Sarika's memory
Sarika was so happy. Finally she managed to get that dress for which she was waiting for such long time. She began to think about that day. She remembered how did she was walking in mall when suddenly her house keys fall down. She turned her attention down to search for them. She was so shocked when she sensed that they went so far away. She slowly went there. On that point she saw behind glass that doll which was wearing this dress. It had odd sort of magic inside. She could see wonderful appeal in it. She watched it carefully. Dress had different design in it. She kept watching every flower on dress with care. It was so wonderful. She kept watching that cloth with such affection. She knew that it was her lucky charm. She went inside store & she asked about it’s price. They told her amount. It was sad that she didn’t have it. But she wanted it. She was not sure that she could use her credit card. She was not sure about her balance. She was not having much money in her card. She needed someone who could loan her. She felt so sad. She decided that she would try her card. But on that point sales girl stopped her. Sales girl said “ Madam we have this small hole on this piece! We can’t sell it.” Soon other staff came to see it too. One staff “ It must be damaged when it was on doll. People act so careless.” “ I like it so much. Can’t you do something about it?!” All staff looked towards her in confusion. It was really beautiful piece. Then staff said “ We need to repair it but it will be defective..” “ I don’t mind.” Then Store manager came. They told all to him. He said “ Let me call & discuss. I feel I can arrange some discount for you.” She smiled happily. When Store manager discussed he told they would give 30% off. She jumped with joy. She knew now she could pay with her card. She gave her card. But she couldn’t get that dress on that time. Now she was going to take that dress. Her dream dress! It was so precious for her. She kept thinking about that dress. She was about to go when her Mom came in her room. Mom “ Your Grandpa is getting breathless. I feel we need to take him to hospital.” She felt so upset. She was going to get that dress but now she couldn’t. Someone needed to stay with Grandma. She wanted to complain but she loved her Grandpa & it would totally wrong if just for dress she decided to forget about him. Her Grandpa was old man. She knew that she needed to spend sometime with her Grandma to prepare Grandma for whatever going to happen. She smiled & said “ Mom don’t worry I will take care of Grandma just go to hospital..” “ Yes..yes your Dad is coming.” “ Mom no need to wait for Dad it can be risky.” “ I know but I can’t decide your Dad will.” She knew her Dad had money so he would decide what would happen to family members. Sadly her Dad mostly didn’t decide right. Her Dad always selected low rate hospital & poor level of treatment for health care. She wanted to object but she didn’t have much choice. Sarika just smiled & said “ I will sit with Mom.” She called that shop & told entire situation. She said that she would come next week. They agreed. She went in her Grandma’s room. Her Grandma was sitting quietly. Grandma was looking out of window. She slowly touched her shoulder. Her Grandma gave sad smile. Then her Grandma hugged Sarika with affection. She felt so sad for Grandma. She hoped that her Grandpa would come back healthy from hospital. Her Grandma wanted to go with him but she couldn’t. Her Grandma couldn’t walk since long time. Grandma didn’t want to slow their speed. Grandma “ Go & see if they took your Grandpa in hospital. If they didn’t I will find some way. Don’t worry ambulance will come.” Grandma nodded. Then she slowly looked towards Sarika & said “ I am going to stay here. You don’t need to stay in my room. You can go out if you want. Your Auntie is coming.” Sarika smiled. She wanted to buy that dress. Sarika felt so guilty at thought of leaving Grandma alone. She sat in chair & said “ No I will stay.” She sat with Grandma while voice of ambulance came, her Grandpa was taken away. Grandma wanted to see him but she was sitting in bed. Sarika couldn’t shift her on wheel chair. Sarika was too scared. Still Sarika suggested “ Do you want to see Grandpa? I will try to shift you in wheel chair.” Grandma smiled. “ Can you?” Sarika smiled. Sarika saw other doing it multiple times so she was sure that she could do it. Sarika slowly picked up her grandmother. Her Grandma was heavy not too. She took her Grandma in hands then slowly she shifted Grandma in chair. Her Grandma sat peacefully. She smiled. Sarika felt so happy & confident. She was not weak. She managed to do so much. Then her Grandma insisted “ Let’s go out.” She nodded. She slowly pushed chair outside. On that point they were taking away her Grandpa on stretcher. Her Grandma said loudly “ Stop.” She went near him. Grandpa smiled. She slowly touched his hand. Sarika’s Dad came from behind & started screaming “ Who brought her out? This old woman is just wasting our time. Due to this waste of time if my father died all will blame me not this woman. She is so obstacle in every way. It was so upsetting.” Grandma didn’t pay attention to him. Grandpa was watching Grandma with eyes full of tears. It was special moment for them. Sarika didn’t understand it. Sarika began to feel she did big mistake. She began to tell her Grandma. “ Let’s go. If we don’t then Grandpa might get more sick.” Grandma wanted to hold his hand for more time but Grandpa smiled & took his hand back slowly. Then they took away her Grandpa. But her Dad remained behind & screamed loudly on her “ You are such stupid girl. Burden on me. Now listen to me.You must stay in home whole time. You must not go out. I tell you one thing I don’t want you to go out for some time. I know you did..” He gave her angry look. She felt so scared. She just nodded. She knew that if she said something against her father all would call her disobedient child. She supposed to respect her elder. Especially her father! On that point she felt that obeying her Grandma was mistake. She immediately took her Grandma inside. She prayed to God that her Grandpa would survive. She didn’t want to become cause of Grandpa’s death.
After sometime Sarika’s Grandpa came back in home. Everything was fine. Sarika was so happy. She totally forgot about that dress until that shop didn’t call. She told them that she would come on that day. She told her Mom & immediately called one Cab. She began to get ready. She wanted to look posh. She was purchasing that costly dress. She was so nervous about entire incidence. She didn’t plan anything. But she slowly started to get dressed. She took long time to decide her dress. She stood before mirror. It was special mirror which was gifted her by grandparents. Her Dad was so upset when she got it. Her Dad wanted it in his room. It was so odd. Man normally didn’t like to sit before mirror for hours but her Dad loved it. Her Dad took so much care of his face. Her Dad always kept thinking about his beauty. Her Mom was not so careful. Her Mom was always busy. Her Mom kept doing something in kitchen. She slowly looked towards herself. She needed to look great. She began to do makeup on face. She needed to look interesting. She observed herself. Then she took her purse. By that time her Cab was already waiting for her. She smiled slowly & went down. She sat in Cab & about to go when her Dad came knocking on window. Driver gave angry look & asked “ What do you want?” Her Dad screamed “ I am her Dad & I am paying for this Cab.” Then he gave angry look to her & said “ Open door. I want to come with you.” “ Me? Where?” “ Open the door.” She didn’t have much option. She opened it. Her Dad came inside & immediately asked location. When Driver told about mall her Dad gave her a look which told her that she was just some dirt on earth. Dad “ You never go anywhere else? Never to search some thing which can teach you to earn money? You need to earn money.” Driver gave odd smile to her. Sarika began to feel like spoiled brat. She started to think that she was purchasing too much. Actually In each dress she saved her one dream. It was such wonderful feeling. She needed them. But she knew that she needed to stop purchasing. She decided to stop it. Her Dad “ Your cupboard is overloaded with dresses. I hope this will be last dress.” She nodded. She didn’t want him to come in mall with her. If she visited with her Dad she could not remember anything in positive way. She decided that she would tell him that she was going just for..she couldn’t find excuse. She was so scared. She didn’t understand what she supposed to do. She was feeling so tense. Her Dad kept watching with her those expression. She knew that now he could come & insult her before entire mall. She didn’t want to suffer this way. She began to feel so tense. She suddenly wanted to just jump out of that Taxi. She wanted to stop her entire struggle. Her each day was getting worst & worst slowly. She began to get so nervous. She knew that she couldn’t jump. Since door were locked. She was so upset suddenly on that point her mobile rang. She saw that it was call from shop. She didn’t want to talk. She was so upset. She was not taking her call but her Dad screamed “ What’s wrong with you take that phone?” She nodded. “ Madam your dress is ready.” “ Yes..yes I am coming.” “ But Madam I like to tell you we got one offer downstairs where you can do haircuts. You can go there too.” She smiled. “ Yes…yes I am coming for haircut.” Her Dad looked upset. Her Dad “ You are wasting money on haircut. Your hair look okay.” “ It’s free.” “ But you did this Cab for it.” She gave one nervous smile. “ I needed to cut them from that stylist.” Suddenly her Dad lost interest. Her Dad “ Drop me on next corner.” Cab driver looked confused. But Cab driver didn’t want to argue so nodded. Finally her Dad went out. She took breath of relief. She was so happy that she could enjoy her day. She decided that she would do haircut & go to movie too. This was going to be her last visit to mall so she needed to enjoy it. She kept going. As Cab started going ahead she began to sense that it was not right route. She asked “ Where are you going?” That Cab driver laughed. She felt so angry. She began to scream “ Stop Cab.” Cab Driver “ It’s road to Mall. This is different route..” “ Just drop me.” By her loud angry voice Cab driver felt intimidated. Cab driver began to feel she might call Cops. Cab Driver stopped Cab. She paid payment. She was on middle of her journey. Cab driver took money & gave her rude smile. Cab driver “ Your Dad was right. You are useless just burden on money. My daughter who doesn’t have education also make job of maid in houses & earn money. Try to obey your Dad.” Then Cab driver drove away. She didn’t wanted to cry but she started crying. She knew that mall was far away. But she didn’t have much option but to walk. She started walking slowly towards mall. She knew that it was worst day of her life. She wanted to control her tears but it was too late & she suffered too much. She didn’t care what people might think. After all it was crowd of unknown people. Poor people who were staying in small huts. They didn’t seem to dislike her. Some of them gave her curious look. But no one commented or taunted. She kept walking again. Her dress was getting dirty. She didn’t care. She just wanted to reach to mall. Finally after long walk she reached there. Security gave her salute then he asked “ What happened Madam?” “ My Cab stopped in middle of road had some issues with engine. I decided to take walk.” Then lady Security guard joined them. She said “ They are giving free haircuts & spa in cheap rate. You must do it.” She nodded. She needed to relax. “ But I need to bring dress from shop.” “ Don’t worry salesgirl will bring it for you.” “ Thank you so much.” She entered in area of hair cuts & spa. Soon she forgot all stress & she entered in new world where she was confident & beautiful woman. Her Dad couldn’t able to bully her. She felt so happy. She just didn’t want to go back to her home.
Sarika kept wandering in mall for hours. She began to enjoy it. She smiled happily. She sensed one thing that she needed to do. Then suddenly she began to get confused. She didn’t remember what she was supposed to do. She was needed to do something. She looked towards bag. It was her dress. She smiled but then she suddenly began to remember what she was. She began to sense she didn’t remember her home address. It was so odd. It couldn’t happen. She couldn’t forget her home address. She began to remember things. She started to remember beginning of her day. She woke up. She didn’t remember her room so clearly. It was little bit confusing. She began to feel so uneasy when her mobile rang. She took call. She recognised voice. It was her Mom. She smiled. She was so happy about it. She needed help. Mom “ Where are you? You are so late soon Dad will come home. You must come before him. Your Grandma & Grandpa were literally sitting in Balcony waiting for you.” She didn’t say anything for sometime. Then she slowly asked “ Mom I can’t remember my address. Will you tell it?” “ What?” Her Mom shouted loudly, “ Or I got better idea. Order Cab & send me number.” “ You are not still in Cab?! Do you know how angry your Dad will get!” “ Mom please send that Cab.” She said in controlled voice. She couldn’t remember her home address. That was scary for her. She didn’t care about anything else. She just needed to remember all. Her Mom said “ Okay.” She took out her mobile & kept watching it. She didn’t want to forget it. After sometime message came. She literally ran towards gate. She stood there with number in her hand. She was so scared that she might forget all. She didn’t want to spend night in mall. Then she sensed that they would close mall so she forced to stay on road. She looked around. She didn’t like area. She felt so nervous. She was feeling so upset. She kept waiting. She was so unsure. Finally she found Cab with that number. She was so excited. She sat in it. She still didn’t remember her house but her Cab dropped her. But when she came near she couldn’t remember flat number. She was so scared. Something was wrong with her brain. She began to fear that she might started to forget her name too. She looked towards her hand to confirm she had all her luggage. Her memory was getting so strange. She had heard about these symptoms. She might be having something wrong in her brain. She knew that her life was going in wrong way. On that point her Mom came down. She smiled & hugged her Mom. She took Mom in Society Garden. She peacefully sat in it with her Mom. She needed to tell all to Mom alone. She slowly began to tell “ Mom I began to forget things from morning.” Mom smiled “ It’s okay. Sometimes..” “ Mom I can’t remember our flat number.” Mom looked upset. Then Mom started to ask different questions. Soon she sensed that she was not remembering many things. She shivered with fear. Mom “ Since when this started?” “ I sense today morning!” Her Mom controlled feeling & said “ We need to go to Doctor. If we go to Doctor early Doctor might detect it & give cure.” She began to feel nervous. “ What do you suspect?” Her Mom just smiled & patted. Her Mom said “ Don’t worry. Just go to sleep & take some rest.” She nodded. She went in her room. She felt every thing was so unknown. She just closed her eyes & started to pay for some sleep but she couldn’t. She was feeling so stressed & upset. She didn’t understand why her life was becoming worst nightmare. Then she heard her Dad’s screaming “ If she got brain tumour I am not planning to waste our entire saving to waste on her.” Her Mom said “ Talk in low voice. Who told you this? She might have some deficiencies.” “ Deficiencies? My foot! From beginning this girl was one burden. It was impossible to tolerate her. She kept getting sick. I always thought that she was not like other girls now it would prove. She is unwanted burden on us. I wish only if I had some other child instead of her..” her Dad kept abusing her. Then she heard her Grandma trying to interfere. But her Dad screamed on her “ I need to take care my father now I need to take care of my sick daughter to. I wish she was dead.” He screamed so loudly. Her Mom felt so upset.Her Mom came running in her room. Her Grandma joined her too. It was clear that she was precious for them. Her Grandpa was sick. Her Grandma was on wheelchair. Clearly her Mom alone couldn’t fight back for her. Her Dad was using it as opportunity to harass her entire family. She felt so sad. Her Mom immediately called one relative who was Doctor. Her Mom told about issues. That Doctor suggested one appointment & few tests. Luckily it was possible to do it all in some cheap hospital. She took deep breath to relax herself. Next day she decided to go there with her Mom. Her Dad clearly didn’t want any part in this. She knew that hospital might be not so clean & nice. It might be scary but she was ready to face all. She needed to do it. She had to prove her Dad wrong. She needed to become perfect so from next day they began to search for ways of treatment. Her Mom went out. She discussed amount. Sarika was so tense but after sometime her Mom came & told her that her Dad agreed. Next morning her Dad managed to make it clear to her that she was biggest burden. Her Dad said “ If you have some thing serious don’t go for treatment it is so painful just accept peaceful death. I am experienced. I know very well.” Her Mom began to abuse her Dad. Immediately her Dad began to threw things around kitchen. She was so upset. She tried to stop her Dad but it was useless. Finally she had no option but to clean floor by herself. She did it. But then suddenly she began to feel confused. She didn’t try to remember anything. She just went back in her room. After some hours her Mom came. She was sitting in her room. Her Mom “ Let’s go for doctor’s appointment.” She nodded. Then they went in Doctor’s clinic. Doctor checked her. Doctor didn’t sense anything wrong but still he advised some tests. Her Mom smiled happily. Then they immediately went to that cheap hospital for test there was long line but they waited. After that she kept doing multiple tests. All came out negative. She didn’t understand why she was not remembering things. Then one day finally one Doctor suggested Psychiatrist. Sarika was shocked but she decided to try it. She was feeling so depressed by her Dad’s daily complaints on wasting of money on her. She decided to give it last try. She went in Psychiatrist’s clinic. She discussed all. Then step by step Psychiatrist explained her how did her Dad managed to create her memory loss for her. She was trying hard to forget whatever her Dad told so she was forgetting all. She began to sense that she didn’t have any issue. But her Dad had lots of issues. She decided to go for treatment for sometime. She wanted to remove that odd tendency she developed of forgetting. In fact Psychiatrist told her that she was so lucky that she came to visit Psychiatrist on such early stages. After this she took treatment slowly she learnt to keep all things in her mind. She started to remember all positive & negative. Now she understood one thing her Dad was mad man & she needed to accept It. It was not disrespectful to declare person mad but that person was mad. She smiled at this thought & she started to move ahead in her life happily while handling sorrows & happiness both side by side.
The End
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