Dead Mom
Supriya was sleeping peacefully when she suddenly sensed some movement. She didn’t understand what was going on. She could feel something was moving on her body. She didn’t like it but she was too sleepy. But it kept coming ahead & ahead. Supriya shivered with fear. She knew that she needed to awake. She must find out what was happening. So slowly she opened her eyes. She sat in bed & started checking out if she had some bite marks. She didn’t. She was sure that there was nothing on her legs. She shivered with fear. It was happening again. She knew that nothing was on her legs. She was sleeping in same room with her parents. Her house was too small for separate room. She didn’t want anyone to sense her fear. She was sleeping on floor with mattress. She looked towards her parents. They clearly didn’t sense anything. She just wished for separate room. But it was not possible. They didn’t have so much money. Her parents were more interested in marrying her off instead of buying new house. She was feeling so upset by all. She knew that they would soon fix her marriage. She didn’t have exactly issues with getting married. But she was scared that this person Samir might not understand her fears. She was feeling so restless. She knew soon her brother would come back after finishing his studies to stay with them. They were expecting him to find some girl friend. But it didn’t seem to be happening. Supriya knew their life was doomed. She didn’t feel any positive was going to come in their life & it was her Dad’s mistake. She shivered. She looked towards her small house. She didn’t understand why did that woman decided to marry to a poor man like her Dad. It was so upsetting. Supriya remembered all. Her Mom was waiting for approval forever from her Dad. She knew that her Mom never got it. It was so stressful. She needed to feel positive in her mind. She knew that now she was staying with her Dad & step Mom. She knew that they were now her parents. Her Mom was gone. She didn’t want to remember her. She just knew one thing. One day there was big argument between her parents. Then her Mom started crying. Her Mom kept screaming “ You cheated me…you cheated me..” She was feeling so sad. Her Mom from that day started to get sad. Step by step her Mom began to look sick. One day her Mom fall truly sick & died. She was small on that time. She sat on floor when they started to put her Mom’s body down. She suddenly felt something was coming on her legs. There were ants. She screamed cried. It was too late. She wanted to kill them but they were so many. Finally one neighbour saw it & immediately took her in bathroom. She stood under shower for sometime. That pain was not reduced. She suddenly wanted to forget all. She looked towards her legs. There were not any ants now. Her step Mom who had become her Mom was sleeping peacefully on bed. She hated her. But she knew that she couldn’t say it. Her Step Mom was rich. Her Dad hoped one day she would help them with money but not until Supriya didn’t get married. Supriya knew that her parents were not ready to spend any money on her. Her Mom was dead. She began to cry slowly. Due to voice of crying Supriya’s Mom Charu woke up. Charu gave uneasy look to Supriya. Charu knew that something was wrong with her step daughter Supriya. Charu wanted to say something but Charu couldn’t. After all it was all her mistake. It was not just her mistake Supriya’s father was attracted towards her too. She still remembered how hard she tried to control her feelings when she knew that Rishi was married & had two children. But it didn’t work. Charu kept getting attracted & finally they got involved. Charu still remembered that day when she moved ahead without thinking about Rishi’s marriage. She felt from her mind that it was her biggest mistake. She started to feel so hurt. Charu decided that she couldn’t question Supriya now. Charu knew that she was lucky that Supriya & her brother Pradip accepted her. Charu was not so positive about Samir. Samir looked like nice boy but he was not actually involved in Supriya. Their dating was forced. She could easily see that Supriya was not happy about that relationship. Supriya was feeling so stressed & so upset. Charu was so tense. Charu was feeling so upset. Charu looked towards Supriya. Once again Supriya was rubbing her legs. It seemed as if some thing managed to create rash on her skin. She began to get restless. Charu slowly turned behind & saw that Supriya was trying hard to remove something from her legs. Then after sometime Supriya looked towards them. Charu pretended that she was sleeping. It was so upsetting. But Charu closed her eyes & once again surrendered herself to sleep. Supriya kept checking her legs. She knew that she needed to feel happy about Samir. But she was not feeling it. Supriya knew one thing was clear. She was not feeling normal & Samir didn’t able to understand it. She hoped to God that Samir would help her. But Samir was concentrating on just future planning of money. In Samir’s eyes money was primary issue. Many times she felt that he was not interested much in her. He was doing this marriage since all did marriage & he wanted someone to take care of his house. Samir was not searching for love in his life. He just wanted to find someone who could do cooking & take care of his house. Supriya was getting training of it from Charu. But Supriya didn’t feel confident regarding this marriage. This marriage would start to damage her life. But Supriya couldn’t say it. Supriya needed to admire all. Supriya kept telling herself everything would become great. She knew that next day she was going for movie with Samir. She needed to sleep so she began to try to fall asleep. It was stressful but she was going to do it. She knew that she needed to look beautiful next day. She started to force herself to sleep. It was hard but finally once again she began to feel sleepy & she slowly closed her eyes. She didn’t have pleasant dreams but she just needed to sleep it was okay to have few nightmares.
Supriya woke up late next morning. She could smell their lunch so Charu already started it. It was stressful when she started to imagine Charu in kitchen instead of her mother. She didn’t want to argue whatever happened had happened! She couldn’t change it. She was no longer small. She needed to accept whatever happening. She tried her best to smile & went in kitchen. Charu was cooking curry when she noticed that Supriya just entered in kitchen. Supriya looked towards her. Charu could see one anger in her eyes. Supriya tried to hide it whole time but it was not happening. Charu knew that it was not mistake of Supriya. Charu had affair with Rishi before death of his first wife. Supriya suffered due to it. Pradip was less attached to his Mom so Pradip managed to accept Charu more easily but Supriya couldn’t. Charu smiled. “ I will give breakfast to you.” Supriya immediately smiled & said “ Sure. Let me wash teeth first.” Supriya cleaned teeth. Then she came in kitchen. Her breakfast was already on table. Supriya sat on table & began to enjoy breakfast. She was so frustrated. She began to enjoy it’s smell & taste. She knew that Charu was frustrating but her cooking was great. She wanted to enjoy it. She began to feel hopeful in soul. She started to view all positively. She was expecting call from Samir but instead Charu’s mobile rang. Charu looked shocked when she saw number on her mobile. She began to get upset. Charu slowly said “ Samir’s Mom.” Supriya began to feel uneasy in stomach. Suddenly breakfast was no longer welcoming. Charu took call of Samir’s Mom. Samir’s Mom said slowly “ I know this is very wrong. I know but I don’t have much options so I called you.” “ What happened?” “ Actually Samir needed to go out to USA. We need to arrange some money..I know it’s odd but can you manage to arrange it?..we will manage to return loan.” Charu didn’t say anything. Charu knew that they wanted money from her. But she was not planning to give it. Her money was just for herself. She was not planning to spend it on anyone. She knew that if she fall sick no one was going to take care of her. Her stepchildren were not willing to spend anything on her. She was certain about it. She slowly said “ I will ask Rishi but I tell you frankly we don’t have much money. You can see our small house. We have limited money.” Suddenly Samir’s Mom changed subject & Charu took breath of relief. When Charu disconnected call, Supriya immediately said “ I am glad that you said ‘ no’ “ Supriya didn’t want any money from Charu. She hated her. Then Supriya ate breakfast peacefully. She started to feel relaxed. She slowly went in room & got ready. Then suddenly her mobile rang. She saw Samir was calling. “ Samir I am getting ready..” “ My God! Movie will start in 30 minutes just come out.” She felt so nervous. She got ready as soon as possible & ran out. She smiled sweetly & sat in Samir’s car. Samir smiled back. Then Samir immediately concentrated on road. He began to get relaxed & drive. She kept looking towards him. She liked him. He was so rich & nice looking too. She didn’t need to beg for money if she got married to him. She didn’t want any help from her parents. They started to drive towards multiplex when she began to feel positive. She was hoping to watch movie & enjoy when suddenly Samir began talking “ Have you ever thought about earning money?” Supriya shivered. She knew that she didn’t able to earn. She was hoping that Samir wouldn’t demand it. Samir seemed like rich boy. She smiled nervously & asked “ I need to earn?” He gave her sadistic laugh & said “ Of course! I am not going to feed you entire life!” She began to feel so nervous. She thought finally her need to earn money was over but it didn’t. She said slowly “ I will start to plan regarding earning.” Samir nodded. Then they went to movie. She tried her best to please Samir but it was not working. She didn’t able to enjoy movie but Samir was enjoying it on every step. It was so upsetting. She tried hard to smile & enjoy herself. She was hoping for some romantic moments but Samir was not interested. Samir just asked “ What do you like to eat?” She said “ Anything would do.” Samir “ I will try to get some cold drinks & Pop corns.” She just nodded. She began to feel so sad. She wanted some positive feelings. She was hoping that Samir would speak nicely. Samir went to purchase cold drinks & Pop corns. She kept waiting inside while he went outside. It took him long time. She kept watching towards door. She regretted that she didn’t went with him but she didn’t want to appear pushy. Then finally Samir came. He was talking with another girl. He was laughing with her. She felt so nervous. He didn’t laugh like this with her. When he came towards seat she asked without thinking “ Who was she?” He gave angry look. He just pushed cold drinks & Pop corns in her hands. She smiled but he didn’t return it. He sat beside her & said in controlled voice “ I will meet plenty of people in my life. I talk with girls in friendly way. You don’t need to look doubtful in every case otherwise it’s better that we don’t start our life together. I feel that we might need to just breakup.” She felt so nervous. She didn’t understand what was her mistake. She just asked in normal way out of curiosity. She was so tense. She said with voice that was shaking “ I am sorry.” Samir didn’t look towards her. Samir was watching movie & smiling. He was once again involved in movie. It seemed as if he didn’t really cared. She didn’t understand what was happening. It seemed as if he was doing all just to hurt her. But she knew that it was not true. She slowly pushed her fingers under his hand. She was expecting him to smile or get angry but he did nothing. It seemed as if her touch didn’t effect him much. Samir was so busy in movie. Her touch was not important for him. She wanted to cry but she controlled herself. She must not act childish like this. She turned her attention to movie. She began to watch it. She slowly began to enjoy movie too. She started to forget her issues too. She was enjoying herself due to it’s interesting story.
Charu was so tense. Things were not moving same way as they supposed to. Charu knew that she was step Mom but still she began to feel concerned about Supriya like real Mom. She decided that she needed to talk with Rishi. That day when Rishi came, she told Rishi that Supriya was having some itching on legs in nights. Charu “ I want to say it becoming recurring.” “ You feel she need skin specialist.” “ Of course!” Rishi smiled & said “ We have enough to do that.” Charu smiled & took appointment of Skin specialist. It was easy & quick. When Supriya came back, Rishi immediately asked her “ Your Mom was telling you have some rash on legs?” Supriya felt glad by this question. She didn’t want to discuss about Samir. She immediately started complaining about her rash. Then she slowly showed it. Charu was shocked. There was red marks of nail. It was getting worst. Charu could see infection clearly. Charu “ I called Doctor. Let us go.” Supriya nodded happily. Supriya just wanted to escape from her Dad. Rishi was happy that Supriya was finally accepting Charu as mother. Charu prepared all in time & took Supriya for treatment immediately on that day. Doctor checked her. Then Doctor wrote some medicines. But Doctor was clearly not happy with situation. Doctor “ I don’t understand. There is infection on skin but it’s due to scratching by nails. I don’t see any allergies on it.” Then Doctor slowly turned towards Supriya asked “ Why you were snatching your skin?” Supriya gave nervous smile & lied “ It was itching.” Doctor asked without believing her “ Really?! Was it red?” Supriya was so confused. Finally Doctor turned to Charu “ I tell you one thing if your daughter don’t tell all properly problem will increase. She needed to tell all to Doctor.” Supriya began to feel so nervous. She started to cry slowly. Then Charu tried to console her. “ Doctor is not blaming you..” Doctor “ I am blaming her. She can’t carry on like this. It can get life threatening.” Supriya slowly said “ I felt as if some insects were running on my legs. Nothing was there.” Doctor now observed her carefully. “ Your legs become sensation-less?” “ No..no I felt as if insects were climbing, the way they did..” she didn’t talk further. Doctor slowly asked “ Do you have nightmares like that?” She nodded. Doctor slowly wrote one name. Doctor “ This is name of Psychiatrist. You must visit him.” Supriya started to cry slowly but Charu patted on her shoulder & said “ We can go just two of us. No one need to know.” Doctor smiled & said “ I just suggest same. We don’t need crowd there. Just go with her. Any way she will discuss all alone you just need to sit outside. Trust me. No one will know. All will become fine.” Supriya stopped crying suddenly all started to look positive. Supriya said slowly “ It will stop nightmares?” “ Of course!” Supriya smiled happily. Supriya “ I am so scared of them.” When they came out, Supriya slowly began to tell all to Charu about nightmares. Charu felt so tense & guilty. Charu “ I just wish only if I have not become cause of this trouble for you & your Mom. I don’t want to damage your family.” Supriya didn’t say anything. Supriya didn’t want to comment on it. She couldn’t forgive Charu but she needed Charu on that point. Then Charu took appointment of psychiatrist of next week. In that week Supriya kept waking up in nights. Now she began to wear pants & socks to protect her feet from scratching. Supriya was waiting for Samir’s call. But he was too busy. Whenever she called he gave nice excuses & managed to avoid fixing next date. Finally time to visit Psychiatrist came. As Skin specialist suggested. Psychiatrist told Charu to wait outside. Then Supriya began to tell. Supriya told trauma she suffered as child when her father cheated her Mom. She expressed her entire dislike. Psychiatrist heard all & said “ This is happening since your one heart want to enjoy life with step Mom & Dad since it want to live normally. But other kept feeling angry since they were indirect cause of your Mom’s death. They damaged your Mom emotionally. But I ask you doesn’t divorce common? I mean your Mom also needed to become strong for you. Don’t you feel it was her mistake too?” “ She tried..” “ Not enough. She didn't took proper care of herself & got sick. She died & now you need to move over it, You can’t keep hating whatever parents you have. This way you will die the way your Mom did.” She shivered with fear. Psychiatrist smiled & said “ Don’t worry. Your step Mom brought you in right place. I will teach you how to handle all.” She began to nod. She was so tense. But she wanted help & she was planning to get help. She slowly began to listen to psychiatrist. She talked for hours & it really helped her. She began to feel so relaxed. Then Charu was called inside. Psychiatrist gave some medicines & also gave next appointment. Charu smiled happily. That night Supriya slept peacefully after long time. But still Supriya was tense. She kept feeling stressed. Slowly step by step her stressed was so reduced. Finally she called one day to Samir & said “ Let’s break up.” Samir was shocked but he agreed. Supriya felt so relieved. She told her father Rishi about it. Charu supported her. Charu told Rishi how did they were after money. Charu “ I don’t want my daughter to be married to a man who marry her just for money.” Rishi didn’t like it but he nodded. Rishi decided that let mother & daughter decide what was wrong & what was right. After this Supriya & Charu developed one different bonding. They no longer pretended affection. They truly started to generate it. Charu couldn’t able to replace Supriya’s Mom but she became best friend of Supriya which was enough for them to live life happily. Slowly Supriya stopped having nightmares. Her treatment was stopped & she started living normal life. Now she kept her mother’s photo in room & all gave her Mom respect for her Mom deserved & Supriya was happy about it. She decided to forgive their wrong actions for happy & peaceful life.
The End
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