Sameer's bad dreams
Sameer opened his eyes when suddenly their car stopped. Entire car jumped. He began to get uneasy. He kept feeling so uneasy. His car was standing. He looked ahead. He sensed that he was in middle of nowhere. He felt so confused. He was sleeping in his Mom’s lap. His elder brother was sitting ahead with his Dad. Suddenly everyone started watching ahead. His Mom slowly asked his Dad “ What happened? Why did you stopped car?” His Dad gave confused look. “ I don’t understand what happened? Let me go out & check engine of car.” Sameer screamed “ Dad don’t go out.” “ Why?” “ Do you noticed thar big tree of banyan?” His Dad observed it carefully. “ Yes. What is wrong with it?” “ My friend said ghost & evil witches stay on it.” His Dad started laughing & all joined him. “ My dear son. I am already met one witch & you know she already made magic on me!” All started to observe him with full attention. His Mom” Where?” His Dad gave location of his grandparent’s house. His Mom screamed “ You saw witch in my village?! When?” “ Before our marriage in your house.” “ Where?” “ Do you a woman in beautiful yellow saree came with tea to serve us when we met for first time?!” His Mom kept remembering that she suddenly said “ I served tea. No one was with me & yellow saree.. I was wearing yellow saree!” Mom screamed “ You are calling me witch.” Mom hit his Dad with bag. They all laughed. That bag managed to hit Dad on back & screamed in pain. Mom stopped immediately & said “ Sorry.” “ It’s bag not pillow be careful. One day you will kill me with it.” Now Mom looked really angry. Mom “ Now don’t talk about death.” They were stuck in car. Sameer looked around. He saw people surrounding their car. He started screaming. His Mom told him “ What happened?” He screamed “ Those people!” He could see faces near car windows. They were making strange faces. He kept screaming. Sameer felt odd. He was feeling so scared. He kept watching windows. He began to touch windows. He didn’t want to touch them. He forced by someone. Then he began to shiver. He began to open window glass. Slowly he took window down. His parents didn’t stop him. His Mom kept saying “ Look out! There is noting to feel scary about there.” He saw there was nothing. His Dad started laughing. “ This boy is too much.” On that point suddenly one hand came inside & took hold of his Dad’s shirt. His Dad looked scared. “ What’s going on? Leave me!” That man began to argue. But Dad pushed away his hand & closed window glass. They all sat inside car. Sameer sat in car. But he began to feel so stressed. He needed to feel so relaxed. He knew that he must not cry otherwise he would attract attention of those people. His elder brother Suresh called Cops. Those people kept knocking on windows for long time. He was so scared. He slept on his Mom’s Lap again. He didn’t understand how did he managed to sleep in car. He woke up when his Mom patted on his shoulder. When he came out of car, Cops were waiting with their car. He slowly stopped inside car but his Dad pushed him in hurry towards car. Sameer feet hit due to it. Sameer screamed & his Dad screamed on his loudly “ Go inside idiot we don’t have full day to waste.” He was hurt. He couldn’t run. He started crying. Suddenly he began to get tense. On that point he sat in car. But he didn’t stop shivering. It was worst day of his life. He didn’t sleep anything. He wanted to reach home. He began to cry.’ Suddenly Sameer heard pat on his hand. He woke up in his room. His wife Rita was beside him. Rita was so upset. “ What happened? Why you cry like that night?” They were married for one month. He could clearly see frustration on her face. Their marriage was arranged. He told her about many things. But he didn’t mentioned these dreams. Actually he used to have them as child but as adult they were vanished. But since he got married he was having them every day. He could see on face of Rita. She was not happy to get one mad husband. He kept screaming on each night. She gave him angry look. “I don’t understand why did you need to scream on every night? You never mentioned this.” He wanted to answer but he was nearly breathless. He began to search for water. He told Rita to keep water bottle near his bed. He took some time to find it & started drinking. He wanted to relax himself. He wanted to smile & make joke about this situation. But it was not funny anymore. It was getting worst day by day, since he was doing it every night. He began to get so upset. He smiled but he knew that tear was there in his eyes. He needed to relax himself but he was not able to do that. He was so sad. He knew that his wife Rita already began to dislike him. She felt that he cheated her. He didn’t say anything for long time then he said “ I never use to have these dreams. They were totally stopped.” Rita made face which told him that she knew this already he didn’t need start it all again. He knew that she didn’t like him. He just looked away with sad face. He was feeling so stressed. He went in washroom. He checked his face in mirror above washbasin. He began to observe that he was no longer looking so promising. He was once promising man. He was expected to become manager of his company. In fact many felt that he might become President or chairman one day. But now they sensed one thing that it was impossible. Especially his wife Rita! She was so upset by entire incidence. She was hoping to find solution on this crisis. But she couldn’t. She married him for better life. Actually she was happy at her parent’s house. Even today she kept going there again & again. In few months she spent more time in her parent’s house than here. She kept telling him. He kept screaming & it managed to disturb her sleep. He felt so sad. He began to feel so hopeless. He didn’t become good husband. Rita showed it to him time to time. Rita screamed from bed“ I am going to my parent’s house tomorrow. My Dad wanted some help with his paperwork.” He nodded. He knew that he needed money too. His father-in-law was teaching business to Rita. One Rita would manage all. “ Okay great.” Rita was so happy when he came out of washroom. He knew that she needed to go to her parent’s house. Rita said “ It’s okay some people have nightmares like that.” He smiled & nodded.
Next Morning Sameer work up once again feeling tired. Life was no longer so much nice & he began to feel that it was just burden. He was no longer feeling happy. He kept having those nightmares again & again. He kept feeling uneasy by them. When he reached to company he needed to pretend all was perfect when it was far away from perfection in his eyes. He smiled in mirror. He kept telling himself everything was okay..everything was okay. But he knew that it was not okay. He was feeling so restless. He went in kitchen when Rita came there with her bag. She gave him sweet smile & said “ I just ordered breakfast. You can have it.” “ What breakfast?” “ Normal egg omelette & toasts. You can take milk from milkman. Milkman had not come. Bye.” He was so upset. He wanted her to stay with him but she was not interested. He just nodded but he just said “ Next time let me order breakfast.” Rita made sad face & she said “ Sorry!” But he could see she was happy. He smiled & said “ It’s okay.” “ Wait I can see if..” “ It’s alright. Go..go your parents will be waiting you.” She gave him one kiss on cheek & ran out of house happily. She was acting like small girl who wanted to go back home after school. She didn’t like his house & it was clear to him. He wanted to cry but then doorbell rang. He went to pick up milk. He took it then he began to search for pot to boil. On that point door opened. His Mom came back from village. He was so happy. He ran in his Mom’s arms. He felt so happy. He wanted his Mom to stay with him forever. He wanted to feel happy. His Mom “ You are grown up now. You need to hug your wife not Mom. Rita will think you are so childish.” Then Mom started searching around for her. “ Where is she?” “ She went to stay with her parents.” “ Why?” “ She always go. I don’t mind Mom.” Then he smiled & said “ Now I can eat breakfast you make. She ordered one. We can just throw it away.” “ Nonsense I will finish.” Then his Mom immediately went in kitchen. In few minutes his Mom managed to find all things she needed to make nice breakfast for him. Then his Mom started making tiffin for him too. Sameer asked Mom “ Mom do you feel I need to call her back?” His Mom sounded confused. His Mom was not so fond of Rita too but Rita was daughter-in-law. She was supposed to admire her. His Mom said “ Let her stay at her parent’s house for sometime. Let her enjoy some freedom from housework.” He smiled happily. “ Great Mom. You must stay with us.” His Mom looked confused. “ But I am planning to go back to village..I mean your wife…” “ She will not mind. Just stay.” He said it with such face that his Mom couldn’t say no. Mom “ Okay.” He went to office. This time he was truly happy. He was feeling so safe now. His Mom was back to home. He was feeling so happy. He entered in office with full confidence. His all colleagues immediately sensed the difference. They all thought that it was due to Rita. They were thinking that Rita was back in his house. When they talked about Rita, he just smiled & pretended everything was perfect but truthfully nothing was perfect. His entire life was moving in wrong angle. He was feeling so sad when he was with her. He knew that Rita was not happy with him. They couldn’t make that marriage work. He wanted his marriage to work but it was becoming impossible task day by day. He was sure if he permitted Rita to stay with her parents she would adjust. He worked relaxedly on that day. While in house his Mom called Rita, she slowly told Rita in nervous voice “ Actually Sameer wanted me to stay with you!” Rita sounded very happy “ That will be so great Mom. I came here time to time now I need to so hard to understand business for at least six months I will not able to come home for time when you are there I don’t need to worry.” Mom smiled nervously. Mom didn’t understand this. Those husband & wife were not interested in each other’s company. It was so odd. Mom didn’t say anything but she sensed something was wrong. Mom kept herself busy with housework entire day. She cooked nice dinner too. Then she started TV & began to enjoy her daily shows. After sometime Sameer came, he was happy. He ate happily with his Mom. Mom didn’t notice any indication that he was missing his wife. It seemed as he was perfectly okay. His Mom was feeling sad. Mom wanted him to miss wife. She loved her son but still her son was not missing her daughter-in-law didn’t seem welcoming news to her. Mom wanted Sameer to marry since she was hoping wonderful life of Sameer & Rita together. Rita seemed like nice girl. Even today Rita talked nicely with her on mobile. She didn’t understand why they were not in love. Mom finally decided to talk with Sameer. “ You must be missing Rita?” Sameer gave odd laugh. Sameer “ Can I tell you one thing frankly?” Mom nodded. “ I started to have that nightmare daily now. She hated it. She didn’t want to stay with me anymore & I don’t want to insist.” His Mom looked shocked. “ Do you feel marriage is some kind of joke?! How could you just say you don’t want to live together so soon?! It was not forced marriage. You liked her.” “ Of course Mom. I am not blaming you. Actually those nightmares are causing these troubles.” He kept quiet for sometime then he said “ Mom I can’t stop nightmares can I?” Mom agreed. “ So what I supposed to do kill myself?!” “ Don’t talk nonsense. We will go to Doctor!” Now he was confused. He didn’t know that his parents were so modern. He spent entire childhood in village. He never expected her mother suggesting Doctor. “ Doctor? It’s odd.” His Mom came near him & told him in low voice. “ Do you remember in childhood you use to have dreams?!” “ Yes!” “ We took you to one psychiatrist on that time.” He felt so nervous. He didn’t know this. He remembered meeting one Uncle as child but he didn’t understand it was psychiatrist. His Mom went in her room. She searched desperately for sometime. Then she came back smile with one yellow card. It was old card of Psychiatrist. He took it. He was so upset. He never sensed that he took mental treatment without sensing he was taking it. He felt so sad. He lied to Rita. He knew that now he needed to confess.
Sameer ate dinner when he came back in his room. He called Rita & told her everything his Mom told. Rita didn’t say anything. Rita “ I felt that something is wrong with you. But it’s okay. You can visit Psychiatrist & get over it. I am still busy with this work. I hope you don’t mind if I stay here. Now you have your Mom to take care of you.” He laughed in odd way to hide frustration. Sameer “ I am grown up. I don’t need Mom to take care of me.” “ Great! So I can stay.” He agreed. Actually he was not missing her that much too. But before his Mom all looked so odd. He felt so tense. He didn’t understand what she wanted. He began to feel so upset. He said “ You can stay there if you want no problem.” She laughed sweetly & disconnected call. He sensed one thing that he married odd girl. She just wanted to stay with her parents. He didn’t understand what he truly wanted. He agreed with her. Then he went to sleep. That night he had nightmare. But he was not so much scared. He knew that his scream wouldn’t disturb anyone. He knew one thing that he didn’t want her to stay with him until his dream didn’t stop. He felt so upset by all. He kept hoping for positive but things kept moving in negative way. He married with hopes but this marriage seemed like biggest trouble of his life. He sensed that it was nothing but burden for him. He was so stressed. He wanted to feel positive. He watched towards card. He decided that he didn’t need those nightmares. He needed to get over them & he wanted one Doctor for it. He decided to call Psychiatrist next day. Next day after eating breakfast he called Psychiatrist for appointment. But it turned out that Psychiatrist’s number was not working. He was upset. He read name & location. He called that hospital which he mentioned in card. Hospital told him that this Psychiatrist was no longer working. But they gave him other options. He knew hospital & he decided to give it try so he took appointment of evening. Then he told everything to Mom. Mom looked nervous. “ But we don’t know about him?” He began to get frustrated “ Mom I am not going to ask people about psychiatrist! This is not something I can discuss in office.” His Mom nodded sadly. His Mom knew that discussing other Doctors was easy but Psychiatrist didn’t get such a normal response. Many times people needed them but they didn’t discuss it. Mom “ But still let’s ask at least family Doctor.” Sameer liked this idea. He called family Doctor & told everything. Before he could say anything family Doctor recommended a psychiatrist. Family Doctor “ I can’t stop your dream!” “ I just took appointment.” He told name of Psychiatrist. “ That one is nice too. You can try. I feel he will manage to cure too.” Sameer thanked Family Doctor & disconnected call. That day in office he was so stressed. He pretended to be normal but he had so much problem while concentrating on his work. He tried his best but it was not working. He began to get upset. He just needed to go home. Finally he decided to take half day. He went in Boss’s room & asked for half day. Boss gave frustrated look & said “ Your honeymoon is over. Now go back to work.” He didn’t want to cry but he started to shiver. His Boss felt so confused. His Boss told him to sit down & offered water. He told everything to Boss without second thought. Boss looked tense. Boss “ Don’t worry. It’s just nightmare. You are not seeing things. Some people have issues like that. They are risky. You are going to which Psychiatrist?!” He gave name & number. Boss observed it. Then Boss said “ Tell me if it work for you.” Boss gave nervous smile & said “ Don’t tell anyone but my daughter is having weight issues. She kept eating nonstop. Doctor was suggesting counselling. But I don’t want to take her without confirmation.” Sameer sensed that he was experimental object in his Boss’s eyes. He smiled & nodded. Boss “ No need to take half you can go. I will say I send on some project.” He nodded. Then he went home. His Mom was already waiting for him. Mom “ When we are going?” He checked watch two hours were remaining. He knew that every hour was becoming harder for them. He wanted to hurry up but it wasn’t possible. They needed to go on time. It was very important for them. He waited. Finally time came to go. They literally ran out when their cab came. They went in hospital. They wanted to go immediately but they told to wait for number. It was frustrating. Many times Sameer just wanted to run away from there. But he knew that it was not going to work. He just needed to visit Psychiatrist. Finally they called inside. Psychiatrist talked with him at beginning in presence of Mom. Mom explained childhood disorder. Psychiatrist nodded & said “ Okay now will you sit outside? I like to talk with your son.” Then Psychiatrist began to ask about different things. Sameer told all. Step by step Sameer told all troubles between him & Rita. “ It’s happening due to bad dreams.” Psychiatrist “ No! Bad dreams are coming due to it. You want happy life with your wife but it is not happening. In your heart you feel alone & disappointed.” He couldn’t deny it so he nodded. Then Sameer talked with Psychiatrist for sometime.
Slowly Sameer began to feel relaxed. Rita started to come & go as per her choice. He never insisted anything on her. He didn’t want to encourage argument. He wanted to live happily. He didn’t wanted to force her to stay there. Slowly she began to settle down. Their child was born. His life was perfect. Still Rita kept admiring her parents. But he didn’t mind. He felt so nervous when his Mom died. It was worst for him. On that time he once again visited Psychiatrist but then he once again went ahead with his life. He learnt to fight in life & he learnt to enjoy his life too. Those nightmares were stopped but sometimes still he had them but he didn’t mind them. He ignored Rita. If he tolerated her tantrum she must tolerate his too. Their life became perfect that way.
The End
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