide it without her permission. He felt that it was her marriage so she had full right so he talked with Captain Bhuvan and Captain agreed. At beginning Captain looked upset he said " I thought you are happy with me?!!" " I am happy but I want to fix marriage of my sister then I will come." Captain Bhuvan smiled and nodded. Tushar was happy so he was packing his luggage when he saw that man. He was so shocked. He never saw anyone entering in their compound before this way. It was so shocking. He saw a man was entering. That man was crossing fences. That man was wearing cloth around his face. He couldn't see his face. He was not on his post. He was watchman so he supposed to be protecting his Boss. He stopped packing and ran towards his post. He looked so scared. He sensed that house was not safe. He didn't understand why did any one want to harm Captain Bhuvan. He ran to that fence but it was too late. He sensed that this man was already gone. He wanted to follow but then he didn't go after him. He couldn't leave Captain alone like that. He looked around. Clearly Captain Bhuvan didn't sense that something was wrong. He must be busy in reading something. Captain Bhuvan loved to read history or romance. He loved his wife. He always kept talking about her. It seemed that he didn't miss his children much. He kept talking about just her. Once he said that he loved just two things his nation and his wife. He gave sad smile and said " But I lost one of them. My kids settled in abroad. They were telling me to go there. They want me to settle there but I will not. I lost my one love my wife but I will not lost my other love nation. I will stay in India until my death" Then he turned to Tushar and asked " What about you?" " Me!! I am not so rich that I can think of changing country." " But imagine if you were rich what you should have done?" He was so confused. He saw many pictures of those beautiful countries and he wanted to go there. But he knew that Captain Bhuvan didn't like his answer so he didn't say anything. Captain Bhuvan smiled and said " You want to go there too. But trust me my son they are not as good as our country when you are born in some country it belong to you. You need to work for it. You need to do right things then in few years it will look lot better than those pictures. Those are pictures just pictures. We don't know truth behind them. They might look beautiful but they have their own troubles too." He kept nodding since he was not planning to go in other country anyway so he didn't care. But he sensed one thing that Captain Bhuvan was alone and he was going to keep staying with him. He didn't know about truth of those countries but he knew one thing. He didn't get better employer than Captain Bhuvan there. But he was so scared now. He saw someone coming in house. He went back in house and went in Captain Bhuvan's room. He told him all. Captain Bhuvan smiled. " Don't worry. I will take care of myself. " Tushar nodded. But he was not so sure. Bhuvan smiled and said " Come on. Go. You will miss your train." " No..no I will wait." Tushar was saying this but he knew that it was not possible. His parents were already started calling him. Tushar looked at mobile and said " Okay. Take care.." He left house. Before going out he kept looking behind. He began to feel so restless. Captain Bhuvan kept watching him from window. Captain Bhuvan wanted to stop him. Captain Bhuvan knew that something was wrong. He sensed it long ago. They kept calling him for this house. His kids wanted to sell it but Captain Bhuvan was only obstacle. Captain sensed that this must be that man who called him. Captain Bhuvan began to check on his weapon. He went towards cupboard. He opened it and checked his gun. He felt that gun was little bit out of position. He began to get tense. He was not coward. He knew that he needed to be prepared. He went in kitchen. He began to collect all things which could be weapons. He started to put them properly in line. He kept watching at their shine. It was so wonderful. It was reminding him of his great old ways. He remembered how did once he used to win all war against his enemies. But only if he didn't had that accident, he should have retired from his job at old age. But sadly his life was not that simple. He had an accident so he couldn't continue his service as soldier. He forced to take another Govt job. He didn't complaint. He took it with smile. His wife did same thing. But not his kids. He felt that his wife managed to spoil them. But he didn't any right to blame. She was managing all by herself. He was on duty. She tried to handle her best. When he started working on normal job, his kids started making faces. They kept saying that he was not as useful as he once used to be. They wanted to boost as soldier's kids. But soon he sensed that they didn't want to become one. He was feeling so sad. He tried to pretend that it was fine. But it was not. He could see on face of his wife that she was getting upset too. It was killing her from inside. Soon it started to upset her health too. When their kids were grown up, they started to plan to go abroad. She felt so sad. Then one day she had heart attack on that day she kept apologising him. He tried to convince her that it was not her mistake and he felt it from heart. But it was useless finally he lost his wife too.
Tushar was not happy about keeping Captain Bhuvan alone like that. He was totally upset about it. He began to sense that something was wrong. He didn't understand why did a man wanted to enter in Captain Bhuvan's house. He was so tense on entire train journey. He kept feeling restless. He began to think that he might needed to call Cops about it. They might needed to find some help. He was so confused. He needed to act alert. But he was not acting that way. He was so tense. He decided that he must call Captain Bhuvan. He kept ringing. Then finally Captain Bhuvan's voice came on line " Hello.." It didn't seem like normal voice. Tushar asked "What happened?" " Nothing. I just thought someone came inside house!!" " What? Maybe I should call cops? " Tushar started to feel scared. Captain Bhuvan sounded so angry. Captain screamed " Who is it?" Tushar had it enough. He decided to that he must go back. He ran towards door. He waited for next railway station. He was scared. He decided that he needed to call Cops. He kept feeling frustrated. He didn't even know which number would be suitable. On such moment mind just went blank. He got down of railway station. Without second thought he ran to railway Police and told everything. They connected him to proper Cops. He decided to take railway and go back. He called his parents. His Dad was so shocked. His Dad " No need to come. Just stay there." He kept feeling so scared. He took ticket to go back. He literally on verge of crying in that railway journey. One fellow even asked him. He told him everything. All passengers kept telling him that Police would manage while few were posioning his mind against Cops. He was so tense. Finally he ran from station to house. He was so scared. When he finally reached to house, he noticed cops were there. Cops were wandering. Few were screaming in anger. Clearly something was wrong. He went near them. There was a body in blood. He screamed loudly. He started crying. He wanted to control himself. But he couldn't. When he woke up, he was in hospital. He shivered. He looked around. He kept watching around. He saw Captain Bhuvan in corner. Captain Bhuvan was sitting peacefully. Captain Bhuvan was reading history book. He shivered. He saw body of Captain Bhuvan. He knew that he was dead. But still he was sitting before him. He wanted to scream loudly but suddenly his voice didn't come out. Captain Bhuvan was busy in reading. He was observing Captain. Captain Bhuvan was looking normal. Nothing like out of horror movie. But after some moments Captain Bhuvan looked at him. He shivered. Captain Bhuvan was smiling. His mouth was red. It seemed that there was blood in his mouth. Tushar shivered. Captain Bhuvan tried to come towards him. Tushar kept trying to scream but sound was not coming out of his lips. It was so frustrating. He needed help but he was not getting it. Tushar was so scared that he might not able to run but he could. He started running ahead. He kept running faster and faster. Suddenly his legs seemed to took speed by them. He couldn't able to stop them. He kept running ahead. He was pushing everything that came in his way. He couldn't stop. They began to sense people were trying to hold him. Many ward boys and Doctors were trying to hold him. He just kept running. Then finally he felt pain of injection. He sensed that one Doctor came running towards him with speed matching to him and injected him. Still he kept running. Finally he began to sense everything before his eyes started to move in circle. He started to sense that his legs began to lose balance. He saw that he was moving towards stairs. When he was about to fall, ghost of Captain Bhuvan took hold of his hand and he started to move up in sky. He was flying. He didn't understand what was happening. Suddenly he found his voice and he screamed. His feet stopped. They all pushed him towards stretcher. They tied him with belts. He tried to escape from it. He could see Captain Bhuvan near him. He was holding his hand. He knew that now they would take him inside and they would do something to him. He was going to be tortured. He kept screaming until he didn't lose his sense. He knew that worst moment of his life entered. He kept remembering his parents and his sister. He wished that he had enjoyed his life in better way. He wishes that he should have stayed in home instead of coming here for job. His greed managed to hurt him. He was shivering with fear. He didn't want to feel scared. But he was scared. He kept watching every tile. He kept trying to take himself out of those belts until they did put him finally inside room. When he came there, he saw he was surrounded by masks and gloves. One said " Do you think he is hurt too much?" " No just little. But he managed to push away that patient too much. I hope that patient will survive." "Now no need to panic on it. They will handle him too. He needed to be in psychiatric ward. It was so wrong." " But he didn't have any history of psychiatric problem.." Tushar wanted to hear all. But he couldn't control his sleep and he fall asleep. It was so frustrating. He wanted to hear their talking. He didn't understand why did they call him mad. But then he began to think because he saw Captain Bhuvan's ghost. It was trouble of his mind. He kept seeing Captain Bhuvan's ghost. He needed to stop seeing him. He needed to accept that he was dead. He needed to convince himself that he saw his dead body. He must not see Captain Bhuvan again. It was important for him. He kept telling himself that Captain Bhuvan was dead. He must not see him alive again. It was necessary for him.
Captain Bhuvan was sitting outside room. He was so shocked. Doctors kept asking him about Tushar's mental health but Tushar truly never showed any sign of madness until now. This was happening suddenly. He didn't understand why did he kept screaming after seeing him. Tushar was not normal. It seemed as if he couldn't stop himself from running. He kept running with such speed that it would shock any one. It was abnormal. During this running he threw by mistake one patient away Captain Bhuvan was concerned about that patient's health too. He didn't want Tushar to be charged for death of any person. Captain Bhuvan kept waiting outside. Then one Nurse came and told him that Doctor was calling him. He nodded and went inside. It was psychiatrist's clinic. He knew that psychiatrist would ask him about Tushar. Captain Bhuvan started talking immediately. " Tushar never had any mental trouble. He was normal. This is shocking for me." " How long he is working for you?" " Well for three years." " He was always with you." " Yes. He never even went to native place." " So you observed him every day?" " Yes and he was perfect until today." " Did something new happened?" " Yes. Actually few people tried to rob in my house and kill me so I needed to kill one of them. But that man was wanted murderer so Cops didn't object my killing. In fact there was prize on him." " What about Tushar? He was with you when this happened?" " No..no he was in train." Then Captain Bhuvan explained entire story."Due to Tushar Cops came on time and I was saved." Psychiatrist nodded. " Why did Tushar admitted in hospital?" " Since he started crying loudly." " When he started crying?" " When he came and.." Captain Bhuvan started thinking then he remembered " He saw body of criminal." Psychiatrist looked confused. Psychiatrist " Did he related to that criminal in any way?" " No..no he is totally innocent and nice boy!!" " Then why did he cry on his body?" Psychiatrist kept thinking then suddenly he asked " Did you tell him that it was body of criminal?"" No. But he could recognise?" " Not if he just assume and started crying." Captain Bhuvan shocked. He never sensed it. Captain Bhuvan " You are right. He was running away from me." " Since he was feeling you are ghost." Captain Bhuvan smiled and said " Then it is easy. I just need to explain." " No he is suffering from posttraumatic symptoms. I suggest you that you should keep him in hospital for few days." Captain Bhuvan nodded. He was ready to pay charges. He decided to tell everything to Tushar's parents. They cried. Captain Bhuvan suggested them a visit but they didn't want to. Clearly they needed to save money. Captain Bhuvan made it clear that he would do Tushar's treatment. They thanked him. Captain Bhuvan was happy that he started Tushar's treatment but he didn't understand mystery of mind. These things were common to him but they had so much impact on Tushar's mind. First time Captain Bhuvan sensed that human mind were totally different than each other. But he was sure that Tushar would cure soon since psychiatrist promised it to him. He started waiting for that day when Tushar came back again and his life would began to normal way.
The End
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