Finding way out of house
Anjali was so happy that she finally got that job. She was sure that everything was happening as per her desire. She was looking for one suitable job from long time and finally she found one. It was wonderful feeling. She needed one job an excuse to go out. She looked at herself in mirror. She was looking so pale. She didn't see herself as she once used to see. It was so upsetting. She started to look so old and without beauty. She looked around her house. It was looking just like some hospital. Her Mom's prolonged sickness managed to destroy her life. She wanted to enjoy her life but she never got chance. She was always stuck there. She still remembered when she was kid. Other girls used to talk about their mothers. They used to tell stories how did their mother did something special for them while her mother didn't do anything for her. She didn't remember her mother healthy. She supposed to help her mother in handling household duties. She supposed to clean house. Sometimes she needed to clean pots and pans. She needed to do different things. One day she became so upset that she decided to complaint. Her Dad came from office. He immediately asked tea from her. She was so frustrated. She didn't want to be treated like maid. But she knew that her Mom was sleeping after taking medicine so she needed to do it. She wanted to complaint but she didn't dare. She felt so confused. She knew that she couldn't just keep quiet but she didn't even want to open her mouth to protest since she knew that it was useless. She kept feeling so angry every day due to this. She knew that his Dad drank tea then enter in bedroom and kept talking with Mom as if she didn't exist. For her Dad she never existed except to make tea or coffee. She decided that she suffered enough. She needed answer. She turned towards Dad and asked " Why does I need to work hard like that every day?" Her Dad gave her angry look and she felt scared. He was looking at her in such style as if he could kill her. She didn't want to argue further. She just ran towards her room. But he screamed from behind. "This all happened due to you. After giving birth to you she become sick like this. You are evil child. You managed to eat your mother when you are inside her body." She shivered. She didn't understand what he was trying to say. It was impossible. Then he added. " You are not even son so you will not earn money but waste my entire money. You are just curse on this family. I don't want anything from your hands from tomorrow. I will find a maid." She was so confused. Then her Mom came out of room. Mom stood near door and started calling Dad inside. After seeing Mom his face changed. He smiled with affection and went towards her Mom managed to change his mood. But Mom was looking at her. Mom was clearly tense. She knew that Mom didn't hate her but it didn't make much difference. She didn't like Mom or her Dad. They never liked her. After sometime Mom called her in room. She didn't want to go but she didn't have much option so she went inside. She could smell disinfectant in her Mom's room. Her Mom was always surrounded by them. She didn't understand what was her Mom's sickness. But her Mom always kept resting. Mom " I don't want to blame you for anything. It was just coincidence that I fall sick after your birth. I don't feel you are evil. These are superstitions. Your Dad kept believing on them. I will convince him that they are fake." She didn't said anything. She didn't even like to look at her face. Anjali knew one thing that she destroyed her life. She never spent happy day since childhood due to her mother's sickness. She was supposed to take care of sick mother but she didn't understand why didn't she deserve life. She was so frustrated. She knew that her Dad didn't care for her. All people around her expected her to help her Mom. She knew that it was not fair. She didn't say anything just went out of room. That day she took one picture of her Mom from album. Her Dad said that she had power to evil so she decided to taste it. She started to try to find that power. She began to search that evil strength inside her. And then she felt that she sensed it. She sensed that evil strength. She gave that evil smile. She began to think that she was witch who could caste evil spell on people. She was so sure. She kept chatting over that picture for hours. Then she knew that she needed some instruments too. She went in kitchen. She brought some lemon and needles. Then she began to find most evil sense with full concentration inside her. She kept feeling so upset. She didn't sense that she needed to find positive in her soul too. She kept looking around for just negative. On that day she did all evil rituals on that photo with just one hope. She tried her best to kill her Mom with all evil inside her. She was so sure that she will die. She went in Mom's room. She saw Mom from small gap in door. She was watching Mom carefully. Her Mom was sleeping in strange way. It was abnormal. She felt so sure that Mom was died but then she noticed Mom's chest. It was moving due to breathing. Anjali was feeling so suffocated. She began to feel as if all walls were closing towards her. She wanted her Mom died but it was her wish. But she soon sensed that nothing was happening. Her Mom's chest was moving in perfect way. Anjali was so disappointed. She never expected this. She was so sure that it would work. Anjali didn't understand what was her power but she felt that she had some. On that point she felt touch of her shoulder. Her Dad was standing behind. Dad " Don't disturb her now. She is sleeping. Go to your room." Anjali nodded. After that she never tried anything of that sort on her Mom. She sensed one thing. She didn't have evil power. She needed to help her Mom. She kept doing it with one hope. One day she would get job and she would get rid of Mom. She could shift in other town. Today she was planning to go for interview of job. But she was sure that she would get this job. After all she got all qualifications and qualities for this job. She kept feeling happy for chance.
Anjali dressed in best way for job. She was sure that she was going to get it. She sat in bus with same confidence. She looked out. She could see wonderful greenery out of window. She sensed that office was located in beautiful part of town. She felt so happy and lucky. She wanted to work in perfect place and she felt that she found one. Her house never had much view and it was so upsetting. Whenever she looked out she saw big building which was not even beautiful. That building truly needed painting but no one was paying attention to it. She kept watching it for hours and it was so upsetting. She was happy that finally she was getting something truly worthy to watch. She liked to watch nature for hours. It would give her happiness. She knew that office was for work but still she needed it on beautiful place. She went inside in full confidence. She saw no one was there. She felt so happy. It was just for her. She felt that they called her to just give job. She started to laughing to herself at that thought. Then she sensed that people might looking at her in strange way. Luckily no one was in room. She controlled herself. She made perfect confident face and went to receiptionist. She needed a job. She knew that job was most precious thing for her. It was door to escape. She turned to tap slowly on table and said " Excuse me!!" That receptionist gave sweet smile. She asked nicely " Yes Madam what did you want?" She said those words in much way that she felt as if she was boss of entire world. She kept feeling so happy with every word that lady said to her. That receptionist was giving special respect to her. Then she told her her purpose. Receiptionist's expression changed immediately. She began to look at her with irritation. " I think you are in wrong office. We don't take interview here." " But I received this letter.." She pushed it towards that receiptionist. Receptionist was not interested in her. She just wanted to get rid of her. She took that paper. Then she pointed towards far away corner and said " Go there." She smiled but receiptionist didn't return her smile. She went to that far away corner. A man was sitting on chair. He was busy in his work. He was talking to someone on phone regarding his work. By his tone she sensed that he was boss. She observed him. He didn't seem like nice fellow with whom she liked to work. In fact he seemed like odd person. She didn't like him that much but then who liked Boss. She knew that office was nice so she could take job. While talking on phone he kept watching her. She didn't like the way he was observing her. He was looking at her as if she was some object of shop which he was planning to purchase. She didn't like it. He didn't answer her instead he kept talking on mobile while observing her. She knew that she dressed up little bit today. But she didn't do too much. She started to feel that she wore too modern dress. She slowly started observing her reflection on door glass. She was looking great but she felt her neck might be little deep. She didn't want that man to see her as some cheap girl. She adjusted it. She kept standing there for long time then finally when her legs started to pain and she decided to sit in chair without permission. He stopped talking. He might have seen it in her eyes. He asked " What did you want?" " This letter for interview sir!!" He started reading it then he suddenly asked " Can you make Coffee?" She was so confused. She didn't answer. Then he added " Woman must know these things otherwise how did they run household? This is responsibility of woman not man. But now a days woman just keep running after job and completely forgot their kids. Are you married?" She just turned her neck in negative way. She was so shocked. This man was disgusting. She didn't need him as her Boss. She began to feel so uneasy. She decided that she didn't need this job. She took back her biodata. She said " I can't make coffee. Can I go now?" That man looked confused. But he nodded and she literally ran out of room. She looked around in that office. It looked perfect. But she knew that she was not going to find job in it. She didn't like this boss. When she started to go out, she noticed receptionist. She sensed that receptionist was laughing on her. It was her biggest failure. She wanted to control her tears but she had to hold it. But she sensed that it started falling out of her eyes. She become so sad. She once again went to that bus stop. This time she was feeling completely hopeless when she sat in bus. She kept hiding her tears. She was all alone in this world. Now she needed to return to her sick Mom. She didn't want to go back. Sometimes she decided that she should kill herself but then she felt that she should kill her Mom instead. But she knew that her Dad was worst so killing Mom didn't help her much. But on that return journey she was thinking different ways of murder. She was planning for murder. It was so exciting. But by end of journey she sensed that she would be caught by cops so she decided to quit that plan. She returned to house. She noticed that a Police car was standing outside. She was so confused. For few seconds she felt that she killed her Mom. That due to her thinking her Mom was died. But she knew that it was not possible. She couldn't kill anyone just by thinking of it. She kept dreaming whole time about it but it never happened before. It was happening now. It was totally shocking for her. She felt so upset. She began to run towards scene of crime but Cops stopped her. Then she saw another neighbour. Before she could ask her neighbour answered excitedly. " Remember that lady of fourth floor?!!" She didn't. But she nodded. " She jumped down from terrace. But Cops are investigating murder angle too." She nodded. She didn't like it. It was not her Mom and an innocent lady died instead of her. She didn't believe she could kill someone by thinking but she was scared. Then she began to feel that it was ridiculous. So she smiled. Neighbour " Don't smile like that. Someone is dead. Cops will think you are murderer." She nodded and she shivered with fear. She was so scared.
When Anjali came back in her house, her Mom was standing in normal way. She was looking down. Mom was trying her best to get view of entire thing. Mom was very excited. Mom turned towards her and smiled. " I know it is wrong to feel happy on someone's death but it was different. She jumped before me. I felt as if some doll fallen." Her Mom was enjoying entire event. She was so frustrated. First wrong person died. Now Mom's excitement was taking her on wrong track. She didn't want to feel it or listen to it. Anjali " Enough!! I don't want to hear it." Her Mom sensed her mistake. " Sorry..sorry." " Mom this is so cruel." She was blaming her when suddenly her Dad appeared. Dad " And your birth is most cruel thing for us." Mom " Don't start it." " Why not?!! She always keep targetting you. Do you know who is cause of her sickness?!!" Anjali looked out of window. She knew that she was cause and she was going to get blamed for it. She kept feeling sad. She didn't understand reason behind this sadness. She was feeling so upset. She knew that in this house every one would just keep hating her. She needed to get out of house for earning respect and love. She knew that she needed a job otherwise she would not go out of this circle. Every thing was so upsetting. She tried so hard to get over her trouble but nothing was happening. She kept looking out of window but she knew very well what her Dad was telling. Her Dad was suggesting that she deserved to be dead. Sometimes she looked down and she felt that she might jump just like that lady. But then she thought that she might push her Mom down. She knew that it didn't help her much. Her Dad would be alive and pushing her Dad was impossible. He was an overweight bulky man. She thought about pushing him. She sensed that it would be like pushing an elephant. She started to laugh at that thought. Her Dad got so angry. Dad " Look at her!! She is laughing when I am cursing her. She is true a witch!!" Anjali nodded. Anjali " Yes. A witch that can curse you." Anjali started laughing uncontrollably. Dad started to look confused. Dad didn't comment further and Mom told him to go away. Dad went out. Mom smiled and said "You must ignore him. Actually he had some problems at office." " I don't need excuses. I know he hated me." Mom started to look tense. Mom stood up and started to go towards kitchen. Mom " Let's go in kitchen. Let's cook something interesting. What did you like? Pizza or pasta." She didn't want any thing. She just wanted to feel relaxed. She knew that it was not possible in this house. She needed to find job and she knew that it was not possible for her on that point. She did many inquires when she got that letter with her friends. Her friends didn't have any job except one whose father was working in bank so he managed to get one job for her. She was so happy about this letter but finally it proved useless. She knew that this fellow was never planning to give her any job. She didn't understand why did he send her that letter. Her Mom was talking but she was lost in her world. She didn't want to hear her Mom's sentences. She didn't care what her Mom felt about anything. She just wanted her parents to be dead. She didn't need them. They never cared for her. She started to think that she needed to find some evil magic inside her. But she didn't have it. She finally came back to reality when Mom touched her shoulder. Mom " So what did you think about getting married to this boy?" This line shocked her. She never thought about marriage. It would be wonderful. This way was best way to escape. She agreed immediately. Then her Mom started discribing that boy. Mom " this boy belong to rich family. They had big bangalow just near sea view..." Mom kept discribing all. Anjali was so happy. She felt that every thing was so promising. She never thought that it would turn out this way. She was feeling top of the world. She wanted to escape from this mess. But she didn't found any way. She screamed happily " Mom I will not go against you. I was just upset due to that Suicide." " I know it was scary. Anyway I will arrange meeting with him and his parents. We will invite them for tea and snacks then you can go out with him." Anjali nodded. Anjali was so hopeful. Anjali felt that one thing was so clear that she was planning to get wonderful life. She wanted to feel that happiness in her soul. She was so confused before getting this proposal. But now she was sure. She knew that she needed happiness in soul and for it she needed to get married. Then she started planning all. She felt that everything was perfect. She was so sure about every step. On that point suddenly her Dad came in room. He started to look around. He didn't look much happy. She thought her plan of getting married would make him happy. He wanted to get rid of her. But he just looked at her with anger. He asked " What happened?" Mom " You are planning for guests. Do you remember that Boy?" "Of course arrange all. I will manage on my level to fix marriage by offering money." She was so shocked. She was thinking that this boy would like her. Then he would admire her and finally she would marry him since he loved her but this seemed like different thing. They were planning this marriage just for money. She was so upset. She wanted to protest but she stopped herself. She knew that it was useless. Her Dad didn't want her to stay with them. She decided that she might needed to find some way to escape from here. She decided that she must meet this boy. She began to hope for best. She started to prepare herself. She wanted it all to be perfect. She wanted to impress that boy.
Next day Anjali woke up early. She didn't remember what was her dream but she was sweating. She didn't understand what was so horrible in that dream. It was so strange that she didn't remember it but still it kept standing with her. She knew that dream was with her. Then her Mom told her that guests were coming on that day. She suddenly remembered that she didn't saw photo of boy. " Mom where is photo of this boy?" Suddenly her Mom's face looked pale. Mom smiled and said " We don't have photo but you can see him now." She was so shocked. They showed her picture to this boy but this boy didn't send his photo to her. It was so wrong. She wanted to complaint. But her Mom was busy in kitchen. Mom was cooking snacks. She decided that she needed to show her cooking skills too. She went in kitchen and told Mom that she wanted to cook. Mom was so happy. She did all cooking. Then she sat before mirror. She got ready. She came out. She was shocked to see that boy. He was looking so old. His hair were already started to vanish. She began to feel so upset. She tried her best to control her tears. Then finally her parents insisted that she must go out with that boy. She went out but she was not looking happy at all. That boy must sensed it. He gave sad smile and said " You don't like me." She didn't answer. That boy said " I know. It's alright." He kept chatting with her in friendly way. She discussed many things. They even shared few jokes. But she was not in love with him so she didn't say yes to him. Then they went inside. She told Mom that she didn't like him that much. Mom nodded but her Dad started to abuse her. Dad " If you keep rejecting like that you will stay inside this house for entire life and I don't want it. I don't understand why did God gave us with curse like you while other families get blessings." Suddenly entire day started to look more and more worst. She began to hate that boy more. She began to feel marriage was not solution. She tried her best to ignore her Dad. But it was getting worst. He kept abusing her. On that night she woke up first time in night with scream. She felt so shocked. She didn't understand why didn't she remembered dream. She looked around. She didn't want her parents to know about it. But it was too late. She could see light in her parent's room. Her Dad was already started cursing her. She knew that it was going to be worst even than morning drama. But she didn't have option. She decided that she needed to find some way to hide her scream. But it was not working. Every day she started to scream and her Dad began to abuse her. Finally one day she decided to visit her Doctor. She didn't want her parents to know about it so she borrowed money from her friend. She promised her aunt she would gave it back when her parents would give her pocket money. Doctor suggested psychiatrist. She began to get tense since she didn't have money for it. Then she remembered her gold chain. She took it to jeweler and tried to sell it. First he suggested to keep it as guarantee of her borrowing but she decided that she wanted full amount. Then she finally went to psychiatrist. She told him all. She said " I don't understand what is wrong with me?" " Nothing is wrong with you. But I feel something is wrong with your parents which is creating worst effects on you. But if I taught you ways to handle then it would be stop hurting you. Otherwise you might suffer mental trouble." She agreed. Then she kept coming and discussing. One day she talked about that boy whom she met. She started laughing while talking about him. Psychiatrist asked "Why did you rejected his proposal?" " Because I don't like him." " Then why you are blushing and smiling while chatting about him?" She took breath and said " Because he had hair loss." Psychiatrist started laughing. Then he started step by step to convince her. Soon she sensed her mistake. Psychiatrist " It was not about his look. You hated him since your Dad introduce him." She was so shocked. Psychiatrist was right. She said no but she was confused. But after abuses of her Dad she struck to no. It was so upsetting. She took deep breath and said " Do you feel I should meet that boy again?" " Yes and on some place where you are alone with him and your Dad is not there to push or interfere." She nodded. She told Mom to call him. She also told her that she wanted to hide it from Dad. Anjali " I want to decide and Dad would keep pushing." Mom smiled and said " Don't worry." Anjali met him again. Then they both started meeting again and again. He also managed to help her in finding job. Soon Mom told her that his parents were asking about fixing date of marriage. She smiled shyly. Then her marriage was fixed. She was finally out of that house and happily. She wanted to invite Psychiatrist but she was scared. But psychiatrist was happy to just get sweets. Psychiatrist " I just want you to be happy and normal and keep this number if you need me then call me." She was no longer having those dreams. She was normal now. She took that number happily. Then she went ahead with marriage. She was so happy in her husband's house. She understood one thing. Her Mom might be sick physically but she was good Mom. But her Dad was mentally sick and he was worst Dad. She never hated Mom. She had anger towards her Dad and it was targeted on all. Finally she was happy now. She always felt so glad that she visited psychiatrist. Her life was now happy. She could manage her sorrows without trouble since they were together on every point.
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