Poem 12. Dreams

                                       Dreams
When I wake up in the morning some times it is a dream
Some times it is a nightmare that take me in the sky
Not pleasant one but the which have lightening and scare
So both of dream have same power in them both take me to the sky
Then why I am so scared of my nightmare why did it seem
To hurt my heart when it is some thing which always there
Dream are some thing part of our mind but then why I feel
Sometimes I don't even thought about them some thing in the life
So irritating and strange that our dream manage us to scare
And then we began to think we never have that thought
Until our dream attack us on our soft spot and that heart
So confuse are our dream that we never enjoy them because
For good one we feel sad because we can't have them
But in case of bad one why don't know I always feel
That it will turn into some thing true and make unhappy everything
I just always have one feeling dream will turn true and nightmare
Will never turn into totally different sort I feel from my heart
It will hurt me and my thinking because dream is some thing
We miss on each day as human being but nightmare something
Which always stood with us and it is some thing which never
Leave our mind because even when our eyes are open
That nightmare is stood with me when I think about it
Nightmare seem to have more hold on me that any dream
Which fulfill my feeling and like some compass try to help me
So I decided to keep some dreams which are nice for me
And decided to forget those nightmares which hurt me
But when thing turn away in different way in life
Suddenly dream becomes impossible and nightmare seemed more possible in life
But since I have decided in my mind that I keep my dream alive
And forget my nightmare from each and every side so inside my dreams
I just kept dreams as part of life and nightmare which always use to scare me
Kept away from my eyes I decided to forgot each and every dream
And decided to live in happiness because it may don't turn true
But I thought may it please me with view and trust me everything
Around me seemed to be happy as my dream until I realized that
By accepting it may I made a mistake in my life because while
Living in dream I slowly throw away many opportunities which
Were so good but still they are not at all part of our any dream
But still they are more good for life even than that precious old dream
Because some times new dream created by world are better than
Artificially created dream because it many times include people who
Never become true part of your thoughts or true part of your dream
So instead of keeping it I think it is better to forget that kind of dream
So strange is world of dream nothing seem safe here and look like
Every thing is scary even one of those happy perfect dream
Because if it include some person and that person don't want to fulfill
Then it may turn out to be worst dream and in this world there are too
Limited dream which don't include person just nature in that dream
So some times I wish there are many colours which can make beautiful dream
And nature is some sort of pleasant as well as perfectly nice sort of dream.

Poem 11. Nature

                                            Nature
When you see the sky in the cloud you can see happiness dancing by
Sun moves slowly out of the cloud and it's brightness hurt your eye
If you close your eyes you can see beautiful angels dancing by
Because sun have such power which is impossible to observe by eye
It's brightness irritates us every day and tease us at every time
But after seeing that bright you may imagine things which are so nice
And wonderful opening but never open your eyes because sun is too bright for us
It may harm our eyes but still some times I just keep watching that sun
Which look so beautiful at sunset and I just can't take away my eyes
Even for some moment or even for many sort of fun that beauty is something
Which always please our eyes and make nice home in our heart
Without much efforts we just watch our sun but we can't look at it
And we just can't manage to look at it even after lot of try because
It's power is so strange that it will attract us and it's beauty is so different
That it also manage to take hold of us but still it is so powerful that
It sometimes harms a person because power of some one's nature
May cause problems for other person but still we like that power
And we will worship it because power is some thing which always
Fascinate every human being but in life every day we just see human being
So fascinated to power that he forgot it's good and bad things
In case of sun it just hurt our eyes but it got just good power in it but
This don't apply to each and every thing some thing got bad power
Which easily hurt and harm human being like a power of lightening
So when you see a power just don't follow that thing and never let that power
Touch you as human being because that power hurt and it have that strength to hurt
So never go near that power of nature some times it seems that nature
Have every thing so perfectly made that nothing can change it how much
We wish to make change in nature but it always remain the same
For each and every thing it seem to some time as if it have some power of god
Because we just can't change many thing in nature how hard we may
Try to change them they remain same in eyes of every other person
So we all got power to become some thing useful but we can't be powerful
Over nature just one big flood and all get destroyed with mood of nature
As if we are nothing but just small piece of dust before whole nature
So I just have question do you think god have made nature or
May be for us some times god equal to nature because some thing wrong
Happen in nature we just turn to god so what will be difference
Between god and nature god may be some thing great but since we can't handle nature
Don't you think we must try to understand before god to our nature
Because before going college school is always must so understanding nature
Is must before understanding god because after all god have made nature.

Poem 10. Death of Sun

                                 Death of Sun
One day some one told me the sun is going to die
I always remember that scare until earth die when I ask Teacher
Is it true? my teacher told yes one day Sun will die
But it may take lot time before which many people will die
She said is with nice smile and I feel I am going to cry
I was so young I don't want to die and death is some thing
Horrible for me even to dream about in my nightmares
And death never mention before me much because it normally make people cry
I saw so many people crying on the death so it is some horrible in my sense
I just so shocked that my teacher just smile on that part and don't suggest
Any solution to save us and earth from that horrible occurrence in sky
When I look at sky I saw so horrible things like some sort of strange cloud
And I began to feel sun is rising today from strange position
Sun have some power which harm us in one every try
I was so scared and began to what will happen if sun decide us to fry
So I sat there thinking hard when I saw my some friends walking by
They were playing like a normal day it seem like they sense nothing wrong in sky
But when ever I look at sky I feel on each moment sun is coming near me
I just don't want it to come to near me because I am so scared of sky
Then finally I went to that teacher and ask her once again about sun
This time she smiled and began to tell me all she said sun will get destroyed
But it is not problem for us at all because by then we all be dead and went to god
But accepting that future don't seem easy for my heart and
I got confused and I am still confused about that some part
If we all are going to die why every time we worry about each and every part
After all dying is some thing which finally happen to all but
On each and every moment we worry about beating of our heart
We even some times worry so much and do many wrong things to please our heart
Why we are doing so much if we know we are going to die one day
And it may take long or this may happen to any one's heart
That we die in just few moment then why are we so much worried about heart
Then one day we are going to die then why every day seem so hard
Why do we feel tense every moment and feel hurt from heart
After all we all one day know we are all going to die so why then
We worry about other thing if we don't worry about sun and it's death in part
I always remember the teacher and her words which turn our heart
Why we worry about everything which is our world's strange part
And worry about may be one day it will easily harm our soul and heart
Our life is so strange that we have to worry about life's interesting part
Like how to enjoy it until we all alive and it's impossible to change everything
As it is impossible to change death of sun which finally going to die.

Poem 9. Messenger

                                   Messenger
Come here little Birdie,Come near me I have some message
Which is needed to be given immediately if possible can you
Come near me I promise I will not hurt you and
I never put you in any cage because it is sin for you as well as for me
I love birds but my mother taught me never to cage them
So I will never harm you so can you just for minute come near me
Since this message is important I must tell it when you are near me
Because I don't want to others to hear it and make fun of me
I just want to tell god I have some problems and miseries
If others hear this they just come and start to blame me
They say that I done some things wrong I will get blame for everything
I just want help not blame from every body in our life on every day
I do as I wish I try honestly for my success but sadly success is away from me
Then some one told me only god can help me and to contact I need some one
Who fly high in sky as strong and innocent like you I never seen any
So little birdie can you do that favor to me because they all say god lives in sky
And I saw you can fly highest in it so you are greatest messenger to me
When you reach to god can you just request god and tell him my need
I know it is wrong to expect from god but when our friend will not help us
From whom can we expect help in world can you tell me
I know you will say my miseries are small but I am not asking help
I am just asking am I on right route or my route is wrong totally
Since you fly so high can you do at least one favor to me
I know you are too busy in your own work but without you I just can't
Find proper and truthful messenger but can you please do me this favor
I will help you by giving you my food in return and reduce your work
Do you like this at that moment that little birdie fly away as if to tell
That such bribe are not suitable for god messenger such they are innocent than human being
But then I saw that birdie stop on next branch away from me
So I thought I still got chance and I went near it and try to tell him
Another thing that is important to me I told him if god say know
Just don't inform me because I don't want to upset my self
By hearing no from god it will surely upset my faith in him
So this is how our faith works we want everything perfect from god
In it then that birdie fly away and stood there waiting for answer from him
So this is what we done as child and expect answer always positively
May we claim that we are prepared for no but nothing can prepare us
For hearing no as a human being some times I think we are so selfish that
We wish that whole world will move around you as well as me
We just like those people who help us in every way as a human being
So this is how we live every day waiting for some birdie with answer
In it and when we don't get it still we just prefer to wait for birdie
Why don't we just move ahead and understand answer are for finding
Not just getting automatically and they will come to us when needed
No messenger is required to interfere and get quick answer for you and me
We are so sure to quick answer that even we can't wait go in it
Even except god to answer us in just limited time decided by you or me.

           

Adventure story 14. The Guilt

    
                                                             The Guilt
Shruti just reached Mumbai from Goa.She was very excited about going out with friends.It's her birthday and so they all planned to go on outing with friends.Shruti was very excited about it.She called her all friends.Then she suddenly remembered that she forgot to call Alka.When she phoned Alka.Alka just didn't pick up her mobile.She thought that she just visit Alka and talked to her.When she saw all her friends were coming towards her.She looked at the watch.It was too late to call her.So she just carried on.They all were enjoying it.The scenery was wonderful.They were sitting in the trees.Priya"So What are your plans now?"Shruti"I will be joining the Shoot tomorrow.""Wow that's great!There is so much work load.After you left the shoot was literally stopped.""I know.That's why I decided to join on shoot early.""So you are feeling well now.""Yes of course."But what happened to you?Actually when you fall sick,I was on vacation.Then there were rumors that you are mad by shock."After hearing this Shruti was shocked.She always hated Priya because she was gossip and taunt queen.But this was too much.She was just sick because exhaustion.That why she was sent to hospital.Before she could answer her.Her mom came that moment.Mom"Shruti honey,what are you doing?where is your suncream?Now don't get too much tan.It will harm you in your continuation of shoot.""You are right mom."After saying it.Shruti went inside her van.But before entering in she told her mom"Mom I want to van to be taken at Alka's house."Now her mom and Priya both were looking at her with shocked expression.Finally Priya talked "I think it's not right time.Alka's family had left from their house already."Her mom"Yes.When they come back,you may go and apologizes."There was tears in mom's eyes.She left from that place to avoid further talking.But Priya was looking at her in strange way. Shruti just didn't understand why her mom got such emotional?She just forgot to phone Alka and Alka left the city.It was not a big deal in Shruti's eyes.It was not compulsory to call Alka.Shruti actually didn't like Alka's drinking habits at all because of which Alka went many times on picnics without Shruti.Shruti entered in her van and started applying her sun cream.Then she suddenly noticed cabinet full of drinks.It had many bottles of various wines, cans of beers etc.She was very angry to see this.She was about to call her mom.Then she got better ideas.She throw away all the alcohols out of her van.When she began to throw away all her friends began to look at her in strange way.She screamed loudly"I don't want any of this stuff in my van.If any one want to drink keep it inside their van not in my van."Then she closed her door with bang.All her friends and her mom were looking at her in confused way.But they didn't say anything so she went inside.
        Next day on shoot she was very fresh.Just by going there she felt that she was back to her life.Everyone was happy to see her.Whole day she had to shoot continuously.In her absence work was stopped.She was shooting for many hours so that all work should be completed.Then her secretary came near her.Secretary"Mam,What do you like to drink?""One glass of orange juice.""With what?""I don't want snacks.I will eat my dinner directly."Her secretary was confused.Suddenly her co actor interfered "Shruti he was asking about your hot drink.""I never drink."After seeing her angry response her co actor just went away from there.But all unit had already heard her and they were looking at her in strange way.Then shot got ready and they continued with their work.From the picnic she straight went to shooting.But when she finally finished her backlog,Director was so happy with her that he gave her two days off.When she went inside her flat,she saw that her mom made every thing ready for her.Her salads were on tables and her clothes were also taken out.She was very happy to notice that her mom cared for her.Then she suddenly noticed that more papers were dropped on floor instead of dustbin so she went to dustbin.When she opened it,she received shock of her life.It was full of empty bottles of drinks.She didn't understand for whom were these bottles kept.She was very upset.But she was tired to think about it.She went to sleep in her bedroom.She didn't even eat her dinner.She was very upset about those bottles.As soon as she touched the bed,she fell asleep because of hard work.In her dream she was happily sitting in her car.She had a bottle of wine in her hand.She was drinking continuously and Alka was sitting beside her.Shruti and Alka both were drunk.The driver was driving her car.Suddenly Shruti ordered driver to stop the car.She told him that she wanted to drive.But the driver was not ready to give the car.Alka started laughing loudly.When the driver didn't stop the car.She started to pushing driver.Finally the driver stopped the car.Then suddenly she pushed driver out of car.Then Alka also sat beside her.She was driving very fast.Now Alka was trying to stop her.The driver was running behind her car.There was blood everywhere.Every thing turned red.After that Shruti screamed. When she woke up,she was sweating.All her clothes were wet.She thought that the dream was strange.She thanked her stars that she was living in separate flat.If her mom heard this screaming,she would have called whole town and a panel of doctor would have been examining her.She tried hard to relax her mind with funny thoughts.But today nothing was working the way she wanted.The impact of her dream was very strong.She felt as if it was true incidence.She started to think about her driver.She remembered that there was new driver.But that dream couldn't be true.She never drink any alcohol.She suddenly began to miss her father.He was her lifeline.She began to cry in frustration.
               At morning when she woke up,she casually asked about her old driver.Her servant told her that he had started a new shop and he settled in it.Before her servant could say something more her mom interfered and told her to go and wash dishes.Her servant hurriedly left the room.After hearing this Shruti was convinced it was just bad dream.But her mom's face was paled."Why were you asking about that driver?"Mom was trying hard to say it lightly.But there was tension in her voice.Shruti was now more confused.Shruti "Nothing Mom.I just a bad dream."Mom wanted to discuss the matter in details.But Shruti went away to gym.She wanted avoid the discussion on that dream.Her driver was okay."That means it is all dream."She was continuously saying this sentence to herself.As if by saying this she would prove that it was false because somewhere in her mind.She believed that it was true.She decided that she must talked to Alka to clarify this matter.Alka would never tell lies to her.
           For many days she tried to reach to Alka by phone.Every day she was suffering from same dream.She began to scare even to sleep.Slowly dark circles started appearing under her eyes.The makeup man was hiding them.But slowly director decided to talk to her.Director"Shruti what's wrong with you?""You don't like my work.May be I will practise for more time.""Shruti,you are doing your job properly.But look at your face and health.""You think I have to reduce some weight?"" Shruti.. Shruti ,I am talking about these dark circles.Are you sleeping properly?Is this happening because you suddenly quit the alcohol?you shall may be visit a doctor.He will suggest you proper procedure.You know sometimes drinking is not that bad.You just have to keep a control...""What are you talking about?I never touch a hot drink.""Are you all right?I think you shall have to visit your psychiatrist again.""What are you talking? Are you mad?I never drink and I never went to any doctor.Just stop this nonsense."After that there was a fight between Shruti and director.Finally her secretary came and forcefully took Shruti to home.
              When Shruti came home,her mom was already waiting for her.Shruti angrily"Mom who called you here?Shruti looked at her secretary angrily.But he was looking equally confused.Her mom"Don't look at him.Your director called me.Now tell me why did you show such tantrum for such small reason?""Mom!Small reason?He called me alcoholic.""So?""Mom don't you hear me?What I am telling you is he called..""I know,I know.You are trying to quit drinking.I will fully support you in your this decision.But all people will not be such supportive.You can't argue with everyone.""Mom are you saying that I am alcoholic?""No honey.I mean that you were alcoholic and now I can clearly see that you can quit alcohol.""No Mom.I never touch a drink."Shruti literally screamed on her mother.Now her mother and her secretary were shocked.Secretary"May I call the doctor?"After hearing him Shruti started throwing things.She slowly blanked out.
              When she woke up,she was sleeping on her bed.The doctor was sitting beside her.It was same doctor who treated her in Goa.Doctor"Shruti how are you?""Doctor,I was alcoholic and mad?""Shruti will you take it easy?""How do I suppose to take it easy?When all people were saying I am mad?""Come on Shruti you know how to handle it.These dogs usually just bark.They don't bite.""Please tell me what happened properly?""Well Shruti tell me.How much do you remember?""I remember that Dad went to deposit my money and some criminals robbed him and he died while trying to protect my money.Police brought this news...""Then you don't remember."Shruti nodded.Then her mom began telling her that story which she forgot."After your father's death you took in your mind.That it was your fault.You send him alone with money.But it's not true.It was not your mistake..""Mom now please tell me my mistakes."Mom slowly looked in her eyes.Then she started talking again."After that you increased your friendship with Alka and started adopting her habits.You began to drink everyday.It started first at evening after shoot with Alka.Then slowly from the morning till the night you always started having a glass in your hand.You were working properly so no one complained.Sometimes I tried to stop you.But in film industry such things were not big issue.I didn't take it that seriously which proved to be biggest mistake of my life.Then that accident happened.""I saw it in my dream."Shruti told them about her dream."So finally it is true.But that driver was alive so no one is died."Her mom was now crying.Finally Doctor told her."Your friend Alka died.That was her blood.After accident for many days you were sitting like a statue.It was post traumatic symptoms.Finally you came out of it.But you are not fully cured.You are suffering from Psychogenic amnesia.It can occur for commission of crimes particularly if the criminal feel extremely guilty about the crime.""If I have done drunk driving.Why I am out of jail?"Her Mom"because driver confess that the car went out of control by him mistake.Money can do many wonders.""So that was the reason he had his own shop.That is why Alka's family managed to shift so easily.How could I let it happened to me?"After saying this Shruti started crying.Shruti went ahead with her life.But in her mind she always saw her crime and a bottle of alcohol never in her home.
                                                                   The End

Poem 8. Spying

                                 Spying
Windows are something which I love from my heart from it
I can see outside world but world can't see me at all
It is like watching nice movie to please my heart
But sadly I just stuck one channel that has human being in all part
Any way inside that movie I saw nothing but adventure in all
I just learn to enjoy it because we can't change window from that part
I saw each person with totally different angel which always hidden
Under them when they are around the people but they all come out
Clearly and purely in open when they thought they are away from sight of people
At that moment they show what they thought from inside about the people
It is really scary to see that part of human nature which that
How sometimes before all eyes people give others nice smile
But as soon as that person left people began to scream with anger about them
I just have question when I see that person did it happen with me also
When I am absent can people also talk same about me as person
But then I understood one thing if every one get blame in life
I am not a different kind so that is what happens in life when
We are absent some friend show their true faces in life or
May be just bring out their frustration it is not much and it is not crime
Since we have such a stressful life only these people don't know
There is one silent witness watching them with silent eyes
Some time I even saw some people who are full of joy in life
Just jump and try to dance like some movie star they are that time
But no movie star can dance without learning it in life so
It just turn out to be a flop dance in which from some one who
Know hardly anything about dance in that one's whole life
That one dance and sing just to prove we can dance as we like
But once laugh escapes from my mouth those feeling shattered away from life
That's why some times I put my hand ready to shut me up in life
Because I don't want to destroy that moment form that person's life
Because if that one don't know there is audience that one will dance as like
And that dance may don't have rhythm but it have true feeling on joy
And that's why I must say I never saw any dance I really like
But when you saw some one crying suddenly we all that fun
And I want to come out and try hard to help and console
But sadly in life you can't do a thing about it because
When you try to help that person will never seem to like
And may not like it to notice that you are there and watching
It out of that window and blame you with crime of spying
But just tell how I look outside of window and see something else
When out side there are just jungle of building and trees are far away
How did I suppose to do bird watching when trees are missing every where
When you watch a bird they do so many nice things
And I surely love bird watching instead of watching human every where
But sadly in this world of concrete birds are hardly there
So we have no one to watch except few pet dogs and few birds here and there
So human watching become only possible thing when you watch out window
So may be we grow at least some trees to view some nature out of windows
Then at least we can able to differentiate people who just look out of window
And those who just like to look in other life with thought of spying in life.

    

Poem 7. Need of life

                             Need of life
They always say that always give everything new chance in life
But I hate when others assume it as liking old is sort of crime
We have our nature and we have our views about our life
Just forcing past or forcing new things both are equal crime
Just if people understand we must live as we like in life
Some like past can stay with it as much as they like in life
And those who like new can always give tries in their life
But problem is that we force on other persons what we like
That thing is not as loved and as preferred by others in life
But we just love to see every one standing in same line and alike
Why did we do this to other people who come and become part of life
But I can't change it because I never acted in that style ever in my life
Teaching some one how to act is always so simple and easy in life
But question arises then that why do they even listen to my advice about life
Every one thinks their thoughts are smart enough to become perfect guide
They never think they will ever see ground or truly fail in their life
So these are our over intelligent and very smart sort of guide
Who will tell us how do we all suppose to live our life
But can any one just keep one set of rule to measure thing of every kind in life
After all we got ground as well as water to measure in our life
Each thing have different concept and different force of life
And one day we all have accept it even if we like or dislike
So it's better if we let other live as they like instead of messing each other's life
So never say anything is good or bad for our view or in our life
Because after some limits you can see new and old both seem alike
So learn to live as you like and let other's live their own life
We can't tell what is good for us old or new in our life
After all we all have something which we need and suitable in life
Old don't make us always backward and wrong in our life
And new is also not that scary and harmful for our life
So just let other go as they want to go in their life
And help them only when their real and truthful need arise in life
After all old and new both need some people to use them in life
And they will make everything as much perfect as we like in life
We can have some thing so normal and perfect in our life
But it can be old or new it is one question which god decide in life
So on each and every day use what ever you like some times old and some time new in life
Nothing is wrong not at all bad choice unless you prefer some thing which may harm you
Or others in your life like some wrong addiction in your modern and new life
Or like some totally wrong tradition which may hurt your generations and belong to
Some old tradition or religion on which you have faith in your life
May god is with us but god can't come to meet us and correct us every time
After all god is our teacher and after teaching once god expect to understand us in life
But when we read some thing totally different in some books about life
Once again we get confuse about our concept and about truth of life
In case of modernness they tell us new thing are perfect and we must throw away
Old things of life but just remember one thing in old thing don't throw away
Your old morals like honesty and truthfulness in your life because may they be old
But still they are gold of our life and gold may change in design but still it remains
Important and most valuable thing as well as most lovely part of our life
In life we see many things which belong to us are perfect for our life
Just don't quit them and then you can take any type of lifestyle for your life
Never ever quit your thoughts or things just because they don't suit to your lifestyle
Because if you do it just because other insist you will feel sad for your whole life
Just do as you wish and never let others to dominate your views and sight
After all it is your and not others life so if you keep morals right
You can just live it in a way which preferred by you and as well as liked
Because these ways only decide which way you may lead your life
And it is not fair to modern type of life or old type of life just because
Others who stood with you strongly decide that it is suitable life.   

Poem 6. Success of life

                          Success of life
When some one is perfect and truthful in your life
People just wish success in that one and success for that one's life
But just because one person is nice some times it's wrong to start
Giving that one advice and make that one's success an obsession of your life
Success is some thing different from person to person some times
That one have different mission and different definition for life
So instead of letting that one to walk on destination as that one like
We began to force our destination on that person who set different destination in life
In life on each front we see different dream and some times our destination
And success have different meaning and some times what you wish
Is just not destiny of that person's life so trying hard to achieve it
Will just damage and destroy that person's thoughts and life
Just by wishing nice don't make everything best some times we have to think
What is destination of that person's life because if we try to take them
On wrong track they may not manage to win anything at all in their life
Because just being truth don't guarantee success in any field or form of life
So instead accepting success just stood with that person in life because
When time will come may be you just back out and don't help that one in life
So in life at every spot we keep different thought and different thinking in life
Just because you like some one that doesn't mean that one really need success in life
That one may good person but that don't make that one's destiny perfect in life
Some times dishonest receive best while good one need to wait in their life
But one thing sure that even if dishonest will win dishonest never able to enjoy in life
Dishonest just keep crying because dishonesty created many faults in nature of human kind
While honest one will live with full heart and find a road out of any forest
But if you stop that one and try to help that one it will just lead to destroying
That person's destiny we all know that you are person with most kind heart
But some times in mist of life all things get confused for each and every part
So we can never able to get what is inside that one's heart and just forcing some thing
Will lead to destroying whole forest in just one try which mean that person will be
Stood still inside that forest's heart still you are breaking that forest so what is use
Of destroying that forest and hurting your own friend and that one's heart
Many times by your wishes you confuse that good one's heart by telling that one
Totally opposite and wrong part just damage that one's route which that one
Was following by all feeling as well as by heart but just by stopping that one
From first route and giving that one another perfect route you think that
You have done some thing perfect in life and did best for that one's heart
But still always remember in this life we never need some thing which we hated
About life and by just giving that one that wrong route you are setting wrong target for that one
So never trust your senses in your life always think that you are part of that one's life
But never try to change or dictate other person's feeling as well as life
In this life every day we just change our thought because we need change
So we can always change our thought and adjust them with that person in life
So never in your life trust your thoughts because by doing this we just destroy our life
Specially if they involve other person's life because we don't what they want from their life
And just because they are good that don't mean they want just success in life
Some want just peaceful and quiet simple life and success will be last on wish list for them in life
But by bringing success ahead we are damaging their life so when you wish
A success please choose a horse who want to run on track and want to win race of life
Don't choose a horse who just want to run in forest and give tourist small nice ride
Because some want to race for success while some want peaceful life
And not wanting some thing is not a crime so let them live their life
Just don't put pressure on them to get success in their life because you are scared
That wrong one will win since this is life if wrong one have in destiny success
You just can't stop it and right one can't manage that success in their life
Just act according to each person's wish in life and never force any one
Unless it is necessary for them or some one will suffer and be damaged in life
Because freedom is one word which tell you how to treat other's in life.    
          

Adventure story 13. Bad Luck

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Poem 5. Perfect road

                         Perfect road
On the road we see many things in life but one thing sure that
All things are not bad or lovely in this life so we walk from one road
To another but in life we can't find a road which perfect for us
Because each road have something good or bad which is not perfect
For us or any kind of person because on each road we see something
Perfect but some thing wrong at same time so will you proceed on that road
Or you turn the road which locate on corner which is on side that
Stood on totally different location which is on totally different corner
In your life even if you turn on different corner still you can never get
A road which is perfect for human being because those road are for not us
Perfect road is some thing which are out of our dream world but
Still we expect to some road which is perfect road for my whole world
But we are not perfect nor people who are round us and then
Why do you expect our road to be normal as well as simple
If we are not that perfect then how can be road we take can be perfect
Or how can be perfect anything in this wonderful and simple world
Because we are those people who live in this world if we are not perfect
How is it possible to make perfect road for us because on those road
Don't Walk  perfect people but those people can create perfect problem for world
How sad it feel when we see all those problems and then inside our heart
We feel that we are also increasing those problem after all in life
If we keep patience in our mind I don't say vanish but we reduce problems
But on this road of life when we see a problem in sight instead of solving it
We just love to increase it by adding our problem in our world
And then we say if only we find perfect road which lead us to peace
For our life and our world turn into some thing nice but in our life
On every day we just wish that future will differentiate just by perfect road
But our thoughts and our judgments all turn wrong because we never get
One true thought in our mind that for perfect life we don't need perfect road
We all just need one important thing that is our peaceful and perfect mind
But in this life on each day we feel we are surrounded with many problems in life
Which may disturbed us and our mind because perfect road is some thing
Which we always like and on each and every day on life we all need perfect mind
But still we think that perfect road is true need of every day life
And if we find perfect road that will help us and we don't feel concern about mankind
Our life is so strange thing which gives us problem every time because
Even when we find perfect road still we find some one to fight and
Then that road turn from perfect to not perfect for all other human minds
No one can be perfect by just choosing some road of life for being perfect
We need one thing that perfect mind but if you really search in life
You hardly find a perfect mind because no mind is so peaceful that
It will reduce problem created by it's own faults and thinking in life
So we can never find any perfect road to live our perfect life but
If you think carefully you can always find some thing suitable for your life
After all to live a peaceful life you don't need a perfect mind on this road of life
We can live nicely with peaceful mind some says that thing are perfect for them
But it happen because they think that way in life because no road is perfect in world
Each road have it's problem and faults which person ignore sometimes
Because this is truly our road which we fully like and decide to go by it for our entire life
So when you find some thing you really like you can easily ignore things
Which are not that much perfect for our mind as well as our life.            

Poem 4. Sides

                                 Sides
When ever I try to say something why sometimes
It feel as if some one is stopping my wordings
Why did something I just stop my voice and feels
As if I feel everything will turn out to be totally wrong
If I try to say something at that moment I feel it is wrong
It seems as if everything needs in perfect place and sometimes
It seems like there is not that perfect time but when I say those lines
I feel as if I am finding excuses to run away from taking sides
But when nothing seems proper and right on both sides
How can I say something there and claim I am on wise side
Both the sides have their wrong and their right but I feels
As if I am taking one side and I feel I am attached to that side
Sometimes when you are attached taking side seems like crime
Because when you are part you just able to think from one side
Why in life every day we are forced to take sides
Because when we are involved we just can't help and stop
Our self from taking side and hurting our feeling and life
When ever you are involved in something you just can't
Run away from life and you are just forced for your friends
To decide which person is wrong and which is right side
But sadly even after taking side we can't able to stop
Any of those fights because every one is so convinced that
They are standing on perfect and right side and they are so sure that
Some times they even ignore their guilt and crime
To just prove that they are prefect and stood on right side
I just wish some one help me and tell me and every one
What is in life truly right and what is not worth justifying
In life we always love to tell others what is right side
But just ask your heart what is proper and totally right side
Because we can't sure about what is wrong and right side
We all feel that we know perfectly well who is right side
After all we made so detail study to find what is right side
We think we have enough proof to decide right side but can we
Decide so easy right and wrong side because both parties talk with you
So sweetly about your views and life both the parties do it wisely
And make you so confused that you can don't understand meaning of life
Because each side seem so convince that other one is not right
That they feel by acting so sweetly they are doing everything perfect and right
They feel that others are cheating and they are doing justice with whole world
And everything they said is so perfect and right that they began to feel
Whole world should just do as per they like and it will be good for world
Because they knew what is right and any one who come before them
Seems to them either stupid or too wise and they feel who think differently
Either cheating whole world or getting cheated due to their stupidity of life
What is wrong and what is right we can't decide in our life
But some times when we knew something and we want to talk about it in life
And when you feel scare to say it due to some one around you in life
At that moment just understand dictator may stood by your side so
At that moment don't stop talking because life may get disturbed by those voices
Which are hidden inside your heart and life because life stops until you decide
Or until god decide so until then you must learn to talk and express as you like
Because being by silent due to some fear you can damaging many things in life
And your freedom of speech is just one of them slowly other things also felt your life
But that don't mean you can go ahead and insult any one as you like
Because when you insult some one may that one hurt little bit but
You are one who will be looked low and disgusting before whole world in life
So try to avoid taking sides because it mostly means insulting other person or side
After all in life people hardly know ways to discuss friendly with people whom they dislike
And when you don't understand that person's side slowly you will understand
What that person fully and truly dislike in that one's future as well as life.
               

Poem 3. Wind

                                         Wind
Whenever wind touches my hair sometimes I think life will be always fair
Whenever a river floats sometimes I think I catch the moon
Whenever a mountain stands sometimes I think human can strongly stand
But is it true and perfect way of my thinking can I see some one
Truly stood like a mountain or is it some thing made by just books and mind
But then some one ask me why you keep asking these questions
To other human in life why don't you be those things which you like
Now this is hard thing for our life to  become something which we want
Others to become in our life because excepting some thing is so easy in life
So when I began to becoming some thing which I see in nature in my life
I feel my qualities are so less that I can't achieve it in my life
So when it comes to others I expect their stars to shine
And when they just don't get anything proper and perfect
We began to blame nature or god for it in our life
We never want to do anything by our self but we want these things in life
Quality is something which needed to be achieved by time
But we want every thing to be perfect and ready for our entire life      
But whenever lighting and storms roar always I think fear is there
With fear there is nothing fair and began to blame god for everything
That is wrong and unfair in our life because that sound scare me
On each and every part of life and suddenly every thing began to feel
Unfair and wrong in our precious life and all thing turns totally wrong way
When after that voice moon hides behind cloud in sky
I feel sure that bad luck will be stood before me on next time
Life never act fair to us each time we always thought this way
But question is that do we act fair with our life
On each happy moment we just pay attention to moments we dislike
On every bright day we just love store things for bad weather nights
It is right to store in life but if you store too much what will be today
In your life and do you think just by paying attention to others comment
About you in life you cry many times in day and night
Do you think that is fair with your life or think about those days
When you just waste your money show others what you are in life
Instead of buying thing you like you just bought costly because
Others say buying cheap is so wrong in your life
Just tell me do you think that is right and fair for your life
No it is not fair with our life so may be life is unfair some times
But we are never truly fair and just towards our thinking and life
So when we wish something from life we must have to think twice
And see that how much we really care what happen to our life
We just acted as we wish in this life and never went ahead
With thoughts to live as truly we like just look at our self
In mirror we must see sometimes because many times we wear those clothes
Which others like and not that one which touch our heart
But that one which other admire when they see us in life
Being strong like mountain means do as you wish and like
We can start it with wearing clothes which you like
Without looking for others who may like them or dislike
Because only then you can act as you like and then
May be you can able to catch moon or even sun in life.                                  

Poem 2. Mistakes of life

                                 Mistakes of life
When ever I think in life I did some thing perfect in my life
I found some mistake which damage many points in my life
Why I never get anything perfect in my life why on every moment
I found some mistake in life may be because I am running after
Success without thinking much in our life and because I was so
Involve in getting success that I forgot many things in life because
While fighting for success we forget many things which are important in life
When we run ahead we forgot silly mistake which make in beginning of life
But life never forget them it want everything to be corrected and rectified
But when we look at them they look like some small mistake of life
Then why we have to change them with so much efforts in our life
But sadly nothing is small in eyes of life it want everything to be perfect
Because life want us to learn each and every thing about living proper life
In this life we can't enjoy just some time and we can't feel okay
Until we fully win and have success in our life but success is not some thing
Which can be achieve in just few tries success is some thing which
Always we want in our life and it is some thing which always creates problem in life
While running ahead for success we forgot many things which required in life
And we just don't understand how fast we were running that we made
So many silly mistakes in our life because while running fast we forget
What we truly think about our life and all those mistakes which become
Part and parcel of our life but our life is some thing which always
Return back to mistakes which we made at beginning in our life
May be we will forget and think they just small thing which can ignore in life
But other may not see that way they want them to be deleted or at least rectified in life
So how hard seem to be our task of life that how many times we need to rectify it
But that is what true meaning of life we must work hard and rectify it
Just one excuse that it is so exhausting is never useful in your life
Because life wants full justice not your those small weak advice
It tells you each moment it needs justice on each and every point
And it want every thing to be perfect not just okay in our life but
Perfection seems to be impossible for life but don't worry if you try hard
On day life will adjust with imperfect things in your life because
No body is perfect so life can't get perfect person so it have to adjust
With each and every person so in this life never quit due to high tide
And always adjust with all your skill and do best in your life
If you don't get success don't blame your self in life because
You are duty in to try hard and success is in hands of other person who decide
Some times you see some person who just don't like and
You will never get success in their eyes so try to ignore those
Who act that way in life just do your job and duty and wait for your sun to rise.
           
       

Poem 1. True thoughts

                                  True thoughts
Why did I got it all wrong when I know the truth some where
Don't you think sometimes we change the truth because
Profit can be made by totally different side and totally different square
According to profits some times we change meaning of things
When we know clearly there was nothing in that sort of thinking
We know clearly there is always some thing different in truth
But in life some times we just want ignore that perfect truth
When we feel confuse in our life we feel that on profit will our guide
So we went after that sort of wrong thinking even when in our life
We can never manage to get perfect sort of thoughts and thinking
Because for our profits we ignore our routes and we feel that
After all in life everything will be always turn wrong way from truth
We just never understand what we feel is truth or false
Some people in life can guide but never have time for all
So in life every day we feel so confuse why did when we know proper way
We turn away from life like a fool how can we get determined in life
By wrong thinking how can we trust some people who are not worth trusting
If person don't have time for you how can that one ever help you
So when you think that you need a proper guide just don't go after intelligent
Also find some people who for you really have some time
But just always first one rule of life try to live it by your self
Instead of depending on other and spending time with guide
This is your life you know your problem in a lot better way
Guide can only help you but question is that guide don't have time
And some times our guide get so stubborn in head that even by telling
They just don't understand what is our true problems
So in this life just try to truth your heart you can get knowledge
From guide but apply it in life is most hardest part
Because in life many times people never learn they just think
They are so wise that don't need a guidance in their life
If your guide turn this way and never listen other people
And what they got to say just what is use of listening to that guide
Some times some guide are perfect on starting but slowly
They change and with that change they stick to their thinking
Thinking may be wrong or thinking may be right
But sticking to that sort of thinking is always against advice
Because when you stick to something slowly it turn from right
To wrong and become harmful for our entire life
We must not change our thought or thinking of our entire life
But we must learn to make small and little change in our life
Because once we get stuck to that thoughts and thinking
How easily we find they can't change and manage to harm our life
So we must have to understand when and where we need to change
Which sort of part in life or we just harm our self in our life
Because changes are something which are necessary in our thinking
Due to circumstances changes have become our thinking's part.
        

adventure story12. Overweight

                                                    Overweight             

Mahesh was busy in getting ready for office.He was looking at watch constantly.He could see clearly that he was going to miss the train.Today he didn't want late mark.He screamed loudly"Smruti will you get the bag for me?""Now how do I suppose to do that?your children are not big enough to get ready without any help and I have just two hands.""Now a days you just don't care about me.""Oh!really?I was the one who pack up your tiffin.I was the one who woke up at 6'0 clock in the morning to get everything ready.Still you think I don't care.Then go to hell."After hearing this Mahesh started feeling guilty."I am sorry.What about going to watch cinema today?"Smruti who was about to cry suddenly started smiling happily.Smruti "I will choose the film and theatre shall be one with the mall.You know comfortable.After so many months we are going to film.I want it special.""And what about my children?"After hearing this sentence Smruti started  laughing Mahesh hurriedly left out for office because he already knew the answer.The children were going to come with them.Smruti never left the children alone.Unless they asked for it and kids always loved popcorn,ice-creams and snacks so any picture would do for them.The main reason Mahesh loved Smruti because she always respected her in-laws and many times she even invited them to stay with them.Mahesh thought 'She love my whole family not just me.'

           When Mahesh was in the train.His mobile ringed.He saw his father calling him from village."Hallo Baba how are you?""I am fine Beta.Actually it's about your sister.""What's wrong with Nisha?""She is behaving very strangely.After your mom's death she is eating too much.""What?Baba are you mad?What do you mean by eating too much?you are counting her food?I have not expected such behavior from you.How could you act in such way?""I think she is not well.""What is happening to her?may be you shall have visit us?you have not come to my house since one year.After mom's death you hardly went out of that house.And I think that's your problem.Come and stay with me for some days.""Okay I tell you after buying train ticket.Bye."After hearing this Mahesh was really upset.When mom died Smruti many times suggested that they should go and visit his village for at least once in three months.But Mahesh didn't got leave and he was afraid to sent Smruti alone with children.Only once Smruti went there with her brother.Now he was started feeling very angry with himself for acting such carelessly towards his sister and father.He decided to bring them to stay with him.

          At afternoon he phoned Smruti about his decision.But suddenly he felt that Smruti was not happy about it.Then when they went to film.He straight away started to discuss the issue.But Smruti pointed towards children and kept quiet.At last in the night they got time to talk about it.Mahesh always assumed that Smruti would not object if his parents wanted to stay with them.But after seeing her face his hopes were shattered.Smruti"I just don't understand why do your father want to bring Nisha here?She settled in the village.I don't think cities are suitable for her.""Why don't you just say the truth?you don't want my family in this house.""Mahesh please see it with my point of view.If they come here to stay.We have to give them a room.We can't tell them to sleep in the hall.There are just too bedroom.In one we sleep.In other bedroom our children sleep.If they come to stay here.The children have to sacrifice their room.They will not love it and their behavior towards their aunt and grandfather will change.."After that Smruti gave many excuses.But in end every time she just meant one thing that was his family was not welcomed in their house.Mahesh "I will make another arrangement for their stay.""No.No.Don't act like this.Every one will think I don't want them to stay with us.""But that's the truth.Is it not?""No.You just don't understand Nisha is very strange girl.She will create problems for us.It is not easy to stay with her.She is ..I can't explain it.You can see by your own eyes when she come here."After saying this she just started pretending that she was in deep sleep.Mahesh was very confused by this.

             This time Mahesh was waiting to meet Nisha like man in dessert waiting for rain.After listening to Smruti and Baba.He just wanted to see his sister with his own eyes and confirmed that she was alright.So he went to station to pick them.He was waiting for them.Then finally their train arrived.He started searching for them.In that crowd he was literally getting smashed.But still he continued his search.Then suddenly a fat lady

patted on his back.He just preferred to ignore her and started going ahead.Then the fat lady hold his hand.He was very shocked by her behavior.Mahesh"Madam will you leave my hand?What are you doing?""Dada,don't you recognize me? I am Nisha."On that moment Mahesh looked at her face.He was shocked how did his sister manage to gain so much weight.Then he remembered while he was too busy in the rat race of this city.When he didn't have anytime to spare for his own family.Might be his sister eat too much?There was tears in his eyes.

           When they arrived at home,Smruti behaved very pleasantly with them.She didn't show any of her true feelings.After entering in the house children gathered around them.Baba showered his love and gift on them.But Nisha just went inside and sat on sofa.For sometime she continued looking out of window slowly Mahesh noticed that she was not going to talk.Then he finally started talking."So how is your life?""Fine.""After that she once again started looking out of the window.Mahesh "Did you have any problem at journey?""No."Mahesh was not going to give up easily.He started once again."Nisha what did you eat in the train?""Many items.I just don't remember them."Then Nisha suddenly picked up bananas from table and began eating them.Mahesh was observing her.She was not paying attention to anyone.She was looking out of window like something interesting was happening outside.But truthfully she was just looking at trees.While doing this she had eaten ten bananas.This was the way of her weight gain.

          When they all sat to eat their lunch,they were all very happy.Even Smruti was acting normal.All were eating and talking at the same time.Nisha was not comfortable.Her manners were telling clearly she was not happy.Once again she found another window.This time while thinking she had finished six chapatis and all the dessert.His sister who just used to eat two chapatis.Now she had finished six chapatis and about to eat more when Baba stopped her.Baba"How much you are going to eat?Doctor told you to go on diet."Smruti was already upset by her eating.She had already eaten more chapatis and while in her thought she already finished dessert and children were very angrily looking at her.Pinki"Aunt you have finished all sweets.Now what are we going to eat?"Raju"You should have at least left some for us."Situation was very strange Nisha was very much panic.But Smruti came to her rescue"Don't worry.I have bought some ice cream.I will serve it."Pinki"But don't give it to Auntie.She had eaten too much."Mahesh"Pinki!you shall not speak with elders like this."Raju"But Auntie did the wrong thing.It was her mistake and you are..."Smruti scolded children."Both of you keep your mouth shut.I don't want hear you arguing with your Dad.If you get ice cream, you shall eat your ice cream. What do Dad give to others is not your concern?Okay."After hearing this from Smruti children started crying.Mahesh quickly understood what Smruti was trying to tell.He could clearly see in children's eyes that they were going to hate their Aunt.He didn't want it that way.So he changed his view."Okay.I have an idea.Nisha will have just one bowl and everyone else have two."Both the kids loved this idea.Pinki"That is fair."Baba"No.Nisha can't eat anything.I think she have already eaten enough.I don't want her to eat more calories.I think it's better that she shall go to sleep."Mahesh was about to argue. But Baba stopped him with gestures only.Nisha ran towards room.But after that everyone was tense.Even children kept quiet.

              At night Mahesh once again decided to talk with Smruti because in this condition would not let Nisha stay in the village.He must keep her here.Mahesh"Smruti can't you see?I can't send her back.""Then don't you observe?We can't adjust with her.""But ...what do you wish?I can do anything to keep her here.""I wish that you shall show her to Doctor.""For what?"Before Smruti could give an answer to Mahesh.There was a sound of vessels banging with each other.Smruti"Thief."Mahesh took a stick from kitchen.But when they entered in the kitchen,they saw that Nisha was looking vacantly in air and finishing all leftover.Smruti"Don't you think that was enough as a reason?"

            Next day  Mahesh took her to his physician.When he asked her name.Nisha was so confused while telling her name.She continuously looking at Mahesh for confirmation of her name.She was not even confident about her college's name.After this doctor checked her.Doctor"She is overweight.I will write down the diet..""Sorry to interrupt Doctor.But I like to know why she is eating so much.""I beg pardon.She has changed her eating habit?""Yes.Since my mom died..."Then Mahesh explained everything to Doctor.Doctor"I think she is suffering from Depression.I will give you Doctor's number and clinic address."Next day Mahesh and Baba took her to psychiatrist who talked to her for long time.Then he told them"Nisha was very involved with her mother.After her death she started feeling confused and lonely.Whenever she got nervous,she started eating.But depression is on basic stage.You came on time.She is suffering Dysthymic Disorder only."Mahesh"I think if she stay with me..""No.Don't change her surroundings.If you act like this,she will lose her friends also who are her greatest help in difficult times.I tell you what you suppose to do."After that Doctor told Mahesh when he supposed to bring Nisha.So after all everything once again turned to normal Mahesh's life.But of course after hard efforts.It was not easy to keep Nisha away from food.

                                                        The End   

Adventure story 11. slim

                                                                Slim

Charu went for shopping with her friends.This was first time that she was going on shopping without her Mom or any elder.Shopping on her own just with friends was a unique freedom for Charu.She never felt so happy and free until then.Her Mom always used to guide her about her dresses and after all she had to chose them properly.But now she wanted to make some choice by herself.Charu was so tired of being called Mama's girl.She wanted to prove herself so when they went in mall.She was so excited.She started looking around.She had money in her pocket and mood to purchase some thing.She looked at her friend Nisha. Charu "So what are you going to buy today?"Nisha looked irritated.Nisha"My mother didn't give me enough money so I don't think I can afford anything."But then Nisha looked at Charu.Nisha smiled"So you got the money."Charu nodded and Nisha hugged her.Nisha was suddenly on top of earth.Nisha took her to side and told other friends that she needed to adjust dress and Charu would help her.Every one nodded after all Charu and Nisha were best friends so no one would interfere between them.As soon as they were alone,Nisha began to speak"Actually I had a big fight with mom on that issue of drawing classes.Do you remember it?"Of course Charu remembered it clearly.That day Charu went to Nisha's home.Nisha was excited about joining one drawing class.It was costly but she wanted to join.Then her mom came out side and take promise from Nisha that she would complete this class and she would not leave it in between.This was Nisha's biggest problem.She always used to start some thing and then suddenly left it.This time Nisha was fully determined to stick in this class but that teacher was too strict.When Nisha took off just for one day because she was tired.That teacher directly phoned her mother in her office and all troubles were started.Nisha's mother clearly told her that she would not get extra money until she complete her class.Nisha was upset now.But when she heard that Charu got money.She was looking happy.Charu was scared.She didn't want to share her money.She didn't want to give Nisha any money.She knew that Nisha was her best friend.But once borrowing starts relationship always get effected was Charu's logic.Then Nisha spoke"So today we can shop for you and I tell every one that we plan this way.We are going to search for perfect dress for you."Then Nisha hold her hand started pulling her towards shop.Charu felt so ashamed.She should have never thought about her friend in this way.

        Then Nisha told every one about her plan.One of the girl"Actually my Mom have not given me much money.I can just afford food and snacks."All other girl confessed that they also didn't have money so they decided to purchase some thing for Charu.They all were very pleased.They started searching in every store.But things were too costly for Charu so they had wander from one shop to another.Finally they found one dress which was better and not that much costly.Every thing was fine until Charu looked in mirror with dress.She was too fat.She could see it clearly in mirror.First her friend gave her medium size.But the sale girl of that shop took it away from her friend and gave extra large.When Charu saw it,she could also see her friend was so happy to see that.After all they all were thin than her.Even fattest Tina was just plump when she compared with Charu.Charu could see it that they were hiding their smiles.Charu took it from sale girl.Charu"I am not that fat.But still if you insist I will try this."Then Charu went inside trial room.She was so upset due to that sales girl.She was convinced that she could have wore that small size.But when she started to wear that extra large.She felt suffocated.She just couldn't wear it.Then she felt that suddenly stitching of that dress started giving away.Charu felt so strange.All her friends were waiting outside in hope that she would wear that dress and show them.Charu was so panic now.She couldn't go outside and show them that dress.She was so upset and nervous.She looked at herself in mirror.She saw her fat and her totally damaged figure.Charu started crying. Then she felt that her friend Nisha was tapping on door.Nisha "Charu are you all right?Do you need my help?"At that moment Charu was desperate for help.Charu slowly opened the door.Nisha was shocked to see her.Nisha"My god!!That size is too small for you."Charu started crying.Nisha"Now don't cry.Nothing bad had happened.""Look at me.I looked worst.""Come on.You are just little bit fat so what many people are fat.This store don't have proper dress in proper size.Just remove it and we will search in other store."Then they tried to remove that dress.It was too much efforts even at one point.Nisha fell and hit on wall while pulling it.They must had heard voice from outside because her friends started inquiring about it.Nisha"I think we need to cut it...""No way.I will remove it."Then they both tried harder and finally that dress came out but many stitches were already gone.Then they both just threw that dress there and literally ran out of store while taking other friends in tow with them.After all they couldn't face that sales girl after doing so much damage to their dress.Then Charu decided that she didn't want a dress and Nisha willingly nodded with her in agreement.All other friends were confused but still they just had to agree with them because Charu got the money.

         After that Nisha suggested that they should buy some ornament for Charu.Charu was no longer in mood to buy anything but still she nodded.But suddenly one of friend said"I am hungry.I came from home on empty stomach.I want some thing to eat."Other friend "Come on.Don't act like a pig...We will buy some thing for Charu first."Every one was shocked by this line calling some one pig was a big insult so argument started.Then it began too increase.Every one was involved in it except Charu.Even Nisha was so busy in solving that argument that she completely forgot about Charu.Then finally the girl who insulted decided to apologized and argument stopped.But when they all turned around,they saw that Charu was near on mirror and she was looking at herself.Nisha"Charu what is wrong with you?""Nothing.Just look at me.Don't you think that I am fat and ugly.""Come on.Nothing is that wrong in you.Many people are fat so what is big.""But look at me.I can't even fit in that dress.How ugly I am!! I just wish...I can reduce my weight.""If you do diet,you can get slim.There are many courses which will make you fit.Just join one of them and you will be fine."Charu smiled.She liked that idea.She decided to join one.Nisha"Let us go and buy a necklace for you.Come on this is first time when you have your own freedom to buy something."Charu nodded in agreement.Then they all convinced every one that they must go to shops.Finally all friend agreed and to go for shopping.But as soon as Charu entered in shop.She saw that two of sales person were started laughing.She was so sure that they were laughing on her.But then she thought that she was getting paranoid so Charu entered inside the store with full confidence.All her friends followed her.She found their chatting very relaxing.Then when they came near counter that sales man asked "What do you want Mam?"He was looking at all girls.Finally Charu said "I want a necklace."Charu clearly saw disappointment in his eyes.She felt that he hated to sell necklace to such a fat customer after all it would look better on other customers.Then he started showing them to Charu.Charu started wearing them but each was making her look fat.Specially her cheek they looked to fat when she wore pearls.Then she tried golden but due to it her neck was looking too fat.Finally she began to hate each one of them.She was about to say "No."When Nisha started insisting that she should buy one thin chain.But that chain was seemed so small on her.Nisha was so shocked to see how easily that chain was hidden inside Charu's fat neck.Then suddenly Charu took it out and screamed"I don't want necklace."

          They all were confused by Charu's reaction.They looked at Nisha in hope to convince her.Nisha went ahead and convinced Charu for long time.Finally Charu decided to buy pearl necklace which was looking good on her.Charu was healthy. Some called her "fat" But she was beautiful in all other factors.None of her friends thought her as fat.But they all felt that Charu was acting strange today.Charu was nice and quiet girl.She never created any scene but today she was getting upset on each and every thing.They sensed that some thing was wrong.But they didn't understand how did they suppose to handle it.Then they all went to eat something.Charu was so upset today that she had decided that she would not eat anything and she made it clear.But they all knew that as soon as Charu smelled those nice smell of food.She would run to counter.Their guess turned perfectly true.Charu ran towards counter as soon as she entered in food court.Then she ordered many things all were fatty and spicy.Then they all began to eat.Charu also started eating food.She ate everything properly.Every thing was fine until suddenly Charu began to feel that some thing was wrong with her stomach.She felt that she was going to vomit.She didn't want to vomit there so she ran towards restroom.But it was already too late she couldn't find restroom and she vomited on food.It was worst moment for her.Everyone was embarrassed.Even her best friend Nisha was so shocked.All people in mall were looking at her with disgusting expression after all it was so unhygienic.Then clearer was immediately called.Nisha decided to take Charu back to her home so finally Nisha and Charu returned home.Charu's Mom was shocked to her pale face.Mom"What happened?""Auntie she is sick.She had vomited in mall.""My god!!"Mom started taking Charu in arms.Nisha kept all Charu's things on table.Nisha"I will go home now.Will you phone me when Doctor tell about her?""Of course and don't worry.It must be upset stomach due to that unhygienic mall food.Charu must had ate lot of it.Now Charu you must rest while I get ready and let's take you to Doctor."Charu nodded and went to sleep on her bed.Charu was so upset.She just didn't understand but she didn't want to be sick.But she was feeling so strange in her stomach at that moment.Now everything seemed so perfect as if nothing had happened.She didn't want to visit Doctor.It was so scary.Then her Mom came there and told Charu to change clothes.After all her clothes were so dirty.Charu changed them.Then they waited in queue for their turn in Doctor's clinic.These were worst moment for Charu.She always hated visiting Doctor.Finally they went inside.Doctor checked her.Doctor looked so confused.Doctor checked her once more this time in details.Charu was sure that she must be sick with some deadly disease. After some time Doctor asked her many question and then finally turned towards her Mom.Doctor"She looked fine to me.May be this is acidity?I will give you some medicine.""I just don't understand.She vomited in mall so she must be sick.""No.It could happen due to acidity.I give you some medicine.It will take care of it."Charu's Mom was so confused.Then when they returned home.Charu once again came in her mood.She started showing Mom all things.She had purchased.Her Mom appreciated her purchase.Then finally her Mom suggested that she should eat some food.But Charu didn't feel such hungry.She decided that she didn't want food.Then at dinner she was once again invited for food.Charu just didn't want eat any spicy food.But when she saw her Mom was giving her just diet food.She began to eat it.But when she started eating it,she just began to hate it's taste.She felt once again uneasy so she just left table and ran in her room.Her Dad"What happen?Why did Charu was so upset?"Her Mom told him everything.Dad"Strange indeed.She was perfect still she vomited.I think we must show her to another Doctor.

          After two three days once again her Mom made tasty snacks for them.Charu just loved smell of that deep oiled food.She wanted to control herself.But when she smelled it,she just couldn't control herself.Charu knew very well why her Mom was doing it.She was not eating that much now a days so her Mom was making it to tempt her.Charu screamed angrily"Mom why are you doing it?You know how much I love them?""Then go ahead eat them.If you eat in limit nothing will go wrong.Actually your Uncle is coming with his family so I am making this for them."Charu looked at her Mom.Her Mom was thin so it was okay for her to say so.After all her Mom was not that fat.Charu was fat just like her grandmother and uncle.Now her Uncle was coming so Mom must be preparing three course meal and feast for him and she had to tolerate those smells.Her uncle didn't mind to be fat but she hated it so she was going to loose weight.She went inside her room.She shut her door but her mind couldn't shut that smell which was coming through the air.After all she couldn't stop her Mom from making food for her Uncle.Then slowly she got so tempted.Still she engaged herself in her project of her school.It worked out very well.But then when her Dad came home and finally her Uncle came with his family.She had to come out to meet them.They all chatted with each other and Charu slowly forgot about her fat figure then after some time they all sat on dinner table.When Charu saw that food ,she just couldn't control herself and started eating it.She didn't even counted how much did she manage to eat.No one was paying any attention to her because they all were busy in eating their food.Her plate was full of all deeply fried food and she ate it all.Then finally when her Mom asked for dessert.She came to her senses.She ate all that food.She looked at her plate.She was so shocked with her behaviour.She just didn't understand how could she act with such a stupidity.She must had increased her weight.She looked around.Every one was in perfect shape except her.Then she looked at their plates.They all were eating limited food except her Uncle who was in bad shape and eating more than others.But still it was less than Charu.She was so shocked to see that she was eating in maximum quantity.She looked at her Mom.Her Mom never cared about her diet.She just thought that Charu would reduce her weight automatically which was impossible.Charu wanted to cry but at that moment she felt something was wrong with stomach.Charu could feel that she was going to throw up.She ran to bathroom and vomited.She could see all people sitting on table were shocked.Her Mom came running toward her.Then Mom suggested her to go to sleep.Charu once again slept on bed.She vomited but she was glad to get rid of  that food.She was smiling even while sleeping.Her mom found it strange but didn't say anything.

        When Charu's Mom came outside,every one started inquiring about Charu.Mom was so tense.She told every one what Doctor told her.Dad"This is nonsense. She was vomiting.In fact she lost her interest in food."Charu's cousin Om"But she was eating normally now.In fact she had eaten a bit too much."Auntie"Shut up.How many times I told you not to speak while elders are talking?She was eating so what?She can eat as much as she wish.But that doesn't justify her vomiting.She is just like your father.In case of love of eating she went on her Uncle.So what?She ate like this many times.But she digested it perfectly.Am I wrong?"Mom"Not at all.Charu never had any digestion problem until now.This time also that is no pain in stomach or any other problem except she vomited twice and she was not that much hungry now a days."Uncle"I think you must show her to some other Doctor."Dad nodded in agreement.Then they started showing Charu to many specialist.They did all checking including her brain scan.Every thing was okay except her sudden weight loss which was clearly due to her vomiting and nausea.They went to each and every Doctor but none of them found anything wrong in her.Finally one Doctor suggested a psychiatrist.Dad"How can my daughter pretend a vomit.Come on.This can't happen due to mental problem.""No.It is possible.In fact it is quite common between teenage like your daughter.She is overweight right."Charu could feel there was tears in her eyes even after so many health problem and other problems still she was over weight.Her weight was just not reducing.Mom"My daughter is very sensitive regarding her weight issue so ...""That's it.This cause of problem she wanted to reduce her weight so she is using these wrong methods due to which she had become weak.I can't explain it all just go to this Doctor.He will explain you everything."Doctor could clearly see tears in Charu's eyes.He felt that he was complicating the things more so he gave the number.That day Charu just could manage to keep any food in her body.Next day they took her to that Doctor.She was a nice Doctor.She talked to Charu for many hours.Then finally she came out and told Charu to go and read magazine while she talked with her parents.Charu liked her so she happily went away.She never felt such relieved ever before she shared her every feeling with that Doctor willingly.Then Doctor told them "Your daughter is suffering from Bulimia nervosa. Bulimia nervose means "disease of hunger affecting the nervous system".It is an eating disorder characterized by binge eating and purging, or consuming a large amount of food in a short amount of time followed by an attempt to rid oneself of the food consumed (purging), typically by vomiting, taking a laxative or diuretic, or excessive exercise.Your daughter wanted to be thin and she is doing this just to turn into slim girl."Mom"I just can't believe it.She is little bit healthy but not that fat.""I know but let me explain this. Among women, adolescents are the most at risk. A survey of 496 adolescent girls reported that more than 12 percent experienced some form of eating disorder by the time they were 20."Mom"This is horrible.But why did it's happening now? In my class there were many fat girls but there was never such problem.""Over the years the size and weight of the average woman has increased with improved nutrition. Over the years there has also been an increased message from the media to be thin. The media projects a thin-ideal rather than a healthy-ideal, and this causes women and young girls to work toward having a thin body even if it means vomiting."Dad"My god I never thought those advertisements create that effect on my daughter.What do we suppose to do now?May be we shall keep her away from T.V.""No..No.Never do that mistake.Just hiding from problem will not solve her.I am here to help her.I will explain her everything and she will be just fine."Then for some times Charu went to that Doctor willingly.Slowly Charu decided to do proper diet.But she no longer obsessed with thinness.She was doing it just to keep herself healthy and active.

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