Man without emotions
It was one rainy day. Ruchi was hearing sound of rain whole time. She could hear sound on window panel. She was sensing different feelings on same time. She was excited in heart to watch it. But at same time she was scared. She didn't want to damage anything. It was not her house. Actually it was her house now but still it didn't seem to belong to her. It belonged to her husband. She was married for a month. No one taunted her about anything. But still she could sense that they didn't like few things like destruction of any object in house. She tried her best to behave properly. She kept observing that house. She was born in rich family but still they never bought this big house. Her parents were attached to old house in strange way. They never wanted to shift but she wanted to stay in big house. Whenever she expressed this desire, her Dad used to smile and say " Don't worry we will find you a husband with big house." She started to feel so happy at mention of her marriage. She wanted to get marry and live happy life like her parents. She was so pleased at that thought. It was perfect equation to her. When she began to plan to get marry, she started to consider boys with big houses first. While other girls were considering education and looks, she considered just big house with luxuries. She didn't think about anything else. In this procedure she rejected many nice proposals. Her parents were so angry. One day her Dad became so angry that he said " Just marry this nice boy. I will give as marriage gift to you." She felt so angry. " Dad this called dowry!!" " I know but do you feel I have much option if you keep demanding big house from every boy you meet. I don't want you to stay unmarried just because you don't find that big house for you!" She screamed angrily on him " Then why don't you buy one when I was kid?!! I wanted it." Her Dad was so upset. But finally they found Piyush. When they entered in Piyush's house, Ruchi knew that she found boy of her dream. Piyush was just best. Then Piyush came out. He looked at her carefully. He didn't smile but he didn't even show any dislike. He appeared like normal person who was doing some business deal. She knew that it was not business deal. They were entering on romantic point of life. But Piyush was not that much excited. He was happy and normal. He smiled from time to time when situation required. Then finally they left that house. She kept observing that house. It was truly wonderful house while going out she took one small showpiece of dog in her hand. She observed it and put it back. Immediately Piyush's Mom pushed it behind. Ruchi sensed that she managed to put it ahead. She observed carefully but she didn't feel that there was risk of it's falling and breaking. But still his Mom pushed it behind. Piyush's Mom " Actually you want to remain careful with these showpieces. Costly items!!" She said it with such emphasis that it felt as if something fake. Ruchi didn't understand why did she hated when Ruchi touched those items. Ruchi wanted to become part of that house. She began to feel so upset. She knew that she wanted that house but what about those people. When they came out of that house, her Dad immediately protested. " I really didn't like this boy!! He is not even showing any emotions towards Ruchi." Ruchi hated his words. She knew that they were true but she didn't want to accept them. Ruchi " No he didn't look at me without emotions. He had love inside his eyes but you don't sense it." Truthfully she didn't sense it too but she lied since she wanted that house. Actually it was challenge for her. It was not just about her Dad. She remembered that day when in college campus they were discussing about spouses whom they dreamt. Every one said something but she just talked about house of her spouse. Everyone started laughing on her. Her friend " Do you want to marry house?" She felt so shocked. She never thought someone would question this way. It seemed as if she was greedy. But everyone had some demand. Some wanted money and some wanted beauty. She wanted house. " What is wrong in dreaming house in which I stay with husband?" " But what about husband? You don't dream about him!!" " I did. But I can't just decide his look. I mean there are plenty of looks which are okay for me." " So you want plenty of husbands!!" Every one laughed and joked on her. One friend " You will just pay attention to house and forget who is your husband. Just keep his picture in your purse so that you will not forget him." " But she will remember her house so she can search for owner." " And what if her husband change house and another person become owner." Every one laughed loudly again. She didn't like this joke. It was too much. She was not that kind of girl who would flirt with boys. She was so sincere and honest. She was so upset. Then another girl added " Forget jokes but why does such rich fellow marry her?" " For her beauty." " She is not that beautiful." Everyone looked at her with view of criticism. She went away angrily. She was so hurt. From that day she started to avoid her group. At beginning she felt that they might call her but they never did. She was not needed in their group. But she wanted to prove them wrong. She wanted to prove she could find husband. She was so upset when her Dad rejected Piyush. She said " I want to marry him." She decided that she would chat with Piyush and that would create friendship between them. She was so happy at that hope. Then her Mom called Piyush's family and said that they were happy to fix marriage. After that they decided to meet again. She kept meeting Piyush again and again. He was nice and gentle every time but she sensed lack of passion inside him. His attitude was so cold and practical towards her. She kept hoping and kept dating. Finally one day her parents decided to fix date of marriage. Even on that day her Dad asked her " Are you sure?" She remembered that house. It was perfect. She smiled and said " Yes I am." And got married. She felt that she would adjust and she was adjusting step by step.
Ruchi was so sure that she would manage to adjust. But she didn't sense those emotions from Piyush which she desired from her soul. He didn't see them on his face. She was so upset. She started to feel that he might be those person who couldn't express feeling. She began to feel so nervous. She wanted to feel happy but Piyush was without expression whole time so she was nervous too. At beginning she thought that he would react after sometime. But soon she began to doubt it. They went on honeymoon. She expected some romance from him. But during entire honeymoon tour they were most aloof couple. Piyush chatted limited. He talked only when they truly needed. She felt that she was taking vacation alone. She never sensed his presence. She was expecting so many things from her husband but Piyush did none. He didn't admire her beauty or said anything in affection. One thing soon became clear to her that he was not in love with her. But she knew that she needed to adjust with him. She needed to sense that he didn't express his love but he had it inside him. At least this was what her Mom said when she called her one day from honeymoon. First Mom was shocked. Mom said " He didn't talk?!!" When she began to cry, her Mom gave small laugh and said " Because he is shy this is common in boys. They couldn't able to express feelings sometimes. You need to understand them." She nodded. Then she began to study Piyush. She soon sensed that Piyush didn't chat that much with anyone on tour. She felt that it was his normal nature. She kept talking with him to encourage him. Finally they came back. Now even after one month nothing was changed. Actually she began to feel more upset. She was no longer comfortable even in touching things in that big house. Whenever she tried to take something in her hand. She observed that someone was standing beside her. She didn't understand that it was done by intention or just coincidence. But she was upset by this. She didn't like situation. She wanted to feel happy in that house. But she was not. She was feeling tense. She didn't touch anything. She just turned back. She heard lightening again. She wanted to go out now. She wanted to enjoy that fear. She didn't mind if lightening killed her. Her life was already big mess. She didn't understand why did she married to man who didn't love her. But on that point it seemed so perfect. She felt that house was enough. But she still needed to adjust. Suddenly her Mother-in-law came from behind. She touched her shoulder. " When will you prepare tea?" Ruchi was so confused. She didn't want to just lock herself in kitchen. But she knew that she needed to do cooking otherwise she needed to search for job. No one was planning to keep her without work. It was so upsetting. She wanted to feel affection but no one was interested in giving it to her. She needed to go in kitchen. She started cooking. She began to watch fire in kitchen. It was so beautiful. She suddenly began to feel strange obsession about it. She wanted to touch it. She knew that it could burn her. But still she felt that it had strange tempting beauty. She wanted to touch that beautiful yellow flames. She wanted to surrender herself to it. That fire was really enchanting. It seemed like some fire from dreamland. It had beautiful fairytale hidden inside it. She wanted to sense heat of fire. But she controlled her feeling. She knew that it was wrong. She wanted to remove that desire so she started to cut vegetables. It worked perfectly. She began to cut them smoothly. She was not tempted towards knife and it was good news for her. She didn't want to feel dangerous to herself. She was just tempted to fire for few seconds. It was perfect. It was normal. She couldn't touch it. It would burn her. She was sensing it once again. She started cooking normally. It was just temptation of moment and it was going to get over soon. She began to cook peacefully. She started to feel kitchen was her entire world. She began to enjoy cooking. She started to enjoy cooking. She loves smell of food. It was just wonderful. She managed to arrange everything properly. She began to call her mother-in-law. Her mother-in-law came in and looked at her with admiration. " Wow! this food even smells so wonderful. Everyone will just attack on these food items. We will need more." Ruchi smiled happily. Mother-in-law " Go and get dressed. Piyush will come home soon." Ruchi didn't understand why did she needed to get dressed every day. She was Piyush's wife now. He supposed to like her even in normal clothes. But she knew that he didn't show much emotions for her even in her exclusive clothes. Still she decided to get dressed. She liked to wear new dress and get ready too. She wanted to look fresh and happy. She went in room. She started to do make up before mirror. She kept observing her face. It was looking so beautiful. She was so attractive. She knew that she wanted to look great before Piyush. She knew that she was not so bad looking. In fact on many times she was admired for her beauty but Piyush didn't like her. She could see it in his eyes. But whenever she tried to discuss, he ignored matter by saying that he was like that only. She didn't understand why did he hated her so much. She never saw any look of affection on his face. It was so strange. She didn't understand him at all. He never show any different expression on his face since their marriage. She didn't even understand if her marriage was failure or success. She was living life with man who didn't express any emotions. She got ready. She looked at her mirror image. She was so beautiful. She was sure that at least today he would show some feelings. She ran towards door when doorbell rang. She opened door and Piyush was standing before her without expression. Same face every day she wanted to cry but she didn't. She didn't want people to sense her troubles. She just moved aside to give him way to enter. He entered in house when someone called him from behind.
Ruchi was shocked when she saw smile of Piyush's face. He was smiling but not towards her. But towards that voice which was behind. She turned. She saw a middle age lady with small baby. She was nice looking. But she had that expression of tired housewife on her face. Ruchi could tell that it was lady who stayed in neighbourhood. Her mother-in-law never liked her. Her mother-in-law always taunted against her. Her mother-in-law claimed that this lady kept setting traps for men. She tried to steal husbands of many women. She was not nice woman. Ruchi got message and stayed away from that flat. In face Ruchi didn't made much friendship inside society. She preferred to stay in house. She didn't like mixing with people that much since marriage since people began to talk her life after marriage and her husband. It supposed to make her happy but it was bringing sorrows in her life. She didn't want to discuss it. She felt so sad. She didn't understand why Piyush was nice person. He was nice with her. He never argued or screamed on her. But sometimes she wished only if he had expressed his anger. But he never did. Today he smiled. She was on top of the world but soon she sensed that it was not towards her. It was towards woman who was standing behind. She observed her. She was normal housewife who was carrying her baby in arms. She asked with smile. " Can I borrow some sugar from you?" Ruchi felt shocked. She didn't understand why did Piyush kept smiling towards this woman. But Piyush answered immediately. Piyush " Sure!! Ruchi dear will you bring some sugar?!!" Ruchi was shocked. He never talked with her this way. He never screamed but he never talked sweetly too. He always talked in dry tone which never had any emotions. She couldn't say no to him. She went inside. She brought some sugar. She gave it to that lady. That lady smiled nicely and went away. Piyush was still smiling towards her in strange way as if he was enchanted by her voice. She had some magical appeal inside her for Piyush. Ruchi sensed it but she didn't understand. She was so confused. As soon as that lady went away, Piyush became expressionless again. He began to look at her as if he never smiled. She felt that it was strange. She asked Piyush when he sat on dinning table " Do you know that lady very well?" Piyush looked confused. As if he didn't remember her. Then after sometime he asked " Who?!!" " That neighbour who asked for sugar!!" "Neighbour? Ohh that lady?!! Yes..yes she use to teach my brother." " Your brother!! Where is your brother?" Piyush didn't say anything for long time then he finally said " He is dead.." She began to shiver with fear. No one told her about this dead brother. She didn't like this. She needed to know all before marrying him. She felt so scared. She began to think what if they had managed to hide more crucial information from her. She didn't like that idea. She wanted everything to be open but this house she didn't find any clear. They were hiding everything from her including death of her brother-in-law. She was frustrated. She didn't understand why did they lied. She decided that she must find out. She started to set all plates on right places when her mother-in-law came there to supervise her. She smiled towards her. Then she slowly asked " You never mentioned you had another son?" " Son?!! Which son?" Her mother-in-law looked shocked. " Who told you this nonsense? Piyush is my only son!!" " Piyush said your neighbour use to teach music to his brother who is dead now.." She looked at her mother-in-law with confused expression. Her mother-in-law looked so nervous as if she was trying hard to find some excuse and on that time her father-in-law called and provided good excuse. Her mother-in-law used that excuse and ran away. She was so shocked. She sense one thing that they were hiding something from her. She began to feel one thing that they must had son who died in some strange way. Ruchi didn't like this. She decided to talk with her parents. She kept showing off as if everything was fine. Piyush was once again statue which didn't have any feeling. At night when everyone was asleep, Ruchi called her Mom. Mom " What happened? Why did you call at night like this?" " Mom something is strange in this house. Even in my husband!!" " Your Dad was telling you from beginning that marriage was biggest mistake of your life but you were in love with that.." her Mom didn't want to say " house" but it was truth. She just kept seeing that house. She didn't even pay much attention to Piyush. That house was her priority. Now whenever she looked around she sensed her mistake. That house was beautiful but it was not human. House didn't have feeling. It couldn't show affection or love to her. She needed someone to show her affection. " Mom that house is not enough. I need husband too. Who will take care of my emotions." She started crying then she told everything step by step. Her Mom " What is name of your neighbour?" She felt so confused. She always stayed away from that flat. She was so confused. " I don't know." " Then go out of your house and see it." " Mom CCTV will record if I went out like that in night." " I don't care just do it." Ruchi shivered. She looked at Piyush. He was sleeping peacefully. She slowly went out of house. She was so scared. She didn't understand why she supposed to do it. But she did it any way. She slowly went out. She opened door without noise. She felt like some thief or murderer. She didn't like this but she didn't have much option so she did it. She went to door just clicked picture of name plate in such way that on CCTV they would feel she was searching some of her missing ornament and then she ran inside. She kept searching in every corner for long time. On that point she sent photo to her Mom. She tried to control her fast heartbeats but she was unsuccessful. She was so scared. Her heartbeats became normal only when she entered in room and slept again.
Next morning Ruchi's mother-in-law suddenly started talking sweetly. Ruchi didn't understand it on that point. She was so busy in her thoughts. But she sensed it when she dumped in one showpiece. It was broken. But her mother-in-law didn't scream. She just smiled and said " It's alright. You can't expect glass to survive forever." Ruchi was so shocked. She decided to chat with Piyush too. In hope that he might change too. But he was same. Then after few hours door bell rang. Her parents were standing before her. Their faces were red with anger. She asked slowly " What happened?" Her Dad " They lied to us. They didn't tell us about madness of their son." "What Piyush is mad?" Before her Dad could say anything further. Mom touched his shoulder and said " Let's go inside." Her Dad looked upset but he obeyed. They went in her room. When her mother-in-law started on insisting that they should sit in hall. Her Dad said " No." in loud and clear voice. Then her mother-in-law changed tone. " So you know all then let's talk peacefully." She insisted them to sit. Dad " Fine tell us all." " Piyush was not my son. I never had any chance to have child. When I married to Piyush's father, he was widower. At beginning I tried to attach Piyush with me. But he didn't show interest. From beginning he kept away. He was never normal child. He never chatted much. He kept looking at his mother's photo for hours. One day I noticed that he was even talking with it. I tried to convince his Dad to take him to Doctor. But he felt that I am his stepmother and I want to send him to hospital of mad people. I want all property. He screamed on me and abused me. I gave up. And Piyush kept acting strange. He kept saying that his Mom was coming by some car. Then he kept talking for hours to his unseen Mom. He was so attached to his imagination of Mom that he started insisting that she was around. I tried hard to handle it but nothing worked." Then she took deep breath. Then she was about to continue when Piyush came from behind and said with pleasant smile " And then Mom came in world alive. You met my Mom yesterday. She was in that neighbour. She wanted to stay with me. I went there and told her that she could stay with me. She must come in my bedroom and sing song for me. But her stupid husband started to hit me. She tried to stop him but nothing worked." Piyush was looking totally strange. They sensed for first time that he was not in his senses. He was mad. They didn't have any doubt since soon he started singing and dancing like small child. Then he suddenly came to his senses. He became his normal self again. He didn't say anything just went away to office. Ruchi shivered with fear. Ruchi " He kept acting like that?!!" Her mother-in-law "Yes. He was taught again and again to pretend normal before you. His father wanted heir for this house." Ruchi felt so scared. Suddenly that house became worst enemy for her. She was trapped in marriage to mad man just for house. Ruchi told herself to relax and asked " Is it possible he would show willingness to go to psychiatrist?" " No. Impossible. But still you could try." " That neighbour!! Why did she keep coming even after knowing this?" " For money. He gave her many things. People feel that he is her Romeo but he sees his Mom in her." Her mother-in-law started laughing. That day Ruchi packed her bags with one thought that she would never return again. It was her worst moment of life. She wanted to do something for Piyush. She loved him but she knew that it was hopeless. He didn't love her. At beginning she took photo of their marriage. But after sometime she kept it back. She knew that it was meaningless. She couldn't keep these memories alive. She was not even sure Piyush could understand meaning of this commitment. She tried to push back her tears but it was useless. She let them fall on her cheeks and went out of that room with bags to join her parents.
The End
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