Dipti's dreamworld
Dipti closed
her eyes & started dreaming. She was so happy. She knew that whenever she
started to sleep then she immediately began to dream in same way. It was her
most pleasant sort of dream. She was so involved in every step of that dream.
It was creating one unique sort of world in her mind. She wanted to follow each
step of that dream. She wanted to feel hopeful regarding that route which would
bring positivity in her thoughts. She was hoping for long time that her life
would start to create wonderful scenery for her. But dream showed different
feelings for spirit that formed enchanting appeals to thought. She started to
create one path in mind which showed hopeful route. She began to understand
every step for mind. She started to think how interesting different feelings would
look in her dream. She closed her eyes in positive way. She knew that all her
negative feelings would vanish if she tries hard. She didn’t want to live in
present tense. She wanted to live in her dreams. Her life was so pleasant once.
She still remembered those days. She used to run around. She knew even on those
days she was not so admired but still people cared for her. She began to feel
positive about all. She needed to think hopefully. But her mind was wandering. She
knew that in her sleep she could reach to any point. She could see anything she
liked. She smiled sweetly & started laughing. On that point she heard voice
of her sister. Her sister Tanuja was once again talking to some one with loud
voice. It was frustrating. Tanuja needed to feel positive in her mind but she
kept feeling so upset. She needed to concentrate on her dreams but she began to
think about other things. She couldn’t able to hold her dream in her mind. She
knew that dream was needed. She tried so hard. Finally, she gave up &
opened her eyes. She looked around. She was in her bedroom. She was sleeping on
her uncomfortable sofa. She knew that she needed one bedroom but it was not
possible. She needed to share room with her sister Tanuja. She was hoping that
Tanuja would shift in her own house after her husband purchased one new flat.
Actually, since Tanuja’s husband went abroad for some work. Tanuja kept staying
with them. Tanuja didn’t want to live alone in house. Sometimes Dipti wished if
only she had one flat like Tanuja she could have shifted in it. Tanuja didn’t
shift there. Dipti felt so irritated by Tanuja’s voice. She knew that now she
would start having nightmares. Dipti began to sense that her nightmare was
beginning. She knew that whenever she heard voice of Tanuja on that point her
nightmare always began. She began to get so tense. She knew that while keeping
her eyes closed, she was feeling strange sort of frustration inside. She
screamed loudly “Will you stop talking?” Then she looked around. She shivered
with fear. It was so stressful. She needed to feel positive in her mind. But
she couldn’t. She looked towards the chair on which Tanuja was sitting. Tanuja
was already walking. She saw that Tanuja was laughing. Tanuja was enjoying her
life. From her soul she wished only if Tanuja could die in some car accident.
She kept thinking about it for entire night. Next morning when she woke up, she
immediately got ready for walk. She didn’t want to see face of Tanuja. Her mom
kept calling her for breakfast but she didn’t stop. She just kept doing
jogging. She needed to jog for hours since she needed to confirm Tanuja should
left house. Her sister Tanuja was biggest trouble for her.
When Dipti returned home after
morning walk her mom immediately told her to eat something. But Dipti was not
hungry at all. Dipti “It is so irritating. Tanuja have her flat but why did she
stay with us?” “Come on! She is living here since her husband is staying abroad. She is your
sister. You need to appreciate her company. She got nice husband & she is
getting nice earnings too. I know you saw so much luxuries in her flat while
our house is nothing. But one day you will get nice husband too. Your jealousy
is wrong.” Dipti looked towards her mom with hurt expression. Dipti didn’t find
nice suitable husband. She tried hard. She even tried to date with few boys but
nothing came out of it. Mostly those boys talked with her in such arrogant way.
Few seemed like nice but they wanted earnings from her or at least rich
background of her family so they didn’t decide to marry her. While Tanuja
managed to find husband after dating many boys Dipti didn’t find any. Dipti
didn’t understand what was wrong with her luck. But then she didn’t want to
settle with boy who was like Tanuja’s husband. She didn’t like Tanuja’s husband
that much. He always kept staying in abroad. He was money minded person. Tanuja
also didn’t mind. It seemed as if Dipti was only person was cared about it.
Dipti said slowly “It’s okay. I just felt her husband might miss her.” Her Mom
smiled. Mom “Of course he will miss Tanuja but there is not much option. Soon
they are planning for baby so they need money.” Now Dipti was shocked. She
didn’t understand what she supposed to say. She didn’t feel that it would be
nice for baby to stay in their house without father. But she didn’t dare to
suggest. She just nodded. She sat on table for eating. Her family was clearly
excited about plan of child. She pretended that she was happy too. Dipti didn’t
want to express her negativity towards Tanuja. Dipti felt so sad. She told
herself that everything would be fine. Once again Dipti started searching for a
suitable boy. She was searching so hard but she didn’t find anyone. It was
getting so frustrating. She was keep searching for days. But her heart was not
feeling positive at all. She finally decided to forget it. She once again sat
for her work. Even her work was not giving her much. She needed to work for
hours but she was not getting success at all. She was feeling so suffocated.
She once again wanted to go in that dream. She wanted to enter in her positive
world. She needed to feel positivity in her heart. She needed to make it
reality. She finally decided to chat with one man. Now her suitor was no longer
a boy. She began to discuss. She started to type her emotions. Soon she managed
to fix one date with that man. She was so happy but that date was after one
week. She was so excited about it. She decided to plan her dress. It was her
dream. She told her parents about it. Her parents sounded so happy. But Tanuja
said “Don’t assume too much or you will get disappointed if you don’t get him.”
Dipti didn’t like her comment but she just nodded. Then once again Dipti went
back to her work. She kept looking towards photograph. She started creating so
many dreams. It was so pleasant. On that night she slept on sofa. She didn’t
need to create any artificial world. She just slept peacefully. She was truly
hopeful about her future. Finally, she was going to find someone with whom she
could live a happy life.
Dipti started
purchasing things. She began to arrange all. She wanted to look great. She even
began to learn items which she might needed to cook in her house after
marriage. She kept hoping while Tanuja didn’t say anything negative after that
one sentence. But Tanuja kept pointing indirectly. It was sort of frustrating
for all. Dipti knew that all appeared excited for her date. But after third day
that man stopped contact. She kept sending messages. Finally, that man answered
“I have already selected my wife please don’t send messages to me.” She was so
shocked. He fixed date with her & then he didn’t write her anything. She wrote
“You agreed for date…” “Sorry but I have decided to marry to a girl. Now I can’t
cheat her.” She was so shocked. She wrote “I am not interested too. I just
wrote since you forgot to inform me that you are engaged.” He wrote “I can’t
expect me to inform every girl with whom I was chatting.” She was so shocked.
She just blocked that man. She began to feel so depressed. Her positivity started
to vanish from her mind. It was so negative for her. She needed to think
hopefully about entire incidence. But she couldn’t. She didn’t want to face
Tanuja or her parents after this failure. It was too much for her. She just
wanted to die but she knew that it was not easy. She knew that in her small
house suicide was not going to become successful. She began to throw things
& cry. Her parents & Tanuja entered in her room. Tanuja immediately
declared “I told you this man will cheat her & she will lose her mind. You need
to admit her to some mental asylum.” Her father nodded. But her mom protested. “She
is okay.” Her father called their family doctor. Doctor came. She was checked.
Then Doctor gave her medicines which managed to make her sleepy. Doctor said “She
need counselling then she will be fine.”
Tanuja “I told you from beginning she is losing her mental balance due
to obsession of marriage.” Doctor “You don’t need to declare anything.” Tanuja
got so angry & left room. Doctor gave her angry look & said “Go to this
Psychiatrist. She is too much arrogant. Your daughter can’t declare entire sickness
like that.” Her mom nodded & took number. Next day Dipti went to Psychiatrist
with her mom. Her Dad was too busy in his work. Dipti told all to Psychiatrist.
Then she asked “Do you feel this is because of marriage?” “No. Marriage could
have become way out of this crisis. But basically, this is inferiority complex
developed due to your sister. You don’t need to worry. Slowly you can get over
it with counselling.” Dipti nodded. Dipti was feeling so nervous. She was
crying even on that moment. She couldn’t control her tears. Then she returned
home. She slowly began to control on herself. She tried to hide her crying her
best but it was not working. Slowly after her psychiatric treatment her crying
stopped. She began to feel normal. Tanuja was still taunting her but Dipti stopped
caring. Her life became normal step by step. She was no longer desperate to
find some way to go out of house. She decided that she would marry when she
would fall in love. She began to concentrate on her work which enjoyed. She
decided to stay away from Tanuja. Slowly she began to sleep peacefully since
she no longer needed to pretend artificial dreamworld she permitted her mind to
dream as it wished. Sometimes she had nice dreams & sometimes she had
nightmares but she didn’t feel upset due to them. She always felt her sleep was
so peaceful. Finally, Dipti learnt to enjoy her life.
The End
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