Dinesh's sickness
Dinesh looked around. It was perfect day. But he didn't remember where he was for long time. He could see sunlight falling on his face. He was so confused. He didn't understand why he felt so confused in there mornings. He shiverd with fear. He clearly remembered his Mom. He used to get confuse like that. He didn't want to remember her. He wanted to remember just positive side of life. He was so confused. He started to remember where he was. How hard he tried to remember but he couldn't. He was so scared. He didn't understand what he supposed to do. He began to feel so breathless. He went to cabinet and he started choosing medicine. He began to look towards all. He was so confused. His cabinet was full of so many medicines. He didn't understand what would bring his memory back. He didn't remember anything. He was so sure that he was sick. Then suddenly a sweet voice came. " What happened honey?" He took deep breath and he remembered. He was just married on honeymoon with his wife Trupti. He controlled his fear. He didn't want to show her anything. He needed to pretend. He shiverd with fear. He didn't understand why did it took him so long to remember. He was married man now. He couldn't forget anything like that he started remembering name of his wife again and again. It was all so upsetting. He didn't understand what he wanted. He needed to act normal. He came out and turned towards Trupti. He wanted to take her name with love but suddenly his tounge become to heavy. He just didn't able to move it. He wanted to talk but he couldn't. He shiverd. He heard that this thing happen in physical problems. His blood circulation was not proper. He needed help. He shivered. He began to imagine what if he fainted on honeymoon. He started to sweat. Trupti came running towards him. She brought towel and started cleaning his face. Trupti " Why you are sweating like that?" He smiled and said " I am just fine." Trupti clearly looked scared. " I feel that we need to call Doctor? I read in some magazine. This could be sign of heart attack!" He sensed that he was making her tense. He began to laugh. He had just one motive in heart and it was to relax Trupti. He was feeling that he needed to understand her. She was nice wedded bride. She was surely scared. He needed to support her. It was so upsetting. He didn't want her to feel scared. He took deep breath and said " I am fine. This is regular. It happen from childhood." She looked shocked. " Really?!!" Then she laughed. " People have different tendancy. My one friend use to sweat when he eat.." she immediately corrected herself. " I mean she not he.." it was too late. He knew that she was talking about her ex boyfriend. He felt so sad. He was not first. He wanted to be first and last. He didn't had any girlfriend. He was just too busy. He wanted career first. Then his Mom.. he didn't want to think about her. But he kept telling himself that his Mom's sickness was past. But then he thought again what if it came to him. He shiverd. Trupti immediately brought blanket. " Use this. Soon this would be over. I feel we must open this curtain and let sunlight came inside!" He nodded. Soon sunlight entered. He felt relaxed. Then they cleaned themselves took warm bathe and went down for breakfast. By that time he started to feel perfect. He remembered all and began to admire her. Trupti was so happy. But when she told him that she wanted to go to restroom, he suddenly began to feel restless again. He sensed that he was not happy. He was pretending for her. He needed to keep it up. As soon as she went out of his sight he took one tablet of vitamin. He needed them to survive. Those tablets were his hopes. He knew that he would be fine after taking them. He still remembered that salesgirl who recommended it. She was such angel. She told him it's greatness. She said " Sir this is miracle. I am telling you. Just use it and you sense impact." He was unsure. He saw many marketing gimmick like that. He didn't trust her at all. But then she showed it's price. She explained it ingredients. He sensed that they were just herbs. He knew that they didn't harm him. He was so scared at beginning but then one day his head was feeling uneasy. He just seemed to forgot all. He decided to just try it. He watched it's package. He could see those wonderful pictures of nature. It seemed as if his childhood scene was coming back. He was once again playing in trees which were surrounding his house. He cried and without second thought he took it. Next day he was so relieved. He felt that this medicine was miracle. Even today he wanted to find that medicine. It was frustrating when he didn't find. Then he found it. He took two pills without second thought and managed to swallow with orange juice which was just served. He began to feel relieved. He needed to make his day perfect for Trupti. She was in restroom. He took that medicine which began to relax him. He was so happy. Trupti came out. Then he saw that she was little tense. He began to feel that for making his marriage successful he needed give positive feeling. He kept feeling sad and scared. He knew that after taking those pills his positive thoughts would increase. He would began to feel that he could do anything. He smiled towards her and said " I am perfect now. Let's go for hiking!" She was shocked. She decided to argue but then she stopped herself. She wanted to enjoy too. She nodded. Then they went to room. Both got dressed. He was so happy entire time. He felt as if he never had any physical trouble. He was so happy. He was running so fast. It was perfect day. It seemed like dream come true. Trupti was laughing too. Trupti was feeling as if she was in some movie. It was wonderful. She was truly living happy life out of movie. She was so pleased. She didn't feel that she could be so happy. He was so nice and strong. He was sweating few moments ago. But he was perfectly healthy now. She was so happy. When they reached on peak they started playing with snow. It was happy moments of her life. Something she wished to cherish in her heart forever.
Dinesh was happy when he finally saw his house. He knew that honeymoon was trip to relax. But he kept feeling tense during entire honeymoon. He was so dedicate to make it successful. But anyway it was successful. She was looking so beautiful and pleased. He knew that he wanted her to be happy like that & for this he needed to hide his problems. He was happy that they were living in different town. He knew that he was acting selfish. He needed to help his brother. But he didn't. He couldn't tolerate his father. He was so irritating. He knew that his father was depressed due to his mother's sickness but how long! He even knew that during his mother's sickness his father was not entirely faithful to her. He knew that he cheated her but now his father was pretending so much love towards her. He wanted to forget all. He didn't want to remember how did his mother cried when his father abused her. He didn't want to see his father's face. But he was taking property so he couldn't just shake away his entire responsibility. His sister-in-law kept complaining about his father's behaviour. He knew that she was right. He totally agreed with her. This man was evil. He hated his father. But he knew that soon or later he needed to bring him in this house. He wanted to cry even after thinking about it. But he couldn't deny it. It was so painful. He needed to suffer so much. His father was source of biggest evil in his life. He couldn't forget those painful words which his father spoken to his mother. He suddenly began to watch Trupti attentively. He began to ask himself. If it was possible that Trupti would treat him same way. He shivered. Trupti gave him concerned look. Trupti " Are you alright?" He suddenly gave angry look to her. He didn't want her to keep treating him like that. " How many times I need to tell I have these tendencies!" Trupti looked nervous and on verge of tears due to his this outburst. He knew that he was wrong. She did nothing. But whenever he remembered his father he began to scream like that. It was so frustrating. He kept feeling so upset due to his father & he was destroying people's lives. He knew that if he kept like that he would destroy Trupti's life too. He began to doubt his decision to getting married. It was so wrong to spoil Trupti's life like this. Trupti went towards their house. She was crying slowly. He immediately ran after her and apologised. Trupti said " It's not about feeling insulted. I am scared! What if something happened to you? My one Uncle died like this in young age due to heart attack. He felt that it was just his usual habit but it turned out to be sign of heart attack." Trupti was crying slowly. He took deep breath. He was scared now. He never sensed that now his life and death could create so much impact on someone. He smiled and said " Trust me! I am perfect. How could I do that hiking if I am not fit." Trupti smiled. He took breath of relief. He needed to act normal. He smiled and went in flat. He tries his best to keep smiling. He sensed one thing that his wife was not selfish. She would never left him. But she was scared that one day he might die. It was not shocking since she clearly needed to built her new life & it was based on him. He took her in their flat. She immediately started redecorating it. He told her that he needed to do some official work. She nodded. He immediately went out. He was so tense. He didn't want to get sick. It was precious. He knew that he was fine if he took proper care of his health. He suddenly sensed that his nose was having strange sensation. It seemed as if he might catch cold. He shivered with fear. He knew that he didn't want to have temperature. He was feeling so sick. He just wanted that sickness to vanish. He didn't want to feel that strange sensation of heavy head. He began to feel that he might faint on road. He never felt that way. He always thought that he was healthy person. He didn't understand way he was feeling so sick. He went away from house and he started to feel relaxed. It seemed as if Trupti was upsetting him like his father. He didn't understand why. Trupti was nice and sweet. She never said one word that could hurt him. But still he could see that strange look in her eyes which kept telling him that he was not giving enough to her. He didn't understand what. He felt that something was missing. He didn't want to feel that way. He wanted to become perfect husband. He didn't want to turn out failed husband like his father. Even he sensed that his brother was not great husband. His brother was drinking daily. His sister-in-law kept complaining. But nothing was working as she desired. His brother was drinking every day and wasting money without second thought. He didn't want to become husband like him. He was so tense. He didn't understand why he couldn't be normal. He needed to relax himself. He didn't have any trouble regarding any addiction. But he felt feeling so scared that he might die. He didn't understand why. He didn't want to. But still he felt that he might die due to some bad luck. It was not just fear of death but also fear of getting sick. He didn't want to fall on bed like his Mom. He couldn't forget her condition. How hard he might try but he kept feeling that he might be sick inside. His Mom was so healthy so perfect. Everyone used to call her beauty queen. She was so pretty but then suddenly all turned in wrong way. She began to fall sick. Then step by step all vanished. He loved her despite of her lost beauty but still he couldn't help remembering her with that horrible condition. She was so weak and so scared. She was in so much pain. It was eating her from inside. She knew it but she couldn't stop. He looked towards himself. He suddenly felt so scared. He began to doubt about his future. He began to think what if it was even inside him. He looked towards his body. Everything looked normal but his Mom was looking normal too. It was just one small swelling. He shivered when he remembered how did he reacted when she first showed it to him. He laughed on her and said that she was getting paranoid. He wished from heart only if he was true after that he never laughed on any one's sickness.
Trupti started decorating house but she kept feeling something was wrong with Dinesh's health. She knew that he was pretending. She sensed that she needed advice. She wanted to discuss this with Mom but not before him. She knew that it would manage to upset him. She looked down out of window. She saw that he was far away. She immediately called Mom. She slowly began to describe all. It was so upsetting. She was so scared. " Mom what did you feel?" Mom didn't speak for sometime. Then Mom suggested " Don't you go for routine check up?" Trupti smiled. She liked this idea. Mom " You can suggest it as start for pregnancy!" Trupti " Yes. I will do that." She waited with anxiety. She wanted to say it slowly but when she saw him then she immediately suggested it. She was so upset that he might get angry. But he smiled and agreed. So they immediately took appointment and they did entire physical tests. During these times she noticed that Dinesh was hiding his pains. He was sweating. Something was wrong with him. She loved him. She was with him in his sickness. She was so upset. Finally she took breath of relief. They went to Doctor. She was expecting solution. She thought that Doctor would tell her. She was happy with him. He was nice and he was in love with her too. She was happy about all. She was so tense and upset about his health. She wanted to live happy life. She wanted him to be healthy. She was so sad. She kept thinking one day. She might lose him. Finally those reports came. They were shocked when they showed that she had less hemoglobin & she needed tonics while he was perfect and healthy. He kept looking at Doctor. Then he finally said " I kept sweating. I don't remember things as I once use to." Doctor looked shocked. Doctor " But you are healthy!" Trupti was nervous too. She spoke truth without second thought. " But we did these tests because he was feeling sick. I was okay." Then she looked towards him with fear that he might be hurt. But he was nodding. So he was feeling just like her. He was so upset. Doctor " But you can see in reports. He is perfect." They soon sensed that arguing with Doctor was useless. They went out. Dinesh was so nervous. Dinesh " I feel as if I have dragged you in this. I mean I am not normal.." "You are normal! Whatever this will go away. I will help you out of it. We will see it other Doctors. This Doctor was not so expert." Dinesh smiled and nodded. He suddenly felt so hopeful. They went ahead with their life. They were so happy. But Dinesh was still feeling sick. He didn't understand how long it would keep happening. Trupti wanted to start family but he was scared. Dinesh " First we need to find my sickness. I can't even think that situation where you need to upbring our child without me." She shivered. They kept searching for sickness. Finally one Doctor asked nicely " Dinesh are you associated with sick person!" Dinesh was confused. He said " No." " I mean did someone got cancer or serious disease like it in your house!" Dinesh shivered. He began to feel so upset. He knew that he was going to get cancer like his Mom. He married but he didn't tell Trupti about it. He took deep breath and said " Yes my Mom had cancer. Did I got same one? Or different cancer?" Doctor started laughing. Trupti shiverd with fear. But after watching Doctor she felt confused. Doctor " You don't have cancer. This is mental trauma which you suffer. You need to do treatment for it!" Trupti nodded. She was relieved that it was just mental problem. She turned towards Dinesh. He looked happy too. Dinesh " Ohh it is that simple!" " Yes very simple. It often happen to relative of cancer patient." Trupti smiled and Dinesh nodded towards her. They went to Psychiatrist. Dinesh began to get relax. Slowly he learnt how to handle his Dad too. Then one day he even invited his Dad. It was not so problematic. Trupti was upset. But she handled it very well. One day Trupti said " Let your Dad stay. He is not nice fellow but we are taking money from his property. We must handle it. I am happy in my life while your brother is clearly not nice husband. I don't want your sister-in-law to suffer more." He smiled happily and nodded. He compensated his best to Trupti for taking care of his Dad. He kept two maids. He fulfilled her all demand. But she never demanded something which was not needed. After his visit psychiatrist he sensed that his fears were imaginary and it turned out to be true.
The End
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