Priti's school
Rachana was so excited about this day. Her daughter was going in her school. She knew that this was school for rich kids. Some said " Don't try it Rachana you will spoil kid." Some said " Don't do it that will give inferiority complex to kid." But she didn't quit. She decided to follow her route & she managed to find admission in this school. She was so happy. She needed to train her daughter. Her daughter Priti was very smart. She used to grasp everything in perfect way. Today finally Priti managed to get admission & she was going in school. Rachana planned one nice icecream party of daughter & mother afterwards. Rachana was so excited. She knew that she was planning great future for her daughter. Priti got ready. Priti went to school happily. Priti was enjoying this. Priti was laughing. But then suddenly Priti asked her " Mom why does you look so pale?" She sensed that something was wrong with her complexion. She touched her face. She began to check. She was truly wet due to sweat. She didn't understand why did she sweat so much. She smiled & said " I feel I took too much walk." Priti immediately nodded. Priti " It was really too much! Mom you must be careful when you took walk. Walk is healthy when you take it in limit if you cross limit then it can be risky." Rachana started laughing. She knew her little daughter was repeating words of some adults. She just didn't know whose. It was so sweet. She knew that she was too health conscious. Everyone in house was saying it. Her daughter was just trying to repeat it. She was acting like elders. It was her effort to look perfect. Rachana nodded. Then she took her hand & went towards car. She was planning to drive her daughter every day in her second hand car. Her car was second hand but she knew that she needed to use it. She was so sure that someone might taunt her. But she decided to go any way. When she reached there, teacher spoke nicely & took Priti inside. They told her timing to come back. She was not supposed to wait outside. She nodded. Then she came back home. She thought that everything would be perfect but it was not. She could sense it. She was so scared & upset. She kept feeling her daughter would get hurt. She had her mother's instigate but she never had it so strong. Today it was so strong that she kept feeling that if she decided it would be fine. She kept watching timing. She knew that Priti would come back on fixed time. She was feeling so restless. She began to cook food but she knew that her attention was not on cooking. She felt that she needed to stop. She stopped it. She took out some magazine. She kept pretending that she was reading something. But she knew that she was not doing it. She decided that she needed diversion so she started to play game on mobile. It was upsetting. She kept playing games on mobile. She was so involved in them that she totally forgot entire world. She just paid attention to them. She wanted to forget world. Then finally she saw her time to bring back her daughter came. She immediately got ready. She drove in her car. She soon sensed that due to lack of traffic she was too early. She didn't understand what did she supposed to do. She was not permitted to take her daughter so soon. It was frustrating. She didn't understand what she supposed to do. So she waited outside with patience. She began to feel uneasy but she ignored it. She kept pretending as if she didn't sense it. Then finally they started sending kids outside. Priti came out happily. She started to tell stories of her school. It was clear that Priti was happy there. Rachana was supposed to feel happy for taking right decision. But things were not going in right way. It was little complicated. She didn't understand why she was not happy when she got all. She kept sensing one thing that Priti was going to get harmed due to this. She was very sure that Priti was going to be happy in school. Still she suddenly began to feel so scared. She started to sense two different thoughts on every time. She didn't understand what she wanted. She took this decision on her own risk. Now that decision seemed to turn out as right one she wanted to change it. She didn't understand her own thinking. It was totally upsetting. She took Priti back home. Priti was clearly happy with her new school. She was doing all her extra home work happily. But Rachana was confused. Priti was no longer playing with her dolls. Rachana came out & suggested " I feel you must play for sometime!" " No Mom I am okay. I want to finish this essay." Rachana began to sense strange obsession of study to her daughter. She began to feel confused. Then she thought that it was going to be just for one year. If she felt that Priti was too stressed she could shift to normal school next year. She waited for Satish to come back. Finally Satish came back from office. She was so happy to see Satish. She wanted to discuss all with him. Priti was in her room now so they had privacy. Satish started eating his dinner. She avoided discussing during dinner but Satish asked by himself " So what happened? Does that school suit Priti?" " Actually she is happy with it. But I am confused!" " Why?" " She didn't play today just kept studying." He started laughing. " You are tense since your daughter study too much! I never thought one day I will hear this." " I am not saying that. You don't understand me. I feel I managed to put pressure on her so she was studying just to please me." Satish thought about this for sometime. Then he said " I don't think so. But still on Sunday I will talk with Priti." She was so happy. Satish always managed to talk with Priti in such way that Priti told him everything without feeling stressed. She knew that he was best father. Rachana felt so lucky to have him as husband. She never thought that she could get such good husband. But she got a great husband. She told him how did she skipped playing with dolls. He smiled & said " Don't worry. This will remain for few days then she will come on track." Rachana nodded. Then Satish started discussing stories of his office & she began to enjoy them. They did it everyday. She felt so happy to become part of his office life too.
Rachana was feeling so upset when she suddenly woke up in midnight. She didn't understand why did she needed to feel so upset. She looked around her bedroom. She sensed everything was just perfect. She didn't see any trouble in her life. She knew that her life was normal & perfect. She was feeling so restless. She didn't understand cause. She began to remember dream. It was horrible dream. In that dream she saw Priti's friends harassing her. Priti started crying. Then school teacher came instead of supporting her that teacher started screaming on her. She began to scream on her. She started abusing her. Priti began to cry more loudly then she ran out of classroom. Priti went up. Rachana wanted to scream but she couldn't. In that dream she couldn't able to stop anything. She kept feeling upset. She didn't understand how could she control situation. Slowly Pritit stood up & ran in lift. That lift took Priti to terrace & her beloved daughter stood on wall of terrace to jump down. She woke on that point. She looked around. She knew that her dream was impossible. Priti's school was very big & Priti didn't even know where lift located. There was on liftman sitting in lift so kids couldn't go inside. She knew that this was impossible. She didn't understand why did she dreamt like that. She began to feel that her mind was accusing her of putting extra pressure on her daughter. She sensed that this decision was wrong for her peace of mind. But she knew that it must be temporary. She knew soon she would adjust. She went to sleep. But she kept having strange sort of nightmare for entire night. She kept saving her daughter again & again from different crisis. One thing was clear. She took wrong decision according to her mental health. She needed to take it easy. She tried so hard to relax. Finally she woke up next morning. She was needed to do her hardest job now. She must convince Priti to go to school. She was sure that it was going to be hard since she was not so sure about it. But on that point Priti came running with comb. She started to tell her that she needed to tie her hair. Rachana asked in confusion " What about your breakfast?" " Dad cooked it. He said you are sick so we must manage but I can't let him tie my hair please do it." She nodded. She knew how important it was to brush hair. Rachana felt so lucky that Satish was so helpful. Satish always cooperated her but never so much. It was just wonderful. Priti was ready to go to school so Satish convinced that to her too. She didn't understand what was so great she did that she gifted with such great husband. She tied hair then she started to get ready too. She needed to drop Priti to school. They had not made any arrangements regarding it until now. She got ready as soon as possible. Priti was screaming for her to hurry up. She finally went out. Once again she dropped her in school. This time she saw long line of parents. But none of them was interested in talking to her. She sensed that they didn't say anything directly but they wanted to keep her away. She began to feel more uneasy. If these parents behaved this way then surely their kids wouldn't act differently with her daughter. She was so sure that her daughter was suffering inside. Once again she went home. She was so tense. She went early & waited. Priti came out happily. Priti didn't complaint. Priti kept doing her homework. Priti didn't show any interest in playing even today. Rachana was sure that she did wrong by sending her daughter to that school. She knew that she couldn't change it now. She needed to wait for starting of year. She was so upset by all this. She tried her best to adjust. But she couldn't able to sleep. Soon she started to develop dark circles under her eyes. She knew that she was not okay. She kept waking up in middle of night. She kept feeling upset. Priti kept studying. Priti was no longer interested in friends & games. She wanted to study more & more. Rachana began to feel that she managed to destroy childhood of her daughter. One day she started crying. Priti was shocked to see her this way. Priti asked " What happened Mom? Is everything okay?" She controlled her tears & asked " You study so much since your teacher punish you if you get less marks?!" Priti looked confused. Priti " No Mom! My teacher is very sweet. She never scream on me. She always acted nicely." Rachana didn't understand why Priti was defending her teacher. " Honey you can tell truth to Mom!" " I am telling truth Mom? Teacher never screamed on me!" " But I thought.. then why did you keep studying?" "Because I like it!" Rachana didn't believe it. She knew that something was wrong. Her daughter was hiding something. Every child wanted to play. But her daughter wanted to just study. Rachana was so sure that this school was wrong decision. She knew that next year she needed to change it. She needed to send her daughter to some normal school. It was so important. She started making inquires of other schools. Her daughter needed to different school. Rachana began to search different schools. She was obsessed with search of school. Rachana started to find useful details on it. But she was so confused regarding school. She didn't want to repeat her mistake. She wanted to find right sort of school. She kept searching school website one after another. She kept doing inquires. She started even visiting school. She began to guide them daily. She didn't even sense that Priti was happy with her school. She kept collecting knowledge about schools. She kept visiting schools. She started deciding school. She kept thinking about perfect school for her daughter. She needed to keep teachers. She kept doing inquires about schools. She wanted to see pictures that gave happiness to soul. She began to see different pictures. She kept studying different schools. She wanted to study school. She needed to study school. She needed to find right sort of school. Nothing seemed important than studying all those schools. She knew that it was important than anything else.
Satish was observing Rachana daily. Rachana was getting information on all schools. When their daughter was just in 1st std, she was so small. Still Rachana was obsessed with her school so much. He knew that education was important. But Rachana's obsession was too much. Rachana was acting as if their daughter was on final stage of her career. Rachana was doing too much. He didn't objected for sometime but when it started to became too much he decided to interfere. She was visiting schools daily. One day one school principal called him. That principal called him & asked " Are you husband of Rachana?" " Yes." " Why your wife is wandering in schools like that? Does your daughter have any problem at her school?"" No..no she is happy with her school. My wife is just over-enthusiastic." " Now that is understatement of year. She is just wandering in schools. Meeting principal after principal for one child. This is too much. We start to feel this might be risky." " No.. no she is just anxious parent. Nothing serious!" Principal seemed convinced. But Principal gave him one number of Psychiatrist. " Take your wife to this Doctor otherwise your problems will increase." He agreed. Now he knew that it was hard task to convince her that she had problem. She was still on same task. He slowly went beside her & he began to suggest indirectly about mental health. But she started talking about Priti. " I feel Priti had some problem no doubt she is paying too much attention to studies. She is not playing like normal kid." He was so frustrated. He observed that Priti was normal. She just liked studying. He was so angry. Rachana was dragging their kid without cause in this mess. He said " Let's first visit psychiatrist then later we can take Priti." She looked confused. Then she agreed. He took appointment. They visited psychiatrist. Rachana didn't even sense it was about her. She kept talking about Priti. Then finally Psychiatrist started talking. Step by step she understood that her daughter was fine. She was having mental trouble. Slowly she confessed her one cousin didn't get good marks so killed herself at age of 15. All said it was due to school which was reputated one. Psychiatrist convinced her that it was not about schools. It was due to that year teachers or classmates. It didn't happen in all school. Rachana began to feel relaxed. Rachana first time sensed that she had problem. She looked towards Satish with love. He understood her problem & tried to cure her. She felt lucky have husband like him. She decided to do what psychiatrist suggested. She turned her whole attention to psychiatrist.
The End
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