Search for grandchild
Pritam was getting ready for her play. She was going to take part in play of her society. She began to do rehearsal. It was very precious for her. She needed to practice dialogue again and again. She wanted to do it perfect. She needed to do practice. She wanted to look great on stage. She kept practising for perfect look. She kept doing different scene in her best way. She was trying to do play which would show different effects on life. She kept trying to look best. She started to create different looks before mirror. She kept watching herself again and again. She wanted to look great in that play. She started to say those words carefully. She was so excited. She got role of Princess. It was not role of lead character but it was big role. She wanted to make it something great. She wanted to prove herself. She began to practice harder. She was supposed to look perfect in that character. She started saying dialogue in different styles. She started to feel so perfect when she heard scream of her father-in-law. He wanted something and she supposed to serve it in his room. He was perfectly capable of taking things. In fact he was more healthy than her. He never get sick while she kept having physical problems but still she supposed to leave him since he was elder. She started running towards room. She didn't want to be late. She knew that her mother-in-law would start creating issues regarding how she didn't care for them while she spent her days in serving them. Sometimes she felt that she was just servant in this house. No one cared for her. Her husband Pradip was always too busy. He kept working every day. She didn't understand why did he needed to work so hard. But he kept telling her that they couldn't manage their budget if he didn't work hard. He kept talking about their lifestyle. He didn't complaint. He said that they must keep it. That lifestyle was needful for them. He kept telling he himself enjoyed that lifestyle but for it he needed to work hard for it. He was ready to do sacrifice for it and he expected others to do it too. He was so nice whenever he had time that she couldn't say no to anything he suggested. He was such nice person. His every word seemed like musical tune of flute. She felt enchanted whenever he spoke. He had different sort of magic hidden inside. He felt so upset by her tears that he started consoling her in much way that she forget her all troubles. He was greatest gift of God for her. But for him she needed to tolerate his overdemanding parents. She just wished only if one of them had sense to understand situation of today. They kept living in past and they couldn't reduce their demands. It was so frustrating. She kept hoping they would value her one day. She entered in room and asked with pleasant smile "Why did you call me?" Her father-in-law " Where does you kept TV remote?" Now this was far away from truth. She didn't have time to watch TV so she was not using remote but her father-in-law forgot it since he wanted her to search for him. She began to feel that he was not even giving her credit of working for him. She decided to make it clear. " But Dad I never use remote." Her mother-in-law " What are you trying to say? We are watching too much TV?!!" She was so confused. " No..No." Her mother-in-law was so strict from beginning. She was scared of her so much. She started searching for remote. Finally she found it. She gave it to father-in-law immediately. Her father-in-law " Good. I want tea after half an hour." She nodded. She knew that now she needed to set alarm according to it. She always set them to manage timetable of her in-laws. She began to arrange those times on mobile. She started to go back in kitchen. She began to cook meal. She knew that she needed to cook what her in-laws liked. She did everything just to please her in-laws. Her entire life was going to be spend in just pleasing in-laws. She never understood why did she do it. But she did it. She started cooking when her mobile rang. It was her Mom. Mom " So did you went to that Doctor?" Her Mom was inquiring about gynaecologist. Her Mom never quit. She tried for child since long time. But she couldn't manage to get pregnant. When she checked, it turned out problem from her side. She kept trying but nothing worked. She started to give up now. But her Mom was not ready to give up. Her Mom looked with sad face and force everything on her. But this time she didn't went to Doctor. She needed to practice play. She was not going to waste time. She knew very well that nothing was going to change. She began to feel tense. Her Mom " So what did Doctor says?" " I don't went there." Her Mom sounded shocked. " But you goes every time..." " Yes I did but not this time. I needed to do some work." "Work?!! Come on. Nothing is important than getting pregnant!!" Pritam felt so sad. She knew that child was important. She wanted to become mother too. She knew everyone desired same thing. She started to feel so much upset. She wanted to feel that everything was perfect. But nothing was looking great. She began to sense that they wanted just child. She started to feel sad. She decided that she would not manage to make them happy. " I will do it after sometime." " But.." She didn't want to discuss it. Pritam just disconnected call. She felt so sad. She began to sense vibration of call again but she switched off mobile. She began to sense that she didn't want to feel upset. She started cooking again. She wanted to cook her best. She needed to keep in-laws happy. She was feeling so sad. She needed to feel her life on track. She needed to keep cooking food in perfect way. She began to understand that she needed to cook in such a way that everything would taste great. She needed to keep things in perfect style. She didn't give them child so she must become useful in some way. She needed to do all in right way. She decided that she was not acting like servant. She needed to become useful. She tried so hard to look perfect. She couldn't become perfect. But she could try her best. She decided to forget about play for sometime.
Pritam started to feel upset. She wanted to feel happy but she knew that she couldn't every day she was reminded of lack of child in house. She wanted to pretend everything was perfect but they kept telling her nothing was. Sometimes she wished that she could go for adoption. She still remembered that day when she suggested it. Pradip looked shocked. Pradip " Why did you want to have child? I am fine without one. I feel you can have nice life this way.." she felt that he was doing it just because he didn't want to adopt but soon she sensed that he was not much bothered. Whenever he was taunted, he made it clear before that person. " You might like children but for me child is burden. I don't like remaining awake at nights or taking responsibility of their every action. I am happy as I am now. I don't want irritating burden on me." " Come on you are saying this because you can't have child. Child is blessing." Then Pradip laughed. His easy laugh made it clear to everyone that he truly didn't want child. Pradip " Think whatever you feel but I am not going to run around to bring a child in house just to show you my strength as man. I don't want that burden." One day she asked " Why did you hate kids so much?!!" " I don't hate them but I am not fond of them. If we had one, I should have adjusted with it for you. Since I know you love kids, but I don't. I feel them are so.. I can't describe it properly. But I never desired a child. My parents always kept wanting one grandchild while I never want that burden. When I married to you becoming father was worst nightmare and when it didn't happen I felt happy about it. I will not stop you from visiting Doctors or trying!! I know you want child. I will adjust if we had one. But I personally prefer this life." She was shocked. It was not normal according to society. She felt that it was so strange. She knew that no one could reject need of having child in family. But Pradip was rejecting it. Then she began to feel that he was doing it just to please her. He was doing it for her love. He was fully convinced that he didn't need child. She didn't understand why. While her Mom and entire society around her kept insisting she must had child, her husband Pradip kept saying he didn't want one. He didn't want to adopt since he didn't want to increase burden on himself. She didn't understand how could he say that. She couldn't dare to say this. If she dared to call any child burden anyone around her start to cursing her. She needed to call every child blessing. She didn't have her own child so she didn't have any right to complaint about child. She knew one thing that she shouldn't say anything against kid. She didn't dare even if that kid started to hit her. She wanted to stop or scream but she didn't dare. One day she went to marriage. Hall was full of people. She sat peacefully in one chair located in corner of wedding hall. She wanted to stay there in peaceful way. She was dressed in wonderful saree. She was looking so beautiful. She was so confident at beginning of day. She started to feel that she would do great on that day but then suddenly whole matter turned in wrong way. She sensed whenever she turned to talk after some lines people started to ask about her kids which were not existed. She began to feel so hurt and irritated that she decided to stop walking around. She didn't want to try all those solutions which were suggested by people. She knew very well that they wouldn't help much. She sat in chair. When that naughty kid came to sit near her, she sensed one thing that this kid was going to make her life miserable. Soon that kid started to irritating her by commenting many things about her. She didn't like the way that kid was behaving. That kid was not giving respect to her as adult. That kid kept laughing on her. But that kid joked on colour of her saree. His Mom laughed. She avoided watching towards them. Then that kid started talking about her hair style. It was insulting too. But she knew that she didn't have much option except tolerating. She kept ignoring. She started to search for earphones. She found them and started to listening to music. She started to get so involved in that world. Soon she forgot all her troubles. She was happy in her music when something hit hard on her head. She screamed in pain. She looked around that boy threw something on her. That boy was laughing as if it was joke. She was feeling so sick. Her head was screaming in pain. She decided that she had it enough. She wanted to scream on him. But something stopped her. She knew that no one would take her side. She was alone in this pain. She didn't complaint. She just went away. She watched her face in mirror. She was no longer beautiful. There was ugly mark on her forehead. It was red and swollen. She knew that it might in worst way soon. She needed to get some ice. She turned and started to run for ice again. That kid came after her again but she didn't sense it. She turned and that kid fall. Immediately that kid started to cry. Entire wedding hall came running. She was blamed for not taking care of kid. Many said that she didn't have child so she didn't sense. She felt so sad. She began to feel so upset. She started to sense her harassment was perfectly okay since it was done by child. That kid's parents wouldn't get blamed. But she was blamed since when she was hurt she couldn't able to locate child which was harassing her. She took deep breath. She needed to relax her. That day was worst day but it was over. She needed to stay in present and she must cook properly. She began to smell that wonderful cooking. She started to feel happy about it. She knew that Pradip would like it. She started to sense that she was becoming good cook day by day. She started to put it on table. She set table in perfect way. She was hoping that her in-laws would like it. She tried to do her best. Then she went towards their room to inform them that their lunch was ready and suddenly their chatting fell on her ears. She began to tense since Pradip's name was appearing again and again in that chat.
Pritam went near door and started hearing things. She could hear their chat clearly now. Her Mother-in-law " What did you feel about Pradip?" Her father-in-law " What about him?" " He is staying away from home for such long time.." " He is working so hard. But I don't understand why? He is not planning to marry another woman and this one will not give his child." Pritam started to sense pain in her heart. She wanted to feel normal. She must accept truth now but it was not happening. She couldn't able to accept truth. She wanted to hope that one day she would get a child and taught lesson to these people. She started to dream for perfect life with cute child. It was perfect dream. But she knew that it was not going to happen. Then she suddenly heard next line of her mother-in-law " Maybe he had child?" " What? But Pritam never got pregnant!!" " I am not talking about Pritam. I mean another woman!!" Her father-in-law laughed. " You are daydreaming." " Really?!! Then you think he truly work for day and night without cause?!! I feel he must be going to someone else. He needed someone too. Pritam is not that beautiful. Few days ago I saw that lady of this office.." " Which lady?" Her mother-in-law stammered. She clearly didn't remember her name. " The one he introduced on his wedding anniversary!!" " Ohh Urvashi?!!" " No..no not that one. She is too fat. My son deserve model figure." " Ohh really you feel our overweight son deserve model figure mistress?!!" " Don't call her mistress!! She is second wife. People do it if they didn't get child." " Enough of this nonsense. I don't feel that Pradip had enough brain to do it. I mean he is still after this useless woman." " So true. She is so useless. She is good cook but we can keep cook easily with our son's salary." "Forget his salary. I can do it without it with our inheritance. We don't need her. But our son is keeping her without need." " But I believe he must have affair." " Now I don't think so. Why did you thought so?" " Because I seen Urvashi's daughter. She was looking so much like Pradip." Her father-in-law screamed with joy " What? Are you sure?" " I asked about father but she avoided." Her mother-in-law was laughing. She felt so sad. She needed to accept this. But she couldn't believe this was happening with her. She was so upset. She decided that she needed to take revenge. She started to searching for her name. She worked hard but she couldn't find. Finally she found it. She felt so angry. She called Urvashi and asked her without second thought. " Can I talk with Pradip?" Urvashi sounded confused. Urvashi " Who is Pradip? Madam you got wrong number?" " Stop lying you know Pradip. You work under him." " Who? Mr. Sharma?" Now Pritam felt confused. This lady didn't even seem to know her husband's name. She decided to change conversation. " Are you Pooja?" " No..no Madam I am his employee? You got wrong number!!" Pritam changed her tone and said in sweet voice " So sorry I thought I am talking to my sister-in-law." Urvashi started laughing. Urvashi " That's why you got so angry when I don't remember name. But Madam I don't know his name. I know just surname of sir." Pritam laughed to and disconnected call. She was so confused. She sensed one thing her mother-in-law was lying. Pritam controlled herself and started laughing. Pritam " I was so shocked that my sister-in-law deleted number!!" She kept saying it even after disconnecting call. She wanted to deny it even in her soul. It was so hard for her. She felt so disgraced. She sensed one thing that this woman didn't even knew her husband much but she didn't understand one thing why did her in-laws were lying like this. She decided to ignore it. She went in their room and told them that lunch was ready. They didn't even smile. But she decided to ignore it. She began to practice her play again. She did it with feeling and emotions. She really liked it. She suddenly began to think it might be her starting step of future. She might start to get some role in play. She wanted to become actress. She never dreamt of becoming superstar. She knew her capacity. But she wanted small roles which would bring happiness for her. She needed to feel happy. Her acting career would make her happy. She wanted to feel that happiness from her soul. It was so pleasant. She was so peaceful. She spent her entire day in just doing it. At night Pradip came. She told her every hope to him. Pradip smiled and said " I really don't mind. I prefer if you pursue some career. Due to social pressure you never went ahead with your desires. But on this point we don't need to worry about society. We can live our life without their appreciation happily. Actually people never helped us in anything. We never got any important help from relatives. We don't need to spend our day and night in worrying about them." She smiled and nodded. After that she kept practicing more and more. Then time came when she supposed to do play. She went in her in-law's room told them about her play. They just kept making faces. Soon she sensed that they didn't appreciate. But truthfully they didn't appreciate anything done by her. Then she did play. No one from her family came. After that she inquired about that profession. People suggested courses. She decided to take them. She began to spend her most of time in pursuing her career. She spent days in it. Her in-laws were getting upset by it. But she didn't have much option. She couldn't sit ideal for entire day and Pradip was so happy by her interest in career. But she got shocked when she noticed that her in-laws brought one boy in home. She talked happily to him at first but then she got confused. Since she sensed that her in-laws were preferring that boy as their grandson. That child was small so he was not understanding meaning. She was so confused. She didn't understand what she supposed to do on it. She remembered last time so she didn't want to repeat her mistake.
Pritam started to get more and more upset as that boy started to stay for more time. She decided to call Pradip. She called him and told him all. Pradip screamed in anger " I never act like that. You know me. Can't you trust me?" " Frankly I love you but I am insecure too so I must confess my mistake I did last time." She told entire story. He was so angry. " Thank God Urvashi did sense it. She is very talkative. She might have spread it in entire office by now." " I am so sorry.. but what about this boy?" " I don't understand. I feel after sometime his parents might come and just take him away." She began to feel so scared. She started to sense that her in-laws managed to take away some person's child. She hoped that it didn't considered kidnapping. It didn't be treated like crime. She didn't want to tackle Police complaint. She ran towards her in-laws. She was so scared. " Mom who is this boy?" Her mother-in-law gave sad smile and said "Actually it is sad news for you. But you need to accept.." " Mom I talked to Pradip he didn't know this child!" Then before they could say anything else. Their door bell rang. A man who looked similar to her husband was standing in door. She sensed that it was father of that boy. She shivered with fear. She smiled and said " We were planning to send him home soon." " But why did you took him away? My wife doesn't like it. If you want child go for adoption don't take away other's kid like that." She felt so upset. " Actually we are not taking away your kids my in-laws did. You know at old age many times.." " Then send them to mental institution!! Do you know they are doing this on daily basis?" She was so shocked. She didn't know this. She was so busy with her career that she didn't paid much attention to what her in-laws were doing behind her. She never felt that her in-laws could be her responsibility. She thought that they were elder so they didn't need her attention. She just needed to do her normal household duties. She began to get so upset. " Will you come inside Sir and explain me what is happening?" " Sure. I love to explain otherwise I need to go to Police." She started to feel so upset. She didn't like this situation. That little boy ran in his arms and her mother-in-law screamed " This is my grandson." That man screamed more loudly " This is my son and you are mad woman." He took hold of his son and went away. Her mother-in-law started crying loudly. Her father-in-law came out. He patted on her shoulder and said " Don't worry. We will search for our grandchild and find that kid tomorrow!!" Pritam was so shocked. Pritam screamed " Grandchild?!! Mom..Dad you don't have any grandchild in this world. I confirmed it with Pradip." " He is lying to please you. " " No I don't think so. You can talk to him yourself about this. You need to understand.." On that time she received call from Society secretary. He was very angry. He screamed " What's wrong with you? Why you are taking kids from house every day? If you want child, you can adopt." " I don't want child. My in-laws are doing this." " Then send them to mental hospital otherwise we will throw you out of Society." She was so shocked. " Come on we all reach to old age one day. We need to understand their troubles too. We can't just throw them away." Her in-laws were hearing her conversation from one side. It seemed that they began to understood all. Her mother-in-law started crying. Her father-in-law " I will not let them take you away. I know they are doing this for money. You want us out of sight since we are trying to find new wife for our son. We don't have anything against you but we need grandchild. " " It is not about me. You are taking away kids of other people which called child kidnapping. One day Police might arrest you." Her mother-in-law "But I want to find my grandson!!" " But we don't have any missing child!! If you want child then you need to convince Pradip with science he doesn't need me to get child. But he didn't want.." they started screaming on her. Soon they began to get so offensive that she began to feel that they might hurt us. She literally ran out of house. She called Pradip from outside. Pradip was so shocked. Pradip came running back to house. He was so shocked when he heard all. Then they went to secretary. He was talking to secretary when watchman came running in room where they were discussing. Watchman told them that her in-laws jumped from balcony. They all came outside. It was horrible sight. Pritam started crying. Pradip managed all. But after this Pritam didn't came out of her house. She kept sensing one thing everyone was looking at her offensively. She kept hiding but one day finally she decided to give up. She decided that she couldn't tolerate those blames. She decided that she needed divorce. She kept feeling so sick and uneasy. She decided to discuss it one day with Pradip. Pradip sounded hurt. Pradip " First my parents left me because I don't want child and now you are doing same thing. Why did you all want child so desparately?" She was so confused. She didn't know reason but she knew one thing. She must have child. Everyone said they must. She didn't understand how to explain this to Pradip. Then suddenly Pradip said " I think we must visit psychiatrist." She was about to reject that idea but then she stopped. She sensed that it was wise to visit to one. She needed it. She nodded.
Next day Pradip told Pritam date of appointment. When they went inside, they started to discuss entire matter. Psychiatrist asked Pritam " Why don't you believe that Pradip didn't want child?" " Because everyone want child." " Who told you that?" " Everyone!!" " Majority is not always right. We see it in many incidence. Most of superstitions are supported by majority and they destroyed people's lives." Pritam nodded. Then psychiatrist started talking with them both. As they discussed. Pritam sensed that Pradip was truly not fond of kids. It was not his mental problem or it was not due to her infertility trouble. He was not fond of kids. He was like that only. She began to get relaxed. She thanked psychiatrist in end. She took next appointment. On that point she said " I wish my in-laws should have met you!!" Psychiatrist gave sad smile and said "Truthfully I don't know if it should have helped." Pradip " Why?!!" Psychiatrist " Well they didn't want to me meet me at all. They were convinced death is better than meeting me." Pritam felt it was so wrong. " This is so wrong!! You are wonderful person. " " I am but still people don't like meeting me. They prefer death over it." Pradip " But that is wrong choice." Psychiatrist smiled and said " I am glad. You felt that way." They said goodbye. In heart they both felt only if Pradip's parents had visited this Doctor their life could have changed. But what happened already couldn't be changed. Pritam called her friend to start acting career again. Pradip smiled towards her. He was on top of the world. Finally his life was on track again.
The End
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