Her elder sister's dream
Rita was so happy. Finally she got that date for which she was spending so many night without sleeping. That boy was special. She had crush on him. She was so happy to get it. She kept calling her Mom again & again. Her Mom was helping her to dress up. Her Mom wanted her to look beautiful. She knew that her Mom knew that it was dream date. She kept watching mirror. She was looking so beautiful & on that point her mobile rang. She was about to take call. She was so hopeful. On that point Sarika woke up with scream. Sarika was so confused. She saw once again Rita in her dream. She didn't understand cause. But she knew that she was different person in her dream. She was so upset. She didn't understand her feelings. She knew what happened after it. She was young at that time. She was just five years old. Her sister Rita was in college. She was so small while her sister was so big. There was one more sister between them. Tina was second daughter. But Tina never had any problem but with Rita! She still remembered. She was playing outside with doll. She was enjoying herself. She knew that it was wonderful day for Rita. She heard her singing wonderful song. That day Rita came from college so happily. She gave Sarika a Barbie doll as gift. Sarika was so fond of dolls. She had one cupbroad full of them. It was so nice to have one Barbie. She wanted more dolls. She needed big collection. Few days ago her Mom gave her a doll which had many dolls inside. It was nice toy. One big doll then small doll inside then one more small doll. She got many dolls in one price. Few days ago she got one doll which was suited man. She needed it too. Then last week there was baby doll so when she asked for Barbie Mom was not ready. Mom said " You have already purchased enough dolls to fill your cupboard! This way you will need all cupboards of our house just for your dolls." So this Doll came as surprise & shock. Then Rita went upstairs dancing with joy. She was so happy. She kept watching her from hidden corners. She was so happy for her sister. Rita was her favourite sister. She was beautiful & perfect. She was thinking about Rita when her husband Sandip touched her shoulder. Sandip " What happened? Did you have that bad dream again?" She nodded. She said " I will wash my face." She was feeling so wet due to sweating. She needed to change her dress. She went in washroom. She pressed light button. Immediately entire bathroom began to shine. She looked towards mirror. She began to observe her face. She was so shocked. She was looking like Rita. She once loved that face but not now. Then suddenly her entire face started to melt as if something was melting it like wax. Her entire face was getting damaged. She could sense pain. She wanted to scream but her lips were melt. She couldn't scream. She started banging on bathroom door. She wanted to go out. Sandip screamed " Are you locked? Try to open it. You are inside. You have locked it from inside. You need to open I can't open it." She didn't find it then she finally found it. She started to open door when her hands started to melt too. She began to shiver but her hand was needed to open door. She began to scream. She tried to find some way. Then suddenly she looked towards herself. Her hand was there. It was not hurt. She turned around to look at her face. It was fine. She was Sarika. She was normal. Her face didn't even have one scratch. She was so shocked. She didn't understand what was wrong with her face few seconds ago. She was perfect now. She was beautiful. She could hear Sandip screaming " What happened?" She controlled her fear & started laughing. She opened door & said " Nothing just I felt I saw lizard!" " Ohh! Lizards are common here. We can do pest control but you know it's side effects. When we go on vacation we will do that." She nodded. She knew that it was not lizard. She didn't understand what was wrong with her. First she had that dream then this started. One thing was clear. She was not adjusting to her married life as easily as she assumed. Her husband Sandip was nice man. She needed to be happy. She knew that she was happy. Even at this point he was acting so nice with her. She smiled & said " It's okay. Actually I got too scared." He looked towards her clothes. " My God you are wet. Did you stood under shower by mistake?" She needed to tell him that she was sweating but she didn't want to so she just nodded. " Let me change my clothes." Then he went out. She managed to change her clothes. She once again looked in miorror. It was perfect. It was just her face. She smiled towards her reflection & went back in her bedroom. This time she felt need of a security so she took tight hold of Sandip. He smiled & took her in his arms. He didn't sense what was happening to her. He felt that she was scared of Lizard. He was watching with love. She was everything to him at that point. He knew that he was in love with her. She was his life. He began to plan his life. He started to imagine his future. His house full of noises by kids. His family happily laughing. Every thing in his dream was perfect. He needed to live that life. He felt that he might suffer financial issue or some physical sickness but otherwise his life would be perfect. He knew Sarika since long time. They were childhood friends. Then they went away in their different worlds. But now they were back again. He knew everything about her. But he never thought that she could be so scared of Lizard. In childhood they used to watch lizards on trees for hours. They used to enjoy it. But now she was scared of them. He sensed that he needed to understand that she was changed now. He needed to learn about her once again. He smiled towards her sleeping face. He wanted her so much. He would learn about her once again. He didn't have much problem. He slowly lifted her hair from her face. She shivered. He felt that something was strange. It seemed that even on that point her sleep was not peaceful. She was having some nightmare. He didn't understand what was wrong with her. He just kept patting on her forehead with hope that it would relax her.
Sarika woke up next morning. She was feeling so fresh. She didn't understand meaning of last night. Everything was fine for her. Still she was so restless. She needed to get over her fear. But she didn't understand cause of her fear. It was so important to understand it. She didn't feel it in morning. She didn't sense it's cause during day. Most importantly she didn't understand why she suddenly began to feel it. She was far away from that fear. She didn't understand why did she started to remember her sister. Rita was past. She never felt so sad about her. She cried when she was small for elder sister. But this was different. She was actually seeing Rita in her reflection. It was totally different. She kept watching herself in mirror again & again. She didn't see anything wrong. She kept seeing her image in mirror. It was beautiful. She was perfect. She looked nice. She started to watch her face carefully. She was good looking. She began to admire her beauty. She started to sense that unique beauty in her every feature. It was perfect. She smiled towards her reflection. But she was scared that it might turn ugly. Still it didn't. Her reflection remained perfect. She kept seeing her beauty in each angle of her face. It was so nice. She knew that she was not going to look that way again. She told herself that it was just dream. She knew that Sandip was already gone to office. He needed to go to office early. She supposed to pack lunch for him but she didn't need to hurry up since a man was arranged to take away his lunch. So he just went away. She was permitted to sleep as much as she want. She wasn't staying with in-laws from beginning. Her in-laws suggested a separate house. They didn't want to stay with son. They said " We want privacy & we want our son to enjoy his life as he want too." So she got full freedom. Her entire house just belonged to her. She could do everything. She started to look around the house. She kept looking in that house. She began to plan different things in room. It was her house. She had even money to decorate. She had everything. She didn't need to wait for something. She was happy with what she wanted. She kept watching her house. She had all. She knew that soon maid would come. Then she needed to order to that maid. She started to arrange things. She knew that she didn't need to do anything. She started TV. She began to watch. For sometime she felt happy then once again. But then soon she started to feel upset & sleepy. She decided that she needed afternoon nap. She knew that maid would come soon. She needed to look alert before her otherwise that maid would consider her useless woman & would start making use of this opportunity. She needed to find some one who would really care about her. She sensed that her parents felt that they managed to do all for her which was true in one way. But it was wrong in other way. She didn't understand why but she was not adjusted in that house. She felt every one including maids considered her stupid & useless. She began to feel so upset by this thought. She decided that she needed to find some work. She immediately started thinking about it. Soon she found one. She decided to cook some sweets. She started to do it. She soon sensed that they were cooked but she managed to cook too much. She decided that she would store those sweets. She wanted to keep those sweets with her. But she knew that they were too many. Then she suddenly got one idea. She could give them to her maid too. Her maid had kids. Her maid always kept telling about her kids & their demands. She felt that her maid would be happy. On that time her door bell rang. Her maid came in. Her maid immediately looked upset & irritated. " My God. You managed to mess entire kitchen! Now I need to clean all pots." It was clear by look of maid that she did big crime. She was so confused. That maid gave her one irritating look which showed that she was most stupid girl of this world. She didn't have any IQ. Maid " I know your husband is rich but you must not waste his money like this. He work hard to earn it. You don't understand it's value. Now look at this! How much money you have wasted? When you will learn to manage a house! I know I am just maid but I feel if you keep on like this one day your in-laws will blame you. Your husband will regret this marriage. I am just servant but I am telling you since I have experience of life. I have not lived sheltered life like you. I have fought so many storms. My husband was not like your husband. He use to hit me. It was so painful.." then maid started cleaning pot. Sarika was so nervous. She began to feel that she was most useless thing in world. She was spoiled by her parents. She started to feel so guilty. That maid carried on " I use to work day & night but finally my husband use to blame me for having affairs when I never had any connection with any man. I was just attached to my husband. I was completely honest but he never believed me. He always kept taking doubts. What about Sir?" Sarika sensed that maid was asking about her husband, Sandip. She smiled & said " He is nice man. He never acted like that." Then maid made strange face. Maid continued " This is sweetness of beginning after sometime they all started to doubt & abuse. Of course your husband is rich so he might act nice. But you don't understand his value. You must not waste his money earned after hard work." Sarika felt so upset & depressed. Maid made it clear that this money just belonged to Sandip not to her. Maid "He kept cook & maid for you. He didn't even expect anything from you. It was so nice. Your destiny is wonderful. Look at my destiny I got nothing." That maid continued her story. Sarika didn't want to hear it but she was forced to hear it. She already started to regret cooking. On that point her mobile rang. Her mother-in-law was planning to visit her with her sister-in-law. She agreed happily. Now she needed to look some snacks just those sweets wouldn't be enough. Maid asked " Who is coming?" " My mother-in-law!" Maid made frustrated face. Maid " I need to clear all those pots too?" Sarika smiled & said " No..no I will clean them." Maid smiled & said "Great & I can't come tomorrow. Going to visit one relative regarding marriage proposal of my Uncle's daughter's cousin. You can't say no to relatives." Sarika nodded. She had no option. That maid went towards broom.
Sarika was so nervous. She was cooking her best but she was so scared that her guests might dislike it. Sarika tried to calm herself but nothing was working. She did her best.Then she waited for guests. Her guests came. They were very nice to her. They brought gifts for her. They admired her cooking. They did all which could bring up her confidence. She was very happy. She was so pleased. Then they went back. While saying farewell to her mother-in-law said " You have decorated house nicely. I know this is your personal matter but I like to ask you. Do you plan for child?" Her sister-in-law gave angry look to her mother-in-law. " Mom no need to start pushing let them decide." " But..all seem settled...so" Sarika smiled & said " We are planning for child. We just got we will get one soon." Her mother-in-law smiled happily. Her sister-in-law looked happy too. " Surely God will gift you soon with child. I am not in such hurry but I don't want you to put it on.." " Mom enough! Let's go. You can see how good she is managing all. She will manage this issue too." Then her sister-in-law turned towards her. " Sorry Mom is little pushy regarding these things. She was same with me until I don't gave birth to my first son!" Sarika didn't like that pressure on word son. But she didn't want to argue. After all she was not earning. She was doing nothing in that house she needed to give birth to boy. It was expected from her. She needed their money. She needed all that they gave. She shouldn't say that she didn't want to have child now. It was wrong. She was useless if she said it. They would ask her what she was going to do if she didn't even want to give birth to child. Just sit in home! She couldn't hold her tears. But then she thought she was misunderstanding. Her sister-in-law was truly objecting behaviour of her mother-in-law. She smiled. She told herself that everything was fine. She began to clean pot. She knew cook for dinner come soon. She got all. She supposed to give them whatever they wanted. She decided that she wanted to become mother anyway so she didn't have much dispute. She started planning for child. She began to think about colour of room. She started to think about it with hope. She was having different angle which were hopeful for life. She began to feel so happy. Then door bell rang. Cook entered. She was not interested in chatting that much. Cook started cooking. Soon dinner was over she went away. Sarika was feeling so happy. She knew that she would get pregnant soon & then everyone would be happy. She smiled happily. She began to think everything was perfect. She knew that she was going to get all that she wanted. She arranged table. Sandip came home that day with anger. He was feeling so tense. He needed to control his feelings. He began to act normal. She started to discuss about baby & he suddenly began to scream. " Why did you want to bring that subject now? You are not pregnant so why does we need to think about it?" Sarika felt so upset. Sarika never thought that her pregnancy was such big issue. She said softly " I will get pregnant. Just give me sometime." " Time?!! I am not giving you time?! What did I say? I didn't say anything to you about it? I behaved like nice husband never asked you why you are not getting pregnant?" Sandip said everything while claiming he did favour by not saying it. She said nothing just went in washroom. She cried. After that she didn't discuss anything with Sandip. It was so upsetting. Sandip called his colleagues & kept arguing about something. Sarika went to sleep. She was so restless. She didn't want to close her eyes. She began to get upset. She started to have worst feeling. She decided that she must close her eyes & she did. Once again she was Rita. In dream she felt same pain. She felt as if her body was burning. She started to scream. Sandip came running towards her. He was frustrated this time. Sandip " What happened? Don't tell me that lizard came in bed too!" Sarika decided that she needed to tell truth. " No I was having dream about my dead sister." " Dead sister?!" " Yes. I had one sister who died due to burning!" He suddenly began to look concerned. " When?" " I was small at that time." " So you dreamt every day." " No never before marriage!" Sandip looked upset. " Are you saying I am cause of this?!" " No..it could be anything.." "Like?" "Fear of responsibility!" Sandip sat beside her. He smiled. "Are you scared of becoming mother?" Sarika nodded. But she was confused. " It is common. Slowly it will go away. Go to sleep." She slept. He was patting her head. She was feeling so upset. She began to feel anger inside her. She didn't want him to touch her. He was like Rita's boyfriend. She forced herself to go to sleep. Finally when she slept once again she was caged in same dream. She woke up with scream. She kept seeing her face every night horrible way. She began to sense Sandip's frustration. Finally one day he said " I had enough. I can't even sleep one day." " So you want to left me!" " Are you out of mind? I know what you need you need a psychiatrist!" " So you consider me mad!" " No I considered you educated so never thought you will consider visiting psychiatrist such big issue!" Sarika began to cry. He took her in arms.
Next day Sandip called psychiatrist & took appointment. He was so upset. He began to feel his Mom & sister did this. He didn't mind if he had daughter. In fact he loved daughters but his family was obsessed with son. He stayed separate to avoid this thinking but still they dragged him in it. Sarika didn't say anything when he told him that they would visit psychiatrist. She did what he said. They waited. Finally psychiatrist called them inside. He told Sandip to go out. He talked with Sarika. Then he called Sandip & asked " Do you feel that she is useless because she didn't earn?" Sandip looked shocked. He gave her angry look & asked " Do you feel that way about me? Don't you see my love in my eyes? I want you not your money! I have enough money & you give me happiness of soul by giving unselfish love. I wanted it. I decided to live seperate since my parents are obsessed with boy child. I don't want that impact on you. I want wonderful atmosphere for my family." Sarika started crying slowly. Psychiatrist " Now Mr. Sandip you must not scream on her. You don't know her trauma! Her elder sister burnt herself since her boyfriend cheated on her." "What? She was having affair! She was pregnant or something." Sarika " No." " Then why?" Psychiatrist " People sometime do such thing in fit of anger & your wife saw her burning as child." Sarika started crying loudly. Sandip put his hand on her shoulder to assure her. " She kept it hidden. Now when people gave her inferiority regarding you it all came back. Don't worry I will handle it. Dream will vanish slowly." Then Psychiatrist suddenly said " And remove that maid. You are paying too much for pots of two people. She is getting lazy day by day. But keep that cook. She is nice servant. You can find nice maid just like her with her help." Sarika smiled & nodded. Slowly her dreams were stopped after treatment. She gave birth to nice baby girl. Sandip jumped with joy. Her sister-in-law & mother-in-law made faces. But they ignored them. Their family was complete now.
The End
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