Broken flower vase
Reena started searching for bill again. She was so scared. She supposed to pay that bill on that day only and she couldn't found it. She was so upset. She needed to find it. Reena began to search more properly. She didn't understand what was wrong with her. She always used to be so perfect but now a days she always kept getting confused about one thing or another. She was so sure that she kept that bill in cupboard. But now as she started to search she sensed that it was not there. She was so shocked. She was so sure about it. She started to searching those bills. Then she sensed that Rohit was going to return from school. She needed to get lunch ready for him. So she stopped searching. She went in kitchen and started cooking. But her mind was still in her old thoughts. She was still thinking about bill. She began to remember every step of day. She woke up in morning and Mandar was sleeping. He supposed to get him ready early so she tried to wake him up. She touched him and started to call him. But he was not ready to wake up instead of that he started screaming on her and abusing her. It was shocking for her. She was never treated this way before. She always used to be treated with respect in her parent's house. In it they always used to spoke slowly and gently with each other. She always saw everyone speaking nicely and when she entered in Mandar's house, she was expecting that everything should be same way. But it was different. Mandar was always fond of loud speaking. He started to scream on her from first day. She was so scared. She didn't understand how deal with him. She just did as her best to please him but still he kept screaming on her. She started to remember her entire life after marriage whole day she kept cooking and taking care of family while she was never appreciated. Just Mandar was so stubborn. He never tried to change himself. He always kept screaming. But she never managed to accept it. But today situation was worst since Mandar managed to hurt her physically. She went near him and he threw flower pot towards her in sleep. She was so shocked. It was just mistake but still her forehead started bleeding. She needed to ran in washroom in which they had medicine cabinet. She went inside and so her face. She was looking horrible. She didn't understand how could he threw such fit of anger. She was so scared of him. She kept watching her forehead. She was looking horrible. She knew that he was not planning to hurt her. He always had this habit. He always kept throwing things in anger. It was horrible habit. But when she came in this house, it was treated like normal thing. She woke up on first night. He was sleeping. She didn't want to disturb him so she quickly went out of bed. At that time they were staying with their in-laws. It was fully decided that they would shift soon. She didn't mind staying with his parents. But then she liked idea of creating her own new house and decorating it in her style too. Everyone told her that it would be great thing. She could live in her own way. No one would do bossing on her. They all showed it with such pleasant touch that she felt separate family was perfect arrangement. Her father-in-law seemed like strict fellow. She felt scared of him. He always kept throwing angry look on her mother-in-law which managed to send shiver in spine. She was so happy that Mandar was not like him. She felt that he was like his mother who was nice and sweet. Her mother-in-law always kept smiling. She never understand how could she tolerate all those harassments. It was frustrating. When she went in kitchen, her mother-in-law was already awake. She could see marks on her mother-in-law's body. She didn't understand how could she keep falling. Once she asked about it to Mandar indirectly. He said "Don't discuss this before Mom she hated it when someone mentioned it. But actually her legs had defect. She couldn't walk properly. You know trouble of reflections." She didn't know anything regarding medical terms but she nodded. She didn't wanted to confess her lack of knowledge in her that stage and relationship. They liked each other but they were not like best friends who could understand each other's inferiority. She didn't want to show her weakness to him on that point. She wanted to look intelligent. Then he changed subject. She felt that it was better since she didn't understand much about medical troubles. Any way but whenever she came near her mother-in-law those marks managed to scare her. When she entered in kitchen, her mother-in-law gave her a fearful look. Her mother-in-law " Did you tried to wake Mandar?" "No I thought I will make tea first!!" " Do even dare? He will threw fit of anger on you. Use alarm clock instead. It is better to break it than to break your bones." Reena laughed since she thought that it was just a joke but her mother-in-law was serious. So she didn't wake him up on that day. But she couldn't always manage to avoid it like today. She needed to wake him up since his Boss told him to come early. He was getting late mark every day. She was scared that finally he might lose his job. She was so upset when she looked at her face. She was looking horrible. Then suddenly her mind said just like her mother-in-law. She shivered. She began to feel so scared she didn't want to look like her. Then she felt next fear what if Rohit started to follow her father. It was common in kids. She shivered. Then she heard Mandar calling. She came out immediately. She screamed " What do you want now?" Mandar " I want my tea!! I getting late." Then he started abusing her. Reena " Did you see what you have done?" He stopped for moment to watch what happened to her. Then he said " You know my habit. I just threw things when I woke up in morning. My eyes were closed. I don't threw it directly on you. It was just mistake." She gave him angry look. But he didn't care. He screamed " Do you want me to lose my job? If I lost it who should feed you and your son?" She wanted to correct it and say " Our son." But she stopped. She didn't want Rohit to become anything like Mandar. She gave him tea and all he needed and she sent him to office as soon as possible. But that thought stuck in her mind. She didn't want her son to become like his father.
Reena was feeling so sad. She wanted her son to be her son not like his father. She wanted him to be perfect. She knew that perfect was not possible but at least kind. She knew that he would keep imitating his father and he would become worst. She started cooking for him. She was feeling so nervous and so sad. She kept feeling pain in her head. She was feeling so upset. She wished only if her mother-in-law had warned her. She should have rejected Mandar immediately. But then her mother-in-law didn't even know her and she knew Manadar for long time. He was good at pretending. No one doubted anything about him. Even today people didn't feel any suspicion regarding him. He was always so careful. He never acted in careless way as he did today. He never let people guess he had anger problem. He always managed to break things inside house. He could see pain in her eyes when he broke her beloved things. Like that flower vase which she brought after saving so much money. She still remembered how hard she worked to get it. She didn't able to earn money since she was not doing job but she did lots of budgeting for it. She stopped purchasing snacks and started cooking by herself which gave her little more savings. Then finally when she managed little bit money, she went in market to purchase it. She was so happy about it. But she was scared too. She was afraid that someone might buy it before her. She was so upset that she would be late. But she managed to reach there. She went in shop. She purchased it. She kept it carefully for few days. She didn't even dare to use it. Finally one day Mandar's parents decided to come so she arranged it. Then she decided to keep it and one day Mandar got angry with someone else but he didn't manage to curse that person so he came in his house and threw all anger on his wife. It was his common reaction. He started abusing her for cooking that vegetable which he disliked. She tried to convince him that she couldn't find every day vegetable to please him. She had to cook other vegetables too. He was so upset that she decided to answer him back. It was so wrong so he went towards that flower vase and broke it. He managed to hurt her lot more on that day than today. This flower vase just managed to cut her forehead that broken flower vase managed to cut her heart. It was so most horrible beginning for her. She was so upset now. She wanted to cook nice food but her heart wanted her to left everything. Then suddenly her mobile rang. It was call from Mandar. She shivered. But she knew that she had to take his mobile. So she took his call. It was so upsetting. She started talking. "Hello!!" Even her first word was weak. She knew that he would start screaming on her. But she didn't want to keep arguing. At beginning she tried to argue but his screams managed to shut down her logical arguments. Now she didn't try to argue. She took deep breath. Mandar was talking in low voice. She sensed that he wanted to hide it from office. Mandar " Dad called few moments ago. He said Mom is sick and in hospital. She is in ladies ward so he wanted you to go there." She felt so glad. She wanted to escape from him at least for few days. She was happy but then she suddenly remembered Rohit. " But what Rohit?" " What about him? He will stay here with me!! He can't skip school?!!" Reena didn't like this idea. She was not going to let her son stay alone with Mandar. She was going to fight about it. Reena " No.. I will take him." " And keep him where? In home with my Dad? You can't take him in Ladies ward in hospital!!" " Why not? He is just small boy.." " Enough he is not small boy now. Go alone." " No. I will take Rohit with me." Mandar was clearly upset now. Mandar's voice started to rise " He is not baby now. You are not helping him. He supposed to become man. He is not girl so don't try to teach him things which ladies do like nursing, cooking." She was so shocked. " I am taking him with me." Mandar stopped her in middle of conversation " And what if he decide to stay!!" She was so shocked. She never thought that Mandar managed to take so much hold of him. She was so upset. Reena " If he decide then I will let him stay." Then Mandar disconnected call. She took deep breath and started cooking. She started to concentrate on positive. She made wonderful lunch for Rohit. She started to feel full hope that Rohit would come with her. Then finally Rohit came from school. She gave lunch to Rohit first. It was tasty one. She wanted him to be happy. She wanted him to come with her. She was so upset. She wanted to please him her best. She did everything in perfect way. He kept admiring her on every step of lunch and finally after lunch she suggested " Will you come with me in your grandmother's house?" He looked frustrated. Rohit " No Mom!! It is so boring. I will stay here with my friend Tarun. I can stay in his house." She was so angry. Reena " You can't stay in other's house without cause. Your Dad going to stay here. You can stay with him." Rohit didn't like this. Rohit " But Mom.." Reena was so upset. She began to see in him face of his father and grandfather. He was just like them. She was so upset. She couldn't help him. She just went in room without second thought. She wanted to just go away now. She started packing. She knew that it was going to be long and hard journey. She was so upset. Her son was becoming just like Mandar. Then suddenly Rohit came inside. Rohit " Mom I am sorry. But I will stay here." She kept her back towards him and said " Do as you wish. I am going bye." She just packed her clothes and went away. She didn't even gave any basic instructions. She was so upset. She felt as if entire world was against her. She took on Taxi and started to go away. She was so stressed. She just wanted to get away from that house. She was so upset. She was feeling feverish. She just wanted to get ticket and left that town. Suddenly she began to feel even air of that town was posionous.
When Reena reached on railway station, she sensed there was big crowd in station. She totally forgot that she had not made reservations. Normally Mandar did them. She knew that it was not his great favour. He did it since he wanted to keep control on her traveling expenses. Once her brother did it and he booked AC first class seats. Mandar cursed him so much before her. But when Mandar met her brother, he thanked him for doing favour. He also said that he was glad that he booked AC first class compartment. He said it in such pleasant way that no one would have guessed that he was upset about it. He was so nice when it came to pretending. In case of Mandar's father he looked as he was but Mandar had all hatred hidden inside. She sensed strange anger towards him. She wanted to fight him back. But he was so sweet before her parents she didn't feel that he was abusing her in home. They all felt just one thing that she married to a perfect husband. She didn't understand how could he hide his true face so easily. But he did. Her brother assumed that he was so nice. Her brother kept admiring him for hours before her when he thanked him for reservations. Mandar made such good impression in his eyes that she couldn't able to break it. But she didn't want her brother to do reservations again so she said " Yes and he felt we must not trouble you again and again." Her brother looked shocked. Her brother " Why? It is on my way!!" Then suddenly doubt flickered in her brother's eyes but before he could ask anything further. Some relative came and mattered stayed there. Her brother started to discuss about his daughter and totally forgot about Reena. It was not his mistake. Mandar seemed totally perfect. She looked at him. He was truly perfect devil. He had smile that was kind. He had face which looked like face of some angel. He always talked in kind way which was specially reserved for different occasions. She sensed so hurt. She didn't understand how could she get out of this mess. She didn't want to stay with him. Specially since Rohit was no more her son he was acting just like him. She could sense that she lost her battle in case of Rohit. She stood in line of ticket counter. But she was confused. She knew her brother was no longer staying with her parents. She suddenly began to think that she might just go back to her parents. She felt that it was so hopeful. She took out her mobile. Line was long she could manage to confirm. Her hand was shivering. She tried to open contact at least three times but it didn't finally she was about to stop it when it opened. She found her Mom's number. She dialed. She started crying immediately when she heard her Mom's voice. Her Mom started screaming " What happened? Did something happened to Mandar? Or.. Rohit?" She was so angry. She screamed loudly " I wish they might die and go to hell." Her Mom stopped talking. Her Dad was asking questions in background. Her Mom told him few things. Her Dad took mobile from her Mom.Dad " Just come here we will discuss matter peacefully.." " I will not go back." She sensed strange strength in her. She didn't want to face of Mandar or Rohit. She felt that she got strength now to tell it. She decided that she would never look back again. Reena " Mom you want me to sent back.." Her Dad felt so confused. He didn't understand what he supposed to do. He gave mobile back to Mom. Her Mom started talking. Mom " Don't worry about anything just come home." " I will not go back to him!! He will kill me." " Fine..fine I will not tell you to go back just come here." But in her heart Reena felt sure that she would be sent back. Reena " No. I will stay with Auntie." She had one Auntie who lived far away in village. She wanted to stay away from town. Her Mom didn't say anything at first then she said " Okay do as you wish!!" Then she disconnected call. Now she needed to call Auntie. But she felt so scared. Suddenly her phone began to vibrate. It was Mandar. She shivered. She didn't want to take his call. But then she suddenly felt strange anger building inside her. She began to sense that she must answer. She took that call. She began to scream on him. It was so frustrating. She didn't understand why did she took that call. She was losing her control. She began to curse him like mad person. Mandar didn't answer her at first. Then he began to curse too. It became cursing competition. They both seemed expert in it. Finally he gave up. But she didn't stop there. She started sending him abusive SMS. She was so upset. She began to take out her whole anger. She didn't care about anyone anymore. She kept calling him names. It was giving her such happiness. She never thought it would help her so much. She sensed that abusive answers were helping her. She once again called him. This time he didn't took her call. She smiled happily so he was scared of her. She liked this. She smiled. She wanted to scare him more. She decided to visit his parents. She waited and during that time she called her Mother-in-law. For long time phone kept ringing. Finally her Mother-in-law took her call. " How are you Mummy?" She said " I am fine." in tired and exhausted voice. Reena was sure that her mother-in-law was beaten by her father-in-law. She knew all but until now she never used it. But today she decided that she must bring out truth. " Your husband is beating you everyday?!! Isn't he?" Her mother-in-law just kept quiet. But she kept talking and convincing her. She hoped that she would manage to convince her. Finally her Mother-in-law agreed. Her mother-in-law " Fine. But why don't you come here first?" Now she began to feel scared. She didn't want to be trapped again. She said " No. You can join me. I will contact you." Then her mother-in-law sounded confused. " I don't understand." " No need to understand. I will call you." Then she disconnected call. She was so happy. She did all according to plan. She was so happy. It was so wonderful. She began to feel so fresh. She looked at sky and jumped with joy. She looked at her purse. She had card but she didn't plan to use it. She decided to stay as paying guest. It was hard to find records of Paying Guest. She knew that they would never find her this way.
Mandar's Mom was shivering with fear when she disconnected that call. She was so tense. She felt as if she had heart attack before she could warn. She wanted to call others but she couldn't dial numbers. Her fingers were shivering. She began to call Nurse. A nurse came running inside. Mandar's Mom " Call my husband and son." Normally that nurse should have said why didn't you do it yourself but she seemed on verge of madness. Nurse was scared that she might die due to heart attack. So Nurse obeyed her. She immediately took mobile from Nurse and screamed " Mandar she is coming." " Who is coming?" " Reena!!" " What?"" Yes she wanted to kill Rohit." Mandar was so frustrated. Mandar " Are you out of your mind?!! Who told you this nonsense?!! Mom you need to see Doctor who handles madness." " I am not mad. She called me." " Okay!! Fine what did she said." " She had created big plan to kill you and Rohit!!" Mandar started laughing. " Mom she is such coward. She never argued much. She couldn't kill us. Specially her son!! He is her little angel. Always follow her footsteps. Mom she is doing it to get attention just ignore her." But Mandar's Mom was convinced that she could do it. She wanted to talk further. But on that point she felt sudden pain in chest. A horrible pain. Nurse began to sense that patient was having heart attack. She began to call Doctor. She tried her best but even before trying Nurse knew that she was dead. Mandar's Mom couldn't able to handle stress. Mandar was screaming on mobile. Finally Nurse took it and said " Sorry to inform you but your Mom died due to heart attack just now." Mandar " So she was hallucinating due to it!!" Nurse " Possible!! Because she suddenly called me and started to demand to call you. It was surely hallucination. She must had dreamt or imagined something." Mandar made sad sound. Mandar " She was sick for so long and Dad kept treating her in harsh way. I think one day this way going happen. Don't worry I will come there soon." " Great and will you inform your Dad?" " Yes." Then Mandar called his Dad. His Dad started crying. His Dad " Wife is important son. She did all in house. Now tell me how did I will manage?" Mandar " You should have thought about it before putting her in such situation that she would die!! You need to control your hand." Suddenly Mandar felt sad. He began to remember that flower vase incidence. He began to sense his mistake. He felt so tired. He decided that he must call Reena. He started to calling her. Reena watched his call. She told many lies to her mother-in-law just for purpose of scaring him. Now she didn't understand why did she do that. She did it. She was so scared. She didn't understand why did she do all this. She wanted to tell all to Mandar again. But she was so confused. He didn't act wrong always. It was just his mental fits. She suddenly remembered all good days. She suddenly remembered how did she put his driving licence in washing machine by mistake. She was so scared but when she told him. He started laughing. He said such things happen when she needed to do so much work. One day while cleaning house she managed to break his laptop. She was crying so much but he just nodded and said " It's life accident happen." But today he threw flower vase on her and she forgot all. She began to feel that he was going to beat her every day like his father. But then he many times he destroyed her things. He broke them. But she broke them too. She did it by mistake. He did by intention. Suddenly her anger rised again. She decided that she would never took his call. Mandar was so confused. He knew that he did wrong. He knew that he should not threw things like that. But he never intended to hit her and he also assumed one thing after abusing him so much she would calm down. Then he suddenly sensed that it was possible that she was truly called his Mom. He was so upset. He decided to call his in-laws. When Reena's Mom took call. She began to scream on him. It was clear to him that Reena told them all. He was so sure one day it would come out. He was lucky that Reena hide it for so long. Finally he took deep breath and said " I accept it was my mistake but I didn't want to hit her." " But if you keep throwing things around like that one day it would finally hit someone?" He felt so much frustrated. His attitude managed to damage his life. He once again took deep breath and said " Where is Reena now? I like to tell her a bad news." Her Mom asked angrily " First tell me then I will decide if we really need to share this news with her." Mandar took deep breath and said " My Mom died and before her death she made last call to me on which she kept claiming that Reena called her and told her that she was planning to kill me and Rohit?" Reena's Mom " So you are now blaming my daughter for death of your Mom?!!" " No..no I am not suggesting anything like that. I know it was my mistake. I have bad habit of throwing things in anger which lead to this mess. I just wanted Reena to be present on funeral if possible." Her Mom took deep breath and waited. Then finally she said " We don't know where she is!!" " Please try to understand this is not moment to keep ego." " No ..no we are not keeping ego. She even called us but when we suggested patch up between you two. She disconnected call and said she would stay with her Auntie. But she had not reach to her Auntie. I don't understand where she is?" Mandar was shocked. He began to sense that she might have really called his Mom and she had nervous breakdown. It was worst news for him. He knew that one day his anger would destroy him but he never thought that it would lead to such a big troubles. Now he was in biggest mess. He managed to hit his wife who lost her mind and his Mom was dead. He didn't understand what he supposed to do. Mandar " I need to arrange funeral will you search for Reena?" " But where? Do you want us to do missing report in Police?" He knew that it was intended taunt to him. He couldn't file Police complaint that would land him in trouble. He was clearly upset. He didn't understand what he supposed to do. He just kept quiet. Then Reena's Mom disconnected call in anger. She was so angry because of him Reena had nervous breakdown. They many times suggested him to visit someone regarding his anger but he never did. His ego came in way of accepting fact that he had mental problem. Now all seemed to shatter. He needed to find Reena before someone might harm her. He was so upset. He went in boss's cabin and told him about his mother's death. He managed to get vacation of one week after lots of convincing. He kept calling Reena but didn't have much success finally he called Rohit and told him about his grandmother's death. Rohit " Ohh Mom was telling me I must come with her. But denied it would have been better if I had gone with her. Now we need to find emergency seats and I can't even able to chat with Grandma for last time." Mandar now knew where she was. Reena was in railway station. Mandar suddenly remembered those noises during call. Mandar " Just relax I will come soon." Mandar disconnected call and caught a Taxi. Then he told Taxi driver to take him to railway station. But he didn't sense depth of his trouble on that point. He felt that he just needed to apologise and matter would be over like everytime.
Reena was sitting on bench. She didn't sense when she began to talk to herself. She was so stressed. She didn't understand what she was supposed to do. Entire situation was getting worst step by step. She was imagining different scenarios and acting according to them. People were watching her with suspicion. Place were crowded still people didn't like to sit near her. She didn't even sense it. When Mandar entered in railway station, he started to search for her. He looked around. He couldn't able to find her for long time. His anger started to rise but he began to try to control it. He searched for long time and finally he found her. He went near her. She was talking to herself. He was so embarrassed. He sensed everyone was looking at her. He screamed on her. "What are you doing?" Reena heard his voice and her anger rised to it's peak. Suddenly she lost sense of her surrounding. She began to feel she was playing a game in which she supposed to beat her enemy mercilessly to win prize and she started hitting him. She didn't care even if he hit her back. It was nothing. She just wanted to win that game and wanted him fainted on ground due to her beating. It was shocking for people. They started screaming. They didn't understand what was happening. Many saw her sitting there alone and talking to herself. Few thought that he might have harassed her. They started to join her in hitting which was not good news for Mandar. He kept telling them that he was her husband but they didn't seem to believe. Finally one fellow stopped them and said" Let's take him to cop." But Reena was not happy about it. She kept trying to hit him. Now she was getting so excited. People began to sense that something was wrong with her. It took at least four men to control her. At beginning men were not coming ahead but when she threw away women then they didn't have much option. Her strength was unusual. Finally Cop came. Cop started to interfere but Reena suddenly stopped fighting. She just went in corner and began to cry. Cop " I think we need Doctor." Mandar " No doubt. I don't understand why she is acting like that my wife never behaved like this!!" Cop " Did she take drugs?" Mandar started laughing even at this suggestion. Mandar " My wife never took even medicine without prescription she hardly take drugs!!" Cop " But her strength is unusual. It seemed like artificial energy." Mandar was confused now. He didn't understand. Mandar knew very well that Reena would never take drugs willingly. But he began to think what if someone gave them to in something like water. She was sitting here for hours. She must had eaten something. Mandar " I don't think she will took them willingly but she might be given it by someone in food or water, tea, coffee.." Another woman came ahead and said " That is impossible. I have shop here. I am watching her whole time. She didn't eat or drink here. She just stood in ticket line then sat on bench and kept calling..." Then suddenly that woman stopped talking but after sometime she added. " Actually after that she began to talk with herself. She started to scream on an invisible person. I just suggest you that this woman need Doctor." Mandar was shocked. Mandar knew that she was fine in morning when he left. She couldn't manage to become mad so soon. Then Mandar understood all. Mandar " I think she is upset with me so throwing tantrum." They all looked at him with shock. Cop " I don't think so. I feel it is impossible." Mandar was confused now. Mandar sensed that all his options were closed. He turned towards Cop but he was already began to call Doctor. Mandar still couldn't believe it. He took one step towards her then he stopped. His entire body was hurting so much. He didn't want more pain. He just stood waiting for Doctor. He was so upset. He didn't understand how could he handle this. His Dad started calling him. His Dad " Where are you? Did you sat in train with your family?" Mandar " Dad please give me some time Reena is not okay." Dad started to get angry " So even when your Mom is dead you are busy in attending your wife's tantrum?!!" " No Dad. I will come after admitting her to hospital." His Dad sounded nervous "What happened?" " Nothing. I will come soon." Then Mandar disconnected call. Finally Ambulance came. Nurse came out of ambulance who convinced Reena to come with her. Reena agreed and went away willingly. Mandar took breath of relief. He didn't enter in ambulance. He took different Taxi. He just kept following ambulance. He didn't want to upset Reena. He kept away from her. But when she was admitted to psychiatrist, he tried to talk with her but she began to scream on him. Then psychiatrist told him to go out. Then after sometime psychiatrist called him in his room. Psychiatrist " Did you hit her ?" He nodded. " But by mistake!!" Psychiatrist " So how many times you did it by mistake?" " Never before." But then he confessed how did he kept breaking things. Psychiatrist nodded. " So why didn't you took treatment of anger management?!!" " Frankly I didn't accept my problem." " Now due to it your wife got problem now!!" " Will she became alright?" " Yes. But I need to admit her and don't come for visit until I don't suggest." He nodded. " And you must take treatment of anger management too." Mandar nodded. Psychiatrist took out one paper and called receptionist on phone. He immediately made file and started his treatment. Mandar started to feel relief from soul too. He sensed one thing not going to psychiatrist was his biggest mistake. He didn't took even his father's call for long time. He knew that everyone would call him wrong but he knew from heart for first time he was doing right thing for his family. He was visiting psychiatrist instead of screaming on them every day.
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