Make up on face
Suhas began to open door with his key. He was late again. He didn't want to disturb any one. He opened door slowly. He started to go inside when suddenly Sadhana came out. Sadhana " Where have you been?" " I am in office." " But you didn't call to tell me you are going to be late." " I will not call you on each day. You know very well. I need to stop in office to do some work." " But you don't need to do that before Rati's birth." " Well on that time I was just junior. Now I am senior. I need to do more work." " But so much work!!" " Yes I need to do it." Sadhana " Why don't you just change your job?" " What? Are you out of your mind? I can't just change my job like that. In other jobs I need to work too." " Not so much. Are you truly busy? Or you are trying to avoid me? May be I am getting too old?" She went towards mirror and started watching her face. She was so concerned about her face. Sadhana " May be I need to apply little more make up on my face. I am looking so ugly." "Stop it. I am hungry. Will you give me some food?" But she started to apply make up. He decided that he didn't planned to take her help any way. He went in kitchen and took his food. He started eating when he heard voice of Rati. She was crying. He was so frustrated. He didn't understand why did Sadhana was doing that make up. Suhas " Sadhana this is our time to sleep why are you doing make up? Are you planning to go to some party now?" Sadhana smiled " This is nice idea. Can you take me to party?" " Are you out of your mind? I want to eat and sleep after my tiring day. I worked whole day in Office. Now I want to relax and our daughter is screaming. Can't you do some thing to stop her from crying?" " What can I do? She keep on crying whole day like this." Suhas was so upset. He went inside and took his daughter in arms. She smiled immediately. It was clear that she wanted affection. Sadhana managed to fed her and keep her perfect. Rati was not getting any affection from her. Sadhana was so busy in thinking about herself. She never had time to think about others. It was not crime to think about own benefits. Suhas knew that every human being did it. But Sadhana was not even concern about her own good. She was caged in some strange world. She seemed to be stuck in her world. It was so strange. She just kept telling him that he wanted to get rid of her while he never wanted that. He loved her. She was little bit irritating but he still loved her. But after Rati's birth she was acting too strange. She was so obsessed about her look. She kept telling him that if she didn't do that then he might lose interest in her. He was so tired of convincing her. He just kept telling her again and again that she needed to pay attention to Rati. He was not going left her since he loved her. But she just didn't believe him. She kept looking in his things. One day he was sleeping peacefully when he sensed that she was not sleeping beside him. He was so confused. He looked at Rati. She was sleeping peacefully in her crib. He was so confused. So he started searching for Sadhana. Then he found her. She was searching something inside his clothes. He didn't understand at first but then he saw her taking smell of his handkerchief and he understood every thing. She was trying to find out if he had some perfume on clothes. She was taking doubt on him. He was so shocked. He began to move ahead but then he felt what was point in arguing. He decided that he should let her check. It might increase her confidence in him. He went back to sleep again. After that he sensed many times that she was vanished. But still he never followed her. He just ignored it. But now he began to feel so irritated. She was just watching mirror and getting ready. She was not suppose to go out in night but he had understood one thing that fighting with her was useless so he started to ignore her. But today he began to feel that something was totally wrong with her. He had to discuss. But he had to play with Rati first so he started playing with her. He thought that he could pay attention to Sadhana later.
When Suhas woke up in morning, he started to look around. He sensed that Sadhana was already woke up. He was so happy. He knew that he was late for office. He went in bathroom. After taking his shower he just ran in kitchen. He went in full confidence that he would get breakfast. But he was shocked when he saw nothing was ready in kitchen. He started calling Sadhana without second thought. Rati started crying immediately. Sadhana came running out of other bedroom and ran in their room. Sadhana " Why did you scream? Now you have to handle kitchen by yourself. I need to handle Rati." He nodded. He knew that he didn't have any option. He went in kitchen and managed to make some sandwich out of breads. He packed lunchbox for himself. He decided that he could drink just milk in breakfast. He was getting so late. He just ran around kitchen without second thought. He tried to manage everything his best then finally ran out of house. Sadhana didn't came outside. He assumed she must be busy with Rati. He sensed one thing that he needed to act responsible now. He must not scream. He began to sense that he was not responsible father. He wanted to become one. But still he was acting so childish. He began to blame himself for it. He wanted to become more mature. He decided that next time he would not scream in name of his wife. Sadhana must be doing something for Rati. She had to work hard to take proper care of their baby daughter. But he never understood it. He just always kept pushing his needs. But he decided that from now he would not act that way. He promised himself to act more like mature person. He went in office. He started doing his work. But when lunch time came and he sat with his friend Raj, he felt for first time that he needed a proper lunch. He looked at his lunch box with disappointment. He needed at least money to buy lunch. He checked out his pocket. He totally forgot to take out money from bank. He looked at his credit card. But Raj offered him his lunch. Raj " This lunch hour is small. That restaurant is far away and food was spicy too." Suhas " Don't worry. I will manage." Suhas smiled. He went out. He quickly took auto and went to that restaurant. It was hard but he was happy that he was acting responsible. After all he was father now. He had compromise on many fronts. He needed to understand that he couldn't be free bird now. He had do some household work too. He could keep a maid. But it didn't seem wise. Since he knew that Sadhana wanted to stay in her own way, she wanted to work in her own style which might cost large. Sadhana was used to go for her job before getting pregnant. She used to live in her style. In her office she used to move each day in her way. He sometimes felt that he was keeping her in cage. She just never went out much. She always kept staying with Rati. He suddenly got one idea. He might call her mother. She could take care of Rati for few hours. They could enjoy for few hours. This way Sadhana would start to get less suspicious. She began to act more normal. He smiled happily at this thought. He decided that he might call his Mom. When he was about to call, waiter served lunch. He decided that he might sent her a message. But then he felt that Mom might feel this way arrogant behavior. So he called her. He explained her all. His Mom " You are right. She might need to go out. I was going to suggest same thing. If Rati began to cry, then I will call you. We all have mobiles now. She didn't need to worry." He smiled happily. Suhas " So I can call her and confirm it." " Of course. In fact I insist. You need to move ahead in your life freely too. I know Rati is your responsibility but you can't take her everywhere. This way you would lock yourself. " Suhas was so happy that Mom agreed. Mom " Actually Rati was not so small now. She could stay with me." Suhas kept thanking her. Finally he disconnected call. Then he looked at his watch. He was getting late without second thought he started eating. He just managed to take all food inside his body. He just ate as soon as possible and then he went away to office immediately. He was still feeling chilly favor in his mouth. He knew that he was feeling sick but he decided that it would reduce. He needed to adjust with these items. Then he returned back to office soon he began to adjust with taste. He felt so glad.
That day when Suhas returned to home, he was happy. He kept ringing door bell but no one opened it for long time. Then he went inside. He thought that Sadhana must be busy. He went inside but he was shocked when he found that Rati was playing by herself. In fact she was walking for first time. He was so happy. He started to hugging her and calling Sadhana. Sadhana came running out of bedroom. " What happened?" " Rati.." "Yes what about her?" " She is walking." " So?!!" Now Suhas was confused. His daughter was walking for first time. It supposed to be great moment for his family. But his wife seemed to feel that it was nothing useful. Suhas " But our daughter is walking for first time." " No she is walking little bit from morning. She manage to hurt herself. Look at her knees. I just don't understand why did she have to fall every time." Suhas was shocked. He looked at Rati's wounded knees. He was so shocked. " Did you apply medicine on her?" " Of course. I am her mother. I will do everything in best way." Suhas nodded. Rati was hurt but still she was happy. She took hold of Suhas's finger and started walking. He was so happy. It was special hour for father and daughter. He kept helping her and she kept trying to walk faster and faster. He was so happy. Soon Sadhana joined them too. She was looking so happy. They were perfect family for all. But soon they started enjoying themselves. Then suddenly Rati started to sneeze and everything changed. Sadhana " I don't understand how did she manged to get cold. I was trying so hard.." " Kids get cold due to small things. No need to blame yourself for this." Sadhana nodded. Then they took Rati back in her room. They started feeding her. Rati complained for some time. But then she ate. After that they both ate in silence since Sadhana seemed to be lost in her thoughts. Then they went to sleep. Every thing was perfect. Then he suddenly woke up in middle of sleep. He was so confused. Rati was screaming and Sadhana was missing from room. He looked around. When he felt sure, she was not near by. He went to Rati and took her in arms. He tried to clam her down. But she kept crying. It was so confusing. Then she suddenly started vomiting. Suhas checked her temperature. She was sick. He knew that at this time he couldn't find pediatrician. He went near cupboard. He searched hard and finally found medicine which Doctor gave him to reduce fever of Rati in case of emergency. He gave it to her. After drinking it she finally went to sleep. He went out in search of Sadhana. He kept looking around for long time. He didn't find her. Then finally he remembered his store room. It was one room. He always kept locked. Their house was not too big but big enough to lock one room. They had three bedroom flat. They used two but kept third one always locked. It was kept that way since his father's death. They planned to keep that bedroom for his parents. He planned to told them to stay with them. At that time they were planning for child but they didn't manage to have one. It was luckiest day when Sadhana became pregnant. He was so happy. He called his parents. He was planning to stay with them. He liked that idea on that day but then he hated it. He even hated to look at this room. He looked around every corner of room. Then he finally had to search that room. He pulled out his full courage and opened it. He was planning to curse Sadhana but he was shocked.
Sadhana was sitting before a mirror. A big make up mirror he never saw before. He saw that there was costly cosmetics arranged around it. It was perfect beauty parlor. It didn't look like normal room at all. It looked like something arranged to create beauty parlor. He started calling Sadhana. He didn't located her for long time. Then she suddenly came out and she hugged him. Sadhana " Honey how are you?" He looked at her. She was dressed in strange way. She was looking like some odd with her make up. She was looking totally strange. She was looking something so cheap. He didn't want to say it but he couldn't help it. " Why did you dress like that?" She looked so upset. Sadhana " Why? Do you feel I am not beautiful?!!" He was so angry. " Our daughter is sick with fever and you wanted to talk about your beauty." Sadhana looked confused. " Who?" " Our daughter?!!" It seemed so strange. She suddenly looked so confused as if she had totally forgotten about her daughter. Then she once again looked at her reflection in mirror. She started to apply more make up. Suhas " Are you mad? Why are you applying make up like that? " " I have to do it. I do it every day." " No. I never saw you like that before." She sat again before mirror. She started applying that make up again and again. Every time she applied it. She began to look more and more strange. He sensed that she was no longer applying make up. She was literally painting her face with make up. He came near her and took hold of her hands. But she didn't stop. She didn't want to listen to him. She wanted to enjoy it. She felt as if she was on top of world. She felt so happy with each stroke of make up. It was opening new world. She sensed that she was reaching to top of world which was going to open new world to mind. She started to telling him about it. " I just need to sure this make up. It will give me spirit to me. I start to give breathe to me. I just survive based on it. It was totally strange. But still this make up manage to become my lifeline from childhood." " Childhood? You never used to be that fan of make up. I still remember you use to hate it when your sister use to put it on your face. It was strange. You felt so unhappy when you were forced to wear it on engagement's day and wedding's day. You did it just for sake of my reputation and on insistence of my mother. You were so scared that it might harm your skin or health and now you are painting your face like some wall." Sadhana started laughing. " I am not painter and you are not beautician. You don't understand style of make up. This is deep and intense. You don't understand it." He was so angry. Suhas screamed " I don't understand to me you look like just a joker. I hate it and you are busy in doing it while your daughter is sick. Don't you feel need of taking Rati's care?" " Her Mom will do it." Suhas was shocked " What?" Sadhana suddenly came to her senses. She stood up. " I must go and take care of Rati. She was sick. I came out for medicine." " And then you started painting your face." " What?" " Look at your face." "This is little bit make up. It will make me look young." " But why you want to look young? You are beautiful." " Really? Then why are you dancing with those young ladies in that bar." Now Suhas was shocked. He never danced with any one in bar. He never visited a bar for long time. Suhas " I never went to bar." Suddenly Sadhana looked confused again. " I know. But I just want to do make up. Now I can take care of Rati." He stopped her. " Not with that strong smell of make up. You are making her sick with it. She is little girl. She can't bear it. She might touch or kiss you and that make up will go in her stomach. She will become sick." Sadhana was so confused. She went back to mirror. She was so shocked. " I want to look great but I am looking ugly." But as she started to remove make up, her face was hurt. She could see worst effect on it. Suhas came running towards her. Suhas " My God your face is showing reaction of make up. Don't remove it like that. We need a Doctor." She started crying. " I have ruined my face. I just want to keep you happy. I want to have you just for me." " But I am your husband and after few wounds on face you are not going to lose me. We are going to cure you." But she kept crying. Slowly she began to get hysteric. He sensed soon that he had no option but to call his Doctor in midnight. Since she started to get breathless, she was even rubbing her heart. It was worst day of his life. He was sure that his family Doctor would not like his mid night call. He just hoped that Doctor would help him.
When Suhas called to Doctor, for long time Doctor was not taking call. He started to feel tense. Finally Doctor took call in sleepy voice. He told him all. In sleepy voice Doctor told him. " Take her to hospital. I can't help you now." " Which hospital?" Doctor gave him number and name. " Doctor you will come there?" " Well. I can't but I will give you name of other Doctor." Suhas was so nervous. He wanted his family Doctor to be with him. But he sensed one thing that it was too much to ask. After all he told him name of Doctor and Hospital. He thanked him. Then he called Hospital for ambulance. He was so scared. Sadhana was breathing in strange way and his daughter was sick too. He decided that he could take her to Hospital too. It was worst moment for him. When finally ambulance came, he came out running. Soon they took Sadhana in ambulance, he took Rati with him. Then he sat in ambulance. He started to tell " My daughter have fever too." Nurse " They will handle it." They gave oxygen to Sadhana. When he reached to hospital, he saw Sadhana was taken to ICU. Then he looked at his sick daughter. He told Doctor about situation who told him that he could admit his daughter to pediatric ward. He ran to pediatrician. It was totally horrible for him. When he entered in it, Doctor came and told him to feel formalities. During it he started checking her. Pediatrician"What did you gave your daughter to eat? She had food poisoning." Suhas started crying without second thought. Then slowly he came to senses. He told Pediatrician every thing. " Did you tell this to your wife's Doctor?" " No."" Then tell him. Wait I will call him." Then both Doctors talked with each other. Pediatrician " My doubt was right. Your wife just had anxiety attack not heart attack but her skin was too bruised due to those cosmetics so they needed to give her treatment and after that she needed to go to psychiatrist ward. I feel your wife need to stay in hospital for long time." Suhas just nodded. Suhas was so nervous. He just didn't understand when Sadhana managed to get such big problem. He was busy with work due to projects. He needed money for his family too. He was just doing his duty of earning. He wanted to give time to his family but he couldn't due to his work. But still he tried his best to give time to his family. He used to come late many times. But every day he used to tell Sadhaha to go to sleep. He never forced her to wake up early. He tried his best not to let his schedule disturb her. But he never saw her with so much make up. Then he asked Pediatrician "Can I go to my wife's room?" " Well. You can go for sometime but you will be needed soon. Why are you not calling your family?" " I have a Mom who stays in village. I can't call her at this time." "No..no.don't inform her. Tell some relative to bring her. She must not come alone in such tension." Suhas nodded. He began to remember all relatives and friends. Soon he sensed that no one seemed like promising person. He went near Sadhana's room. A Doctor came out. " Are you husband of this patient?" He nodded. " Tell every thing in details. When did this started?" " I don't know. Actually I sensed it few days ago when I saw she is ignoring our daughter. I never imagine she could use so much make up. She used to hate make up." " Ohh did something happened in your house to start this trauma?" " Well. My father died." " How did he die?" " Actually there was one bedroom which we use to keep closed he had heart attack in it." " Suddenly?" " Yes." " Was he stressed about something?" " No he was happy since he was going to get grand child after so many days." " Did any one was there in room at that time?" Then suddenly Suhas remembered. When he reached to hospital where his Dad was taken even on that day Sadhana had extra make up on face. It looked odd but he was so sad about Dad that he didn't ask." Actually Sadhana wore too much make up on that day." "Did any one else use to do make up in Sadhana's family?" " Well her sister used to do it." " So where is her sister now?" " She died last year ago. In car accident!! Her husband was drunk when he was driving them. He was strange man. Her sister use to wear make up to impress him. One day he managed to get killed himself and her. But from that day my mother-in-law totally lost her mind. She started claiming that her daughter was going to reborn. Luckily Sadhana became pregnant on that time due to treatment then my father-in-law also began to believe it. They began to convince her kids that their mother was going to come back. Her elder son got so upset that he complained to his paternal Uncle who managed to take him away. Then I told Sadhana to stay away from her. Then Rati was born my luck was great since Rati was not looking at all like Sadhana's sister. Suddenly they lost interest. They began to say it was rebirth of my father who died during that time." Psychiatrist listened to all this. Finally Suhas stopped. " Well I can't say surely but I feel your in-laws manage to paint a picture in your wife's brain that her sister was inside her in form of baby. So she started to do make- up or dress up like her. One day your father saw it. He was old man. He felt that he was watching ghost so he had sudden heart attack and after that your wife started to feel scared. So she managed to hide it all from you. You never went in that bedroom so it was perfect. But when Rati was born, she sensed that she was not her sister. But still her sister remained part of your wife's mind. She began to think she was still inside her body and to please her. She started doing make-up. Sometimes she sensed that she was acting like mad so she tried to control it. But sometimes her madness took her control. Finally yesterday it took her total control and you saw it. This is post traumatic symptoms. This happened due to attitude of your in-laws." " So she will be fine." " Sure. She will be fine. We keep her in hospital for few days and gave her treatment regarding mental sickness and skin trouble. But you must keep her away from your in-laws until I am not sure that she is fine." " Now they are not interested in her. She didn't look as beautiful as her sister and even our daughter is not as beautiful as her Auntie." Psychiatrist smiled " That is good news since she can live her life without her burden. They managed to destroy life of her sister." Suhas gave forcible smile." Now learn to smile. I am there for you. I will manage it all." Then Psychiatrist talked with him for few moments and soon he sensed that he was confident again. When he returned to his daughter, he gave her sweet smile that scared child hugged him. He felt so happy. He knew one thing that his family was in safe hand and everything was going to turn out in fine way.
The End
Suhas began to open door with his key. He was late again. He didn't want to disturb any one. He opened door slowly. He started to go inside when suddenly Sadhana came out. Sadhana " Where have you been?" " I am in office." " But you didn't call to tell me you are going to be late." " I will not call you on each day. You know very well. I need to stop in office to do some work." " But you don't need to do that before Rati's birth." " Well on that time I was just junior. Now I am senior. I need to do more work." " But so much work!!" " Yes I need to do it." Sadhana " Why don't you just change your job?" " What? Are you out of your mind? I can't just change my job like that. In other jobs I need to work too." " Not so much. Are you truly busy? Or you are trying to avoid me? May be I am getting too old?" She went towards mirror and started watching her face. She was so concerned about her face. Sadhana " May be I need to apply little more make up on my face. I am looking so ugly." "Stop it. I am hungry. Will you give me some food?" But she started to apply make up. He decided that he didn't planned to take her help any way. He went in kitchen and took his food. He started eating when he heard voice of Rati. She was crying. He was so frustrated. He didn't understand why did Sadhana was doing that make up. Suhas " Sadhana this is our time to sleep why are you doing make up? Are you planning to go to some party now?" Sadhana smiled " This is nice idea. Can you take me to party?" " Are you out of your mind? I want to eat and sleep after my tiring day. I worked whole day in Office. Now I want to relax and our daughter is screaming. Can't you do some thing to stop her from crying?" " What can I do? She keep on crying whole day like this." Suhas was so upset. He went inside and took his daughter in arms. She smiled immediately. It was clear that she wanted affection. Sadhana managed to fed her and keep her perfect. Rati was not getting any affection from her. Sadhana was so busy in thinking about herself. She never had time to think about others. It was not crime to think about own benefits. Suhas knew that every human being did it. But Sadhana was not even concern about her own good. She was caged in some strange world. She seemed to be stuck in her world. It was so strange. She just kept telling him that he wanted to get rid of her while he never wanted that. He loved her. She was little bit irritating but he still loved her. But after Rati's birth she was acting too strange. She was so obsessed about her look. She kept telling him that if she didn't do that then he might lose interest in her. He was so tired of convincing her. He just kept telling her again and again that she needed to pay attention to Rati. He was not going left her since he loved her. But she just didn't believe him. She kept looking in his things. One day he was sleeping peacefully when he sensed that she was not sleeping beside him. He was so confused. He looked at Rati. She was sleeping peacefully in her crib. He was so confused. So he started searching for Sadhana. Then he found her. She was searching something inside his clothes. He didn't understand at first but then he saw her taking smell of his handkerchief and he understood every thing. She was trying to find out if he had some perfume on clothes. She was taking doubt on him. He was so shocked. He began to move ahead but then he felt what was point in arguing. He decided that he should let her check. It might increase her confidence in him. He went back to sleep again. After that he sensed many times that she was vanished. But still he never followed her. He just ignored it. But now he began to feel so irritated. She was just watching mirror and getting ready. She was not suppose to go out in night but he had understood one thing that fighting with her was useless so he started to ignore her. But today he began to feel that something was totally wrong with her. He had to discuss. But he had to play with Rati first so he started playing with her. He thought that he could pay attention to Sadhana later.
When Suhas woke up in morning, he started to look around. He sensed that Sadhana was already woke up. He was so happy. He knew that he was late for office. He went in bathroom. After taking his shower he just ran in kitchen. He went in full confidence that he would get breakfast. But he was shocked when he saw nothing was ready in kitchen. He started calling Sadhana without second thought. Rati started crying immediately. Sadhana came running out of other bedroom and ran in their room. Sadhana " Why did you scream? Now you have to handle kitchen by yourself. I need to handle Rati." He nodded. He knew that he didn't have any option. He went in kitchen and managed to make some sandwich out of breads. He packed lunchbox for himself. He decided that he could drink just milk in breakfast. He was getting so late. He just ran around kitchen without second thought. He tried to manage everything his best then finally ran out of house. Sadhana didn't came outside. He assumed she must be busy with Rati. He sensed one thing that he needed to act responsible now. He must not scream. He began to sense that he was not responsible father. He wanted to become one. But still he was acting so childish. He began to blame himself for it. He wanted to become more mature. He decided that next time he would not scream in name of his wife. Sadhana must be doing something for Rati. She had to work hard to take proper care of their baby daughter. But he never understood it. He just always kept pushing his needs. But he decided that from now he would not act that way. He promised himself to act more like mature person. He went in office. He started doing his work. But when lunch time came and he sat with his friend Raj, he felt for first time that he needed a proper lunch. He looked at his lunch box with disappointment. He needed at least money to buy lunch. He checked out his pocket. He totally forgot to take out money from bank. He looked at his credit card. But Raj offered him his lunch. Raj " This lunch hour is small. That restaurant is far away and food was spicy too." Suhas " Don't worry. I will manage." Suhas smiled. He went out. He quickly took auto and went to that restaurant. It was hard but he was happy that he was acting responsible. After all he was father now. He had compromise on many fronts. He needed to understand that he couldn't be free bird now. He had do some household work too. He could keep a maid. But it didn't seem wise. Since he knew that Sadhana wanted to stay in her own way, she wanted to work in her own style which might cost large. Sadhana was used to go for her job before getting pregnant. She used to live in her style. In her office she used to move each day in her way. He sometimes felt that he was keeping her in cage. She just never went out much. She always kept staying with Rati. He suddenly got one idea. He might call her mother. She could take care of Rati for few hours. They could enjoy for few hours. This way Sadhana would start to get less suspicious. She began to act more normal. He smiled happily at this thought. He decided that he might call his Mom. When he was about to call, waiter served lunch. He decided that he might sent her a message. But then he felt that Mom might feel this way arrogant behavior. So he called her. He explained her all. His Mom " You are right. She might need to go out. I was going to suggest same thing. If Rati began to cry, then I will call you. We all have mobiles now. She didn't need to worry." He smiled happily. Suhas " So I can call her and confirm it." " Of course. In fact I insist. You need to move ahead in your life freely too. I know Rati is your responsibility but you can't take her everywhere. This way you would lock yourself. " Suhas was so happy that Mom agreed. Mom " Actually Rati was not so small now. She could stay with me." Suhas kept thanking her. Finally he disconnected call. Then he looked at his watch. He was getting late without second thought he started eating. He just managed to take all food inside his body. He just ate as soon as possible and then he went away to office immediately. He was still feeling chilly favor in his mouth. He knew that he was feeling sick but he decided that it would reduce. He needed to adjust with these items. Then he returned back to office soon he began to adjust with taste. He felt so glad.
That day when Suhas returned to home, he was happy. He kept ringing door bell but no one opened it for long time. Then he went inside. He thought that Sadhana must be busy. He went inside but he was shocked when he found that Rati was playing by herself. In fact she was walking for first time. He was so happy. He started to hugging her and calling Sadhana. Sadhana came running out of bedroom. " What happened?" " Rati.." "Yes what about her?" " She is walking." " So?!!" Now Suhas was confused. His daughter was walking for first time. It supposed to be great moment for his family. But his wife seemed to feel that it was nothing useful. Suhas " But our daughter is walking for first time." " No she is walking little bit from morning. She manage to hurt herself. Look at her knees. I just don't understand why did she have to fall every time." Suhas was shocked. He looked at Rati's wounded knees. He was so shocked. " Did you apply medicine on her?" " Of course. I am her mother. I will do everything in best way." Suhas nodded. Rati was hurt but still she was happy. She took hold of Suhas's finger and started walking. He was so happy. It was special hour for father and daughter. He kept helping her and she kept trying to walk faster and faster. He was so happy. Soon Sadhana joined them too. She was looking so happy. They were perfect family for all. But soon they started enjoying themselves. Then suddenly Rati started to sneeze and everything changed. Sadhana " I don't understand how did she manged to get cold. I was trying so hard.." " Kids get cold due to small things. No need to blame yourself for this." Sadhana nodded. Then they took Rati back in her room. They started feeding her. Rati complained for some time. But then she ate. After that they both ate in silence since Sadhana seemed to be lost in her thoughts. Then they went to sleep. Every thing was perfect. Then he suddenly woke up in middle of sleep. He was so confused. Rati was screaming and Sadhana was missing from room. He looked around. When he felt sure, she was not near by. He went to Rati and took her in arms. He tried to clam her down. But she kept crying. It was so confusing. Then she suddenly started vomiting. Suhas checked her temperature. She was sick. He knew that at this time he couldn't find pediatrician. He went near cupboard. He searched hard and finally found medicine which Doctor gave him to reduce fever of Rati in case of emergency. He gave it to her. After drinking it she finally went to sleep. He went out in search of Sadhana. He kept looking around for long time. He didn't find her. Then finally he remembered his store room. It was one room. He always kept locked. Their house was not too big but big enough to lock one room. They had three bedroom flat. They used two but kept third one always locked. It was kept that way since his father's death. They planned to keep that bedroom for his parents. He planned to told them to stay with them. At that time they were planning for child but they didn't manage to have one. It was luckiest day when Sadhana became pregnant. He was so happy. He called his parents. He was planning to stay with them. He liked that idea on that day but then he hated it. He even hated to look at this room. He looked around every corner of room. Then he finally had to search that room. He pulled out his full courage and opened it. He was planning to curse Sadhana but he was shocked.
Sadhana was sitting before a mirror. A big make up mirror he never saw before. He saw that there was costly cosmetics arranged around it. It was perfect beauty parlor. It didn't look like normal room at all. It looked like something arranged to create beauty parlor. He started calling Sadhana. He didn't located her for long time. Then she suddenly came out and she hugged him. Sadhana " Honey how are you?" He looked at her. She was dressed in strange way. She was looking like some odd with her make up. She was looking totally strange. She was looking something so cheap. He didn't want to say it but he couldn't help it. " Why did you dress like that?" She looked so upset. Sadhana " Why? Do you feel I am not beautiful?!!" He was so angry. " Our daughter is sick with fever and you wanted to talk about your beauty." Sadhana looked confused. " Who?" " Our daughter?!!" It seemed so strange. She suddenly looked so confused as if she had totally forgotten about her daughter. Then she once again looked at her reflection in mirror. She started to apply more make up. Suhas " Are you mad? Why are you applying make up like that? " " I have to do it. I do it every day." " No. I never saw you like that before." She sat again before mirror. She started applying that make up again and again. Every time she applied it. She began to look more and more strange. He sensed that she was no longer applying make up. She was literally painting her face with make up. He came near her and took hold of her hands. But she didn't stop. She didn't want to listen to him. She wanted to enjoy it. She felt as if she was on top of world. She felt so happy with each stroke of make up. It was opening new world. She sensed that she was reaching to top of world which was going to open new world to mind. She started to telling him about it. " I just need to sure this make up. It will give me spirit to me. I start to give breathe to me. I just survive based on it. It was totally strange. But still this make up manage to become my lifeline from childhood." " Childhood? You never used to be that fan of make up. I still remember you use to hate it when your sister use to put it on your face. It was strange. You felt so unhappy when you were forced to wear it on engagement's day and wedding's day. You did it just for sake of my reputation and on insistence of my mother. You were so scared that it might harm your skin or health and now you are painting your face like some wall." Sadhana started laughing. " I am not painter and you are not beautician. You don't understand style of make up. This is deep and intense. You don't understand it." He was so angry. Suhas screamed " I don't understand to me you look like just a joker. I hate it and you are busy in doing it while your daughter is sick. Don't you feel need of taking Rati's care?" " Her Mom will do it." Suhas was shocked " What?" Sadhana suddenly came to her senses. She stood up. " I must go and take care of Rati. She was sick. I came out for medicine." " And then you started painting your face." " What?" " Look at your face." "This is little bit make up. It will make me look young." " But why you want to look young? You are beautiful." " Really? Then why are you dancing with those young ladies in that bar." Now Suhas was shocked. He never danced with any one in bar. He never visited a bar for long time. Suhas " I never went to bar." Suddenly Sadhana looked confused again. " I know. But I just want to do make up. Now I can take care of Rati." He stopped her. " Not with that strong smell of make up. You are making her sick with it. She is little girl. She can't bear it. She might touch or kiss you and that make up will go in her stomach. She will become sick." Sadhana was so confused. She went back to mirror. She was so shocked. " I want to look great but I am looking ugly." But as she started to remove make up, her face was hurt. She could see worst effect on it. Suhas came running towards her. Suhas " My God your face is showing reaction of make up. Don't remove it like that. We need a Doctor." She started crying. " I have ruined my face. I just want to keep you happy. I want to have you just for me." " But I am your husband and after few wounds on face you are not going to lose me. We are going to cure you." But she kept crying. Slowly she began to get hysteric. He sensed soon that he had no option but to call his Doctor in midnight. Since she started to get breathless, she was even rubbing her heart. It was worst day of his life. He was sure that his family Doctor would not like his mid night call. He just hoped that Doctor would help him.
When Suhas called to Doctor, for long time Doctor was not taking call. He started to feel tense. Finally Doctor took call in sleepy voice. He told him all. In sleepy voice Doctor told him. " Take her to hospital. I can't help you now." " Which hospital?" Doctor gave him number and name. " Doctor you will come there?" " Well. I can't but I will give you name of other Doctor." Suhas was so nervous. He wanted his family Doctor to be with him. But he sensed one thing that it was too much to ask. After all he told him name of Doctor and Hospital. He thanked him. Then he called Hospital for ambulance. He was so scared. Sadhana was breathing in strange way and his daughter was sick too. He decided that he could take her to Hospital too. It was worst moment for him. When finally ambulance came, he came out running. Soon they took Sadhana in ambulance, he took Rati with him. Then he sat in ambulance. He started to tell " My daughter have fever too." Nurse " They will handle it." They gave oxygen to Sadhana. When he reached to hospital, he saw Sadhana was taken to ICU. Then he looked at his sick daughter. He told Doctor about situation who told him that he could admit his daughter to pediatric ward. He ran to pediatrician. It was totally horrible for him. When he entered in it, Doctor came and told him to feel formalities. During it he started checking her. Pediatrician"What did you gave your daughter to eat? She had food poisoning." Suhas started crying without second thought. Then slowly he came to senses. He told Pediatrician every thing. " Did you tell this to your wife's Doctor?" " No."" Then tell him. Wait I will call him." Then both Doctors talked with each other. Pediatrician " My doubt was right. Your wife just had anxiety attack not heart attack but her skin was too bruised due to those cosmetics so they needed to give her treatment and after that she needed to go to psychiatrist ward. I feel your wife need to stay in hospital for long time." Suhas just nodded. Suhas was so nervous. He just didn't understand when Sadhana managed to get such big problem. He was busy with work due to projects. He needed money for his family too. He was just doing his duty of earning. He wanted to give time to his family but he couldn't due to his work. But still he tried his best to give time to his family. He used to come late many times. But every day he used to tell Sadhaha to go to sleep. He never forced her to wake up early. He tried his best not to let his schedule disturb her. But he never saw her with so much make up. Then he asked Pediatrician "Can I go to my wife's room?" " Well. You can go for sometime but you will be needed soon. Why are you not calling your family?" " I have a Mom who stays in village. I can't call her at this time." "No..no.don't inform her. Tell some relative to bring her. She must not come alone in such tension." Suhas nodded. He began to remember all relatives and friends. Soon he sensed that no one seemed like promising person. He went near Sadhana's room. A Doctor came out. " Are you husband of this patient?" He nodded. " Tell every thing in details. When did this started?" " I don't know. Actually I sensed it few days ago when I saw she is ignoring our daughter. I never imagine she could use so much make up. She used to hate make up." " Ohh did something happened in your house to start this trauma?" " Well. My father died." " How did he die?" " Actually there was one bedroom which we use to keep closed he had heart attack in it." " Suddenly?" " Yes." " Was he stressed about something?" " No he was happy since he was going to get grand child after so many days." " Did any one was there in room at that time?" Then suddenly Suhas remembered. When he reached to hospital where his Dad was taken even on that day Sadhana had extra make up on face. It looked odd but he was so sad about Dad that he didn't ask." Actually Sadhana wore too much make up on that day." "Did any one else use to do make up in Sadhana's family?" " Well her sister used to do it." " So where is her sister now?" " She died last year ago. In car accident!! Her husband was drunk when he was driving them. He was strange man. Her sister use to wear make up to impress him. One day he managed to get killed himself and her. But from that day my mother-in-law totally lost her mind. She started claiming that her daughter was going to reborn. Luckily Sadhana became pregnant on that time due to treatment then my father-in-law also began to believe it. They began to convince her kids that their mother was going to come back. Her elder son got so upset that he complained to his paternal Uncle who managed to take him away. Then I told Sadhana to stay away from her. Then Rati was born my luck was great since Rati was not looking at all like Sadhana's sister. Suddenly they lost interest. They began to say it was rebirth of my father who died during that time." Psychiatrist listened to all this. Finally Suhas stopped. " Well I can't say surely but I feel your in-laws manage to paint a picture in your wife's brain that her sister was inside her in form of baby. So she started to do make- up or dress up like her. One day your father saw it. He was old man. He felt that he was watching ghost so he had sudden heart attack and after that your wife started to feel scared. So she managed to hide it all from you. You never went in that bedroom so it was perfect. But when Rati was born, she sensed that she was not her sister. But still her sister remained part of your wife's mind. She began to think she was still inside her body and to please her. She started doing make-up. Sometimes she sensed that she was acting like mad so she tried to control it. But sometimes her madness took her control. Finally yesterday it took her total control and you saw it. This is post traumatic symptoms. This happened due to attitude of your in-laws." " So she will be fine." " Sure. She will be fine. We keep her in hospital for few days and gave her treatment regarding mental sickness and skin trouble. But you must keep her away from your in-laws until I am not sure that she is fine." " Now they are not interested in her. She didn't look as beautiful as her sister and even our daughter is not as beautiful as her Auntie." Psychiatrist smiled " That is good news since she can live her life without her burden. They managed to destroy life of her sister." Suhas gave forcible smile." Now learn to smile. I am there for you. I will manage it all." Then Psychiatrist talked with him for few moments and soon he sensed that he was confident again. When he returned to his daughter, he gave her sweet smile that scared child hugged him. He felt so happy. He knew one thing that his family was in safe hand and everything was going to turn out in fine way.
The End
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