Sunil's dreams
Shine of sun was entering inside. Sunil was watching it carefully. It was so wonderful. He was feeling so fresh & happy. He was looking around in house. It was his house. He knew but still he didn’t feel as if he was in his own house. He knew that everything belonged to him. It was his house. He didn’t understand why he kept feeling odd way. It seemed as if he was living in that house for sometime. His real house was in different place. He began to feel so easy. He knew that his parents purchased this house for him. He agreed to shift here. He was planning to get privacy & most importantly his parents wanted him to shift. He could sense that he was burden for his parents. It was so odd. Normally parents wanted their children around them but his parents disliked it. But then he began to think that was not case. In many cases parents preferred their privacy. Only when money was dispute parents stay with children. Sunil told himself that it was not about him. He didn’t understand why but he felt as if his parents just wanted to avoid him. He felt so stressed. He looked towards his house. He decided that he needed a girlfriend. He required to find her. It was so stressful. He decided that he would start searching on computer. He worked in his office. He had girls in it. But most of them were married. Few unmarried one were not suitable for him. He wanted to settle in his life but it was not happening. He was feeling so sad due to it. His life needed positivity. He looked around in his house. He sensed he did all as he thought. He needed someone who thought just like him. He decided to search on internet for his suitable life partner. He wanted happiness for his soul. He began to search on internet. Soon he found few people interesting to chat. But he wasn’t interested particularly in any woman. All were just discussing their issues. It was so positive. He began to chat freely. He was so happy. Finally he found some place to express himself. He was so involved in that world that he totally forgot time. He came to senses when he looked to time. His work was supposed to be done from home only so he immediately began his work. He was so happy while doing his work. He began to feel so happy he needed to work on computer. He began to enjoy that world. It was so nice. He was so involved in it. But as night time came slowly all started to vanish. He began to get upset. He sensed that he needed to sleep too. He closed computer & slept on bed. He closed his eyes. He didn’t brush teeth but he decided to give himself a break. He felt so exhausted. He slept on his bed & closed his eyes. He was so positive. Suddenly he felt a strange sense. He didn’t understand cause of it. He shivered. He began to feel as if someone was touching him. He opened his eyes but he couldn’t see anything. He could see hold on his hands. He didn’t see anyone then he suddenly saw one face. It was old woman. She was giving him angry look. She was saying something. But he couldn’t hear it. It was started getting so tense & scary. He started to feel nervous. He wanted to scream. His voice was not coming out. Then he suddenly screamed loudly. He began to call his Mom. He was shocked when he sensed that his Mom came in his room. His Mom was so nervous. His Mom started asking “ What happened? Why did you scream?” His Dad also joined him. His Dad was looking so upset. Dad “ I feel he had some nightmare! Otherwise why any one scream in night like that?!” Sunil looked around. He was in same home. He didn’t purchase any new house. He smiled & said “ Nothing Mom just a nightmare!” His Mom started cleaning his face. “ My God! You are sweating so much. Are you alright?” His Mom looked so sad & tense. He was not small boy. He forced smile & said “ I am not small boy. I am okay.” He looked around. He was in his old house. He was still in his old world. He began to turn in his bed with restless feelings. He was so nervous. He wanted to feel okay but he didn’t understand why he kept feeling as if this house would vanish. He wanted to question his parents about that other house. But then he sensed that it was not existed. He just said sweetly “ I am fine Mom. I had one nightmare & it was over now.” His Dad laughed. “ Come on. It’s normal to have some nightmares! Let our son have them. He watches so many horror movies. It must be something out of them.” He laughed loudly too. He was so relaxed when his parents talked with him. He wanted to keep them happy but he was not getting job. It was so upsetting. He slowly said “ Tomorrow I need to go in that office.” “ Yes..yes..go to sleep.” He was working in one place as temporary but money was so less. It was nothing. He felt so uneasy. He wanted to feel positive but things were turning in negative way. He didn’t want to show it to his parents so he said “ I am just fine Mom. Let’s go to sleep.” His Mom smiled. Then she said “ Go to sleep.” His Mom started patting on his head. He smiled. He felt as if he was child again. He closed his eyes & soon he fall asleep. He began to feel so nice. He knew that he was in his house so he was safe. His house was his safety net. He smiled & closed his eyes. His parents came back to their room. But they couldn’t able to sleep. His Mom said slowly “ I don’t like this.” “ I know. He had that strange nightmare. But it might be just for one night & it would be okay next day.” His Mom looked towards his Dad with suspicion. She wasn’t so sure. But still she nodded & once again she began to try to fall asleep. It was so difficult. She knew that something wasn’t right with Sunil. She could sense it but still she was feeling scared & nervous. She wanted to feel positive but her life was moving in wrong way. She was feeling so restless by all. She tried her best to smile. But it was not happening. She knew that Sunil was not normal. Sunil was trying his best to pretend but it was not working. She was observing the way Sunil was avoiding all. Sunil didn’t want to move ahead in life. She knew that Sunil had issues like earnings but still she wanted him to face them & move ahead but it was not happening.
Next morning Sunil woke up, Sunil smiled happily. He had good job but he was not so certain how long this company would survive. He was so tense about it. He knew that he had many job offers. He knew that he didn’t have any issue in getting one job but he was so scared. He was feeling so nervous to he didn’t understand what he wanted in his life. He just didn’t want change in any thing. He was feeling so sad & nervous. He didn’t want his parents to sense it. He was feeling so negative about entire issue. It was very stressful. He wanted to see his life in positive angle but it was turning in negative way. It was so hopeful but now suddenly it started to look totally wrong & sad. He was having negativity in his mind but he was not planning to express it to world. He wanted world to see him as positive. He didn’t want to feel frustrated before his parents. His life was not going in hopeful way. He felt so sad. Still he needed to smile. He decided that he would do it properly. He wanted positivity in his life then he would try to get it. He smiled & hugged his Mom when she started to arrange their breakfast. It was so positive when she began to feel that Sunil was finally getting over negativity in his life. Sunil’s Mom didn’t understand cause of that negativity. His life was perfect. She knew that Sunil might needed to adjust to change. Sunil didn’t have any issue regarding getting new job. But Sunil was so scared of change that he never wanted it. His Mom wanted Sunil to understand importance of these changes in life. His Mom asked with smile “ So what are your plan about future?” “ Future?! Nothing much. My life is perfect!” His Dad entered to eat breakfast on that time. His Dad “ Sunil you know very well that you needed to create plans for future.” Sunil began to feel so uneasy. Sunil didn’t want to change his job. Sunil wanted to enjoy his life. He was happy in this company. Sunil “ I don’t feel this company will stop moving ahead at this time.” Sunil began to eat his breakfast in hurry. He didn’t wanted to discuss further. He just ran away to his room. “ I need to get ready for office.” He told his parents. He was feeling so sad in his heart. Life was not moving in wrong way but it was not even on right track. He felt so nervous. He needed to get more contracts for his company. He was trying so hard. He didn’t understand why he was not managing anything. His every move was going in wrong way. He felt so nervous. He needed to move ahead step by step. He went in room & properly he got ready. He called his driver & he waited. He just wanted to win this contract. It was very important for him. He was so upset. But still he controlled his fear & waited. Finally he got chance to solve financial issues of his company. After this contract his company would surely get better. He dressed up with full confidence. He sat in his car with confidence. No one could guess what was happening in his heart. He looked like a confident man. He smiled very peacefully in pleasant way. He worked hard to get things done. He did all his best. He arranged all as per his plans. He managed to get things done in every sector of his company. Due to his confidence every employee was sure that they would get this contract. Clients came. Sunil did all with same confidence. Clients were impressed & they got contract. Everyone was happy. Clearly their company was going to survive. Sunil smiled too. But he sensed one thing that he was still scared. He needed to forget his fears but he couldn’t. It was so upsetting. He knew that he needed to keep smiling so he kept doing it. During entire day he was happy when he returned home. He was on top of world. He told his parents that his company got great contract. His parents were so happy. So now they all felt everything would be perfect. On that point his Mom said “ So what do you feel about settling in life?” His Dad laughed sweetly too. Clearly his parents were already hoping for some grandchild. He was not in love with anyone still they were planning his life without his wishes. He slowly said “ Mom I needed one girl if I want to marry!” His Mom smiled. It was clear that his Mom was observing someone around him. Sunil didn’t like it. Sunil knew whom his Mom planned to suggest. Trupti was after him for long time. Trupti was dating him for sometime. But he didn’t seem to fall in love with her. She was nice girl. They didn’t have arguments but just didn’t having arguments was not enough for life. They needed to find love. She was happy with him but he was not. He knew that he needed to change his house. His safety! She was not so desirable for him. He wanted to stay happily in his house. It was so upsetting to do those changes for Trupti. For at least two years he was not going out with her. She sometimes called in beginning then slowly her self respect entered. She stopped calling. He assumed that she might be dating someone else by this time. Sunil “ Mom I want some girl whom I like. She will stay in this house with you all.” His Dad looked upset. “ Why? You can buy your house! I will easily arrange it.” His Mom nodded too. “ Sunil a girl like to settle in husband’s house.” “ Who told you that?” His parents didn’t say anything. His Mom “ It will be choice given to you & your wife. If you want to stay separately you can do that if you want to stay together it’s okay too. But I want you to find some girl.” Sunil nodded & he went in his room. Sunil was not interested in dating. He didn’t want burden of marriage. He had job in his old company. Everything was normal & perfect for him. Sunil disliked changes. They were horrible thing for him. He felt so sad by them. He knew that after sometime his parents would gave up. He knew that his life was perfect. He suddenly remembered on computer he needed to chat with his friends. For sometime he always did it. He was getting more excited about it since he began to chat with Rina. She was sweet woman. He never saw her but he could feel her affection already. She understood him in a lot better way than Trupti. He began to chat with her again.
Sunil’s Mom was not happy with the way he was treating Trupti. He dated Trupti for sometime then he suddenly stopped it without warning. Sunil’s Mom noticed that all who were connected to Trupti began to give angry look to her. Clearly Trupti was hurt by entire incidence. Sunil’s Mom didn’t like the way Sunil treated Trupti. Sunil needed to..now on this point his Mom was confused. If Sunil didn’t like Trupti she couldn’t suggest he should marry her. Sunil was trying hard to like her. Suddenly Sunil’s Dad spoke “ Why you are discussing his marriage? I don’t like the way issue with Trupti went. I don’t want him to find another girl date her then back out when it comes to marriage.” Mom gave shocked look to his Dad. “ So you want him to stop dating?” His Dad didn’t reply. His Mom decided to just ignore that matter. They both went to sleep. Sunil was chatting with Rina for sometime. Then he went to sleep. He woke up with full confidence. Then he looked towards his house. He was once again in different house. This time he knew that this was just dream. He wanted to come out of it. He smiled & started to relax. He sat on that new bed. He said to himself “ I will not scream this time.” He was laughing at his thoughts when suddenly he sensed someone was coming in room. He was shocked when Trupti entered. Trupti was wearing nightgown. She was looking so tired. She was clearly married. Then she looked towards him & said “ I have done tiffin. Now you need to just put it in bag before going to office & coffee is also in thermos. I need some sleep.” So she slept beside him on bed. He began to shiver. This couldn’t be true. He didn’t marry Trupti. He began to shiver with fear. He told himself that Trupti would vanish but she didn’t. He kept looking towards her. Finally she turned to him & touched his hand. She said “ Come on! Go to office! You are getting late.” He was so upset & so scared. He was not waking up. He was awake. He knew it. He understood that he was married to Trupti & he forgot all. But he didn’t understand how did he forgot. He ran towards mirror. He watched his face. He was looking so different & exhausted. He knew that he was married. He began to cry loudly. He was crying slowly at beginning then slowly he started to cry loudly. He knew that his life was destroyed. He didn’t care if Trupti would hear him. Sunil’s parents were sleeping in their room when they heard voice of crying. They felt so scared. It was coming from Sunil’s room. They just didn’t understand what happened. They felt someone must had called Sunil with some bad news. They shivered with fear. They began to feel scared. They felt that must be news about someone’s death. They shivered. They ran towards Sunil’s room. They were shocked when they saw Sunil was sleeping on his bed & crying loudly in sleep. Sunil’s Dad “ This is happening again & again. This boy need psychiatrist. Trust me. We can never able to sleep like that & one day we will fall sick. I don’t want him to left parentless in this condition.” His Mom gave angry look to his Dad & said “ Just shut up.” His Dad nodded. His Mom started to shaking Sunil gently. Sunil didn’t wake up at first then slowly he opened his eyes. He smiled happily & hugged his Mom. He said loudly without second thought “ Wow. I am not married.” He kept screaming that line again & again while dancing in joy around his room. His Dad kept looking towards Sunil in odd way. His Mom slowly said “ Do you have number of that Psychiatrist?” His Dad looked nervously towards Mom. “ I just said it lightly never thought seriously. I feel we need to find one. No doubt.” Then after some time Sunil came back to his bed. Sunil sensed what he had done. It was not normal. He looked towards his parents. They were looking pale. Finally his Dad said “ Let’s go to Psychiatrist. This is happening daily.” Sunil was so angry. He was normal. But then he remembered that dream. He wanted to get over it. He didn’t want to become Trupti’s husband every night. He wanted to get married to another girl or he might remain unmarried but he didn’t want Trupti in his life. He wanted happiness in his life. He said slowly “ I will visit psychiatrist.” Then they all went to sleep. That night Sunil had next dream but it was not about Trupti. In morning he went in office. He worked hard with same spirit & positivity. He was happy that his company was progressing. During that time his Dad managed to find nice Psychiatrist & arranged one appointment in next week. But they didn’t expected week would become so much worst. Every night Sunil found himself in dream as husband of Trupti. He always kept telling himself in dream that it was fake. But it kept getting worst. In one dream they had children too. He was so frustrated. In anger he managed to threw away his own baby out of crib. He saw what happened to that baby. He began to cry so loudly. He could be such monster. His parents once again managed to wake him up. But it was worst dream for him. He told his Dad “ Just make one emergency appointment Dad. I can’t take this anymore. I prefer to kill myself that tolerate it.” His Dad said “ Don’t worry. Week is over we will go just on day after tomorrow.” He gave weak smile. It was hard for him. Finally he went to visit psychiatrist. He went inside while his parents stayed outside. He talked with Psychiatrist for hours. Then finally he came out. Some medicines were given & he got next appointment too. At beginning he felt so hopeless but then slowly Psychiatrist explained him that he wanted to start dating Rina but Trupti & her closed one’s managed to make him so guilty that he was scared to try. But he had right to start his life in new way. One day he told all to Rina on chat. Rina took his side. Then slowly he called Rina in his house. This time he made sure that Rina would adjust with his family. Rina was so nice. Finally they decided to get married. But he was still nervous about dreams. Then Rina visited Psychiatrist with Sunil. Psychiatrist asked Sunil “ When you last time dream?” Sunil said “ A month ago..maybe..” Psychiatrist smiled. Rina smiled too. Rina said “ Let’s get married.” Slowly those dreams stopped & Sunil started living happily with his parents & Rina. But still whenever he saw someone related to Trupti he felt scared. He stopped his psychiatrical treatment but when he saw anyone like that he just took one appointment. But he didn’t dream about Trupti again.
The End
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