Imaginary dance
Roshani started looking around. She wanted to sleep in night but she didn't understand why did she needed to stay awake every day. She hated it. She was so upset. She looked around. In every room her family members were sleeping peacefully. Some were snoring and some didn't. But none of them was awake. She knew that her mother had insomnia too. She was just like her. But still she noticed that her mother was sleeping. She didn't understand why did her mother claimed that she was insomniac. She was sleeping perfectly every day. Roshani didn't understand how could she sleep like that? But then Roshani began to think that her mother might be just lying to make her comfortable with fact that she didn't sleep at night. She kept looking around. She knew that many people suffer like that. She decided that she needed some way to timepass on that time. She was so frustrated. She suddenly remembered her laptop. She knew that internet would be cheaper at night. She smiled at this thought. She knew smiling to herself was madness but in night she did everything which should be considered madness during day. She talk to herself even joked. She didn't understand how to occupy whole night without doing these things. It was so upsetting. In night she couldn't go out. She knew that it was not safe. But sometimes she wished to forget everything and wanted to go out. She went near window. She saw every shop was closed. Her town appeared dead. It was so scary. She wished only if few people existed like her. She knew that she was not normal. But her mother kept insisting that she was. She kept convincing herself. But nothing was happening properly. She tried so hard to fall asleep. Her Mom didn't sleep for sometime but then finally around 2 o'clock she started to feel sleepy. But in case of Roshani she didn't managing to feel sleepy even at 2 o'clock. She kept feeling restless. At first night she felt that it was for one night only. What she hated most that due to it she felt so sleepy during day. She needed to adjust her time table of day. She kept feeling upset due to every thought during that night and during day she kept feeling scared of night. She didn't feel that much sleepy during day. She felt that she was lucky. But she knew that luck would stay just for few days. How could she survive without sleeping in nights? This was her third night. She needed to go to sleep soon. Otherwise she would clearly feel sleepy. She must go to sleep. She began to count all ideas but they were useless. Then suddenly she noticed something. It was strange but she noticed someone from neighborhood was dancing in house. She began to get restless. She needed to go to sleep. But it was interesting to see someone dancing in that room. She suddenly got an idea. She found sofacum bed from which she could see window. She could observe whoever dancing there. She took her blanket. Then she slept on that sofa cum bed with her blanket. She took it to chin and kept observing that dance. Then slowly she fall asleep with it's rythm. It was so wonderful. That night was most wonderful night for her. She kept feeling calm in her soul. She kept dreaming about wonderful swans and their dance. She was feeling so nice. She felt as if she was dancing in air. Her legs were moving smoothly as if she was moving on some soft cushion. In her childhood she used to love to jump on cushion. Her parents used to get angry when she did it but not her grandmother. She was most precious to her grandmother. She managed to tear away her many cushions but her love towards her never vanished. She kept sensing cotton in air. She kept feeling suffocation due to it. She couldn't breathe properly suffered due to sneezing when she broke cushion. She kept feeling sick due to suffocation in air but she kept jumping and jumping. It was so wonderful. She could still see that room full of cotton and her Mom's angry face and her grandmother's laughing. She started feeling so wonderful. She once again returned to her dream in which she was once again dancing in her sleep. She was enjoying it. In her dream she kept enjoying her life. She started wondering from one thought to another. She entered in her dream world. She kept dancing around with her wonderful thoughts. She didn't sense when she fall asleep. She was so happy on that morning. She was on top of the world. She went in kitchen. When she smelt dreakfast, she began eating it. She never felt so refreshed as she felt on that day. She was feeling so happy and pleased. She started to eat when her sister Arpita entered in kitchen. Arpita was so shocked. Arpita never saw her elder sister so fresh in morning. Roshani always looked sick and tired in morning and same look became worst by night. Arpita was always so happy about it. She never accepted before anyone but she always wanted to keep Roshani behind her. She didn't like whenever Roshani did something better than her. Until now tired Roshani was never serious threat to her. But today Roshani was looking so nice and beautiful that Arpita started to feel insecure. Arpita " What happened?" Roshani felt confused by Arpita's question. She didn't feel anything different had happened. Roshani " Nothing." Roshani kept eating peacefully. Roshani was happy and Arpita was so upset. Before Arpita could dig her further Mom appeared. Mom " Do you want breakfast?" Arpita looked at Roshani's plate and made face. Arpita" Mom I am not going to eat breakfast if you are going to serve what you served to Roshani." Mom looked very angry. Mom " When you will learn to call you elder sister 'Didi'?!!" "Mom don't be old fashion. No one did that now." " Who told you this? Your new friends!!" Arpita managed to make friendship with new family who just arrived in their society. That family was specially disliked by society since they were too modern. Roshani didn't know much about them except one thing that their Mom hated them. If Mom disliked them then Roshani assumed they were worst so Roshani kept away from them but not Arpita. Arpita always loved to do what she told not to do so she made friendship with them and Mom always dragged them in every issue. Arpita looked so upset. She just stood up and went out of kitchen. Roshani silently watched it. But she kept quiet since she didn't understand what she supposed to do.
Arpita went in her room and started crying. Her Mom was taunting her unnecessarily. Arpita wanted harass Roshani but she didn't do anything and her Mom started punishing her without cause. Arpita was so frustrated. She knew that her Mom didn't like when she made friendship with Tina's family. But they were nice people and she always liked her brother Yogesh from her heart. She always kept it secret since she knew that he never had any interest in her. He was so smart and so rich. She always kept watching his wardrobe. He kept so many dresses. She was fond of each dress. She didn't said it but she wanted to make friendship with him. She knew that if she tried even to suggest it. Her parents would lock her in room and his parents would throw her out of house. She knew that Tina's parents never liked her. They always kept strange anger towards her due to her Mom. Arpita was nice girl but her Mom always kept upsetting them. She still remembered that day when by mistake Tina's father knocked on their door. That man was drunk. Every one was shocked. Sadly her Mom opened door and that man assumed her to be his wife. He started coming ahead. Mom pushed him away. Then he looked at her Mom and said "Sorry sister ! Wrong house!!" After that incidence he never came towards house like that. But Mom never forgot it. She kept saying " That man is horrible alcoholic. He thought I am his wife what if he did something to someone in assumption in drunken stage." Her Dad got so angry. He went to secretary and did complaint. He told everyone entire drama. Then all stood with Dad. But Tina's Mom came to their house next day. She was wearing such horrible dress that her Mom was almost fainted. Her dress was so bold. Her Mom hated it and Arpita loved it. Arpita always loved everything her Mom hated. She didn't understand why. Sometimes she felt just because it irritated her Mom. She didn't understand why but she sensed one thing that she wanted to do whatever her Mom hated. She wanted Roshani to suffer too. She felt that they were destroying her life step by step. Roshani needed to look worst every day. Arpita felt that it was necessary. After all Arpita was more precious in world. She knew that her Mom didn't feel that way. Her Mom kept boosting Roshani every day. But Arpita knew that with help of their new friends she could do wonders. She understood that they had connections in Film industry as well as in business world. She knew that she could easily get few advertisement with them. And once her face get introduced then she could take control of her Dad. Her Mom was simple. Actually according to her she was stupid. But her Dad was smart. Once she started to get famous. Her Dad would forget everything. Her Dad would just keep admiring her every action. She just needed fame and money to impress him. She started to plan everything. She decided that she would not wait anymore. She would tell Tina about her desire today. She saw that her Mom was busy with Roshani and immediately escaped out of house. She began to go towards Tina's house when she heard Roshani's voice. Roshani "Where are you going?" " None of your business!" Aprita always talked that way with Roshani but Roshani didn't go in argument with her. Roshani knew very well that arguing with Arpita was just waste of time. She didn't try it. In fact she never chatted with Arpita until it didn't become needful. She always acted aloof with Arpita. Even today she came there to call Arpita since Mom told her. She took deep breath and said in controlled voice. Roshani " Actually Mom is calling you for breakfast." " Ohh tell her. I am going for my extra class in college and I don't want her breakfast." Roshani nodded and went inside. Arpita smiled. She liked whenever she pushed Roshani like that. Roshani always seemed like slave who did whatever told. Arpita wanted to keep her like that for entire life. Arpita wanted to keep pushing her down and down. It helped Arpita a lot. Roshani was strange girl. She couldn't sleep at night. Arpita many times saw her walking around house in night like ghost. Arpita always considered her unsound girl. According to Arpita no one in sound mind should walk like this in night. If she was not feeling sleepy then she should listen to music or keep relaxing on bed. But Roshani kept running around house. She didn't actually run. But still she kept going from one room to another. And she was even eating in night. Arpita was sure that she would become fat soon. Arpita ran doorbell. Tina opened door and smiled. Then soon they both started music and began dancing. Arpita was not fond of dancing that much but she pretended since she needed to make friendship with Tina. She kept making stories. Even today she started one. Arpita" I don't understand why did my sister Roshani is so much against you?!!" Tina looked upset. But Tina didn't ask further. Arpita didn't like this habit of Tina. She never showed any interest in gossips. Still Arpita never stopped. " Today she was once again discussing against dance." Actually Roshani never said about dance. Arpita didn't even know her opinion about dance but Tina loved dance and she hated when anyone taunted against it. Tina looked at her with strange anger in her eyes. Tina " Your sister still talk against dance." "Yes she hated it. It's due to our Mom she kept feeding negative in her mind." Tina gave strange smile and said " Don't worry. Slowly I will force her to change it. " Arpita didn't understood. But she couldn't ask further since Tina started dancing fast and she supposed to match her moves. Sometimes Arpita hated this dancing but she kept doing it. She needed role or some modelling assignment and for it she would do anything. Arpita kept dancing. She pretended to be happy. Truthfully after getting exhausted Arpita hated dance more than anyone.
Roshani was feeling so fresh. She started doing her work. She needed that sort of energy for long time. She began to read and she started to grasp every word easily. It was so wonderful after proper sleep her life became so wonderful. She was so happy. She didn't understand who was dancing in that window. But she knew that noone would dance to entertain her in night. But it was happening and she was happy about it. She spent that day happily. It proved wonderful day for her. She was so happy about everything. It was giving her so much hopes. She didn't feel restless like normally. That day she slept. She smiled and chatted. Every one noticed her change and acted positively. She was on top of the world. She never thought just sleep would do so much changes in her life. It was literally life changing. She was perfect and happy. Next night she slept in her room in beginning. She pretended that she was going to sleep. She knew that her room so small and it kept just small partition from Arpita so it would surely distrubed Arpita. She was very careful. She kept waiting until she didn't become sure that Arpita was fast asleep and she would no longer get distrubed. Then she slowly came out. She once again sat near that window then she began to wait for that dance. She kept waiting. She knew that she couldn't sleep if she didn't see it. Then she suddenly saw that it was started again. She began to see every movement carefully this time. It was so wonderful. She began to feel so happy. She couldn't imagine how but she was managing it. She knew that no one was actually dancing for her in night. But it continued night after night. She kept sleeping peacefully. Arpita started feeling upset. Roshani was improving on every front. She was impressing everyone around her. She was wonderful in eyes of all. She was so great. Arpita started feeling inferior. She needed a break in career. She decided to ask for it from Tina. One day finally she asked. Tina didn't look upset. Tina in fact suggested an advertisement. Arpita thought that it was break for her career. She went home and told Mom about it. Her parents stood against it. Mom " I told you not go to those neighbourhood why did you went there?" " Because I needed a job." " You call this a job?!! You must be joking." " I am not. Mom this is big job." Then Arpita turned to Dad and began to convince him. He was not convinced but when he saw amount he began to get confused. He needed money. Dad " Let her try." Roshani didn't say anything but she felt happy. She knew Arpita wanted to become model. She didn't feel any special dislike to profession like her Mom. She just felt that Arpita needed to be careful. But then Roshani felt every place had risks. Roshani decided that she must encourage. Roshani " Mom let her try." Mom looked towards her with shock. Mom " Since when you became so modern?" " Mom we need to give Arpita one chance to prove herself!!" Every one in room was shocked. Roshani " Mom dancing is not that bad art. It have enough strength inside. We need to give it chance. You need to sense that it can change our world." Roshani started to smile. In her dream she could see that dance which she imagined every night. Her Mom was shocked. She never expected Roshani to backstab her like that. It was shocking for her. Mom " I don't understand since when you began to love dance." " Mom I use to stay awake night after night but then one day I just began to imagine. A dance!!" Arpita started laughing slowly. Roshani was looking so stupid in those gesture of dance. She couldn't stop herself from laughing but soon she controlled herself. She didn't want her Mom to see it. She was so irritated by entire matter. She wanted opportunity to model and Roshani was planning to start her dance class. Roshani was hardly dancer. She couldn't imagine Roshani dancing at all. She just felt that dance was something totally impossible for Roshani. But she didn't say this. She kept feeling it and she could see it in her parent's gesture. Mom " Enough!! Roshani eat your food and go to your room." Roshani sensed her mistake so she immediately ran to her room. Dad " I think Arpita must try this advertisement. It is decent company." Mom looked at contract after long argument Mom finally agreed. Next day they went there. Arpita and Roshani both were present with parents. Arpita didn't want Roshani there. Arpita knew that Roshani was not great than her but still she was scared. Then she saw all other candidates. She began to feel confident. Arpita felt that she was best. She kept thinking about her success. Then Arpita went inside with confidence. But when camera man and director started taunting. She sensed that it was not easy. They wanted many things from her. She began to get restless. She did her best and went away. But before going out she clearly heard them saying " This girl is worst. She didn't even know how to say lines who called her for auditions. " "Tina Madam requested." " Ohh anything for Tina. She is such beautiful dancer. I want her to keep dancing for me." " I know sir. We can always say no to that girl. But if we don't call then.." " Tina will surely threw her tantrum. Those artist are like that only. They could do anything for friend." Arpita was so disappointed and upset. But when she came out , she decided new plan. She told her parents. Arpita " I don't like the way they were telling me to say those lines. I don't like this career." Mom smiled immediately. Mom was so happy. Mom " I tried to tell you so many times. I am glad you sense it now. Let's go home." They all nodded. Arpita sensed that no one was interested in her modelling career so she was clearly off the hook now. Arpita decided that she should concentrate on her studies instead of this career. She was better in mathematics that modelling. She began to think about better option. Suddenly modelling started to look less respectful to her. She began to hate it. She went away from that place as fast as possible.
Roshani was so confused. She didn't like the way entire matter turned. She immediately sensed that Arpita was lying but she knew that it was better to keep quiet. She didn't want Arpita to get insulted before all. Roshani kept supporting Arpita in every possible way. Roshani " Actually I feel Arpita must try better advertisement agencies. This one is too small. I don't feel it could appreciate Arpita." Arpita was shocked after hearing this. Arpita clearly didn't expected this sort of appreciation. But still she smiled. Arpita didn't like the way Roshani was behaving. Roshani was impressing her parents. But Arpita decided that it was not right time to taunt her. From that day Arpita decided to stay away from Tina. Arpita knew that Tina would never call her. Arpita's guess turned out to be truth. Tina never called her. At first night when Roshani didn't see that dance, she was shocked. She didn't understand what was wrong with her imagination. She tried to imagine again and again. But it didn't appear. She began to feel so angry about entire matter. But she didn't discuss it. She kept telling herself that everything was just fine. She kept working on her imagination. Next day she kept seeing different dance on every gadget she owned. She felt so sure that she would see dance in window again. But nothing like that happened. She felt so upset. She began to search for cause. She sensed that something was wrong with her imagination. Once again she started to wander in house like ghost. But last time she was not angry. This time she was. She knew that someone was doing this with intention. She didn't understand why did she felt it but she began to feel someone was doing something evil on her. She was so angry and upset. Once again her entire life was disturbed. Their Mom was so shocked. She was watching both daughters. Arpita was not happy about her future since that incidence in modelling career but Roshani was looking totally sick. Her Mom could see that once again she was not sleeping. Finally Roshani told entire truth after sensing that she couldn't see that dance again. Her Mom was shocked. Mom " Honey you can't imagine or hallucinate things like that?!! It can't be normal." Roshani nodded. Roshani knew that nothing was normal. That day finally Roshani agreed to visit psychiatrist. At beginning she thought that it was confession to madness. But when she discussed matters with him, she sensed that she was wrong. Psychiatrist told her that she was not imagining. Psychiatrist " Someone was dancing and that person stopped. You managed to attach your sleep to that dancing strange idea to cure your Insomnia. But if it is working why don't you watch dance on TV before sleep." Roshani " But I need to see it from window." Psychiatrist convinced her step by step that she didn't. After that night she slowly began to search for dance CDs. Then one day she found one. She was shocked and it belonged to Tina. Now she understood all. Her neighbour Tina was practicing but she stopped. When she enquired , she understood all. Tina said " Arpita kept telling you hate dance so I did it to impress you." " It was wonderful. And I never hated dance. I just never took much interest." She told Tina how did it cure her insomnia. Then Tina gave her lots of CDs of her dance. For sometime she kept seeing them. Then slowly Psychiatrist told her to reduce time of watching them. Slowly she began to fall asleep by watching them for five minutes. And finally one day she slept without it. She was thankful to psychiatrist for it. But after that she truly began to appreciate dancing. Her appreciation never reduced. She began to go for dancing instead of Arpita who never appreciated it.
The End
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