Inside Tarika
Satish was totally confident that he knew all about it. He studied for so many hours regarding that concept. He knew that it would be perfect if he began to work on it. He started preparing even to list of hopes. He wanted to visit during his work. He was so happy. He was planning to get married to his childhood friend. It was perfect marriage for him. He knew that Tarika was perfect match for him. They never dated officially but they always went out on picnics & tours. Their families always went out together. But Satish’s family was not rich so Sarika always remain someone who was like princess to him. He never dream to marry her. He always hoped that he would find some way which would help him to find some nice girl. But he never hoped for Tarika. She was like some star for him. They were not in love but when her parents suggested this marriage he agreed without second thought. They all declared that they knew each other so they could get married as soon as possible. Satish was happy to get dream girl. He never thought that he needed to date her. He wanted to marry a girl due to which all would envy him. It had already become ego issue for him. He wanted to win a girl with wonderful reputation. It was required for him. When they discussed her, he agreed without second thought. He knew that she was perfect for him. Satish didn’t need to go out with Tarika. But he didn’t understand one thing. From childhood he saw that Tarika was always nervous. Tarika always kept to herself. She was shy girl but Satish knew that it was not unique. It was common in girls. Girls were always shy. Today he was going on wedding shopping with her. He was so happy. He came down. He didn’t own some costly car so he needed to use his simple small car. He knew that it was little bit low standard for Tarika. But he didn’t have much option. He could offer only what he had. He gave nervous look to his shirt. It was nice shirt. It was branded but cheapest shirt of that brand. It seemed so perfect for him. He began to feel so happy. He started to think positively about all. He formed hopes. He created new dream. He began to think hopefully about life. He started to think in different direction. He formed new hope in mind. He knew that Tarika was perfect for him. He came out. He suddenly sensed that something was wrong. He began to get a feeling that Tarika was smiling in odd way. He always disliked it when she smiled like that. He practically avoided her when she smiled like that. It was totally odd. He didn’t understand meaning. He began to get restless. He wanted to feel happy but he kept getting confused. He went near her & suddenly she hugged him. It was great. She was his fiancée but something was wrong. She was so different today. She was not shy Tarika. Tarika started laughing sweetly. She tried to smile nervous way. He didn’t understand what he needed to feel in his heart. Tarika was acting so odd. He knew that she was odd. He didn’t understand why he kept lying to himself. He knew that something was odd with her. He began to get nervous. He knew somewhere in heart. He didn’t try to date her since she was odd. But then he knew that he was poor that was another cause. He felt so happy when she selected him over millionaires. He decided that he must keep entertaining her. He smiled. Tarika gave shy smile. But it was difficult for her to keep. Something was going on. Then she suddenly patted his cheek & said “ Take me to beer bar my boyfriend.” He was shocked. He knew that she drank. He drank too so it was okay. But she never had drinking problem or at least he never heard about it! But he knew her from childhood so this was confusing to him. He didn’t understand what was going on. He asked nicely “ You want to drink today?” “ So what was your plan? Take me to some cheap chat corner? I like it too. But do you include going in cheap bar too? I like drinks which villagers make. They are nice too. So where are we planning to go?” He was so shocked. He pulled his hand out of her hand & asked “ What wrong with you?” Soon she began to come near him. He could sense her intentions. He was so shocked. He was not old fashioned but all people from street were watching them. He preferred privacy & until now. She felt same way. It was too much. He tried to push her away. But her hold was so strong. She was laughing him. He began to get so upset. He just screamed on her “ Let me go!” She suddenly slapped him. She hit him so much that for sometime he couldn’t able to see anything. He just wanted her to go away. He didn’t want to see her again. It was frustrating for him. He just ran towards his flat. He reached to door. He tried to open it but his hand was shivering. At least twice key managed to fell out of his hand. He kept trying to open door but it was not happening. He didn’t want anyone to hear him crying. In his eyes it was disrespectful for man to cry like that. He tried to control his fear. He kept feeling upset. He was crying. Then suddenly small boy from neighbourhood appeared. Small boy “ What happened Uncle? Why are you crying?” He didn’t say anything. But he kept searching. That small boy took out handkerchief & slowly cleaned blood on his lips. Small boy “ You are hurt?! Did you fall?” He nodded. Small boy “ Let me open door.” That small boy opened door & he ran inside. He was crying. He didn’t even close his door. Then he ran to door & closed it. But some one started knocking. He shivered. He felt that it might be some one who could ask what happened. He didn’t want to tell. But then one voice came. That woman screamed “My son said you had accident I came to help. Are you alright? Do you need something?” He needed help no doubt. He wanted to pretend it was accident. He immediately opened door. He tried to tell about fake accident but that woman ran inside. She brought ice pack. Then she even managed to bring first aid. Her son was helpful too. Most importantly they were not interested in cause of accident. He was so glad when that woman gave painkiller & he went to sleep. He wanted to forget pain but not of his wound but of his heart.
Tarika came back in her house. She started to shiver. She didn’t wanted to do this. But she forced her again. It was so wrong. She knew that she was inside her. She didn’t understand what she supposed to tell her. She kept telling her to leave her alone. Suddenly she began to heard her voice again. “ Come on let’s call him. He truly crying like some baby! Hi..hi..you are planning to marry him? He will cry along with baby then you..” she tried to stop her voice so she ran towards her headphones. She decided that if she heard some music then those voices would stop coming. She began to search for headphones but that voice was laughing such loudly. It couldn’t let her concentrate. She wanted to take control of herself but she couldn’t. This Tarika! She had one another Tarika inside her from childhood. She never understood her mystery. In childhood she kept creating a story that this was her dead twin sister. But this bad Tarika always managed to hurt people. She knew that this was ridiculous statement for her but it was actually happening in her life & it was fact. She was carrying different girl in her body. She never told about her to anyone. That girl first time came when she woke in midnight due to screams. She was so little. She used to sleep with her Mom. She didn’t understand what she was feeling in her heart. She knew that her Dad was hitting her Mom. She didn’t remove her blanket. She remained under it. She knew that she must not interfere. From childhood it was always like that. When she shifted to her separate room at age of five years she was so happy. But still she used to sleep under blanket for hours. She used to enjoy herself. She tried her best to appear happy. But in her room still she kept feeling that her father would come & hit her. She was not sure that he wouldn’t hit her. If he could hit her Mom, then he could hit her too. But then one day she heard her. She didn’t understand who was she but she still remembered. She suddenly started laughing. She wanted to control it. But she couldn’t. Her laughter increased step by step. Her entire body began to get out of her control. She began so happy. Then in few seconds her parents came in her room. Her Mom came near her. Her Mom was trying to talk when her Dad started to scream on her. She totally lost her control. She saw her mouth going ahead & she began to bite her father. She wanted to stop herself but she couldn’t. She kept feeling tense in her heart. She wanted to control her body but she couldn’t. She could sense her Dad was hitting her. She could sense blood dropping from her lips on chin. But she couldn’t stop herself. She kept biting. Finally her Dad ran out of room. Her Mom was watching her. She was even abusing her Mom & laughing. Then after sometime she was gone. She began to feel pain in her lips. She was so scared. She hugged her Mom & told “ I don’t want to do it. She did it.” Her Mom was no longer interested in her. Her Mom was angry too. Her Mom screamed “ You did all. You are evil. You are evil daughter.” She didn’t understand what was happening with her life. She was so upset. She kept crying slowly. Then after some time she fall asleep in her bed. She was so busy in her first memory that she didn’t sense someone was knocking on her room. Her Mom was calling her. They wanted to married off Tarika. It was essential for them. They needed to get rid of her. She was just big trouble in their eyes. It was so upsetting. They didn’t want her in their house. She was totally innocent that other girl in her was doing all. She kept telling it but no one was going to believe. She knew that now Satish would hate her too. She kept crying. She knew now Satish would complaint. She kept remembering many days which were worst for her. She didn’t want to become her. She wanted to remain nice. She didn’t want to hurt anyone. But that one who was hidden inside wanted to do that. She was Daddy’s favourite girl. She knew that her Dad hated the one who was hidden inside but she kept thinking that her Dad disliked that girl inside her why did she kept calling herself Daddy’s girl. For Tarika she was just evil girl. She was nothing useful. She kept telling her to go away but that evil one never went away. Her Mom started screaming loudly “ Did you done something to Satish too?” Now this was confusing. She kept counting numbers to calm herself. Her Mom started to get angry. Her Mom “ Did you hit him too?” She didn’t answer. She had enough. She wanted to stop it. Then she understood one solution. She needed to kill herself for it. She began to get restless. She started to get tense. She needed to feel relaxed but she was tense. She didn’t understand how could she feel relaxed now. But she needed to adjust with moves of that wrong one too. She needed to adjust or kill herself. She began to sense that she needed to feel positive. She started to feel so pleasant in her mind. She showed positive feel in her mind. She didn’t want to retain it. But she knew that she wanted to die but that other girl of her mind didn’t. She tried to go towards bathroom to get something to cut herself. But suddenly she lost all her control. She opened door & told her Mom “ Enough! I don’t need those boys to survive! I can do all by myself. I am planning to do some modelling. May be I get some item song! Look at my figure! I am just perfect.” Then she started dancing on item song. She wanted to control herself but she couldn’t. She wanted to cry but she was laughing & dancing. Then she got dressed up & she went to place of shooting. It was so upsetting. She wanted wonderful life but her life was stuck. She knew that now that other girl will decide all. She shivered with fear. Her Mom was watching her with shock. It was clear that no one was going to stop her. They didn’t try. As she grew up she became more strong. Her Dad didn’t want to argue with her. She went out with a modern dress. She knew that now she would do all. That she couldn’t stop. She wanted to cry but she couldn’t. It was horrible. It was frustrating.
Tarika went on shooting. She took one scene of item song. She didn’t do all dances. Then she went out with co star. She dated him & she enjoyed herself. She was doing this for long time. She was changing men on weekly basis. She wanted to stop it. At beginning she tried but now she just accepted whatever happens. Her body no longer belonged to her. She knew one thing that she needed to just get rid of that body. All was happening in normal way. But this time something different happened. She was with her co star Rajat. She was expecting him to go away as all remaining did. But Rajat stayed. Rajat smiled & produced one diamond ring. He asked “ Will you marry me?” She didn’t have much control on herself so in normal way she taunted & abused him like she did to Satish. But Rajat was different. He didn’t ran away. He kept standing there. He took hold of her hand & asked “ Why?” It was so frustrating for that girl. She just went away. Tarika was back in her body. Tarika pulled away her hand out of Rajat’s hold & began to tell him all. Rajat kept looking towards her with shock. Then Rajat told her to sit down. Rajat “ So you are not with me that girl was?!” She nodded. Rajat tried to calm himself & said slowly “ This is mental issue. Do you sense it?” “ I don’t understand.” “ Well I feel this is mental sickness. But don’t worry I will handle it.” She was feeling so confused. She didn’t trust Rajat but she managed to convince him & she was happy about it. He immediately called Psychiatrist. She was feeling so happy. When Rajat was calling Psychiatrist once again she took hold of her mind. She began to hit Rajat. She wanted to stop herself but she couldn’t, Rajat was so shocked & scared. He all kept looking towards her with shock. Then finally he began to hit back. She didn’t feel pain. But he just pushed her away & ran out of room. Tarika didn’t move for long time. She didn’t feel pain. Since that girl was inside her mind. She was perfect. But then slowly that girl vanished out of her mind. She began to feel pain. She knew one thing that she was in wrong place with wrong people. She couldn’t blame Rajat if he ran out without paying. She literally ran on road. She kept for cash. Luckily that girl managed to get lots of money. She stopped one Taxi & told it to take her back home. Driver was watching her again & again. She could see that it was horrible sight. Driver wanted to ask what happened but since she kept avoiding eyes driver decided to not ask. She paid Driver & ran in her house. She began to ring door bell but no one opened then she started banging door. But her Dad screamed “ Get lost. I don’t want daughter like you in my house. Go away.” She started crying then that girl look her control. Her hand was hitting door so strongly without caring about anything else. She kept hitting it. Slowly wood started to break. She knew that it was going to cause lots of pain to her. She could see her hand was full of blood but she didn’t stop. She kept screaming. Soon people from Society started to come towards her flat. They all kept looking towards her with shock. No one dared to touch her. Her parents were crying & screaming. They were telling that she would kill them. She must not come inside. It was so upsetting for her but she couldn’t stop. Finally someone called Cops. Lady Cop came & took hold of her. She tried to fight back. But all Cops took hold of her & arrested her. She was thrown in lockup. She kept threatening them even from inside lockup. When she woke up in lockup she was hurt & scared. She knew that no one would believe her. But then when one Inspector came towards her & started talking in harsh way. She immediately told him about her condition. She said “ I keep having these things from childhood.” “ Have you ever visited mental health care?” She turned head negatively. Lady Inspector immediately joined her. She told everything honestly. They both looked confused. Then that Inspector called some Doctor. She sat in lockup while other inmates kept looking towards her strangely. One started joking. But other looked scared. She was so scared that girl inside her mind might took control & hit them back. Then she suddenly began to sense her. She took hold of prison bar & tried to control. Lady Inspector looked suspicious & asked “ What happened?” Suddenly that girl took hold of her again. She began to hit that inmates. Luckily all Cops came inside. They managed to tie her to prison bar. Then after sometime finally Psychiatrist came. That girl smiled towards him & told him “ My Dad made me. Every time he hit my Mom I learn to hit. Do you want me to show?” Before she could start Psychiatrist told Nurse to inject her. Then Psychiatrist said “ I feel she is suffering from Dissociative Personality Disorder. This is developed due to her abusive Dad. It is serious due to lack of treatment. I must admit her immediately.” Cops agreed. Finally Tarika reached to Psychiatrist. Tarika was under treatment of Doctor who able to help her. That Psychiatrist called her parents. Her Dad agreed to make payments but he didn’t want to see her face again. Psychiatrist didn’t even wanted it. Psychiatrist didn’t even called Mom since Psychiatrist sensed that Tarika was no longer attached to her Mom too. Tarika was admitted in hospital. Psychiatrist studied her behaviour. Psychiatrist started to study her personality. It was hard case but he needed to work hard & try to cure her. But he didn’t sense impact of Tarika. It was worst. Satish was so nervous after date with her. He decided to hide himself from all. He literally locked himself for days. He decided to change job. After it he shifted from town. He didn’t want to see Tarika but he didn’t even want to marry anyone. It was frustrating for him. He kept far away from all. His parents never understood what went wrong but they sensed one thing. Tarika managed to destroy their son emotionally in one date. He was not ready to get married. But at least Satish was living life happily so they let him move ahead with hope one day he would get over it.
The End
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