Trap of evil thought
It was morning. Sheena was feeling fresh as she always did. She was so happy. She began to run fingers through her hair. She was touched by their softness. They were so beautiful and so soft. She always felt that happiness in morning. She sensed strange sort of confidence in her heart. She didn't sense sorrows in morning. Since on every morning she heard noise of birds on her window, it managed to make her happy on even her worst day. She didn't want to remember her worst days but it couldn't be forgotten on that day. This was death anniversary of her mother. Her mother died due to heart attack. It was so sudden. Then her grandmother came to join them. Her grandmother was not much interested in her. Her grandmother did all out of duty. She gave her food on time. She sent her to school every day after checking she did all home work properly. On days of examination her grandmother carefully checked her bag to confirm she had everything. Her grandmother also kept up to date knowledge of where she was going. She told her father everything. So she was perfect babysitter. But she never had that affection towards her which Sheena desired. Even on those mornings she used to feel happy. Her Mom taught her that trick. Sheena knew that how did she supposed to feel pleased with sound of birds. She supposed to become one of them with her soul. She supposed to touch sky with soul. She needed to become that bird. She managed to do it. Soon she sensed that her grandmother was giving her freedom. She could choose whatever career she wanted to choose. She could go anywhere until she came back on time. Her grandmother was just concerned for her safety other things didn't matter to her. She was so confident about her decision that she was not tense every moment about them. She was free to choose whatever she desired. She began to value what she got. She was able to do what she desired now. She began to feel so happy about it. She started to think that she might had lost her mother but God gifted her other things like her talent in dress designing. She could design anything. It would look great every time. She was fond of many things. She managed to get them by her earnings. She was happy about it. She woke up with happy thoughts on that morning when she suddenly heard sound of laughing of woman. She began to feel confused. She sensed that some woman came inside house. She felt so confused. She began to feel that this lady was laughing in strange confidence and mostly importantly her voice came from kitchen. She needed it. But she never felt that confident. She slowly came out of room and walked towards kitchen. She opened door little bit and watched. She saw a woman who was dressed beautiful. Her father was enchanted by her beauty. She didn't understand why did such beautiful woman liked man like her father. Her father was not very romantic man or even not so rich. But then she felt that he might be rich in many people's eyes. After all they had this bangalow on main street. No one was going to check out bank accounts. But her father had one daughter. She needed to go in kitchen and interefer but she was too scared. She was too scared of her father. She knew that her father was her only parent available. She needed to adjust with him but she still couldn't deny her fears. She didn't want to discuss it with anyone. Today she sensed that her father could talk softly if he desired. He was talking so softly with that woman. His voice had musical quality. She never heard it. She was never appreciated with such affection. She felt that she was always burden for him. He called her just on those times when he disagreed with her decision. It was rare occasion. He didn't call her daily. He didn't even preferred to join her on dinner. He always sat in his room alone. But for this woman story seemed different. He was so nice and soft. She wanted to go inside and get herself introduced but she didn't dare to do something like that. She just turned back and went in her room. Soon her grandmother came in room. Her grandmother was so happy. Her grandmother smiled and said " You are going to get mother. And I am going to go back to village finally. I was so frustrated by staying here. Finally it was going to be over. My village!! My lovely village!!" When Sheena didn't answer, her grandmother looked at her with confusion. " What happened? Do you like your stepmom?" " Dad never introduce me to her!!" Her grandmother started laughing. Her grandmother " Now you don't feel that he is going to hide you from her." She laughed too. But she was not sure that it was not case. She knew that her Dad hated introducing her to anyone. She needed to come forward herself. She needed to present herself otherwise she was totally forgotten. But she felt surely this was not going to be case. She began to wait for introduction. She needed to be patient. She waited and no one came in her room. Then after sometime her Dad came. As soon as he entered in room, his face became without expression. He started to feel upset just by watching her. Then he controlled himself and started talking. " I want you to get independence." She was so confused. She didn't understand anything. Then slowly her Dad added. " I am planning to buy a nice bangalow for you. You can stay in it. I will keep it in your name so there will be no dispute about it's ownership." She began to get confused. She didn't understand how did she supposed to react. She was getting one bangalow on her name at such small age. She jumped with joy. Then she went out in balcony with coffee and breakfast her grandmother brought for her. She was feeling so happy. Then she looked down. She noticed her stepmom again. She remembered that she was not introduced. It was strange. She began to watch that woman carefully. She sensed that this woman didn't have any evil sort of quality inside her. She didn't understand why did she kept away from her. She kept watching that girl attentively. That woman didn't sense that she was watching.
Ragini was excited about marrying to Vishal. She was working with him in office for long time. They were friends. She began to like his company. She did inquiries about him. Everything seemed fine. She was divorcee. She didn't have much sad past except disappointments. Her husband was settled in abroad. She wanted to join him. But he didn't send her visa then one day he confessed that he was not interested in marriage. He didn't want to marry. He gave lot of excuses but his lack of interest in her managed to tell her all. He married to her just to get property. She was angry at beginning. She even tried to kill herself. But then she visited psychiatrist. She realised that everything was fine. She got divorced but that was not end of her life. She began to sense that she had many ambitions which were important to her than her marriage. She sensed that she needed to find positive feeling in her soul about them. She began to move ahead in life and step by step her life became good and promising. She started to feel hopeful. She began to get promotions. She started to get success. Her work became dedication for her. She started to believe that she needed to work hard and hard. For sometime she was literally workoholic. She started to spend her entire day and night just in work. Then Vishal came. He was so nice. He kept giving her positive feeling. She was not deeply in love. But she liked him. She came to his house for first time. It was nice one. She went in kitchen. She began to think about cooking something. She started to suggest items but Vishal stopped her. He said " Come on you are going to cook every day after our marriage." She smiled. On that point she felt that someone was watching them from crack of door. She kept feeling that someone was standing there. She didn't understand who was it. She was so tense and upset. She kept sensing those eyes. She started to feel someone was there. She was planning to ask who was it but it was first time when she came to his house. She didn't want to look suspicious by nature. They knew each other but not enough. Sometimes she began to sense that she didn't know him enough. She needed to know him more but it was not easy. She needed time. After chatting with him she came down. She looked at flat from downstairs. She began to watch that flat. She started observing. She sensed someone was watching her. This time she saw that girl was standing carefully. She began to sense that girl was observing her. This was too much. She turned towards Vishal and asked him " Who is that woman?" Vishal looked confused. Finally he started to talk "Well that is my daughter Sheena. " " Your daughter?!! Why don't you introduce her to me?!!" "She is little bit shy.." Then suddenly Vishal's mobile rang. He took call. She sensed that it was from customer. She began to needed to understand dispute. She started to feel he was getting different sort of business. She didn't want to disturbed her. She began to sense that he would chat for long time. She began to feel that she could introduce herself to that girl. She looked towards gallery and waved her hand. She could see that this girl was confused. Vishal was still busy in chatting on mobile when she got an idea. She went to watchman and told him to start intercom. Watchman obeyed her and connected to Vishal's flat. She was so happy. She could hear that bell of intercom was ringing. She sensed confusion in that girl's movement. That girl didn't understand what did she supposed to do. Then when she pointed towards phone that girl ran inside. Soon that girl came on phone. Ragini was so excited. Vishal was still busy on his mobile while Ragini exchanged her mobile number with Sheena. Ragini talked just for two minutes with Sheena but she liked that girl. She began to feel that she could find good friend inside her. She began to feel so happy. She turned behind. Vishal was still busy in talking on mobile. She turned back and stood beside him for sometime. Then finally when his conversation was over, she told him that she got mobile number from Sheena. She could clearly see fear in Vishal's eyes. She asked " What happened?" Vishal " Nothing. I just felt so scared." " Of what?" He couldn't explain. He just kept shivering. She didn't like it. She touched his forehead. He was not having fever. She was feeling so scared. She didn't understand why he was acting like that. She helped him to sit in car. She was so shocked. She didn't understand what was wrong with him. She decided to take him to Doctor. He slowly turned towards her and said " Remember one thing!!" " What?" " Don't go too much near Sheena!" She wanted to ask why but after watching his condition she decided to do it later. They went to Doctor. Doctor checked him and asked " Are you scared of something?" Vishal " Scared?!!..well I am planning to do some deal I hope it will go well. Little tense but not scared." Doctor smiled. " You are tense regarding it!! But you are not confessing it to yourself." Vishal looked nervous. Ragini sensed that he was hiding something. She knew very well that he was scared of one thing. That was his own daughter. She didn't understand why. She didn't understand cause behind it. She kept feeling confused. But then she decided that she would talk with Sheena then she could understand trouble. She was going to be her stepmom. She didn't want to keep negativity between them. She decided that she should call. When they came out of Doctor's clinic. She started to talking with Vishal but suddenly Vishal stopped her and said " I was thinking hard and I came to conclusion that we are not match for each other." She was shocked and hurt. But she took it in positive way. She smiled and said " It's okay. Will you stop car? I prefer Taxi." Vishal nodded and dropped her out of car. Ragini said " Bye and vanished far away in traffic. Vishal kept observing her from car.
Sheena was so excited. She wanted to talk with her new Mom. Her Dad promised one house but still Sheena wanted to stay with Vishal and Ragini at least for sometime. She was not hoping for such nice stepMom. She waited for call but that call didn't came. She began to get upset. She didn't understand why did Ragini changed her mind. But she knew that she could not just call her. She kept waiting. Then she heard noise of door opening. She sensed that it was Vishal. Her grandmother ran to attend him. Sheena slowly opened door little bit. Vishal began to talk angrily. Vishal " That girl is really bad news for all. She have negative shadow inside her. Whenever she enters in any place it start to get evil." Grandmother clearly didn't like it. Grandmother " Come on!! You are well educated man?!! You can't believe on these superstitions?!!" " I am an educated man and still I believe that Sheena have something evil inside her. I feel it on every point. First my wife died suddenly. Who should be blamed?" " Well. Destiny!!" " No..no she did it. She killed her mother. She has that power. I can see it in her eyes." Then he turned to her grandmother and said " Look at yourself you are looking so tired and sick!! Just because of her. She is destroying your health step by step." " Nonsense!! She didn't do anything. This happened due to my old age. I am not getting younger day by day. Don't blame that poor soul for it." " My marriage is broken because of her and you know very well. That this is third time when this happened." Grandmother looked shocked. She nodded with sad face. " But I feel Sheena is not responsible for it. She didn't even met that girl." " No.. she met her. She came in balcony and that lady whom I love so much managed to talk with her." Sheena was so confused. She didn't talked with Ragini. She didn't understand how could she insult or hurt her. But Vishal was looking so angry that she didn't dare to ask. She began to feel so sad. She started to think that she must live in that flat alone. She didn't deserve human company. She was truly a curse. She went in her room and started crying. Then her mobile rang. She saw unknown number. But still she decided to take call. She was shocked when she understood it was Ragini. Sheena " Did you broke engagement because of me?" " Who told you this nonsense? Your father broke it. I don't know why and I don't even care to know it if he is not interested in me then I am not planning to follow him like puppy.." " But he was telling grandmother you left him because of me." Ragini was so confused. She didn't understand why did Vishal used her name to hurt an innocent girl. " I didn't do that. He did. Let's forget him. Can't we chat like friends?!! I need someone now. Do you sense my pain when I was suddenly rejected by your father?" Sheena knew them very well. She subjected to this everyday. Vishal never accepted her. " My Dad is like that only unpredictable!!" Ragini felt so upset. She decided to just change subject. " So what is your plan in life?!!" " Nothing." Ragini was confused. " Nothing?!! Come on every one have some plan in life." " But I don't made any." " Why?!!" "Because I am confused. My Dad want to give me a house and now I sense that it is because he feel I am evil. So I need to find someone who feel I am nice to take advice and move ahead in life." Ragini felt confused. Ragini knew that after this she wouldn't marry to Vishal so this was her last call. She felt so sad about that girl. " I don't know much about you. But I feel I must give you one number for your father." She gave number of her psychiatrist. Ragini " I feel he is not mentally as sound as he pretend." Then soon Ragini disconnected call. Sheena was so confused. She started thinking about her Dad. She tried hard to locate someone else who pointed his madness. But no one did. According to all he was perfect single parent who sacrificed many things for his daughter when truthfully he didn't do any such a thing. She began to feel so upset. She didn't understand what was happening. But somewhere in her heart she began to question actions of her father which she accepted blindly. She started to feel that lady was right. Something was wrong. After her mother her father never talked with her except few words when they were needful. Her father always seemed to carry some rage against her. She was thinking this when her door knocked. She opened it and her father entered. Vishal was looking at her with strange expression. He seemed to be scared of her. She was so upset. Vishal supposed to talk with her. He supposed to encourage her but he was scared. He sat on far away chair and said slowly " I want you to shift in bangalow. I will pay all expenses but you must stay in that bangalow. I request you." He literally started bowing before her but she stopped him. " Dad no problem. I will shift." He smiled and went away. Sheena didn't said anything but she sensed something was wrong. Her Dad was scared of her. She didn't understand why. She never did any harm to him. But he kept avoiding her. Then her grandmother entered in her room. Her grandmother was upset again. Grandmother " Why did you met that lady?" " I didn't. she saw me in balcony. She was not upset with me. In fact she talked with me few minutes ago. She was so upset that Dad rejected her without cause. But I know the cause. He rejected her because she talked with me. Whenever his to be wife talk with me he rejected her." " Nonsense why did he do that?" " How did I suppose to know? But think." Her grandmother thought for long time then she nodded. Grandmother " You are right. This happened at least ten times now. It can't be coincidence." Sheena " But this one was truly nice lady. She warned me when I don't sense it. She even given me number of Psychiatrist." Her grandmother looked shocked. " Don't dare to suggest this to your Dad?!!" " I will not. I want that bangalow. And he is not going to believe me any way." Her grandmother went away. Her grandmother started packing her things. Sheena told her slowly " You can go away now. I know you want your life." Her grandmother smiled and said " You are my life honey." Sheena knew that she was lying but she knew that her grandmother never left her like that alone. She was always greatful to her for this. She appreciated her grandmother from heart.
Vishal was so upset. When Sheena was small girl, she used to stay in her room. But now she didn't. But even at that time he kept seeing her. He didn't understand proper cause but he hated to see her. She never did anything wrong. But he kept feeling scared of her. He called her grandmother to take care of her. Her grandmother was not so happy at beginning to left her house and to start to stay with her son-in-law. But as life went ahead her grandmother adjusted with Sheena and now she decided that she would keep her with Sheena for entire life or at least until Sheena didn't get married Vishal suddenly began to feel hope when he sensed that he never discussed marriage with her daughter. But she was too small for it. On second thought he felt not so small. He decided that he was too old to get married instead of his marriage he should be searching husband for his daughter. He didn't see any hope of love marriage in her. He decided that bangalow was good decision. It would encourage proposals. He wanted to married her off to someone. He liked that idea. In his heart he wanted to marry Ragini but he didn't want her to make friendship with his daughter. He couldn't explain it but Sheena was evil. He could sense it on her every action. He knew that Sheena managed to kill her mother. He didn't dare to say it but he sensed it. He could sense those feelings which were coming out from Sheen's eyes on that day. He knew that she had impact on soul. He needed to send her away. He began to plan different proposals. He started to think about person who could think about proposals. Then he remembered grandmother. Grandmother could manage all. He called her in his room. He immediately started talking about Sheena's marriage. But grandmother didn't look convinced. Grandmother " She is so small. Sheena is too young. Sheena had just completed her course. She needed sometime. " " But I want to get rid of her." Vishal screamed. Grandmother looked at him with shock. She sensed that something was truly wrong inside him. He was not normal. She felt it for first time. She began to feel sad from soul. She knew that Sheena didn't marry so soon. But this would be worst for her if she knew that her father didn't want to see her face so forcing her in marriage. She sensed one thing that she needed to hide this. Grandmother said in slow voice " Can I suggest you something?" Vishal nodded. She screamed loudly " You are mad man and my grand daughter doesn't deserve father like you. Just give that house and we will vanish." Vishal began to feel scared. He didn't like this sudden change. He ran towards cupboard. He opened it and took out papers. He started reading them. They were those ownership papers. He immediately gave them to grandmother. She took them and before going out she said " Visit this psychiatrist!! Before it become too late." Vishal felt so angry. He was not mad. But Sheena was evil. He knew all her tricks. She was convincing people that he was mad man. He began to scream on grandmother too. " Sheena is evil." Grandmother literally ran out of room. Sheena was in her room. She was crying so she heard all. Grandmother told her to pack up. Sheena nodded. They packed up their luggage. They immediately went away on next day. When they reached in bangalow, Sheena kept walking around it for long time. It was strange because Sheena never did that. Sheena kept observing entire house. She kept feeling each thing with hand. Finally she asked " Can I stay in this house for entire life?" Grandmother was shocked. Grandmother " Why honey?!! You have job to do!!" " I can do it from house and any way it is giving me nothing. I am so upset. I don't understand what I supposed to do with my life. I don't like the way things were moving in life." Sheena felt so sad. She wanted to tell all her pains to her grandmother but her words were not enough. Her grandmother started to look confused. Her grandmother didn't like this. Grandmother " You must keep going for your work. It will improve slowly just give it time." But Sheena didn't seem to listen to any word. She was lost in her thoughts. Her grandmother kept forcing her to go to job. It seemed as if she was no longer understanding anything. Then Sheena sat in her room. She kept listening to birds for hours. She kept sitting near window. She was so involved in that sound of birds that she started to feel as if nothing existed for her except birds. She was so happy. Her grandmother kept trying to chat with her. But nothing seemed working. Grandmother decided to talk with Vishal. But he was not interested in getting involved. Vishal " I told you she is evil. I don't want to relate with her. I am planning to marry another woman and don't disturb me now." " But I thought you want her to marry." " Now I don't need to face her so she can stay here as long as she want. I am not going to waste my time on her." Then he disconnected call. Grandmother kept listening to call which was disconnected. She was so shocked. She sensed one thing that he was not going to do anything for his daughter.
One day Sheena was listening to sound of birds when grandmother entered in room. Grandmother sat near her. Her grandmother looked slowly towards her and asked " Can I suggest something to you?" Sheena just watched her carefully then she took deep breath and said " I am not going out." Grandmother slowly pushed that number of Psychiatrist which Ragini suggested for her father. " I feel we must visit him." Sheena wanted to argue but she stopped herself. Her heart was so full of pains. She wanted to open it to someone and that doctor seemed like best option. They called and took appointment. Psychiatrist talked with her for long time then he said "By coming so early you did great job. Her problem is just beginning. Her father had basic problem but he is not willing to visit so we can't handle it. But we can handle her problem." Then Sheena told everything. Psychiatrist started to console her step by step and she began to feel normal. First time she sensed that she was not unwanted. Her grandmother truly cared for her just she couldn't able to show. She began to see everything in positive way and she sensed her father had mental problem. She was not evil. She smiled happily. She felt so unburdened. For first time she managed get freedom from evil trap of negative thoughts. She gave true smile with freedom on that day.
The End
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