Pradip's promotion
Pradip was
working hard to get promotion which was so obsessed with it. His life was such
a positive until that issue didn’t enter. He began to think how much his life
was positive when he got promotion. He was getting promotions step by step
every time. He was enjoying positive feeling in his life. He didn’t want to
feel negative about anything. But he knew that he was no longer getting promotions.
He was married. Father of two children! But still he didn’t manage to move over
negativity & bossing which his father showed on him was still going on. He
was expecting his wife Rita to be supportive to him. He remembered very well
that how cooperative he was when Rita had issues in her life. She was so
hopeless when she lost her job. When he married to her, she didn’t have any
job. She was so depressed. He kept giving positivity to her. She began to feel
so negative about entire incidence. She wanted to feel hopeful but her life was
going in wrong way. He still remembered on that day when they sat in hotel but
it was too costly so she decided to go to beach. He had some money but he
decided to save too. She said “We will need money in future. We don’t need
costly hotel food. We can buy something like popsicles or peanuts & enjoy
ourselves.” He agreed. It was perfect day for him. She was in love with him.
She wanted to adjust with issues they had. She used to feel happy on his every
small gift. He still remembered how much happy she was when he gave her that
designer purse. She jumped with joy. But now Rita was changed. When he gave her
designer purse, she immediately gave angry look. She began to lecture him not
to waste so much money. His earning was just for saving after daily purchases.
His parents always managed to normal household expenses. But he needed to pay
for their personal expenses. He needed to purchase clothes then he needed to
purchase toys. Then other things like computer or laptop, mobile etc. his
children needed them. Pradip wanted to gift Rita something special but she
wanted something which could be used by their own family. She wanted something
which should be useful for their children. In her eyes children were most
important. He knew that it was right but still he felt as if he never gave any
pleasure or happiness to her in life. Their life was moving in wrong way. He
looked towards her with guilt every time. But she was always busy. She found
new job. It had good salary too. She never tried to boost before him about her
salary but still he felt so guilty when she needed to manage home & earn
more money. He sometimes wanted to help her in house chores. But his father
immediately started to object it. His father immediately began to target Rita.
His father began to say “Since your earnings are so low your wife is keeping
you like some servant when you will learn to earn more.” Then Rita immediately
stopped him from working. Rita didn’t like it. Rita didn’t permit him to do any
thing in house. He didn’t suppose to touch any work in house. He felt so
guilty. He wanted to give something to Rita but he couldn’t so he needed this
promotion as gift. He looked towards his project. It was perfect. He double
checked it. He was so happy so he finally sent that project ahead. He knew that
he would surely get promotion this time. He smiled happily. Then he looked
towards time & he sensed that he was too late. He needed to sleep after all
he needed to go to office next day. He closed his computer & went to sleep.
He observed his exhausted wife sleeping. She looked so tired. He needed to do
something. He required this promotion. He closed his eyes while thinking about
it.
Rita was trying so hard to sleep
but she couldn’t. She didn’t understand what was happening to her. She kept
feeling uneasy & nervous. She didn’t want to cause stress but she knew that
she was causing it. She looked towards Pradip. He was looking so exhausted. She
was trying so hard to handle everything. She looked towards Pradip. She was so
tense. She wanted to feel positive. But it wasn’t happening. She knew that they
needed money. They had two children & Pradip’s father kept bullying. She
wanted new house where Pradip could get respect. But she knew that it wasn’t
easy to earn so much money. She was so stressed. Every time her father-in-law
began to talk, she started to feel inferior. She was no longer feeling normal.
She observed that Pradip was sleeping peacefully. Then slowly she started to stood
up without making noise. She went near window & started looking out. It was
so sad. But she didn’t sense that when she stood up she slowly pushed hand of
her husband. Suddenly Pradip felt in his dream as if he lost some precious
treasure. He shivered. He wanted to cry. He was in biggest sorrow in his dream
when his wife Rita pushed away his hand by mistake. She didn’t sense her impact
on him. She was lost in her world. She began to feel so positive when she
started to look towards different flats in building. She started to observe
them. She began to dream that one day she would get that flat. But in dream
Pradip was seeing worst things. Pradip wasn’t feeling much positive about
anything. He had worst nightmare on that night. He began to feel so much pain.
When next morning he woke up, he was so sad. He didn’t want to feel negative
about it. He looked around in room. He didn’t see anything so upsetting. He
began to feel stressed little bit. He didn’t have any negativity in his room.
He started to think that his negative thoughts were coming from his mind. He
had one room. He needed to feel glad that he had house where he had room. His
house had two bedrooms so they had one. His children needed to sleep in hall.
It was nice but he knew soon their children would need room too. Rita wanted to
purchase new house. They could effort just small one with one bedroom &
rooms which were a lot smaller than this one. It was so upsetting. He didn’t
understand why he couldn’t manage to make anyone happy. Then he sensed that
since he was useless the way his father kept telling. He looked towards timing.
He needed to reach to office on time which was very important for him. He
wanted to do work in it. He immediately woke up. He looked towards his wife
Rita. Rita was taking rest. He didn’t want to wake her up. He began to go out
on that point his father came near room & started to speak loudly “Does your
wife going to woke up & do some work in house? Does my son supposed to cook
for family now?” He was so upset. He sensed that Rita would surely hear it. On
that point Rita woke up & came out running. Rita “I am sorry I overslept.”
She looked so sad & nervous. He wished only if he had enough money to
handle all. His father kept targeting him & his family. It was so
frustrating. He knew that he was son & his family included his parents too
but his parents didn’t treat them as family. On that point he felt so sad about
it. His parents never admired his family. His Mom screamed loudly “I worked so
hard. I use to wake up on time. But these girls…” He wanted to answer back but
he didn’t if he answered them, they would insult his wife Rita more. He noticed
kids already began to observe argument. He just went in washroom to get ready
for office. He started to prepare himself. He needed to go in office as soon as
possible he needed his promotion. It was so upsetting.
When Pradip reached to office, he
did all as he decided. He presented everything perfectly. He was expecting a
promotion but then another person did presentation. It was much better than
him. He immediately felt so sad. He wanted to feel hopeful but he began to sense
that he couldn’t get promotion. He took deep breath. Then finally result came
as he expected. He missed promotion again. He slowly told himself to calm down.
But his mind was getting so depressed. He began to look towards office windows.
They were so big & beautiful. He slowly came near that window. He began to look
out of it. He didn’t able to relax. But when he saw entire town like some toy
city. It looked so great. He kept looking towards it. He could see different
colors & designs. He felt every part of that city seemed so nice. He just
needed one small house in it. He began to search. But soon he sensed that he
needed house with two bedroom which would be impossible. His salary wasn’t so
high. He had limited capacity. In fact, he didn’t have any capacity at all. He
was feeling so nervous when he sensed it. He was earning so less. Sometimes he
felt that he was just burden. If he died then his family might get insurance
the way his friend’s family got. Sometime ago his friend had heart attack. His
friend was suffering similar issue like him. He needed big house. They were two
brothers so it was becoming worst. But one day his friend suddenly died due to
heart attack. He still remembered. He was in his office when one person came
running. That person asked about numbers of his friend’s family. He didn’t have
them. Then that one ran away. Soon voice of ambulance came. He ran out to found
out that someone was serious. He was so tense. He began to talk with people.
Soon he sensed that his friend was dead. He felt so sad. He went to hospital.
His family was crying. He kept feeling sad & depressed. After few months he
visited his widow. He sensed that they got big house just the way his friend
wanted. His widow said “It was our need. We wanted it when he was alive but we
got it after his death.” She was sad but still he felt that situation was
better. His friend died & widow received money. He sometimes wished only if
same thing could happen to him. But he was alive. He knew that he needed to die
naturally & it wasn’t happening. He felt so sad. He needed to go back home
early. He turned & went in boss’s cabin. He asked for day off. Boss
immediately gave angry look. “You are not getting promotion. Your projects are
not getting success & you want more vacation? You don’t have dedication &
your intelligence is less too.” He didn’t say anything. He just sensed that he
couldn’t get day off. He just nodded & went back. He started working. He
went home late. He didn’t tell anything but no one needed to ask too. His
father immediately said “You are always useless. You can’t achieve anything.”
His Mom just made one face which showed that she agreed with his father. His
children were watching him too. He felt so ashamed. He just wanted to run away
so he immediately went to take wash. He kept working for hours but he didn’t
get promotion. It was so upsetting. He didn’t understand that what was
happening. He just wanted to sleep. He took bathe & then he went to sleep.
Rita was feeling so confused. Rita came in room. Rita “You are not eating
anything.” “I am not hungry.” “Eat little bit!” He just nodded negatively &
he went to sleep. He was so tense. He didn’t want to say it but still he said
it “It would have been great if I can have heart attack.” Rita was so shocked.
“What are you talking about? This is not right. I want you more than anything.”
He took hold of her hand & said “You don’t know how much insurance money
can help you. My friend’s family…” “I don’t want that money. I want you. You
are looking so pale. Let’s take Doctor’s appointment.” “I don’t want to get
cured…no…it’s great idea. Doctor must check me then my death will become
natural.” Rita was so upset. She wanted to scream on him but she controlled
herself & said “Just go to sleep.” Then she slowly came out of room &
called Doctor. She told everything to doctor. Then she said “ He is not looking
normal today. I am so tense.” “Take him to psychiatrist.” “What? He is not
mad.” “But he is becoming suicidal due to depression.” Rita understood &
said “I will take him. I will tell him Doctor told for Insurance he needed to
be proved sound mind first.” “Good.” Next morning when Pradip woke up, she lied
the way she planned. Pradip smiled & agreed immediately.
When Pradip went to Psychiatrist, he
went just with hope that he would die soon & get insurance money for
family. But he began to talk with Psychiatrist his view changed. He felt so
hopeful.” He came out & he immediately decided they would shift in another
house. He said “Small house will be fine too.” When they told this his parents
agreed happily. Children were excited too. They took small house on
installment. He began to work properly. His Boss kept taunting on his inferior
work but he never did over time. Slowly after Psychiatrist’s training he sensed
that if he didn’t get promotion, he didn’t need extra work. He began to get
confident. His children also began to enjoy staying in that small house. Their
children were enough grown up so babysitter wasn’t needed. They just kept cook
& maid. Everything went ahead nicely. Slowly Pradip stopped his psychiatric
treatment. At beginning he was little scare. Sometimes he used to call
Psychiatrist but slowly he adjusted. Step by step he even managed to purchase
in bigger house after saving money. He invited his parents. They came like
guests & went away like guests. He never understood why but his parents
didn’t want to become part of his family. They hated his family. He never
understood cause but he accepted it.
The End
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