Eating some sweets
Pradip started looking around. He was jogging so hard whole time but he started to get breathless. He began to sense that he needed to stop. He couldn't since wrist watch was telling him that he was stopping too early. He took deep breath. He looked. He could see hot weather. Everyone was sweating. But no one was stopping. Everyone was going ahead. He needed to do it too. He looked at himself. He was looking so fat. He needed to reduce his weight. He needed to become slim. He didn't like the way he was looking. He wanted to look like good athlete. He knew that it was not possible. But then he wanted to look like at normal young man. But he was looking so old. He seemed like elderly person. He knew that he was middle age man now. But still he felt so helpless. He wanted to feel emotions of youth from heart. He saw his father every day enjoying his life like youth. But he was feeling that way. He didn't understand why he didn't feel. Then he thought that it was because of over weight. He was feeling so tired and exhausted. He decided to jog in morning on Sundays. Everyday jogging was impossible due to his daily job. He kept feeling hurt by his weight gain. He wanted to reduce it. But he kept eating something during his work. He could never relax until he didn't eat. After eating he could do every job happily. He needed to do job. He knew that he needed to quit this habit of eating while working. He never sensed when he developed it. But it was too late to stop. He didn't understand what he supposed to do. He didn't sense what he desired. He wanted to be slim. He decided that today he wouldn't eat in office. He knew that he needed serious commitment. He looked around. He suddenly located place of his worship. He took deep breath. He knew that he needed commitment to God for doing all. He went there. He bought things for worship. Then he went inside. He offered everything to God. Then he took oath before God. He said to God that he never eat sweets during working hours. Then he felt confident that he knew that he could do it. He went home. He took tiffin. He decided to be sure that it just had salads. He didn't want anything fatty. He made commitment to God that he would not eat sweet and he was planning to fulfill it. He was doing everything to complete it. He began his daily meditation in Taxi during traveling. Once he used to travel with train but after his weight gain it became impossible. His knees were no longer so strong. One day his knee almost gave when he was trying to climb in train while pushing crowd. He was going to fall down. Luckily someone took hold of him. But even that man said that he needed to lose weight. Everyone on train agreed. They all felt that if he didn't lose weight then he might get heart troubles in young age or he could get diabetic. It scared him. But instead of facing problem he avoided it. He started using Taxi instead of train. It was big impact on budget but when he told Gayatri , his wife that he had fallen from train. No one questioned this expenses. After reading so many stories regarding people dying by falling from overcrowded train. No one wanted to take risk. His Dad specially supported Taxi traveling. His Dad said " We must live today who had seem tomorrow. He needed money for Taxi. He must get it. We will adjust." Then they reduced quality of their food items which didn't actually effected their health but reduced taste of food little bit. But no one needed so he got money for Taxi. Now he even began to dream of traveling in train. He was true a ambition to him. Everyone in his office easily managed to travel by train daily while he was stuck in traveling by Taxi. Many gave indirect taunt to him regarding this. He wanted to be fit. He sat in Taxi. He was fully confident today that he wouldn't eat any sweet item or anything which increased his fat today. Since he kept all his card and cash in home intentionally. He could say in office that he had just forgotten it. He took deep breath. He needed to control his hunger today and he was planning to do it. He needed to reduce fat. He was totally determined. Then he entered in office. He sat on his usual easy chair and suddenly his world changed. He began to feel so relaxed and he became that manager who would sell dreams to people. He would sell so many dream that he lost count of it. But did he truly fulfill them? This was very tricky question but he had already forgotten it. He couldn't let his morals take control when he did business. He took out all business booklets. He made sure that each one had beautiful picture. They were so wonderful that few customers just took their deal due to those pictures. They were their dreams and he promised to fulfill them. Sometimes he did and sometimes he didn't. But he started to get money from them and that was important for him. After all there were many employees and every one wanted salary. He did his best. Then his PA, Rajiv entered. Rajiv " One new customer came in today. They wanted to talk to you." Once again Pradip managed to create innocent smile on his face. He needed it to sell his products. He needed it to get happiness which he deserved. Then customer entered. He began to chat. Slowly he managed to convince them regarding his products. They were clearly simple people who were easily enchanted by his convincing. He felt so happy. Then Rajiv came as per routine and asked " Do you want some tea and snacks?" Pradip began to feel upset. Pradip wanted to tell Rajiv not to offer but it was too late. It seemed that those customers were truly hungry. Husband said " I like coffee." Wife " Tea for me." Rajiv nodded and went away. Pradip was angry but he still managed to create artificial smile on his lips. He needed it. Pradip took deep breath and said " Order some snacks too." Rajiv nodded with smile. Now it was decided that if customer truly gave order then only those tea and coffee entered with snacks otherwise nothing came. Rajiv was observing carefully. But soon it became clear that Pradip's charm worked once again. They gave order of products and it was big one. Rajiv smiled and went to order food and beverage.
Pradip was so frustrated. He supposed to smile during entire conversation. But he was getting tense regarding which snacks Rajiv might bring. He didn't want them to be his favourite. Since if it turned out to be his favourite then his hand went to it without any trouble. He would want to eat them. He knew that Rajiv mostly brought whatever fresh item he get. He sometimes managed to get his favourite and sometimes he didn't get. He just wanted it to be less favourite this time. He didn't want to be tempted. He hoped from his heart that it was his disliked snacks. Then he could reject it. But during entire procedure he never once let those customers understood that he was thinking something else. He started to think about snacks again and again. He started to feel so sad. He began to feel so tense. But customers didn't sense it. He was so shocked that he was so convincing. He started to feel so happy. His skills were wonderful. He started to sense hope that he able to reject snacks. Then finally Rajiv entered with snacks. Pradip felt it's smell. It was so nice and so enchanting. He kept feeling strange hunger due to it. He decided that he wanted to eat those snacks. They were his favourite and he couldn't deny that pleasure. He smiled at customer. He offered them those snacks. Then he ate them without any second thought. He felt so happy. It was so promising. Then he started talking about deal. Those customers seemed so promising but then suddenly after one point wife started looking at mobile. She said that mother-in-law was calling. They must left as soon as possible. Husband looked shocked. Then they said that old lady had heart attack and needed to take her to hospital. Then they took back advance they offered. They said that they couldn't afford at this moment due to this sudden crisis. Pradip was so shocked by this turn of events. He never thought that he could lose order this way. But they had not did anything in writing so he couldn't force them. He just kept nodding with smile. He wanted everything to look perfect. He kept showing off that he didn't really mind. But he did. He managed to break his promise before God. He ate with those people just to get deal and finally he got nothing. They went away. He kept looking at plate. Then he began to think in different way. He began to feel that eating those snacks was his mistake. Due to his sin he suffered such a bad luck. His customers were purchasing goods but then he ate those sweets and that old lady suddenly had heart attack. It was possibly due to curse of God. He shivered with fear. He sensed that he needed to be careful. He must not eat sweets anymore. He needed to keep oath taken before God. He began to sense that he did big mistake. He must not take those oaths before God if he couldn't keep them. He asked Rajiv suddenly " Can we take back our oath?" Rajiv looked confused. Rajiv " What kind of oath sir? Actually now a days people change their lines like clothes on every day so there are plenty of people who took oath and change it next day. If you have not given it on written paper then it is okay to change.." " I don't mean promise to human. I mean promise to God." Now this managed to confused Rajiv. Rajiv looked scared. " Now you can't take fake oath before God sir. Even you can't give word to human if you are not going to do it before God. God is different issue. But truthfully I don't like those people who break their oath. Personally I am against it but people do it many times and in life we need to accept truth." Pradip nodded. He sensed that Rajiv's advice was not that much useful for him. Rajiv was saying things in such way that his confusion wasn't clear. Rajiv was clearly confused himself. He needed to study more about taking back oath. He began to search on internet and as he went ahead. He sensed that his path to take back oath was horrible. He could find easy way out. He needed to work hard to understand meaning of oath. Then he sensed that he needed even work hard to take back. He couldn't stand on one leg for a day or he could do bathe in winter with cold water. He began to shiver even on that thought. He felt so restless. He began to think that God might forgive him after this punishment. He decided that he didn't needed to repeat mistake. Then he looked at plates. He had already managed to empty them so he didn't need to eat further. He felt that after this he could keep his promise. He could eat less and didn't get tempted further by sweets. He ate his salad from tiffin obediently. He didn't eat anything wrong during entire time. He was so happy. Then he ordered cab. Soon he got call that cab was waiting. He sat inside cab and took deep breath. He sensed today and he was getting more and more fat. Today he even found hard to sit inside cab. He couldn't climb properly to reach to seat. Once he used to jump in Jeep without much efforts but now he was having problems in climbing in Cab. It was so frustrating. He knew that he needed to lose some weight. He wanted to reduce his tension. He knew more tense he would feel more hungry. He began to feel that he needed to reduce his hunger. He knew that he was not supposed to get hungry but more he wanted to reduce hunger. He started to feel more hunger. His stomach was disobeying him on every point. He wanted to convince himself that he was not hungry but nothing was working. He kept feeling worst and worst on every moment. He decided that he needed to concentrate on something else. He began to hear songs of devotion. He started to feel relief. He began to sense that he was truly before God that power and that shine. He started to feel relaxed. Then he suddenly began to see food offered to God. It kept before God. It was so wonderful and he could smell it's taste. He just went near it and started eating it without second thought. It was so tasty. Suddenly he forgot all other things and that food became main desire of his thought instead of God. He just wanted to eat it.
Cab driver was looking at Pradip in strange way. He saw that his passenger Pradip was not eating anything. But now suddenly he sensed that Pradip was eating something with closed eyes and smiling. But Cab driver never saw any food reaching towards his mouth. Cab driver was so confused. He didn't feel that he took mad customer inside but now he was scared. He didn't understand why this fellow was eating when he didn't have any food in mouth. He shivered with fear. He just decided to drop this man to spot that he told. He started moving as per instructions. Finally he reached to stop and he jumped with joy. He called Pradip immediately. Pradip suddenly woke up from his dream. He was so happy. He removed earphones and smiled. Cab driver smiled too. Since Cab driver thought that Pradip must be singing tune. Then Pradip went in his house. He totally forgot his oath. He just wanted to eat. He went inside and called his wife. His wife knew very well that he was fond of eating. She went inside and brought tasty sweets. She served it to Pradip. Pradip was so happy. He started eating them when suddenly his son came out. His son screamed " Dad something is wrong with grandpa. He was looking at ceiling and he didn't answer." Pradip and his wife ran towards room. When Pradip touched his father, he sensed that it was too late. His Dad was dead. His body was cold. He didn't wanted to cry before his son. But he couldn't help it. Everyone started crying. It was horrible for them. Then they called their family Doctor who gave them death certificate. But before giving it Doctor turned Pradip and asked " I don't understand how could healthy man like your Dad die so suddenly? He was so full of life." Pradip shivered. He started to feel nervous. He began to sense all. It was happening due to his mistake. He ate those sweets and that curse fallen on his house. Doctor kept looking at his suspicion. Doctor " Why are you so tense? Come on!! I know how much you love your Dad?!! I don't think you have killed him!!" Pradip " I know but still it hurt when you ask questions and remind me of his death." Doctor nodded and went away. But in his heart Pradip felt so scared. He began to feel responsible for his father's death. His father was so healthy while he was example of worst health still his father died instead of him. He knew that he was young but still he didn't believe that his father deserved this death at this age. He knew that it was his mistake. He took oath and started to break it. He sensed whenever he ate something worst was started happening. He really didn't like this. But this was truth. He knew that it was happening and he needed to accept it. He kept looking at his father's body and kept blaming himself. He could hear everyone saying that his father was so healthy. They said that even his body had health glow. He didn't understand how could this curse work on his family like this. He didn't understand how could he managed to destroy his life. He cried that day on body. For few days he stayed at home. Then he finally needed to go back to work. During all those days he avoided tasty food. Truthfully they didn't made tasty food. They kept it simple. No one cook anything special in house where person was died. They kept simple. But when he entered in office, he sensed change. No one was in sorrow here. Everyone was busy. Few were laughing and few were sharing their problems but no one felt sorrows. They were happy human beings. Then customers started coming. He began to get normal too. He started getting customers. He began to sell. He totally forgot all. Then finally one big customer came who deserved special treatment. He knew that it was rich and confirmed buyer. He felt so pleased to see them. Then he slowly pointed Rajiv. Rajiv smiled. It was time to serve special snacks which were expensive and of imported quality. Rajiv went out and brought it. Customers took it and ate it. Pradip was so happy when they signed deal. Everything happened in perfect way while Pradip ate his snacks. He loved them. He was eating them after so many days. He managed to clean entire plate then he sensed his mistake. He shivered with fear. He immediately called at home. His wife took call. He asked " Are you alright?" " Yes I am but what happened?" " Nothing special. I am just tense." Then he started thinking about people who could be in danger when Rajiv entered & said " We got such big order. We must celebrate." He made sad face and said " I can't I need to go home.." Rajiv nodded. But Rajiv was confused. Until now his Boss Pradip was never burden with household duties. This sudden change was shocking for him. But then he felt that it was not so shocking. After all Pradip's Dad was healthy man and he must be helping Pradip with his household work. Rajiv assumed that it was because of it. Pradip called Taxi. This time he didn't hear even devotional song. He didn't want to see those food items again. He went in house and started his worship. He looked around. Inside house everything was perfect but he knew in his heart that something worst was going to happen. He knew it and sensed it that from his mind. He was so scared. He looked around everything was perfect then suddenly newspaper page came flying on his face. He read it. It had news of building fallen. Many names of dead people inside it. He started reading then he suddenly found a name silimar to his childhood friend. Actually that boy was not friend just used to study with him. But he sensed that his mistake managed to bring death on him. He started crying.
Next day Pradip did one idea. He told his wife that he had diabetes. She looked so scared. She started avoiding every sweet product. In fact she planned to lock them. So he managed to get food without sweets. It was tasteless but he didn't mind since he was keeping his promise which was important for him. He went in office and declared same thing. Everyone looked sad. They all had scary stories about diabetes. They were so afraid. But finally he managed to stay away from sweets. Rajiv personally started to serve every thing just to customer. Pradip used to get upset at beginning by it but then slowly he got settled. Pradip sensed that everything was going in perfect way. He was keeping his promise so he was not suffering due to any crisis. He was so happy. Until one day he started to feel weak, he began to sense that all world around him was unclear to him. He wanted to take one step further but he fell on ground. It was horrible and shocking. He kept trying to sit down on chair but it was impossible. Finally other people from office came to help. He was immediately admitted to hospital. It was horrible experience for him. He didn't understand what he supposed to do. He kept trying hard to keep himself awake but nothing was working and he lost his senses. When he woke up his wife was sitting beside him on chair. He smiled towards her and she came rushing towards him. She touched his forehead and asked with tense eyes " Are you feeling alright?" His wife was looking scared. " I am fine. But what is wrong with me?" His wife gave him sad look. " They are saying you were never diabetic. That report was wrong. They said you never had any problems regarding sugar. You need to eat more sugar. I feel you should start eating sweets again." He shivered with fear. He began to sense that sweets were going to be necessary for him on medical ground. He needed to eat them but he was not willing to eat them. It was getting worst day by day. He wanted to keep his oath but he didn't able to keep it. He knew that no one was coperate him now. He felt so upset. He slowly sat and told his wife " I don't want to eat sweets." " Why?" " To reduce my weight!" " What? But you have managed to lose many kgs!!" " But it was not enough." " What? You have already managed to lose so much weight. You don't need to reduce more." Pradip was so upset. He didn't want to break oath. He knew that now they would force him. He started to scream on her " I don't want sweets!!" Suddenly Nurse came running inside and said angrily "This is hospital if you want to scream like this at least keep this door closed." She pointed towards open door. His wife immediately apologised and closed it. His wife " I don't sense that it was open. I really be careful next time." Nurse " But what's wrong with him?" She pointed towards Pradip. Pradip " I just wanted to lose some weight." Nurse started to give strange laugh. Nurse "How much weight did you want to lose?" " I mean I want to be fit. I use to be obbess." " Once upon a time. Now you are underweight." After that they started insisting on eating healthy products. But in hospital they didn't serve tasty sweets. It was normal and healthy food. But when he got discharged, trouble started. His wife began to give him sweets. He rejected them. Now he didn't feel desire of them. Rajiv also started serving with sweets and snacks but he always kept them just for customers. He no longer felt hunger for it. He began to sense that strange curse was moving around and it might catch him one day if he didn't control his desire to eat sweets. He felt so upset and scared. He didn't understand his fear. But he kept feeling a strange shadow was following him. If he ate sweets then it would catch him. When he went for check up, Doctor checked his sugar. Doctor " Are you still on diet?" He smiled and lied. " No..no but I don't feel hungry." " Come on. I am watching you for long time. I saw you when you were overweight and I saw you now as underweight but from my heart I feel that weight is not that big issue. What is your trouble?" Pradip gave forced smile and said " Nothing." He just started looking away. He was not planning to discuss his Oath issue with Doctor. Doctor kept quiet for sometime then he asked " Do you think about visiting psychiatrist? I feel it is about time that you should start thinking." Pradip was so shocked and angry. Pradip " I don't see any sign of mental trouble in me. I don't imagine things or I am not depressed." " Then why don't you eat sweets? Or things like them? I know you like them. And you suddenly stopped eating. Then you lied that you are diabetic. We never did that test and I know surely that you never visited any other Doctor. You never got time for it. I am sure that you were lying." Pradip didn't spoke for long time. He began to feel tense. He started to feel upset. He knew that sweets were curse to him. But then he sensed that it might be hallucination too. He suddenly sensed that he might had seen a sign of mental trouble. He took deep breath and said " I will visit psychiatrist. Give me his number." Doctor smiled happily and gave. When Pradip came home, his house was full of tasty aroma of food. But still he didn't feel tempted. He just felt scared. He began to sense that those items were creating worst impact on him. He began to imagine worst things. He just locked himself in his room. He started to get tense. He looked around with fear. He sensed negative on every point. He suddenly sensed that he was becoming mad. He immediately dialed number of Psychiatrist and literally started crying for appointment.
Pradip managed to get emergency appointment of next day. After getting appointment he just kept inside room. His wife came many times tried to tempt him with sweets but he kept screaming on her. He knew that he was creating bad effect on kids but he got no option. He just couldn't help screaming. He slowly took deep breath and closed his eyes. He kept ignoring everything around him. Finally he opened his eyes when his wife slept beside him and called his name. His wife " Did you visited Doctor?" " I took appointment of psychiatrist tomorrow." His wife smiled with relief. He sensed that she wanted same thing. He called office and took one day off. Then he waited for long time in psychiatrist clinic. Finally he went inside and told all to psychiatrist. Psychiatrist " This is post traumatic symptoms. You are feeling sad due to death of your father." " But that curse!! These are just excuses you have created to punish yourself. You don't want to forget death of your father. You keep telling yourself that your father can't die but it was fake belief and time proved it. But you don't want to accept it so you began to find excuse to blame yourself." Pradip shivered with fear. He sensed all. " Will you able to cure me?" Psychiatrist smiled and said " Of course." Then they started discussing every issue with each other like friends.
The End
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