Unwanted daughter
Tara started to show different angles of her new design. She made it after spending entire night in just creating it. She tried hard to take it towards point of perfection. She wanted it to be great. She was not sure that she would get chance to show it and even if she able to show it finally it was going to be useless. But still she tried her best. She put it on computer. She hoped that someone would notice it on one day. She was trying so hard to start her career but nothing was happening. Even today she was working so hard. She knew that she needed to keep working. She was so sure that one day she would win what she wanted. But she didn't understand what did she wanted. She never thought about it. She always went ahead with her life. She didn't have time to think about it. She was born in big joint family. She was third daughter. So her family was not much happy about her birth. They wanted boy. Her Mom was respectful lady of village but she was not that much fond of girl child. She wanted a boy who could handle her business. She had small construction company. It was making good fortune but she didn't feel that it was suitable for girl to run. So her Mom didn't want to give it to her. Tara never tried to grab it. She knew that they didn't give her anything. They wanted to just marry her off to someone. She needed a work. She wanted to buy place for herself. She couldn't stay in that small house with her two sisters. And she was not even sure that her Mom would add more to list. She knew that her Mom was still waiting for that son. Luckily her Mom didn't manage to get pregnant. But she was not sure for how long this situation would remain. She didn't feel that her Mom would search for some good husband. So Tara wanted to create her career on her own level. Tara wanted to show world that she could manage all on her own capacity. She was working hard to prove it. But she didn't get any support. Many people said her design was good but she didn't get that support which could manage to bring up her career. She didn't understand what did she supposed to do to bring light in her future. She kept doing her work. She was looking at her work when she sensed that someone ran behind her. She sensed that someone was in her room. She knew that she was alone but still she felt on that point someone was behind her. She knew that it was day not night so she couldn't see ghosts. She started laughing at thought of ghosts. She still remembered when she was small her babysitter use to tell her ghost story. She lived in big joint family but no one had time to take care of her. Her all relatives were scattered. They all came just when they needed to go to some function or to celebrate party. Normally no one came. She didn't like those people that much. They always considered her low. They didn't like her since she was girl. Her Dad was excited by their entry. They always kept boosting him. He felt since he always helped them with his contacts. She didn't understand why his contacts were so useless for her. She didn't like anyone to interfere in her life. But her Dad wanted them to come. She knew that it was not possible that her relative would come like that. Her two elder sister were gone out. She knew that they were searching for some good husband. They wanted to escape from this house just like her. But they felt that husband was key to their freedom. While Tara didn't believe this nonsense, she saw her father. One day her Mom came in her room. Her Mom never showered affection on her but on that day she came for her. She was feeling little bit sick. Her Mom came to check her help. She began to feel so happy. Mom started moving hand out of her hair. That touch was healing touch. She felt so wonderful so healed. She was so happy. Then suddenly her Dad entered in room. He gave one cruel sort of laugh and said " Pamper her. She is your precious jewel. She took away your chance to give me heir. Our business will go to some unknown person because she was born in place of boy. She is biggest obstacle of our life. She is nothing but curse." Mom wanted to cry. Mom " Don't worry. We will get nice son-in-law." " Yes and they will give us more importance than their parents? Stop this nonsense. This girl is worst thing. She is posion of our life." She started to cry. She wanted her Mom to hug her. But she sensed that her Mom began to feel angry from inside. She began to feel upset. Mom was upset with her. Her Mom didn't look same kind of soul as she looked when she entered. She sensed that Mom no longer interested in her. Mom called her babysitter. She sensed that her Dad was real trouble. She took deep breath. She didn't cry. She took medicine. It helped. It managed to put her to sleep. She knew that her babysitter didn't want to waste her time on Tara so whenever she fall sick. Babysitter immediately gave her this medicine. She felt so nice when she fall asleep that she never asked why she needed it. She just took it. But on that day she felt that her husband was not going to be her solution of trouble. Her Dad hated her then why did her husband would love her? Her family didn't like her so her husband would do same. She didn't want to increase her troubles so she didn't want to get married. She kept trying hard not to get involved with anyone. Luckily no one showed so much interest in her. She kept moving ahead. She was so happy. She even heard that they were searching for husbands for her elder sisters. She was happy that her name was not mentioned. She was so happy that no one was thinking about her marriage. She was working on her design. But on that day suddenly her Mom entered in her room. She smiled but she felt strange fear in her heart. She knew whenever her Mom entered suddenly all trouble started to enter. But she needed to smile. She needed to encourage her Mom. Mom sat on her sofa. They didn't have separate rooms. Their house was small. She needed privacy normally. But today she just wished her sisters were in her room. Her Mom smiled and started talking and her guess proved true. Worst of trouble of her life began
Mom smiled and said" Tara I want to talk to you alone so I send your sisters to movie. I wanted to talk with you!" Tara took deep breath. She could sense her heart started to beat fast. She began to feel upset. She didn't want to listen to her Mom. She knew that worst was going to come but she wanted to run out. But still Tara remained there. Her feet were stuck on floor. She knew that she could walk but she felt so upset. She felt that her feet couldn't move. She didn't understand why did she needed to feel like that her two elder sisters were enjoying their life. They always managed to act as they wished. Tara wanted to escape from all her troubles. But it was not happening. She was feeling so frustrated. Mom started talking " We found nice boy for you. He is rich. He is wonderful." Tara " Do you know him personally?" " No!! No but he is so rich. His dad is planning to give contract to your Dad! We need it. We managed to give you so many luxuries but did we demand anything from you?" Then Mom took pause. Tara didn't want to cry but she started crying. It was so hard to appear strong. Tara was never brave one. She wanted simple life but she never got it. She wanted to buy house for herself. She didn't want big one. She was even ready to live in one room of slum. It was nice life for her. But she didn't dare to say it. She knew that if she tried to say it. Every one would start laughing on her. They would taunt her. She knew that she never connected with world that much. She was not smart enough to earn money. She didn't prove herself as something great but she had feeling. She wanted her life to be something nice. She had her dreams of life. But they kept telling her that she needed to follow steps suggested by them. She wanted her life. She needed to fight. But she couldn't. She tried hard to protest. But her Mom's eyes managed to stop her. She shivered. She began to nod. Her feelings were so caged. She was feeling so sad. She started to feel upset. She wanted to protest. But she didn't. Her Mom smiled. Mom " So I will call that boy tomorrow?" She didn't say anything. Mom assumed it as yes. Mom wanted that man as her son-in-law. Her Mom went away happily. She shivered. She was feeling so upset. She wanted to concentrate on her hopes. She began to assume that marriage would prove nice thing too. She began to dream about her family. She started to see new world. She knew that it was against her wishes but she could take it nicely too. She smiled happily. She ran to mirror and she started to watch herself. She began to tell herself that she was pretty and she would get her prince charming. Suddenly that thought started to give hope to her. She began to feel so happy. She started to plan all. She began tplan her house after marriage her kids. On that point her sisters came in room. " Mom was discussing your marriage! Do you truly feel that boy will marry you? Why did he do that?" Then her sisters started laughing. " I heard he was dating beauty queen of college. Now he will not come and marry girl like her." " Truely Tara you need to at least go to beauty parlour! I mean you look so plain." Tara felt so upset and confused. She didn't understand why did they needed to warn her like that. She knew that this boy was coming soon. She didn't have time to go to beauty parlour but she did her best to look great. After some time her Mom came. Mom " This is his mobile number you must start chatting with him." Mom took deep breath. Mom was trying hard to find some way to connect Tara with him. Mom " This is important. You needed to impress him." Tara was confused now. Tara " Mom he want to marry me? He liked me?" " How could he like you without seeing or meeting you?" Suddenly Tara sensed that her consent was not enough but she needed to please him. Tara shivered. She didn't know how to do that. She was shy one. " Mom I don't know." Mom ran in her cupboard and started searching in her dresses. Mom " First start that chatting." Tara nodded. Tara added number. Then picture of boy came on her mobile. He was not prince charming. He was ordinary looking boy. She knew that beauty was not everything. He was little overweight. But she was not that much thin too. She felt that it was okay. She began to chat with him. She sent message. Suddenly Mom appeared. Mom " Did you wrote something impressive?" " Mom I just said hi to you." " You shouldn't just adjust with ' Hi '. You need to say more." She was so scared and confused. She didn't understand what was wrong. She felt so scared. She nodded. Her Mom smiled. Tara took mobile and started typing. She suddenly sensed on that point that her fingers were shivering. They were not in her control as they should. She wanted to escape it but it was not happening. She shivered with fear. She could sense that fear in her. She began to send message. Her Mom kept insisting and she kept sending. Finally she stopped on tenth message. Then she waited. She took deep breath. Then she got one line from that boy. " I don't know you. Stop trolling me." She shivered. She told Mom about it. Mom made sad face and went away. After this Mom didn't took much interest in her. Tara didn't want her to take interest too. Tara wanted to be left alone. She was feeling so sick. She wanted to stay alone. Their house was not big. So it was impossible to enjoy privacy in room. But she started to feel as if she was alone. She began to think no one was around her and she began to feel that world was truely existed in which she was alone. She started to ignore all and she began to stay in her imaginary world. It was truly wonderful world. She began to sense those fictions making her happy. She began to live in them. She didn't even sense when she began to chat and laugh with them. She didn't sense that those people who were walking around her find it strange. Her sisters were pointing towards her. They were gossiping about her. They were talking about her. She was not normal anymore.
Mom started getting nervous. As she began to sense that Tara was talking to herself. She knew that this was something scary. She wanted Tara to marry that boy. But after Tara's messages it looked impossible. Her husband and Tara's Dad never had any interest in progress or life of daughter. In fact he wanted to kill his daughter if possible. He didn't wanted her that was his motto. Mom didn't love her but she didn't deny her responsibility too. She knew that she gave birth to a girl and she needed to take care of her. Tara was biggest trouble of her life. After Tara's birth her reputation was effected around village. They all wanted a boy. She was considered inferior. Many people felt that she didn't worship to God properly. It seemed as if girl child seemed like indication of her guilt. Mom knew that it was not true. She was educated woman but still if she was living in this society then to prove herself she needed boy. She was so frustrated that after Tara she didn't got pregnant. She was hoping for boy and she was waiting for boy. Now this son-in-law was supposed to open new gate way of reputation for her. Sadly his age was matching with Tara. Mom tried to explain Tara so hard that she needed to impress him. But Tara didn't understand. Tara managed to upset him without even meeting him. Mom felt that birth of Tara was worst thing in her life. She wanted a boy. But she wanted at least a girl who could manage to catch a suitable boy. This boy was going to help in their business. Mom needed someone who could take over her business too. Mom was so frustrated. Tara didn't help anyone. She was becoming worst day by day. She began to talk herself. Mom didn't want to tell this to anyone. Mom didn't want anyone to know that her burden was becoming worst. She felt scared that people would blame her. After Tara's birth she kept getting one thing that was blame for everything. She didn't seem like good luck charm to anyone. She felt as if she was not wanted so much. Now she noticed that Tara was talking to herself. Mom felt so angry. Mom ignored it at beginning. But then one day Tara suddenly started laughing. Everyone in room was quiet. They all jumped with fear. Finally her elder daughter spoke " Mom we need to do something about Tara." Tara sensed what happened. She shivered. Tara " Sorry I will not do it again." Her sisters nodded. Mom agreed. Mom " I hope Tara you will stop it." Tara nodded with confidence. They all felt that it was possible for Tara. They didn't feel that it was that much. Tara felt so sure that she could shut down her imaginary world. She began to try to shut it. She started to look around. She began to attach herself to reality again. She looked towards her mobile. She saw picture of that boy with whom she chatted. She felt so upset. She began to delete every message to him. She knew that this boy already managed to block her. Her every message to this boy needed to be vanish to restore peace of her mind. She began to sense that she started deleting them. She smiled happily. She felt now all her troubles would vanish. She sat and looked around her room. Her sisters were doing their work. They were enjoying themselves. She started to tell herself that she was happy. She began to talk with her sister. " What did you feel about this world?" Her sister looked at her strange way. " It is great." Tara laughed. She knew that in her imaginary world every one would laugh on her sentence even when it was reality everything turned in different way. Her sisters were looking at her in strange way. " I don't understand what was so funny?" " Nothing! I just imagine someone might joke on something." " What you imagine person joking?" Tara was so confused. She imagined it. She shivered. Tara didn't want to return to her imaginary world but suddenly she began to sense that it was before her. Those people from her dream started to come without her permission. It was not right. She didn't want to answer them. But she started. Her sisters shivered and they literally ran out of room. She was so involved in her imaginary world that she didn't sense. Her sister went to Mom. " Mom look at Tara if she kept behaving like that it will surely effect our life. People will say our sister is mad. You need to stop this." " Thank God she didn't go out otherwise she should be famous mad girl by now." Mom looked tense. " Mom her behaviour is creating problem for our future. You need to do something!!" Mom nodded. Mom came in room. Tara was still talking to her imaginary friends. Mom was so upset. She went towards Tara and slapped her without second thought. She told her " Stop this. You are doing it just for attention don't you?" Tara wanted to cry but she started laughing loudly. She kept laughing since her imaginary friends were laughing. She was so happy. She didn't understand what was wrong with her. Mom kept screaming on her. But in her imaginary world Tara was so happy. She kept laughing. Mom felt so scared when she sensed that Tara was not going to stop. Mom sensed that she needed to get help. She didn't want to bring this matter in attention of her husband but she knew that she didn't have much option. She discussed it with him. He nodded. " I feel we need to take her to Doctor." " I know." " And no need to tell anyone. It will create impact on others." " But what will we say to other people!" " Tell them we send her abroad to study something. Don't worry I will manage that lie." Mom nodded. Mom didn't want to throw Tara out of house but Mom didn't want her too. If Dad was finding source to do it, she was not planning to object. She smiled happily. Mom " Great if psychiatrist manage to keep her, I am happy with it." So next day they took appointment.
Tara came in room. Psychiatrist chatted few seconds with parents and he immediately sensed that Tara was unwanted child. Psychiatrist decided to admit her for few days. Tara was totally nervous. She was clearly too stressed. She was talking to her imaginary world since true world around her was too cruel for her. Psychiatrist started talking to her. She began to explain step by step how did she felt rejected. Psychiatrist slowly began to relax her soul. One day Psychiatrist asked " You needed your parents when you were child right?" She nodded." Now you are grown up. Right?" She nodded. " Every child need to go away from parents and manage own world at this age. Don't they?" She agreed. " Then why don't you try it now?" She smiled. She stayed in that hospital. Slowly step by step she began to feel relaxed. When she met her parents next time she was different girl. She explained them that she wanted to go in women's hostel and she wanted to start her new career. Her parents were happy to do that. She finally accepted that she could move ahead. She didn't need love of parents for it. It was unique but with help of psychiatrist she managed to do that. She packed her bag and started her new life. In women's hostel she made true friends not imaginary one. She laughed truly not in her imagination. She cried for her failures when they came. She didn't tried to hide her tears.
The End
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