Watching a movie
Sandip was so happy. He finally got those tickets. He was waiting with such a patience for that movie. He watched again & again on laptop to confirm he got those tickets. He never felt so lucky in his life. He was so sure that he wouldn't get them. He got them. He purchased them. He smiled happily. He immediately informed his friends. Soon he found out all friends were ready to go. He was so shocked. He began to feel that suddenly everything started to look so perfect. It was never so perfect before. He began to sense restless. He didn't understand what was wrong. He started to check out tickets again. He was happy that he got them. He knew that he got tickets. Then he suddenly began to feel tense once again. He began to feel upset what if he got sick. He was so confused. He didn't understand what would happen if he fall sick. He was feeling so perfect & now he began to feel his head was little heavy. He began to feel stressed. He didn't understand what was his mistake but he knew that he made some big mistake. He was so scared. He remembered that he ate one icecream yesterday. He knew that after it he felt strange way in throat. He shiverd. He began to feel sure that he was getting fever. It was horrible & upsetting. He didn't understand his mistake still he needed to suffer. He ate icecream but it was not such a big mistake! Many people ate icecream on daily basis. But it never happened to them. It happened to him. It managed to destroy his life entirely. He was feeling so upset. This movie was precious to him. He wanted to watch it for hours. It was going to bring lucky charm. He needed to go to that movie. He decided that in morning he could go to Doctor. He could take medicine. Then his sore throat would be okay. He was so happy at this idea. It was very important. He was so busy in planning all that he didn't sense that it was midnight. He booked tickets after dinner. Then he confirmed all. It was next week show so he needed to be perfect. He must not fall sick. It was very important. He began to create chart to decide food he needed to eat. He wanted to remain perfect. He knew that it was midnight but still he couldn't force himself to sleep. He was so upset. He slept on bed & kept watching ceiling. It was upsetting. He needed to feel okay. But he was feeling sick. He closed his eyes & began to try to go to sleep. It was so frustrating. He knew that film was after week but still he felt so sure that he would fall sick on that time. He closed his eyes & began to pray. He wanted to be okay. He kept saying inside his mind. Next morning he woke up. He sensed that his throat was sore. He was so scared. He ran in his parents room. He wanted to tell it to just his Mom. His father was never cooperative. His father always started screaming on him. His father always blamed him for everything. He didn't want to hear that blaming game again. He kept knocked slowly. His Mom was fast asleep. His father was awake. It was worst news. His father never liked his nice relationship with his Mom. He kept taunting him on it. He didn't understand why? He liked his Mom that was not crime! His Mom did many things for him. His Mom always kept him before her while his father always did everything for himself. Even today he knew that his father was trying to do some stunt to get some fame for himself. His father was obsessed with money & fame. His father wanted to rule entire house. He didn't understand his attitude. Why his father wanted to keep everyone under thumb. Every one was giving him respect but still it was not enough for his father. He wanted more. His father had strange sort of greed of power. He knew that it was going to hurt them all. But at this moment he just wanted to talk to Mom. Soon he sensed that it was impossible to talk with Mom without interference of his father. He decided that it was better to forget idea of taking help of his Mom. He went in kitchen. He started cooking something hot. He wanted his sore throat to be normal. He began to cook some natural medicines. He felt that herbal remedies might help. He was not sure that medicine of Doctor was going to help him. He was so upset & restless. He didn't understand what did he want. He knew one thing that this time. He didn't need to miss this movie. He took hot tea. Then he called Doctor for appointment. He took one appointment. He knew that he was going to need big reason for this appointment. He was not coughing. He just had strange sensation in throat. It was without cause. He was so confused. He didn't understand reason for it. He took deep breath & he kept drinking remidies he had created. He knew that they were important for him. After some time his father entered in kitchen. He began to feel so restless. He needed to control his coughing. But it couldn't. He started coughing loudly. His father looked towards him with disgust. Father " What's wrong with you again?!" His father said this again pointedly in strange way. It was so important. He needed to stay healthy. He didn't want to hear his father's taunting that discouragement always manage to make him sick. He began to get unhealthy. He wanted to avoid his father but no success. His father was standing before him. He just took deep breath & smiled. " Actually I got little bit sore throat." " Little bit! I feel it is something serious! You must go to Doctor.." he nodded. Then his father said loudly enough so that he could hear. " This boy is always sick from crib. He never manage to keep his health good." He wanted to scream on his father & tell him to shut up. But he knew that it was useless. His father always kept harassing & taunting him. He was feeling so stressful. He didn't want to hear this. This time he wanted to go to movie. It was a try to break negative chain in his life. This time he would manage to break it. This time he would go to movie at any cost. He knew that he needed to do it. If he able to do it then he felt all evil would vanish from his life. He would get good job & wonderful wife. His father's comments must not discourage him. He needed to watch this movie at any cost.
Sandip decided that he would not go to office until he didn't go to movie. He needed to be careful. He didn't want to be sick. He was so upset at thought of going out. He knew that he must take care of his health. He called his Boss & took leave of week. His Boss was clearly upset. But then his Boss agreed. It was important. He needed vacation. His Boss knew that he didn't took vacation without need. He was so happy. Now he needed to feel healthy that's all. It was just for few days. He needed to watch movie with perfect health & his every trouble would be solved. He began to plan all things he needed to make everything in right way. He needed to feel healthy. He started to plan for lunch. He saw finally his Mom was in kitchen. He ran to her & said " Mom my throat is little bit soar I want lunch to be simple." His Mom touched his forehead with concern. He didn't had temperature. She smiled happily. " You don't have fever this must be some normal allergy." He nodded. He felt sure that it was some allergy. But he knew that he needed to get rid of it too. He was too tired of remaining sick. " Mom I know but do you feel I can get one allergy every day?" His Mom's face turned pale. Mom " No. I understand! You don't feel healthy & that must be upsetting for you!" " It is Mom! It is! I keep getting sick again & again. Nothing is helping. I don't want anyone to interfere since it will lead to more taunting from Dad." " I know but we need to talk otherwise we can't get help." " I am going to Doctor." He wanted to talk nicely with his Mom. But suddenly he began to lose his control. He started to get angry. He didn't understand why his Mom didn't sense what he was telling? It was so simple but she didn't understand. She was asking different questions again & again. He didn't understand what was wrong with him. But she kept asking about his health. His answers were so confusing. He kept explaining but she didn't understand. It was so stressful. He didn't understand why she didn't sense what he was telling. It was very important. She needed to understand. He began to talk loudly. He didn't sense that his angry voice managed to reach outside. His father could clearly hear him. His father came in kitchen. " This boy kept getting sick from childhood & everytime he kept taunting others about it. Rekha look how did he talk with you? You are his mother but he doesn't saw any respect to you. You always pampered him too much. He doesn't have manners. Look at his misbehavior. How does he scream." His Mom asked angrily" He doesn't speak with you in loud voice then why does you have problems? It is okay to me. These are our personal matters. I appreciate if you don't interfere." His father gave strange sort of smile. He was so upset. His father was targeting him. He wanted to appear nice to his Mom. He had nice relationship with his Mom. But it all started look wrong. As if he was using his Mom! He didn't understand what his father was telling. His Mom was using him or he was using his Mom. Whatever might his father's point but his father always managed to harass him. He didn't want to get upset today. He just went out of room. He knew that Doctor would cure him. He took deep breath. Then he started to sense that in kitchen Mom was frying something. He was so shocked. He had sore throat. He made it clear to Mom. He went towards kitchen. Mom made sad face & said " Your Dad wanted fried chicken lollipop. But don't worry. I will make different lunch." " But Mom this frying will create worst impact on my throat." His Mom looked confused. He knew that his Dad would not listen. He began to feel so sad. He didn't understand why did he needed to keep fighting for all. His Mom said " Don't worry it will be over in some time. Just sit it room." " Mom I took vacation from office just for purpose of staying not sick. But in this house I will become sick?!" " I know! This is some kind of sickness which manage to catch. Everyone is getting cold. No need to feel scared." He liked his Mom's words. They were giving relief to him. He was feeling so stressed. It was so upsetting. He didn't understand cause. He knew that Doctor would surely cure him but still he was feeling so sick. He didn't understand meaning of that sickness. He knew that he needed to go to that movie & this sickness was going to stop it. He decided to go to Doctor. He went in his room. He kept it closed. He didn't go out much. He told his Mom to bring lunch for him. He was so scared. He didn't understand cause of this mess. He was so frustrated. He kept sitting inside his room. His Mom brought food in room. He began to eat it peacefully. He wanted to feel okay but his throat had uneasy feeling. He tried to look comfortable. He began to feel so restless. He didn't understand cause of that trouble in his throat. He was feeling so uneasy. He was so upset. He decided that he would sleep for sometime. He did it. He slept. But he didn't feel relaxed. Whenever he closed his eyes he started getting nightmares. It was so frustrating. He needed get over those nightmares. He was having worst dreams. He knew that he was not even asleep. But he was feeling worst. He was feeling so sick. He didn't understand cause of that sickness. It was very upsetting. He wanted to feel healthy but he was feeling so sick. Life was not acting normal. He was not sleeping but still he was getting nightmares like some horrible scenes after closing his eyes. He felt that he needed Doctor. He knew that once he visited Doctor all would be over. He felt as if this Doctor was his lifeline. He needed to find this appointment to get rid of this throat trouble. It was hurting him. He was feeling so sick & so scared. He ate lunch but he was scared. He was coughing. It was bad news. He was going to need medicine. No doubt about it now. He began to wait with patience. He was so upset. He was watching clock with full of hope. He knew that Doctor would solve everything. Doctor would stop this pain immediately. He began to feel so restless. He needed help.
Sandip was so tense. He didn't understand what was wrong with him. There was such long line outside Doctor's clinic! It was clear that many people had sickness. Doctor must be promising one otherwise why should people came there. He waited with patience. Then he went inside. He explained Doctor entire trouble. Doctor nodded. Doctor checked him & gave medicine. He smiled & asked " How long it will take to cure?" Doctor looked shocked. Then Doctor said " I can't guarantee like that but I feel you will be fine soon!" " I will be fine." He was so happy. He went home & took medicine. He was so sure that when he would woke up all would be fine. He was confident. But when he woke up his throat was still sore. He was so upset. He needed to go to that movie. He needed his throat to be fine. He called his Mom loudly. He immediately regretted since his sound was not normal. He could sense something was wrong with it. He asked Mom "Do you feel my sound is strange?" " No it is okay. Just little different!" " It is different Mom. That medicine is useless." He was so angry. Mom " But you took just one dose. It take time to work. At least two days." " Two days? Nonsense. I want something which do it quickly." He thought for sometime then he asked " Mom do you feel I should change Doctor?" His Mom didn't seem convinced. It was so upsetting. He wanted to find new Doctor. Mom " I feel medicine need sometime!" " I don't believe this. I will search for new Doctor." He started searching for new Doctor. He took evening appointment of this one. Mom wanted to stop him. But he didn't listen. He took it. That evening he waited in another receiption of Doctor. He was not relaxed this time. He was uneasy & restless. It was upsetting. He was feeling so uneasy. He kept walking whole time. Finally his number came. He was sweating & breathless. He began to tell Doctor about his last visit to another Doctor. That Doctor looked shocked. Doctor " You can't get cured in one dose! You need at least a week to get cured & that is fastest time. I don't feel it can get more fast than this." He began to feel upset. Then he started telling about that movie. This Doctor started to look towards him in strange way. But Doctor said just one thing " It is impossible. You may go." He didn't have much option. He left. Next day he took appointment in hospital of specialist. His father was laughing on his pain. He could see his enjoyment. He was suffering but his Dad was enjoying. It was so strange. His father supposed to help him. His father smiled & said " This boy is sick from crib. We can't help him!" He was so upset. His Mom tried to convince him to take medicine of first Doctor. She said " Antibiotics take time to cure but they are best." He kept listening but he didn't believe her. He knew that he needed expert. Next he would plan to go to hospital. Once again he waited in long line. He kept walking in corridor. He was so restless. He didn't understand why he was feeling so upset. He knew that hospital would surely cure his sickness. He waited finally his number came. He literally ran inside. He discussed all with Doctor. Doctor checked him carefully & said " Well you need to take antibiotics.." he suddenly spoke " But they will take time to cure.." " Yes they will!" Then he told his entire trouble to Doctor. That Doctor gave him name of another Doctor. It was psychiatrist. That Doctor said " Trust me! You need this Doctor. A physician can't help you.." he was so shocked. He didn't want to do that. But he was so desperate that he took it. Then he demanded even appointment. When he didn't get it, he requested. He told that he would sit for hours. Finally receiptionist agreed & gave him appointment. He sat there. He kept waiting & waiting. Finally his number came. He began to told all to psychiatrist. He told him everything about movie. Psychiatrist listened to him. Then psychiatrist started talking. By the end of conversation Sandip was on verge of crying. In fact he started crying. He told psychiatrist that he felt that if he watched that movie his luck would change. He felt that finally his father would vanish out of his life. Psychiatrist explained him that it was beginning of obsessive compulsive disorder. If he had fulfilled this demand then his mind should have demanded more. It wouldn't help him. Psychiatrist told him to start treatment & cancel vacation from office. Psychiatrist " Go to movie with sore throat. No thing bad will happen & if it will happen we can handle it." Sandip smiled happily. Sandip cancelled his vacation. Boss sounded happy. His father kept taunting. But Sandip sensed one thing that he needed to fight it with positive thinking. He couldn't stop it by just going to some movie for few hours. Psychiatrist taught him how to handle it. That time he went to movie with sore throat. He enjoyed it. His father taunted him. He found it hard to handle. He cried that night. Then he told all in next session to Psychiatrist. Soon he found a friend in Psychiatrist. A Psychiatrist was so helpful. He managed to handle his life. He also thanked that phisician who suggested. Finally his life was back on track. He began to smile again. His Mom was so happy. He never saw her smiling that way. He sensed one thing that he did something right & it would help them both. He started to get over his depression & it was helping his Mom too. They started sharing joke once again like old times. He was no longer concerned about his father's comments.
The End
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