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Nisha was looking around. She was so happy that she managed to get house just as per her choice. Her life was perfect. She managed to even get bigger house as per her choice. Now her both kids would have their separate room. She knew that she had to manage things of both room. Her kids might promised to take care of their room. But they couldn't in their busy schedule they hardly had time to waste on other things except study. She knew importance of education like every mother who just wanted their kids to study and when finally their studying was over. They needed their spare time for their entertainment so that they could concentrate more on studies next time. It was so important that they also had some time to enjoy so she knew that she would not insist on putting their things on proper places. It was so hard for them. She started looking at her daughter's room. It was just perfect for a teenage girl. She was so happy that she managed to decorate it in good way. Her last room was so confused. Some thing were belonged to girl but then her brother entered in her room .Nisha saw clearly that her son Tushar was getting so upset by girls' things in his room. As he started growing up he needed those things to be removed from his room. It was needful for him. He couldn't let his friends see his room in pink color. He didn't want things of girl's to be entering in his room so it was clear that Rati couldn't keep her things in her room. Nisha sensed her sorrows. She started feeling that it was not right. She started insisting to Rohit for big house who seemed to sense the trouble. He knew that Rati was nice girl. She deserved some freedom. But Tushar just couldn't keep those things in his room. But it was so hard. They had to save money on each day. But they both managed it. She saved lot of money and she was happy that Rohit gave her full credit of it. He was a person who gave credit to every one for his work. She felt so glad to have husband like him. She suddenly felt on that point her throat was hurting. She looked around. She sensed suddenly that she was getting breathless. She started coughing uncontrollably. She wanted to stop it but she just couldn't. She finally ran towards bottle of water. She started drinking it. But she couldn't take it inside. She suddenly felt that she had to throw out. She ran to wash basin. She started vomit. She sensed on that point some thing was wrong with her. She sensed that she was sick. She started to looking around. She felt that she was going to faint. She just sat in chair. She was so shocked. She suddenly felt that her whole happiness was destroyed. She never received so much happiness in life. When she was kid, her parents were rich but then they suddenly suffered losses in business. Every thing went away and with it many of their friends and relatives managed to turn back on them. She had to see it all. It was not easy for her. She sensed every day. She needed to go to her friends but they didn't come. When she entered in her friend's house, it was different. She still remembered it like event of yesterday. She went in her friend's house where mostly her Mom invited her to snacks whenever she went there. But that day when she went in that house, her friend didn't smile. In fact her friend's Mom looked upset. Her friend looked scared. Her friend " Actually we are going out." "Ohh really where?" Her friend's Mom " On vacation in abroad. We want to do packing now so it will be better if you leave." She nodded and went away. Then she saw another girl from her class was invited to play. She saw that girl's posh car. She sensed that she was not needed now. Her friend came happily to invite this new girl. She could see there was new doll in that girl's hand. Her friend was also talking about her new doll. She looked at her old doll. They didn't want to play since she had old doll. She was so upset. Then Nisha suddenly felt one thing. She never got any happiness in life. She never had enough money to make good friends. But she wouldn't let this happen to her kids. She knew that she might be sick. But she decided that she could wait after all she felt that her sickness must be serious so why did she needed to get bad news so soon. She decided to wait for some days.
Nisha controlled her emotions very well. She manage to give pleasant smile to all. Her throat was full of pain. She needed to sense those pains should be hidden her soul. She didn't want those pains to be seen on face. Every one was so happy about big house. She didn't want to them to sense her trouble. Then suddenly Rohit said " Let's go out for dinner." Nisha was so confused. She didn't want to go out now. She knew that it would hurt her health. But she didn't even want to confess before she could say anything kids started planning they started making list of items which they wanted to eat. She felt just one thought from heart. She must disturbed them so she just told them she got ready. She went in her room. Her throat was killing her. She decided they she needed pain killer. She took just normal pain killer. She felt relief that she didn't feel pain at least for few hours. She got ready. She could clearly hear those wonderful noises of kids. They were jumping with joy. They were planning new look for their rooms. But she was glad that they were not wasting money in it. They sensed that their parents working hard for this house. So instead of wall paper or painting on wall they just decided to frame posters. But she knew that their walls still look beautiful since they were choosing every thing with such a care. She was so happy to have such nice kids. They had their tantrums. But still they both were nice kids with understanding. She knew that her daughter would get dressed in just perfect way which she liked. Every day she might get dressed with her choice but today when she wanted to go out with her parents, she dressed in way that please them. Her son would do same thing. But still she felt so scared about their safety. She read newspaper every day. She read those horrible news. Sometime she just felt as if she should quit reading them. After all they were not offering any solutions. But then she needed to know about world. She felt one thing from mind that things must be same even in past but they were not exposed. Then she felt that it might be some thing evil that was going to happen. She began to feel as if god had decided to quit on human being. She sensed one thing that things were not as she hoped. Today she was so upset due to her health. She was so upset. She decided to tear newspaper. She was so upset. She wanted to take out her anger. She wanted to be healthy and best for her family but she was not. She was still feeling those pains. She started sensing them. She wanted to take out her anger. She just took that paper which was telling her again and again that her family was not safe. She didn't want them to be suffering after her death. She wanted them to happy and safe. She sensed it that she was going to die. She knew that her sickness would finally managed to kill her. She could sense her trouble from every part of body. It was paining. She just had few days. She didn't want to tell any one it. If she made one visit to Doctor, she was sure that it would confirm it. She didn't want to visit any doctor. She just wanted to live with her family and smile. She teared whole paper. But then she sensed that she did biggest mistake. Now Rohit would sensed that some thing was wrong. She started removing piece of paper. She cleaned every piece. She didn't want to any piece in sight. Her heart was beating. She was so tense. She could understand that Rohit could enter in house. Then he could sensed every thing. She didn't want to happen. She threw it all in dustbin. Then she was on last piece. Rohit looked confused. He sensed something. " What happened?" She started to say " Nothing" But her coughing was started. She couldn't able to say a word. Rohit was looking at her with tense expression. She wanted to hide it but she could see clearly that it was not going to be easy. If she kept coughing like this soon, some one would sense but she just couldn't stop her cough. She wanted to hide but she couldn't it. She knew that she had managed to spoil that evening at least for Rohit. She didn't want to cry so she just ran in toilet to hide her troubles. Rohit was so confused. He just let her go.
Rohit was so confused. Nisha was looking clearly sick but she didn't mentioned it. He just didn't like the way she was coughing. He felt that she must not eat outside. He decided that he could convince kids. But before he began to talk any thing. Both kids came in room. They looked scared. Rati " What happened? Is Mom alright?" Tushar " Dad she is coughing again and again. I just don't like it." Nisha heard this. She knew that what was going to happen next. They all would cancel plan for her. Nisha was feeling fine now due to pain killer. She smiled. "I am just fine." They all turned to her. Rohit " But you seem to have sore throat. " " It is not sore throat. It is just allergy. I will be fine. Let's go." She forced them all to go out. Tushar " Mom but you can't eat today. I feel you might able t eat tomorrow." Nisha " I know but I can go out today. I will come with you. I have made dinner so I can eat it when I will come home." Rohit " If you want to come then you have eat at home first. Don't you know how did those hotel serve late?" Tushar " Mom Dad is right. Let's go." Nisha nodded. Then she took out dinner. She had made special dinner for them. As soon as she took it out, suddenly every thing was changed. They all decided that they might just ate it on table. Slowly she sensed that no one wanted to understand to go out now. They all started eating that special dinner she had cooked. Rati " Mom why don't you tell us that you cooked such special dinner?" " I felt you want to eat outside." Tushar " Come on Mom. We love your food." She was supposed to be happy with this statement but she was feeling sad. She knew that she was going to die so it would be better if they loved food which they get from outside. But they all were enjoying her food with so much pleasure. Nisha " Come on. My food is nothing compared to that hotel food." Rohit " Nonsense. We are not people like those advertisement who die to eat outside. We just love your food. I thought that you might relax after shifting so I suggested that we would eat outside. We all just love your home made cooking." " Yes. Three cheers for Mom." They all screamed for her. She was so confused. She wanted to tell them that they must adjust but they just kept admiring her. Rati " Why don't you write a book on cooking Mom? It will make you famous." Rohit " Now that it is nice idea. But then your Mom will not have time to cook for us." They all started laughing. It was so much nice. She didn't want to break that worst news on them. She wanted just happiness for their soul. She smiled. But in her heart she was crying. She started eating. She could still sensed pains. That pain killer was not enough. She knew that she needed to start some strong pain killer. She had to manage. She looked around while keeping smile. She was so scared that she would once again start coughing. She just tried to avoid eating before them. But Tushar sensed it. Tushar " Mom why are you not eating dinner?" She smiled at it. Nisha " So you are going to become my Mom now? Come on let me in my way." Tushar smiled. They all started eating their food. Then slowly they became busy in chatting. She slowly managed to threw away her food in dustbin. It was too much for her. She knew that she acted in wrong way. But she had to do it. She just had to hide it. She thanked her luck even on second time Tushar didn't notice. She never sensed that Rati was standing there. She saw it all but she decided to keep quiet. Rati sensed one thing that her Mom was not fine. Rati knew that her Mom was sick. Rati didn't want to cry since she knew that if some thing happened to her Mom, she needed to took her place. After all if her Mom became sick who would take care of every thing, her Dad had to go to office to earn money. She was so scared. She just went in her room locked herself and started crying loudly.
In that locked room Rati managed to take out all her fear. But then she came out of room with determination. Rati went in kitchen. "Mom what happened to you? Are you sick?" Nisha sensed it already that Rati managed to guess something when Rati didn't come out for dessert. She had already created a nice plan to hide matter. Nisha " No. Who told you that?" " Mom stop lying I saw you were showing away that food." " Ohh actually I am fasting." "Fasting? Since when you start these rituals?" " Come on. You are acting as if I am doing crime. That's why I hide it from every one?" After saying this Nisha went to basin to clean pots. She just wanted to avoid facing Rati. She was not good lair. She could clearly sensed that Rati was going to dig in that matter. She turned still Rati came after her. " But why?" " Since I was tense about house." " How long are you going to fast?" " For seven days." Rati exclaimed with shock. Rati " Mom you will get sick this way. " "Come on. I am your Mom and I know how to take care of things." Nisha kept moving and Rati kept following her. Then suddenly Nisha started to sensed that her throat was paining again. She sensed that painkiller was not working now. She started coughing in worst way. Rati " Mom you are sick and still you are fasting. I feel you must stop it. I have to tell Dad." Nisha stopped her. Nisha " Don't tell him. I don't want upset him. I will take medicine." "But Mom?" " Aren't you going to listen to me?" Nisha said it in such a angry voice that Rati had to nod. It was too much for Rati. That night Nisha was planning to read about throat cancer. She began to count symptoms that were matching. She was having trouble while eating. She was having pain. She was coughing uncontrollably. She didn't read further. She just closed her lap top. She was sure that she had throat cancer. She had no doubt about it. But she was so tense. She didn't want to irritate any one. She wanted to die peacefully without hurting Rohit or kids. But she knew that it was not possible. They were attached to her. She began to feel that she might act in worst way to them then this would reduce their love towards her. But then she thought that it would also give them bad memories. They would think that their Mom hated them. It was possible that they started to give her so much troubles that she started to hate them. Now she never wanted to plant that thought in their young innocent soul. She didn't want to hurt them more. She just turned look around. She saw that Rohit was coming in room. She gave him nice smile. Nisha " Rohit can you survive without me?" Rohit was so angry and confused. He screamed " What do you mean? Why I have to leave without you?" He suddenly looked so much angry. " You are going to left me for some one else." She couldn't stop laughing. She was thinking about her death and her husband was thinking about her extra marital affairs. " Stop getting jealous. I was just solving quiz." He started laughing. " You scared me so much. I can't control this circus without you." " Circus? They are our kids. You can't talk like that about them. You need to learn to handle them. What if something happen to me?" Rohit managed to make one sad face and said " Then I have to marry another woman." Then he started laughing uncontrollably. One thing was sure that he was not serious about this. She felt so sad. She just started to feel that only if she didn't had to die. But she must. She looked once again at her lap top. She started crying. Rohit was shocked. He started laughing and telling her that he never marry any one except her. She was hearing those promises but she feeling scared more and more. It was worst moment of her life. She suddenly started coughing. Rohit tried to help her but she ran away as far as possible from him. It was so strange. She didn't want to touch by him. She felt that she might had some serious sickness. But this time Rohit didn't stop. Rohit " What happened to you?" " I am sick and this is serious sickness. I am going to die." " Did you went to Doctor?" " No..Since I don't want to upset you with that sad news." " What sad news? When you quit this game, you did same thing last time when you have virus and then you even repeated it on tooth ache. You said that you will not repeat it again last time. I gave you this chance. Now this is enough. " " No..No..I am sure this time." He touched her hand. " My god you are burning with fever. I am calling Doctor." Nisha nodded and slept on bed. Rohit called family Doctor.
Rohit went out and told kids that Doctor was going to come. Rati " Mom is having some serious sickness." Tushar " Nonsense. It is Mom's drama again. Don't you remember how many times she said same thing." Rati " But she was sick on both times and needed medical attention. She just don't go to Doctor." " You are right and that's why I called him. I know it is night hour but Doctor is my friend and he was driving from here only so he will visit now so go to your room and don't disturb." Both kids nodded. They went inside room. Doctor came. Doctor " What happened?" " She did it again. She managed to hide her throat infection for so long that she started to get high fever. She was doing it again and again. She managed to find some disease which is too deadly then she started thinking that she was having it. She did tell any one. Today she was even ready to come with us for dinner outside. She didn't even able to eat any thing due to that coughing but still she was not ready to go to you since she thought that she had some deadly disease and you will break that news to all." " This is happening again and again. Trust me this is not safe. One day she might managed to hurt her." Then Doctor went inside room. Doctor checked her. Doctor " My god your throat infection is so increased. I have to give you strong antibiotics. You do this every time. Can't you just come to me?" " So I don't have throat cancer?" " Why did you suppose to have that? Are you a Doctor? Forget Doctor just tell me where you read this rubbish." " On internet. They tell all symptoms and .." " And in end they tell you to visit Doctor if you have them. Don't they? If you are visiting proper medical site, I am sure they always tell you never take medicine without consulting Doctor. They tell you that you must visit Doctor time to time. They tell you how strong medicine can damage your health so an on time visit to Doctor is important. Don't them tell you?" " Yes but I feel so scared that you will tell some bad news and then it will give worst effect on kids." "Don't you feel this will already creating worst effect on them?" Nisha started crying slowly. Doctor " Now relax listen to me. Why don't you visit psychiatrist?" " Psychiatrist?" Rohit looked confused. " But she is having fever." " I know and I am going to give medicine for it. I am not talking about this fever. I am telling you after getting well she must visit psychiatrist." Nisha "But why?" " For your this fear of sickness. This way one day you will damage your health by avoiding Doctor." Nisha looked away. She was so ashamed of what she had done. Then Doctor went away with Rohit. She started crying slowly. Rohit came in room. " Now don't cry. I will talk to this Doctor. He will make every thing right." " But what if he didn't able to? " "Then we can survive like that. Come on relax. You are just fine." Then kids came inside room. Rati " What did Doctor said?" Rohit " He gave medicine and suggested another Doctor who will take away Mom's fear." Tushar smiled " Psychiatrist? I was hoping for it since so many days. Dad you are educated people. We need to understand psychiatrist is not just for mad people. They are also for people like Mom who have just minor problem." Rohit and Nisha sensed for first time that their son was lot more mature that they thought. He was suggesting them such logical solution but they never listened to him. Nisha and Rohit both sensed that he was showing them again and again many books and movies regarding psychology but they never sensed it. Now they understood. Then Tushar just decided to go away. They let him do that. So they waited for few days until Nisha didn't get over her physical infection. Then finally they went to psychiatrist. He was nice friendly elderly fellow. Nisha felt happy after meting him. He reminded her of her father who was considerate regarding every thing. Her father was like that even after they lost all money but every one started calling his fool. She told him all how did she wanted to prove her Dad was great father. She wanted to convince world that money was not every thing. But she couldn't. Then she married Rohit who used to respect her Dad and his values. She got every thing. She wanted a big house like once she use to have she was so happy. But she began to fear scared of sickness. Nisha " What is happening to me?" " Nothing to feel so scared about. You are suffering from Hypochondriasis or Nosophobia. In simple language fear of sickness. People have fear of any thing like dog or cat. It is just like that." Nisha suddenly felt so relax. It began to look so normal. She smiled happily. Then slowly psychiatrist told her that these things happened due to her stress things in past. She felt so scared that she would lose her happiness that she started imagining it. He explained it properly to her. Nisha began to relax and Rohit began to play with mobile. He knew that he needed to hear it but he was getting so bored.
The End
Nisha was looking around. She was so happy that she managed to get house just as per her choice. Her life was perfect. She managed to even get bigger house as per her choice. Now her both kids would have their separate room. She knew that she had to manage things of both room. Her kids might promised to take care of their room. But they couldn't in their busy schedule they hardly had time to waste on other things except study. She knew importance of education like every mother who just wanted their kids to study and when finally their studying was over. They needed their spare time for their entertainment so that they could concentrate more on studies next time. It was so important that they also had some time to enjoy so she knew that she would not insist on putting their things on proper places. It was so hard for them. She started looking at her daughter's room. It was just perfect for a teenage girl. She was so happy that she managed to decorate it in good way. Her last room was so confused. Some thing were belonged to girl but then her brother entered in her room .Nisha saw clearly that her son Tushar was getting so upset by girls' things in his room. As he started growing up he needed those things to be removed from his room. It was needful for him. He couldn't let his friends see his room in pink color. He didn't want things of girl's to be entering in his room so it was clear that Rati couldn't keep her things in her room. Nisha sensed her sorrows. She started feeling that it was not right. She started insisting to Rohit for big house who seemed to sense the trouble. He knew that Rati was nice girl. She deserved some freedom. But Tushar just couldn't keep those things in his room. But it was so hard. They had to save money on each day. But they both managed it. She saved lot of money and she was happy that Rohit gave her full credit of it. He was a person who gave credit to every one for his work. She felt so glad to have husband like him. She suddenly felt on that point her throat was hurting. She looked around. She sensed suddenly that she was getting breathless. She started coughing uncontrollably. She wanted to stop it but she just couldn't. She finally ran towards bottle of water. She started drinking it. But she couldn't take it inside. She suddenly felt that she had to throw out. She ran to wash basin. She started vomit. She sensed on that point some thing was wrong with her. She sensed that she was sick. She started to looking around. She felt that she was going to faint. She just sat in chair. She was so shocked. She suddenly felt that her whole happiness was destroyed. She never received so much happiness in life. When she was kid, her parents were rich but then they suddenly suffered losses in business. Every thing went away and with it many of their friends and relatives managed to turn back on them. She had to see it all. It was not easy for her. She sensed every day. She needed to go to her friends but they didn't come. When she entered in her friend's house, it was different. She still remembered it like event of yesterday. She went in her friend's house where mostly her Mom invited her to snacks whenever she went there. But that day when she went in that house, her friend didn't smile. In fact her friend's Mom looked upset. Her friend looked scared. Her friend " Actually we are going out." "Ohh really where?" Her friend's Mom " On vacation in abroad. We want to do packing now so it will be better if you leave." She nodded and went away. Then she saw another girl from her class was invited to play. She saw that girl's posh car. She sensed that she was not needed now. Her friend came happily to invite this new girl. She could see there was new doll in that girl's hand. Her friend was also talking about her new doll. She looked at her old doll. They didn't want to play since she had old doll. She was so upset. Then Nisha suddenly felt one thing. She never got any happiness in life. She never had enough money to make good friends. But she wouldn't let this happen to her kids. She knew that she might be sick. But she decided that she could wait after all she felt that her sickness must be serious so why did she needed to get bad news so soon. She decided to wait for some days.
Nisha controlled her emotions very well. She manage to give pleasant smile to all. Her throat was full of pain. She needed to sense those pains should be hidden her soul. She didn't want those pains to be seen on face. Every one was so happy about big house. She didn't want to them to sense her trouble. Then suddenly Rohit said " Let's go out for dinner." Nisha was so confused. She didn't want to go out now. She knew that it would hurt her health. But she didn't even want to confess before she could say anything kids started planning they started making list of items which they wanted to eat. She felt just one thought from heart. She must disturbed them so she just told them she got ready. She went in her room. Her throat was killing her. She decided they she needed pain killer. She took just normal pain killer. She felt relief that she didn't feel pain at least for few hours. She got ready. She could clearly hear those wonderful noises of kids. They were jumping with joy. They were planning new look for their rooms. But she was glad that they were not wasting money in it. They sensed that their parents working hard for this house. So instead of wall paper or painting on wall they just decided to frame posters. But she knew that their walls still look beautiful since they were choosing every thing with such a care. She was so happy to have such nice kids. They had their tantrums. But still they both were nice kids with understanding. She knew that her daughter would get dressed in just perfect way which she liked. Every day she might get dressed with her choice but today when she wanted to go out with her parents, she dressed in way that please them. Her son would do same thing. But still she felt so scared about their safety. She read newspaper every day. She read those horrible news. Sometime she just felt as if she should quit reading them. After all they were not offering any solutions. But then she needed to know about world. She felt one thing from mind that things must be same even in past but they were not exposed. Then she felt that it might be some thing evil that was going to happen. She began to feel as if god had decided to quit on human being. She sensed one thing that things were not as she hoped. Today she was so upset due to her health. She was so upset. She decided to tear newspaper. She was so upset. She wanted to take out her anger. She wanted to be healthy and best for her family but she was not. She was still feeling those pains. She started sensing them. She wanted to take out her anger. She just took that paper which was telling her again and again that her family was not safe. She didn't want them to be suffering after her death. She wanted them to happy and safe. She sensed it that she was going to die. She knew that her sickness would finally managed to kill her. She could sense her trouble from every part of body. It was paining. She just had few days. She didn't want to tell any one it. If she made one visit to Doctor, she was sure that it would confirm it. She didn't want to visit any doctor. She just wanted to live with her family and smile. She teared whole paper. But then she sensed that she did biggest mistake. Now Rohit would sensed that some thing was wrong. She started removing piece of paper. She cleaned every piece. She didn't want to any piece in sight. Her heart was beating. She was so tense. She could understand that Rohit could enter in house. Then he could sensed every thing. She didn't want to happen. She threw it all in dustbin. Then she was on last piece. Rohit looked confused. He sensed something. " What happened?" She started to say " Nothing" But her coughing was started. She couldn't able to say a word. Rohit was looking at her with tense expression. She wanted to hide it but she could see clearly that it was not going to be easy. If she kept coughing like this soon, some one would sense but she just couldn't stop her cough. She wanted to hide but she couldn't it. She knew that she had managed to spoil that evening at least for Rohit. She didn't want to cry so she just ran in toilet to hide her troubles. Rohit was so confused. He just let her go.
Rohit was so confused. Nisha was looking clearly sick but she didn't mentioned it. He just didn't like the way she was coughing. He felt that she must not eat outside. He decided that he could convince kids. But before he began to talk any thing. Both kids came in room. They looked scared. Rati " What happened? Is Mom alright?" Tushar " Dad she is coughing again and again. I just don't like it." Nisha heard this. She knew that what was going to happen next. They all would cancel plan for her. Nisha was feeling fine now due to pain killer. She smiled. "I am just fine." They all turned to her. Rohit " But you seem to have sore throat. " " It is not sore throat. It is just allergy. I will be fine. Let's go." She forced them all to go out. Tushar " Mom but you can't eat today. I feel you might able t eat tomorrow." Nisha " I know but I can go out today. I will come with you. I have made dinner so I can eat it when I will come home." Rohit " If you want to come then you have eat at home first. Don't you know how did those hotel serve late?" Tushar " Mom Dad is right. Let's go." Nisha nodded. Then she took out dinner. She had made special dinner for them. As soon as she took it out, suddenly every thing was changed. They all decided that they might just ate it on table. Slowly she sensed that no one wanted to understand to go out now. They all started eating that special dinner she had cooked. Rati " Mom why don't you tell us that you cooked such special dinner?" " I felt you want to eat outside." Tushar " Come on Mom. We love your food." She was supposed to be happy with this statement but she was feeling sad. She knew that she was going to die so it would be better if they loved food which they get from outside. But they all were enjoying her food with so much pleasure. Nisha " Come on. My food is nothing compared to that hotel food." Rohit " Nonsense. We are not people like those advertisement who die to eat outside. We just love your food. I thought that you might relax after shifting so I suggested that we would eat outside. We all just love your home made cooking." " Yes. Three cheers for Mom." They all screamed for her. She was so confused. She wanted to tell them that they must adjust but they just kept admiring her. Rati " Why don't you write a book on cooking Mom? It will make you famous." Rohit " Now that it is nice idea. But then your Mom will not have time to cook for us." They all started laughing. It was so much nice. She didn't want to break that worst news on them. She wanted just happiness for their soul. She smiled. But in her heart she was crying. She started eating. She could still sensed pains. That pain killer was not enough. She knew that she needed to start some strong pain killer. She had to manage. She looked around while keeping smile. She was so scared that she would once again start coughing. She just tried to avoid eating before them. But Tushar sensed it. Tushar " Mom why are you not eating dinner?" She smiled at it. Nisha " So you are going to become my Mom now? Come on let me in my way." Tushar smiled. They all started eating their food. Then slowly they became busy in chatting. She slowly managed to threw away her food in dustbin. It was too much for her. She knew that she acted in wrong way. But she had to do it. She just had to hide it. She thanked her luck even on second time Tushar didn't notice. She never sensed that Rati was standing there. She saw it all but she decided to keep quiet. Rati sensed one thing that her Mom was not fine. Rati knew that her Mom was sick. Rati didn't want to cry since she knew that if some thing happened to her Mom, she needed to took her place. After all if her Mom became sick who would take care of every thing, her Dad had to go to office to earn money. She was so scared. She just went in her room locked herself and started crying loudly.
In that locked room Rati managed to take out all her fear. But then she came out of room with determination. Rati went in kitchen. "Mom what happened to you? Are you sick?" Nisha sensed it already that Rati managed to guess something when Rati didn't come out for dessert. She had already created a nice plan to hide matter. Nisha " No. Who told you that?" " Mom stop lying I saw you were showing away that food." " Ohh actually I am fasting." "Fasting? Since when you start these rituals?" " Come on. You are acting as if I am doing crime. That's why I hide it from every one?" After saying this Nisha went to basin to clean pots. She just wanted to avoid facing Rati. She was not good lair. She could clearly sensed that Rati was going to dig in that matter. She turned still Rati came after her. " But why?" " Since I was tense about house." " How long are you going to fast?" " For seven days." Rati exclaimed with shock. Rati " Mom you will get sick this way. " "Come on. I am your Mom and I know how to take care of things." Nisha kept moving and Rati kept following her. Then suddenly Nisha started to sensed that her throat was paining again. She sensed that painkiller was not working now. She started coughing in worst way. Rati " Mom you are sick and still you are fasting. I feel you must stop it. I have to tell Dad." Nisha stopped her. Nisha " Don't tell him. I don't want upset him. I will take medicine." "But Mom?" " Aren't you going to listen to me?" Nisha said it in such a angry voice that Rati had to nod. It was too much for Rati. That night Nisha was planning to read about throat cancer. She began to count symptoms that were matching. She was having trouble while eating. She was having pain. She was coughing uncontrollably. She didn't read further. She just closed her lap top. She was sure that she had throat cancer. She had no doubt about it. But she was so tense. She didn't want to irritate any one. She wanted to die peacefully without hurting Rohit or kids. But she knew that it was not possible. They were attached to her. She began to feel that she might act in worst way to them then this would reduce their love towards her. But then she thought that it would also give them bad memories. They would think that their Mom hated them. It was possible that they started to give her so much troubles that she started to hate them. Now she never wanted to plant that thought in their young innocent soul. She didn't want to hurt them more. She just turned look around. She saw that Rohit was coming in room. She gave him nice smile. Nisha " Rohit can you survive without me?" Rohit was so angry and confused. He screamed " What do you mean? Why I have to leave without you?" He suddenly looked so much angry. " You are going to left me for some one else." She couldn't stop laughing. She was thinking about her death and her husband was thinking about her extra marital affairs. " Stop getting jealous. I was just solving quiz." He started laughing. " You scared me so much. I can't control this circus without you." " Circus? They are our kids. You can't talk like that about them. You need to learn to handle them. What if something happen to me?" Rohit managed to make one sad face and said " Then I have to marry another woman." Then he started laughing uncontrollably. One thing was sure that he was not serious about this. She felt so sad. She just started to feel that only if she didn't had to die. But she must. She looked once again at her lap top. She started crying. Rohit was shocked. He started laughing and telling her that he never marry any one except her. She was hearing those promises but she feeling scared more and more. It was worst moment of her life. She suddenly started coughing. Rohit tried to help her but she ran away as far as possible from him. It was so strange. She didn't want to touch by him. She felt that she might had some serious sickness. But this time Rohit didn't stop. Rohit " What happened to you?" " I am sick and this is serious sickness. I am going to die." " Did you went to Doctor?" " No..Since I don't want to upset you with that sad news." " What sad news? When you quit this game, you did same thing last time when you have virus and then you even repeated it on tooth ache. You said that you will not repeat it again last time. I gave you this chance. Now this is enough. " " No..No..I am sure this time." He touched her hand. " My god you are burning with fever. I am calling Doctor." Nisha nodded and slept on bed. Rohit called family Doctor.
Rohit went out and told kids that Doctor was going to come. Rati " Mom is having some serious sickness." Tushar " Nonsense. It is Mom's drama again. Don't you remember how many times she said same thing." Rati " But she was sick on both times and needed medical attention. She just don't go to Doctor." " You are right and that's why I called him. I know it is night hour but Doctor is my friend and he was driving from here only so he will visit now so go to your room and don't disturb." Both kids nodded. They went inside room. Doctor came. Doctor " What happened?" " She did it again. She managed to hide her throat infection for so long that she started to get high fever. She was doing it again and again. She managed to find some disease which is too deadly then she started thinking that she was having it. She did tell any one. Today she was even ready to come with us for dinner outside. She didn't even able to eat any thing due to that coughing but still she was not ready to go to you since she thought that she had some deadly disease and you will break that news to all." " This is happening again and again. Trust me this is not safe. One day she might managed to hurt her." Then Doctor went inside room. Doctor checked her. Doctor " My god your throat infection is so increased. I have to give you strong antibiotics. You do this every time. Can't you just come to me?" " So I don't have throat cancer?" " Why did you suppose to have that? Are you a Doctor? Forget Doctor just tell me where you read this rubbish." " On internet. They tell all symptoms and .." " And in end they tell you to visit Doctor if you have them. Don't they? If you are visiting proper medical site, I am sure they always tell you never take medicine without consulting Doctor. They tell you that you must visit Doctor time to time. They tell you how strong medicine can damage your health so an on time visit to Doctor is important. Don't them tell you?" " Yes but I feel so scared that you will tell some bad news and then it will give worst effect on kids." "Don't you feel this will already creating worst effect on them?" Nisha started crying slowly. Doctor " Now relax listen to me. Why don't you visit psychiatrist?" " Psychiatrist?" Rohit looked confused. " But she is having fever." " I know and I am going to give medicine for it. I am not talking about this fever. I am telling you after getting well she must visit psychiatrist." Nisha "But why?" " For your this fear of sickness. This way one day you will damage your health by avoiding Doctor." Nisha looked away. She was so ashamed of what she had done. Then Doctor went away with Rohit. She started crying slowly. Rohit came in room. " Now don't cry. I will talk to this Doctor. He will make every thing right." " But what if he didn't able to? " "Then we can survive like that. Come on relax. You are just fine." Then kids came inside room. Rati " What did Doctor said?" Rohit " He gave medicine and suggested another Doctor who will take away Mom's fear." Tushar smiled " Psychiatrist? I was hoping for it since so many days. Dad you are educated people. We need to understand psychiatrist is not just for mad people. They are also for people like Mom who have just minor problem." Rohit and Nisha sensed for first time that their son was lot more mature that they thought. He was suggesting them such logical solution but they never listened to him. Nisha and Rohit both sensed that he was showing them again and again many books and movies regarding psychology but they never sensed it. Now they understood. Then Tushar just decided to go away. They let him do that. So they waited for few days until Nisha didn't get over her physical infection. Then finally they went to psychiatrist. He was nice friendly elderly fellow. Nisha felt happy after meting him. He reminded her of her father who was considerate regarding every thing. Her father was like that even after they lost all money but every one started calling his fool. She told him all how did she wanted to prove her Dad was great father. She wanted to convince world that money was not every thing. But she couldn't. Then she married Rohit who used to respect her Dad and his values. She got every thing. She wanted a big house like once she use to have she was so happy. But she began to fear scared of sickness. Nisha " What is happening to me?" " Nothing to feel so scared about. You are suffering from Hypochondriasis or Nosophobia. In simple language fear of sickness. People have fear of any thing like dog or cat. It is just like that." Nisha suddenly felt so relax. It began to look so normal. She smiled happily. Then slowly psychiatrist told her that these things happened due to her stress things in past. She felt so scared that she would lose her happiness that she started imagining it. He explained it properly to her. Nisha began to relax and Rohit began to play with mobile. He knew that he needed to hear it but he was getting so bored.
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