Mystery land of mind
Rajendra was hearing that phone call with full concentration. He wanted to hear it clear. But his ears were no longer seemed like as they used to be. He started listening to it carefully. It was his job. He had to hear it. He started screaming loudly. When a young man who was sitting near him took his phone. " Uncle let me do it for you. You are too old now. You need to rest." He gave sad smile. " I can't since I am sole bread earner of my family. I got two daughters. Both were married now. So I have to manage it all." " What about son? Don't you have son? Uncle son is needed for life. He could have took good care of you." Rajendra said angrily " Now don't tell that crap. My brother have one son but he is busy with this life. He don't have money to send to us. He just went ahead with his life. He managed to settle abroad with his wife. He hardly managed to send him money. He always kept saying next time..next time that time never come." " Ohh that is really bad. I took good care of my parents so I feel that every son will do." "But no need to feel sad. Since my daughters took good care of us. They sent me money but still I want to stand on my feet and most importantly I feel so alone after death of wife. Just sitting at home will seem so boring to me." " But you have to retire. Uncle other people need job. If you keep job like that it is wrong. You can't even hear. " " I will talk to Doctor tomorrow." Rajendra just put phone off . He hated it when any one suggested that he should retire. He was working for private company so no one could force him. But he was so upset when they suggested that he should retire. He wanted to stay away from those thoughts. He never wanted to retire he just wanted to work in that company for entire life. He lied when he said that he missed his wife. He never missed her. He just missed his young age. Those days he got job hours without thinking about exertions. He never used to feel so tired but now a days he was getting tired on every move. He just wanted to feel happy from his mind. He didn't want to feel exhausted. But it was not working. Now even his hearing capacity was reduced. It was worst for him. He tried so hard to listen but he just couldn't able to hear even single word. It was getting worst on every point. On that phone he just couldn't able to hear and every time he needed help of other person. He had to listen their taunts. He was so great otherwise in other work. No one could type as fast as him in whole office. He was best in his typing speed and even other working skills. But still they kept taunting him. Then suddenly Boss called them all. There was young boy with him. Boss " This is my son and from today he was going to take over this business and I am going to retire." Now this scared Rajendra so much. He didn't want to hear this word. He just ran out of that room. Then he went out and stood on one corner while adjusting his breathe. It was too much. He never felt this way but today he was so scared just by that one word. He knew that he had to control himself but he just couldn't. He just went in washroom closed door and kept crying. He knew that now his job was over. It was written on everybody's face. It was time for his retirement. But he was not ready. He looked in mirror. He saw one old face. He was so upset. When he suddenly found one idea, he had to look young. It would keep him away from this face. He decided that he must color his hairs first. He smiled. He liked this idea. He must turned himself into a young person. He smiled and on that point he started to decide he must act like one. He started to walk in that style in which he used to walk when he was in college and suddenly he began to feel truly young from his soul. He smiled happily to himself. He decided that he needed few hours in men's salon and then every thing would be perfect for him. He felt it from his soul. He had to do every beauty treatment. He smiled and went out. He just decided to slip without meeting Boss. He started to searching for his young friend. Rajendra " Friend I need to go out." " Now? But Boss coming to see us." " I just need to." Then he just ran away.
Rajendra went in posh saloon for male. He told that person that he wanted to color his hair. He wanted to look young that man smiled since he got message without telling. He started suggesting him many treatment. He just said yes to all. Soon it all started. It was hard in fact. He assumed that it would be relaxing but it seemed so much pain in neck. It took so much time and patience. But finally he looked at himself in mirror. He looked so young and dashing. He was so happy. He looked at watch. It was too late. He decided that he would go in office tomorrow. Then he went to nutritionist who told him lots of things. He even went to buy machine for ears. He made it clear to those people that he could spend as much money as they wanted but he wanted it to be invisible. They smiled. Every one knew what he was doing. He was so happy. He went in market and bought suitable vegetables for himself. He knew that he could eat any thing as he want. He went in house and started cooking things. He knew some of them would taste worst but he needed to keep himself healthy. He next day looked at himself in mirror. He was looking really a lot better. He got ready and went in his office. He looked around. Every one was looking shocked to see him. Watchman even managed to get confused at first sight. Finally he sat on table. His young friend who sat next to him looked shocked. He was so happy. He heard ring of phone clearly. He heard every thing in perfect way. He felt as if he was young again. He went in Boss's cabin. He talked in such way that his young Boss was clearly impressed by him. His new attitude was doing wonder for him. He was so happy suddenly whole office was looking at him with respect. It was no longer looked like one old man who was about to retire. He was looking like young man with hope. He was so happy. He just started to walk in his old style. He felt as if he had managed to win world. He kept going on like that for some days. One day his daughter Tina came home with her son. Tina was so confused when she saw him. Rajendra " What happened don't you like my style?" Tina " No Dad. It is fine but you are looking different." Her son started laughing " Grand pa is looking so funny like that cartoon." Rajendra was so angry when he heard that small boy. He just wanted to slap him. But before he could do any thing like that Tina screamed on him " Shut up from where did you learn to speak like that? Of course from that play ground. You just keep picking up bad habits from those kids. I don't understand how can educated people let their kids get so spoiled. Of course they spend most of their time with maids. That is how they managed to get those bad habits." Suddenly Rajendra's maid came out. She was clearly angry with Tina. His maid was always came in evening when he was at home then she did her work and immediately went her home. She was nice woman. She never said any bad one word to any one. It was clear that she hated it when Tina placed whole blame on maids. She said to Rajendra with anger " I am going and check every thing if you want. It seem some people believe in just blaming every thing on maid." Tina was now nervous. Tina " No..No Kanta bai." " She is right Tina. You need to teach your son his manners instead of blaming it on others." Now that small boy had already started crying. Tina decided that she didn't want to get insulted any more. Tina " I will come later. " Tina just ran away out of his house. But Tina just kept looking behind. She sensed one thing that something was totally wrong with her father. He never acted this way. He was really looking so strange with that facial and creams. But she knew it was totally useless to talk to him now. She decided that she must talk with her elder sister so she called her after telling her son to sit in car who did as soon as he got his promised chocolate. She started calling her sister. She just wanted to know why her Dad wanted to look young suddenly. She was so tense since she felt that it might be due to some woman. That happened with many men. She was just so embarrassed by it. But she knew that only her elder sister could help her. She started calling her.
It took Nisha long time to took Tina's phone. She was busy in kitchen. She told many times Tina not to call her at this time unless it was emergency. So when her phone rang, she felt so much tense. She needed to finish cooking since every one would enter soon for dinner. She knew that today Tina was going to stay with Dad. They both felt that they were neglecting their Dad. It was decided that Tina would go today and she would go next month when her kids examination over. She didn't go with kids since they got bore there. She had to go alone there. But Tina was planning to go there with her kid. She knew that she couldn't talk now. She decided that she just couldn't so she just put her phone on silence mode. It was perfect. But then she felt so tense. She just sent message to Tina that she would call her at 10 o'clock. She was so tense that Tina would call her again but she didn't call. Finally she did her work by 7 o'clock. When she got some time, she decided to call Tina. Tina immediately took her call. "Thank god you called me." " What happened? I hope Dad is fine." " He is perfect. In fact he is more than just fine." Then Tina told her every thing that happened. " I don't get it. You are saying Dad dressed like some young person and that's why you assume that he have affair." Nisha started laughing. Tina began to sense one thing. That she was creating scene unnecessary. She also started smiling. Tina " You are right. Dad look so different that I just felt so scared." " About what? He is ditching our Mom. Come on Tina. Our Mom died years ago. Even if Dad got involved with some one else, we must not mind it. We hardly had any time for him. Let him enjoy his life." " But you said it is absurd..." " It is nonsense at this moment but even if he decide to do so after some time. I feel we must cooperate." " But this is so wrong at this age. How can he get married to some one? Think about this. What will people say?" " I don't care about people. Did they came in our sorrows when Mom died and Dad was all alone. I remember every day when he used to feel so upset and I just can't go to meet him due to my responsibilities. I feel so sad. Many times I tried to ask Auntie and Uncle to visit him. But they always had big list of excuses. In fact Auntie even once said to me indirectly that Dad is not their responsibility. It was not her fault. She had her job. She needed income and she also had one sick husband at home. Try to understand it. It was not their fault. They had their duties so let Dad go ahead in his way." Tina was convinced by this. Tina " Fine. I need that lecture. I was acting like teenager. " She gave nervous laugh. " But I hope our families will accept it." " They have too. We will convince them." So they both decided that their Dad deserve second chance in life. After that day Tina went to stay with him as she planned. Her son became friendly with Grandpa soon. But Rajendra told him not to call him Grandpa. He told him to call him "Dada. " Tina smiled. But she noticed all chance in her father's food. She just began to feel that her Dad was doing too much in diet. " Are you dieting according to advice of Nutritionist? " " Some are his recommendations but I manage to change things in my way too." " But this seem too much. I mean you just don't eat enough. I feel you are getting too thin." " Now don't worry. I am fine." Still Tina kept insisting on salad which Rajendra ate every day. But after some time Tina went back. Rajendra was alone again. He shifted back to his old food. It was comfortable. Rajendra was doing his whole office work in different style now. He was acting like young man. He thought that it was perfect but then one day finally young boss called him. Boss " Mr. Rajendra you did great job for us but you need to retire now?" " But why? I am still young sir. Just look at me." " I don't want to argue. I have already decided it. My Dad told me that you want to work until you die. But I want new person who is truly young. This artificial youth is just useless thing in my eyes. This is your salary check. Bye." Then that young Boss turned back to work. He just didn't care for Rajendra and why did he cared? Rajendra worked with his Dad not with him. It was so upsetting. Rajendra wanted to talk to him. But one thing was sure that he was not interested. Rajendra felt one thing that every thing was over for him. He tried so hard but nothing helped. He went to his chair. He took all his goods and just went out without talking with any one. He knew that he was no longer part of them.
Rajendra was so upset. He just didn't understand how did he came to his home. It seemed as if his feet acted on their own will. He found it so hard to open door. Then suddenly small kid from neighbor came running and opened door for him. He didn't even thanked him. He just went inside like robot. He felt as if his life went out of his body. He just sat in that chair. Then he looked at his kitchen table. He saw knife. He knew that he had to do it. His life was over long time ago when his wife was died. No one had time for him. He just sat alone in this house now. His job was his only hope now even it was gone out of his life. He felt as if nothing was remaining. He looked at himself. He had managed to color his hair but still white roots were visible now. He didn't want to become old and just burden on all. He didn't imagine sleeping in bed whole day. He didn't want to be sick. He wanted to end it all now when he had time. He didn't want to suffer more. After all he didn't needed to suffer like that he needed to suffer just one big pain then all those horrible pains of future would go away. He remembered his big family. He never stayed alone. His brother and sister were always there. He needed to argue for every thing. He used to share all. He used to hate it. Since his wife died, he was living alone. He was no longer need of any one. He wanted to live in big family like in past. He still remembered every thing. He used to scream on his Mom when his brother used to take his pencil. He wanted every thing separate. He wanted his room and his cupboard. He couldn't help laughing. He had every thing now. He had one big house just for himself. He didn't feel that much happy now. He was too old to enjoy any thing. He did his best to get big house. But now he didn't want it. He didn't want a cupboard since he didn't need toys. Those toys were gone out of his life but sometimes he wanted them back again. He wanted to play with them. Then he suddenly remembered his toys. He went in his room. He took out all of them. He began to playing with them. Each toy was so wonderful. He began to feel as if he was child. He suddenly became a child. He started playing with toys. He began to wait for his Mom. He was so happy to have that big house. He stood up on sofa and started jumping on it. He started screaming different rhymes. He loved them all. He wanted them to be perfect. He needed to sing them before his teacher tomorrow. He started singing loudly. He suddenly saw every thing was once again like his childhood. He was standing in same room of his childhood. It was wonderful room. But now this time it was little bit bigger as he hoped. He was feeling so hopeful on every point. He started playing jumping around when door bell rang. He started to going near it when he remembered his Mom warned him against it. He looked around. He was small boy so he must not open door. He went to door and said " Sorry..I can't open door. Mommy told not to open." " Who are you? Baba will you go and fetch Grand pa or Mommy." " Grand pa is dead. I will search for Mommy." Then he started calling his Mom. He began to move around house. He kept calling his Mom. But his Mom was not there. Kanta Bai was so confuse. That voice was not of small child. It seemed like voice of Rajendra . But he was speaking in way of small child. She began to feel so tense. She could clearly heard him calling his Mom. She was sure that Rajendra was perfectly healthy and alive. Since watchman told her few moments ago that he entered in building just before few hours. Kanta Bai was so confused. She started searching for Tina's number. She was angry with Tina but in this situation she could ignore it. She needed some one who could advise her regarding what she needed to do in this situation. She didn't understood how stressed she was until she began to talk to Tina and started crying during it. She was sure Rajendra was inside house and talking to her like some small boy. She began to feel that he was doing it on purpose to scare her. But then she even feel that he was not that kind of man. It was really strange. Why did good man like Rajendra did this to her? But then suddenly Tina began to scream " I know some thing is wrong. I was telling Nisha but she didn't believe me. It was so hard. I will come now. I will come immediately don't go any where." Kanta Bai was so upset. She couldn't stay there whole day. She just tried calling again. Rajendra once again answered in small boy style. He said that he couldn't open door. It was so hard.
Nisha was so shocked when Tina called him. But on that point she sensed that her Dad was not fine mentally. She decided that she needed to call Doctor who advised her regarding calling ambulance. She did. She immediately did as she advised. She told Tina too on phone. They both started to drive towards their home. It took them long but before them ambulance arrived with Doctors. Kanta Bai told them all. She even told them from where they supposed to take key. At beginning they started waiting for daughter of Rajendra. But then Tina called them and told them to just go inside with keys. They didn't want to take risk. When they all went inside, they all saw that Rajendra was jumping on sofa. He was playing with toys like a little boy. It was all so wrong. He was grown up but he was suddenly managed to act like little kid. Kanta Bai was so shocked. Few moments ago every one from society saw him going to office in his shape but in few moments every thing was upside down. Doctor managed to clam him down. He acted like little boy which was scared. He went with them in ambulance without any objection. He just kept asking them that they would not inject him or tell his Mom that he was jumping on sofa. It was horrible. He went inside ambulance. Tina and Nisha managed to come just in time. He kept them calling auntie. He hardly able to recognize them. It was so hard for them all. He just had to keep talking about his Mom and kept crying whole time. Tina ran to Doctor " We never sense it. I mean we are busy with our life but we just kept coming from time to time." Psychiatrist " It is not your mistake. It is due to lack of adjustment to his old age life. As per my thinking he might have lost thing which is important to him. Do you know any thing cause for immediate trigger?" Nisha " No..sir..In fact he was happy. He was acting as if he was getting young day by day. He didn't like to be called old and of course he supposed to be on job at this time which was beloved to him. But he came home early." " He was working even at this age. Any financial need?" " No..No.. it was his choice." " Then he might have forced to retirement." Tina " But it was going to happen. Don't he sense it." " Yes he felt it but still he didn't accept it. He wanted to keep working. He needed some other hobby. Have you ever tried to convince him about it?" " We tried to convince him so hard to do something else than job but he never agreed to any thing. Even Mom used to insist it but he just hated her even for suggesting." " Ohh when he lost his wife?" " Long time ago. But he just loved his job so much that he went over with it's help." " But now he might have lost it and that is cause of his trauma." " Do you feel it would have helped him if we stayed with him?" " No.. he might feel that he needed attention but it was not truth. What he needed was to adjust with his old age but he was not ready to accept it. He wanted to enjoy youth for entire life and it was not possible. He needed to adjust and that was his thinking you couldn't help him." " But now?" " Don't worry. It is normal nervous break down due to depression. He might need hospitalization for some days." " But I heard that they never come back normal." Psychiatrist " Look at him. Do you feel I took him normal?" They nodded negatively. " We did our best. It is up to him if he become normal. I can't just understand by seeing him like that." They nodded once again. They ran towards their Dad. Nisha " Dad how are you?" Rajendra looked around with confused expression. Then he gave them a smile. He said " Auntie will you tell my Mom that I am going? You know that doctor told me I must so I am going otherwise I never go out without Mom." Nisha and Tina both managed to hide their tears. Tina " Don't worry. We will handle it." Then Rajendra finally sat peacefully in ambulance. They both felt sad but they wanted him to be relaxed so they just kept smiling. Finally that ambulance went away and they started crying loudly. Every one was trying to console them but no one went over their shock properly. No one guessed in morning that this was going to happen. They all felt mind was just mystery land.
The End
Rajendra was hearing that phone call with full concentration. He wanted to hear it clear. But his ears were no longer seemed like as they used to be. He started listening to it carefully. It was his job. He had to hear it. He started screaming loudly. When a young man who was sitting near him took his phone. " Uncle let me do it for you. You are too old now. You need to rest." He gave sad smile. " I can't since I am sole bread earner of my family. I got two daughters. Both were married now. So I have to manage it all." " What about son? Don't you have son? Uncle son is needed for life. He could have took good care of you." Rajendra said angrily " Now don't tell that crap. My brother have one son but he is busy with this life. He don't have money to send to us. He just went ahead with his life. He managed to settle abroad with his wife. He hardly managed to send him money. He always kept saying next time..next time that time never come." " Ohh that is really bad. I took good care of my parents so I feel that every son will do." "But no need to feel sad. Since my daughters took good care of us. They sent me money but still I want to stand on my feet and most importantly I feel so alone after death of wife. Just sitting at home will seem so boring to me." " But you have to retire. Uncle other people need job. If you keep job like that it is wrong. You can't even hear. " " I will talk to Doctor tomorrow." Rajendra just put phone off . He hated it when any one suggested that he should retire. He was working for private company so no one could force him. But he was so upset when they suggested that he should retire. He wanted to stay away from those thoughts. He never wanted to retire he just wanted to work in that company for entire life. He lied when he said that he missed his wife. He never missed her. He just missed his young age. Those days he got job hours without thinking about exertions. He never used to feel so tired but now a days he was getting tired on every move. He just wanted to feel happy from his mind. He didn't want to feel exhausted. But it was not working. Now even his hearing capacity was reduced. It was worst for him. He tried so hard to listen but he just couldn't able to hear even single word. It was getting worst on every point. On that phone he just couldn't able to hear and every time he needed help of other person. He had to listen their taunts. He was so great otherwise in other work. No one could type as fast as him in whole office. He was best in his typing speed and even other working skills. But still they kept taunting him. Then suddenly Boss called them all. There was young boy with him. Boss " This is my son and from today he was going to take over this business and I am going to retire." Now this scared Rajendra so much. He didn't want to hear this word. He just ran out of that room. Then he went out and stood on one corner while adjusting his breathe. It was too much. He never felt this way but today he was so scared just by that one word. He knew that he had to control himself but he just couldn't. He just went in washroom closed door and kept crying. He knew that now his job was over. It was written on everybody's face. It was time for his retirement. But he was not ready. He looked in mirror. He saw one old face. He was so upset. When he suddenly found one idea, he had to look young. It would keep him away from this face. He decided that he must color his hairs first. He smiled. He liked this idea. He must turned himself into a young person. He smiled and on that point he started to decide he must act like one. He started to walk in that style in which he used to walk when he was in college and suddenly he began to feel truly young from his soul. He smiled happily to himself. He decided that he needed few hours in men's salon and then every thing would be perfect for him. He felt it from his soul. He had to do every beauty treatment. He smiled and went out. He just decided to slip without meeting Boss. He started to searching for his young friend. Rajendra " Friend I need to go out." " Now? But Boss coming to see us." " I just need to." Then he just ran away.
Rajendra went in posh saloon for male. He told that person that he wanted to color his hair. He wanted to look young that man smiled since he got message without telling. He started suggesting him many treatment. He just said yes to all. Soon it all started. It was hard in fact. He assumed that it would be relaxing but it seemed so much pain in neck. It took so much time and patience. But finally he looked at himself in mirror. He looked so young and dashing. He was so happy. He looked at watch. It was too late. He decided that he would go in office tomorrow. Then he went to nutritionist who told him lots of things. He even went to buy machine for ears. He made it clear to those people that he could spend as much money as they wanted but he wanted it to be invisible. They smiled. Every one knew what he was doing. He was so happy. He went in market and bought suitable vegetables for himself. He knew that he could eat any thing as he want. He went in house and started cooking things. He knew some of them would taste worst but he needed to keep himself healthy. He next day looked at himself in mirror. He was looking really a lot better. He got ready and went in his office. He looked around. Every one was looking shocked to see him. Watchman even managed to get confused at first sight. Finally he sat on table. His young friend who sat next to him looked shocked. He was so happy. He heard ring of phone clearly. He heard every thing in perfect way. He felt as if he was young again. He went in Boss's cabin. He talked in such way that his young Boss was clearly impressed by him. His new attitude was doing wonder for him. He was so happy suddenly whole office was looking at him with respect. It was no longer looked like one old man who was about to retire. He was looking like young man with hope. He was so happy. He just started to walk in his old style. He felt as if he had managed to win world. He kept going on like that for some days. One day his daughter Tina came home with her son. Tina was so confused when she saw him. Rajendra " What happened don't you like my style?" Tina " No Dad. It is fine but you are looking different." Her son started laughing " Grand pa is looking so funny like that cartoon." Rajendra was so angry when he heard that small boy. He just wanted to slap him. But before he could do any thing like that Tina screamed on him " Shut up from where did you learn to speak like that? Of course from that play ground. You just keep picking up bad habits from those kids. I don't understand how can educated people let their kids get so spoiled. Of course they spend most of their time with maids. That is how they managed to get those bad habits." Suddenly Rajendra's maid came out. She was clearly angry with Tina. His maid was always came in evening when he was at home then she did her work and immediately went her home. She was nice woman. She never said any bad one word to any one. It was clear that she hated it when Tina placed whole blame on maids. She said to Rajendra with anger " I am going and check every thing if you want. It seem some people believe in just blaming every thing on maid." Tina was now nervous. Tina " No..No Kanta bai." " She is right Tina. You need to teach your son his manners instead of blaming it on others." Now that small boy had already started crying. Tina decided that she didn't want to get insulted any more. Tina " I will come later. " Tina just ran away out of his house. But Tina just kept looking behind. She sensed one thing that something was totally wrong with her father. He never acted this way. He was really looking so strange with that facial and creams. But she knew it was totally useless to talk to him now. She decided that she must talk with her elder sister so she called her after telling her son to sit in car who did as soon as he got his promised chocolate. She started calling her sister. She just wanted to know why her Dad wanted to look young suddenly. She was so tense since she felt that it might be due to some woman. That happened with many men. She was just so embarrassed by it. But she knew that only her elder sister could help her. She started calling her.
It took Nisha long time to took Tina's phone. She was busy in kitchen. She told many times Tina not to call her at this time unless it was emergency. So when her phone rang, she felt so much tense. She needed to finish cooking since every one would enter soon for dinner. She knew that today Tina was going to stay with Dad. They both felt that they were neglecting their Dad. It was decided that Tina would go today and she would go next month when her kids examination over. She didn't go with kids since they got bore there. She had to go alone there. But Tina was planning to go there with her kid. She knew that she couldn't talk now. She decided that she just couldn't so she just put her phone on silence mode. It was perfect. But then she felt so tense. She just sent message to Tina that she would call her at 10 o'clock. She was so tense that Tina would call her again but she didn't call. Finally she did her work by 7 o'clock. When she got some time, she decided to call Tina. Tina immediately took her call. "Thank god you called me." " What happened? I hope Dad is fine." " He is perfect. In fact he is more than just fine." Then Tina told her every thing that happened. " I don't get it. You are saying Dad dressed like some young person and that's why you assume that he have affair." Nisha started laughing. Tina began to sense one thing. That she was creating scene unnecessary. She also started smiling. Tina " You are right. Dad look so different that I just felt so scared." " About what? He is ditching our Mom. Come on Tina. Our Mom died years ago. Even if Dad got involved with some one else, we must not mind it. We hardly had any time for him. Let him enjoy his life." " But you said it is absurd..." " It is nonsense at this moment but even if he decide to do so after some time. I feel we must cooperate." " But this is so wrong at this age. How can he get married to some one? Think about this. What will people say?" " I don't care about people. Did they came in our sorrows when Mom died and Dad was all alone. I remember every day when he used to feel so upset and I just can't go to meet him due to my responsibilities. I feel so sad. Many times I tried to ask Auntie and Uncle to visit him. But they always had big list of excuses. In fact Auntie even once said to me indirectly that Dad is not their responsibility. It was not her fault. She had her job. She needed income and she also had one sick husband at home. Try to understand it. It was not their fault. They had their duties so let Dad go ahead in his way." Tina was convinced by this. Tina " Fine. I need that lecture. I was acting like teenager. " She gave nervous laugh. " But I hope our families will accept it." " They have too. We will convince them." So they both decided that their Dad deserve second chance in life. After that day Tina went to stay with him as she planned. Her son became friendly with Grandpa soon. But Rajendra told him not to call him Grandpa. He told him to call him "Dada. " Tina smiled. But she noticed all chance in her father's food. She just began to feel that her Dad was doing too much in diet. " Are you dieting according to advice of Nutritionist? " " Some are his recommendations but I manage to change things in my way too." " But this seem too much. I mean you just don't eat enough. I feel you are getting too thin." " Now don't worry. I am fine." Still Tina kept insisting on salad which Rajendra ate every day. But after some time Tina went back. Rajendra was alone again. He shifted back to his old food. It was comfortable. Rajendra was doing his whole office work in different style now. He was acting like young man. He thought that it was perfect but then one day finally young boss called him. Boss " Mr. Rajendra you did great job for us but you need to retire now?" " But why? I am still young sir. Just look at me." " I don't want to argue. I have already decided it. My Dad told me that you want to work until you die. But I want new person who is truly young. This artificial youth is just useless thing in my eyes. This is your salary check. Bye." Then that young Boss turned back to work. He just didn't care for Rajendra and why did he cared? Rajendra worked with his Dad not with him. It was so upsetting. Rajendra wanted to talk to him. But one thing was sure that he was not interested. Rajendra felt one thing that every thing was over for him. He tried so hard but nothing helped. He went to his chair. He took all his goods and just went out without talking with any one. He knew that he was no longer part of them.
Rajendra was so upset. He just didn't understand how did he came to his home. It seemed as if his feet acted on their own will. He found it so hard to open door. Then suddenly small kid from neighbor came running and opened door for him. He didn't even thanked him. He just went inside like robot. He felt as if his life went out of his body. He just sat in that chair. Then he looked at his kitchen table. He saw knife. He knew that he had to do it. His life was over long time ago when his wife was died. No one had time for him. He just sat alone in this house now. His job was his only hope now even it was gone out of his life. He felt as if nothing was remaining. He looked at himself. He had managed to color his hair but still white roots were visible now. He didn't want to become old and just burden on all. He didn't imagine sleeping in bed whole day. He didn't want to be sick. He wanted to end it all now when he had time. He didn't want to suffer more. After all he didn't needed to suffer like that he needed to suffer just one big pain then all those horrible pains of future would go away. He remembered his big family. He never stayed alone. His brother and sister were always there. He needed to argue for every thing. He used to share all. He used to hate it. Since his wife died, he was living alone. He was no longer need of any one. He wanted to live in big family like in past. He still remembered every thing. He used to scream on his Mom when his brother used to take his pencil. He wanted every thing separate. He wanted his room and his cupboard. He couldn't help laughing. He had every thing now. He had one big house just for himself. He didn't feel that much happy now. He was too old to enjoy any thing. He did his best to get big house. But now he didn't want it. He didn't want a cupboard since he didn't need toys. Those toys were gone out of his life but sometimes he wanted them back again. He wanted to play with them. Then he suddenly remembered his toys. He went in his room. He took out all of them. He began to playing with them. Each toy was so wonderful. He began to feel as if he was child. He suddenly became a child. He started playing with toys. He began to wait for his Mom. He was so happy to have that big house. He stood up on sofa and started jumping on it. He started screaming different rhymes. He loved them all. He wanted them to be perfect. He needed to sing them before his teacher tomorrow. He started singing loudly. He suddenly saw every thing was once again like his childhood. He was standing in same room of his childhood. It was wonderful room. But now this time it was little bit bigger as he hoped. He was feeling so hopeful on every point. He started playing jumping around when door bell rang. He started to going near it when he remembered his Mom warned him against it. He looked around. He was small boy so he must not open door. He went to door and said " Sorry..I can't open door. Mommy told not to open." " Who are you? Baba will you go and fetch Grand pa or Mommy." " Grand pa is dead. I will search for Mommy." Then he started calling his Mom. He began to move around house. He kept calling his Mom. But his Mom was not there. Kanta Bai was so confuse. That voice was not of small child. It seemed like voice of Rajendra . But he was speaking in way of small child. She began to feel so tense. She could clearly heard him calling his Mom. She was sure that Rajendra was perfectly healthy and alive. Since watchman told her few moments ago that he entered in building just before few hours. Kanta Bai was so confused. She started searching for Tina's number. She was angry with Tina but in this situation she could ignore it. She needed some one who could advise her regarding what she needed to do in this situation. She didn't understood how stressed she was until she began to talk to Tina and started crying during it. She was sure Rajendra was inside house and talking to her like some small boy. She began to feel that he was doing it on purpose to scare her. But then she even feel that he was not that kind of man. It was really strange. Why did good man like Rajendra did this to her? But then suddenly Tina began to scream " I know some thing is wrong. I was telling Nisha but she didn't believe me. It was so hard. I will come now. I will come immediately don't go any where." Kanta Bai was so upset. She couldn't stay there whole day. She just tried calling again. Rajendra once again answered in small boy style. He said that he couldn't open door. It was so hard.
Nisha was so shocked when Tina called him. But on that point she sensed that her Dad was not fine mentally. She decided that she needed to call Doctor who advised her regarding calling ambulance. She did. She immediately did as she advised. She told Tina too on phone. They both started to drive towards their home. It took them long but before them ambulance arrived with Doctors. Kanta Bai told them all. She even told them from where they supposed to take key. At beginning they started waiting for daughter of Rajendra. But then Tina called them and told them to just go inside with keys. They didn't want to take risk. When they all went inside, they all saw that Rajendra was jumping on sofa. He was playing with toys like a little boy. It was all so wrong. He was grown up but he was suddenly managed to act like little kid. Kanta Bai was so shocked. Few moments ago every one from society saw him going to office in his shape but in few moments every thing was upside down. Doctor managed to clam him down. He acted like little boy which was scared. He went with them in ambulance without any objection. He just kept asking them that they would not inject him or tell his Mom that he was jumping on sofa. It was horrible. He went inside ambulance. Tina and Nisha managed to come just in time. He kept them calling auntie. He hardly able to recognize them. It was so hard for them all. He just had to keep talking about his Mom and kept crying whole time. Tina ran to Doctor " We never sense it. I mean we are busy with our life but we just kept coming from time to time." Psychiatrist " It is not your mistake. It is due to lack of adjustment to his old age life. As per my thinking he might have lost thing which is important to him. Do you know any thing cause for immediate trigger?" Nisha " No..sir..In fact he was happy. He was acting as if he was getting young day by day. He didn't like to be called old and of course he supposed to be on job at this time which was beloved to him. But he came home early." " He was working even at this age. Any financial need?" " No..No.. it was his choice." " Then he might have forced to retirement." Tina " But it was going to happen. Don't he sense it." " Yes he felt it but still he didn't accept it. He wanted to keep working. He needed some other hobby. Have you ever tried to convince him about it?" " We tried to convince him so hard to do something else than job but he never agreed to any thing. Even Mom used to insist it but he just hated her even for suggesting." " Ohh when he lost his wife?" " Long time ago. But he just loved his job so much that he went over with it's help." " But now he might have lost it and that is cause of his trauma." " Do you feel it would have helped him if we stayed with him?" " No.. he might feel that he needed attention but it was not truth. What he needed was to adjust with his old age but he was not ready to accept it. He wanted to enjoy youth for entire life and it was not possible. He needed to adjust and that was his thinking you couldn't help him." " But now?" " Don't worry. It is normal nervous break down due to depression. He might need hospitalization for some days." " But I heard that they never come back normal." Psychiatrist " Look at him. Do you feel I took him normal?" They nodded negatively. " We did our best. It is up to him if he become normal. I can't just understand by seeing him like that." They nodded once again. They ran towards their Dad. Nisha " Dad how are you?" Rajendra looked around with confused expression. Then he gave them a smile. He said " Auntie will you tell my Mom that I am going? You know that doctor told me I must so I am going otherwise I never go out without Mom." Nisha and Tina both managed to hide their tears. Tina " Don't worry. We will handle it." Then Rajendra finally sat peacefully in ambulance. They both felt sad but they wanted him to be relaxed so they just kept smiling. Finally that ambulance went away and they started crying loudly. Every one was trying to console them but no one went over their shock properly. No one guessed in morning that this was going to happen. They all felt mind was just mystery land.
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