Staying in flat
Seema was so excited about this new job. She was waiting for such opportunity for long time. She went in cupboard and started searching between clothes when her Mom called her from behind. Mom " What are you doing?" She smiled and said " Getting ready for my new job!!" Her Mom screamed " In this condition you are planning to do job." Seema felt so confused. She was perfect. " Mom I am fine!!" " Fine? In which way? Your life is destroyed few minutes ago and you want to go to that job." Seema felt so angry. She knew that her life was not moving in right way. She took deep breath and said " Mom I am fine. I will handle all." " But you need rest." "I don't need it." She was so upset. She didn't understand why did her Mom needed to mention her trouble. It was over. She could handle it. She knew anyway he was planning to left her. She took deep breath and smiled. " Mom I know Sameer was my husband and he died in car accident but he had left me two years ago. We were planning to take divorce. We have filed paper." " I know but still.." " I am not sensitive about him Mom!! I don't care. I just need this job." Her Mom smiled and said " Fine. Do as you wish. I don't want you to be sad." " No Mom. I am fine." She thought again in her heart. She was fine. She didn't care for Sameer any more. He had left her because they couldn't get along. Actually it all started since they didn't able to have child. She wanted treatment which was costly and he was not willing to waste so much money. He was okay without child. Many times she felt that he never wanted child. She didn't know if he pretended or he truthfully didn't desire to be father. But one thing was true that it lead to argument. He needed to show understanding but he kept pointing finger towards her. He was not only one who did. Many people did. She just wished that she was never married. She didn't even want to remember that marriage. He never wanted her. She didn't understand why he hated her so much if he didn't want kid. She just sensed one thing that her life was worst after marriage and she wanted out of it. She didn't want to even remember it. She was happy about getting away from it. She loved Sameer no doubt. But he managed to turn everything worst in end. When he sent divorce paper last year, she thought finally it was over. It was perfect. But soon she sensed that he was involved with someone else. One day when she was purchasing something in market, she noticed him with that girl. It was so embarassing. People knew them there as husband and wife. Many vendors were watching with confused looks. They had questions in eyes but they didn't ask on that time. But after few days one vendor asked " Madam that man who was with another woman was your husband?" She was so angry. She stopped purchasing vegetables and said " Yes he was but we are separated." When vendor sensed she was going away from shop, he added immediately " I know you are nice woman. But I don't like this man. I feel you got wrong husband. I never liked him. " She watched him with sad look. She knew that vendor was saying this to console her or to keep her as his customer but she was hurt. She just returned one forced smile. She just went ahead. After that she started going in other market which was not so near. But she didn't have strength of mind to accept that horrible comments. She started avoiding people. She was so happy when he finally started to talking about divorce. She didn't want to start matter since her family was not pro divorce. They wanted patch up. She had two brothers. One was living with parents. Other was living in separate flat which was owned by her parent's only. They managed all but her entry in family was clearly burden on all. It was clear from beginning they wanted patch up. But soon they all sensed that it was not possible. Then her brothers started suggesting that she should at least demand flat from Sameer. She was so upset. She started to feel so alone. She knew that Sameer didn't give her that flat. It was frustrating. She knew that he was not rich so she remained stuck to that marriage. Finally Sameer sent divorce papers. She signed them. Her brothers wanted her to demand flat. But she didn't since she knew that he was not going to give her anything. She couldn't tolerate him wandering around in her area with another woman. One day her brother came and told her " Sameer is doing this just to get divorce without alimony. Why else he came in market near our house?!! This is intentional. You must not surrender." " But I can't fight every day like this. I want my life too." Her brother looked so angry. Her brother " Don't you understand value of money. If you don't grab any money from him then we will surely land in bigger trouble. We need money to manage all. It is important for us to earn money. You are not doing any job so you are just burden. Your husband must pay for it." She sensed that her brother started to hate her since he was not getting any flat due to her. This brother was staying with her parents and if she stayed in that house then he clearly didn't able to get any flat because this one would remain on her father's name. His wife was scared and upset. Seema knew that she was not wrong. It was small house and they had two kids. Now another member was going to be big trouble. After all they also needed to arrange education for kids. They needed to make payment for it. This was essential for them. Specially after spending so much money on her marriage they wanted to get rid of her. She tried her best to remain helpful in house her best way. But her help was not needed. They all wanted money and she didn't got any. She was burden to all including her parents. They didn't say it but she could feel it. She could see it in their eyes whenever she entered in house. Accidental death of Sameer was blessing in disguise for her. They were not divorced so she was going to get his property. Sameer's parents were not objecting it since they didn't want bad publicity. She even got nice job. It was shocking that both things came at same time. Her Mom wanted her to play role of widow but she wasn't ready to sacrifice her job. She just went out for job.
Seema went out. She was smiling and happy. Then she suddenly sensed sorrowful grace of neighbour. It was clear that this neighbour wanted to express sorrows regarding Sameer. But when she noticed her colourful dress and make up she got confused. Seema smiled towards her. She just looked away. Her neighbour clearly disapproved her dressing style. Seema was so upset. Seema never got any right to happiness as his wife. He always treated some one else as special. She didn't understand why did she needed to cry like his widow. She was not his widow. She was going to divorce him. She wanted to scream it but she couldn't. Her brother warned her after divorce she couldn't get anything but at this point she could since she was widow so she needed to act like widow for that flat she needed to pretend. She needed to look sad. She started to sense that she needed that flat. She began to look so upset. She started to go to her neighbour. She said with sad look. " Actually I got job and today is first day so.." suddenly neighbour started to look positively towards her. Neighbour " I can understand. Now our husband is gone. You must find job." Seema was so upset. Sameer never gave any more money for long time. She didn't understand why did her neighbour thinking about her financial status. She wanted to tell her that she never received financial support from Sameer. He was never that kind of husband. He was that type of husband who never helped his wife. He always kept thinking just about himself. She managed to still smile. Seema knew talking about him in wrong way would put bad impression. She just gave sad smile and nodded. Neighbour patted on her shoulder. " You are such brave girl who understood situation of house and stood bravely for first day of job. Now it will be hard for your brother to manage household!! So you need to manage something." She was so upset. She wanted to tell her that her father had enough money to feed her. She didn't have any expensive habits so she didn't need that much money. She could even work at house to reduce expenses of maids. They didn't waste so much money on her. But she took deep breath and just nodded. She was so frustrated. But she kept giving sad smile and kept nodding. Then she started to feel so upset. She looked at watch. She said " I must go for job. It's first day." Her neighbour nodded. She ran away from her. She took deep breath. She began to feel so upset. It was her first day so she needed to relax. She took deep breath again and began to remember happy moments of life. It was so upsetting. She started to feel so helpless. She didn't understand what was wrong with her. She knew that she was not sensitive about Sameer but she still wanted to cry. Then she took Taxi. She went to her new office. She started to observe it. That office was really wonderful. She felt so happy and promising. She was going in one reputated and good office which would provide her promising future. She was so happy at this thought. She smiled happily and went inside. She was hoping to find someone friendly but everyone was too busy to notice her. She was so happy about this job but now she started to feel inferior from soul. She sensed that no one around her wanted her to be there. She went inside. Her Boss ordered her to come in. There was not any note of welcome in invitation. It was straight approach of Boss. He gave her work. She nodded and started to do it. She knew few part of it. She needed to learn remaining part. She tried to ask others but no one helped. She needed to finally go to Boss who ordered few colleagues to help her. They were clearly upset. They felt that they were given disgusting work. They kept telling her that she was biggest burden on their busy schedule. She kept nodding. She tried her best to adjust with situation. She tried her best to take every insult in positive way. Finally she learnt work of that day. She began to feel so upset. She decided that she needed to adjust. By end of day she was convinced that she couldn't adjust with this office. She wanted to cry. But she couldn't guess one thing that this depression was helpful for her situation. When she returned home with tears, every one from society looked at her with sympathy. They all thought that it was because of Sameer. They all wanted her to cry and she was crying. She ran in her room and started crying loudly. Her Mom came running inside after her. She told her Mom " Mom you were right. Going in office today was wrong decision." Her Mom took her in arms. She kept crying and her Mom kept patting her same way as she use to pat her when she was child and her some toy use to be broken. It was so upsetting. She needed to understand that it was life. But this time it was not toy. It was her marriage and her career. She sensed that both were broken but still she needed to stand but she didn't understand for whom. She had no one but she knew that killing herself was not option. She knew that they would save her if she tried to kill herself and she was so scared about getting paralyzed instead of dead. She had read many cases of failed suicide where people remained handicapped or in worst condition for entire life. She didn't want to be one of them so she took deep breath. She smiled towards Mom and said " I will try again tomorrow!! I will go to office." Mom " You don't need to.." " I must Mom. I can't just sit in house. You know how did my brother feel about it. It will not long before his wife start complaining." Mom" Don't worry. I will give them flat of my parents." Seema was so shocked. Her Mom was so attached to that house and she knew that her sister-in-law would surely break it to make it perfect. Seema remembered Sameer's flat. Seema took one breath of determination and said "Mom I will get Sameer's flat. I will stay in it." Mom " But can you adjust with those sad memories." She took deep breath and said " I will."
Seema decided to shift on that day. She knew that it was going to be hard. That was necessary. She knew that she needed to fight with bad memories. She went in Sameer's parents house. She was confused what would be their reaction. But they didn't show much anger. His father just came out and gave her keys. He said " Now our boy is dead. We don't want argument. You had never able to give us grandchildren now at least don't take away our peace." She was so shocked. She tried her best to act nice but life was kept destroying her. She wanted those kids but after hearing this she didn't want them. But she knew that she would be homeless without them. She took them and went away as fast as possible. Life was not moving as she wanted. She was not getting anything as she deserved. They blamed her for everything but she didn't understand how could she be blamed. Sameer never had kids!! His second girl friend didn't got pregnant. But now she knew that it was not because she couldn't. But since Sameer didn't got divorce. She regretted not giving him divorce. She entered in that flat. She was expecting old flat but she was shocked to see change in it. Every wall was changed. It had different colour. She could see that entire interior was created for someone else. She knew that it was for his girlfriend. She could sense their presence everywhere. She was feeling so hopeless and sad. She started looking at those walls and she shivered. She could see their affection in every frame. She was so confused. She thought Sameer was never capable of loving someone. But in this picture she could see his love. She did so many things just to get it but she never managed. It was so wrong that someone got it without effort. She began to feel so upset. She didn't understand. She suddenly began to think that it was about not having kid. She began to sense that tears were coming in her eyes. She was feeling so hurt. It was not right. She didn't need to feel so much pain. But she was feeling it. She didn't understand those pains. Then she suddenly located a photograph in which she could see him with his girlfriend. They both were smiling and enjoying themselves. It was so upsetting. She suddenly knew that this was not her flat anymore. Sameer managed to destroy her existence from it. She felt so trapped and hurt. She began to feel strange suffocation in it. She started to feel that every wall was coming near her and she was going to be caged in those walls. She wanted to be alive but she began to feel those walls would manage to kill her. She needed to go out so she ran out of that house. She stood on her street when her mobile rang. Her Boss was calling her. She immediately took it. Boss " Where are you?" " I am trying to catch Taxi." " Good. So you will reach soon." " Yes sir!!" " Then during your traveling order seven meals from this hotel." Then she took address. She immediately took Taxi. She began to search for hotel. She found it. She went there and ordered meal. She suddenly began to feel better. She felt that she could manage it. She ran back in office. That staff was still kept showing dislike towards her. But she decided to just ignore them. She kept doing her work. She suddenly sensed that her office work was more important for her. She began to do it. She felt so happy when she was behind computer. She didn't want to come ahead and began working. She was not interested other things. She was just interested in that computer. She kept working for hours. Then when finally office time was over, she went home. Even at home she kept quiet. She kept looking at some book or her mobile. She didn't say any word to anyone. But still she could sense angry eyes on her. They wanted her out of house. She took deep breath and said " I got keys of Sameer's flat and tomorrow I will shift there." They all looked at her with shock. They didn't expected this from her. Just her Mom knew all. Her Mom gave her sad smile and said " But don't you need to do few changes." " No..no I will handle it." She just wanted to be out of that house. She could hear every day quarrel from her brother's room. She knew that her sister-in-law was feeling insecure. Her sister-in-law wanted at least one house on their name. She was scared that Seema might get this one. Seema didn't want to be cause of her brother's shattered marriage. Her sister-in-law suddenly looked so happy. She asked " So they gave you those keys?!!" " Yes and it is over. They said that they didn't want to see me again and I agreed." Her brother " But what about other properties of Sameer?" Her Mom " Enough!! She got one flat. They will not give all to her." Her Mom was clearly angry. Her sister-in-law didn't want matter to get damaged so she supported Mom. " Mom is right. Let her shift in house. One flat is enough. If we demand more then they might take away this flat too. After all they were on way of divorce." Seema felt so sad. She began to sense that she was taking something which didn't belong to her. She was not Sameer's wife and he never loved her. But she needed a flat so she took it from him after his death. She was pretending to be his widow but truthfully she was not even attached to him any more. He hated her. She knew that he didn't want her because she couldn't give him child. But then from first day of marriage he never showered love on her the way he showed it on his girlfriend! She knew one thing that he never liked her. She didn't understand why did he proposed her and married to her. But she couldn't dare to ask it since she needed to stay with him. She felt sometimes even if they had kids. He would have behaved same way. She felt so sad about all. She just wanted to change her destiny but she couldn't.
Next day Seema went in that flat. Her Mom was with her when she suddenly felt that presence for first time. She sensed that someone was moving around her. She shivered with fear. She could sense that breath. It was so much like Sameer. She knew that he was dead but still she could sense his presence. She shivered with fear and asked Mom " Did you feel anything?" Her Mom "What? Do you smell something? I mean do you feel that we might need pest control?" " No..no Mom. I mean presence of Sameer!!" Her Mom looked towards her with shock. Mom " Are you alright?" She controlled her feelings and started laughing. " Mom I was just joking. I am not that sensitive about Sameer." Her Mom looked doubtful and said " I hope so." Then her Mom started pulling all photographes from wall. She took away all. But when Mom reached to photograph of Sameer and his girlfriend Seema sensed strange presence around her neck. She could sense those hands. They were trying to kill her. They were trying to block her windpipes. She was trying so hard to speak but she couldn't. She tried to move ahead but due to her breathless condition moving ahead became burden to her. She tried so hard but she couldn't. She started to move her legs but they were not moving too. She began to feel so helpless. She was so scared. She felt as if paralysis was taking hold of her body, her entire body was not moving. She was feeling so restless. She needed to relax herself. But she couldn't. Her breath was stuck in her chest. She couldn't even breath. She looked around and she saw a sun rays shining on that picture. She immediately sensed that Sameer didn't want her to remove that picture. She screamed loudly "Mom stop!!" That voice came loud and clear. She sensed that there was some paranormal existence in that flat. She was not that much believer but when she saw it then she had to believe it. She shivered with fear. Her Mom looked shocked too. She ran out of flat. Her Mom followed her. When they reached outside, she told everything to her Mom. Her Mom looked confused. Mom " Well. Do you feel that it's ghost?!!" " Of course!!" " But I don't sense anything." " Because Sameer didn't hold any grudge against you!! He hated me Mom. Just me and he would surely take revenge now. I just only wish if we got divorced. I don't want this flat." Her Mom smiled and said " Then let's sell it." " Mom but still it is not in my name." Mom looked confused. Mom " I really don't like the way things are turning. You are saying that Sameer's spirit is around flat. But I don't sense anything and that flat is not on your name so we can't even sell it. I really don't like this. We need to do something." " What Mom? Did you see any option? I really don't. I need to stay here. Just don't took away that photograph." Her Mom looked shocked. Mom " You can't stay here while watching photo of your late husband and his girlfriend?!! This is madness!!" " But Mom I don't have option. I must shift." Then she noticed that it was time to go to office. She turned to Mom. " Mom do me a favour. Change entire interior. Call someone I will pay." Mom nodded. She went in office. Once again she spent her entire time while working on computer. She didn't see anyone's face. She worked in such speed that Boss admired her. She was great employee for firm. She was happy someone liked her at least for her work. She wanted to be loved and appreciated by someone. She took deep breath at thought of Sameer. Now a days she kept her entire day taking these deep breaths. Sometimes she felt that she would forget normal breathing soon. Then she went in flat after office. She was happy at beginning since it looked entirely new but then after sometime she sensed that it was still had that old soul. She began to sense presence of Sameer. She could smell his perfume. She shivered when she smelt it. She immediately called her Mom. Her Mom was so shocked. Mom " I want you to come back." " No Mom I can't." Then she suddenly felt that Sameer was near her. She could sense his presence. She began to feel that he was kicking her. She felt pain in stomach. She screamed. Her Mom heard it. Her Mom " I am coming." She wanted to reject that offer but she felt another kick. She began to sense that she was under Sameer's control and he was punishing her. She kept screaming in pain. Finally security came running. They forced door. She was on floor by that time. Her Mom didn't reach on time. When she came, society people already managed to take her in hospital. Doctor checked her. Doctor was clearly confused. Doctor " I don't understand what happened?" She felt shy to tell her story but she sensed that she didn't have any option. She told entire story. Doctor turned head in negative way. Doctor " I can't see any mark of someone hitting you." " But I am hurt." " Yes you are. Because you kept falling from one place to another since you felt someone was kicking you." " I am not pretending." " No you are not!! You can truly see those things. You are hallucinating due to truama. Do you ever visited psychiatrist?" " Just one counselor for my marriage. She suggested psychiatrist to me when I start crying since Sameer didn't came. She felt that I am getting emotionally disturbed. But I don't want to accept it. Since then Sameer could declare me mad." " It must be problematic on that time but now you can do it." She nodded.
When Seema's Mom came, she was crying. She told all to Mom. Her Mom looked tense. Mom " I felt same thing. I don't see a ghost there. But you were claiming it. You must understand that it isn't easy to accept mental problem but it's wise to accept it." Seema nodded sadly. Then they visited psychiatrist. Psychiatrist heard all. Psychiatrist " It is happening due to your guilt. Your in-laws kept feeding your mind with false concept that you must provide child for them. Actually you can't guarantee a child like that." She nodded. " Now you don't feel you deserve that flat. But truthfully you does. Noone deserve it more than you. You tolerated all stunts of Sameer. His girlfriend might have managed to look nice to all. But truthfully you did all for Sameer. If he was alive then I didn't want you to have that flat but after his death you deserve it. You did all for him entire life." She nodded. She began to feel relaxed. She started meeting psychiatrist and every time her stress started to get reduce. She began to feel so happy. She didn't shift during that time. She kept staying in that flat. Finally one day she threw away that photograph. She hated them both. They always treated her like dirt so she threw their picture in dirt. She knew that it was wrong so next day she called his parents and sent it to them. They thanked her and sent her paper of house. It was now on her name. She finally owned it and she could stay in it too. She could no longer sense hands of ghost around her. She just felt sad at those memories but she didn't see ghost. She was finally normal again.
The End
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