A family holiday
Seema began to count items in cupboard. She wanted to be sure that she kept every thing in proper way. Seema knew that she must leave soon. She didn't remember last time when she went out. She used to love travelling but her work just never permitted it. She just began to love her work more than traveling or she was not interested in going out with her in-laws. She was nice girl. She spent her entire life in joint family so she never minded joint family. But she didn't want to go out with her husband's parents since their interference was worst. She just remember first time she went out with them. It was shocking. She never sensed that any one could create so much problem in one trip. She started going out with her husband Ravi one day on beach. When mother-in-law screamed from behind " Don't waste too much money on her. It might seem like romantic but wasting money is not wise." She was so upset. Ravi " Just relax Mom don't keep talking like that but I will purchase what you want." She smiled. Then when they started wandering on beach, she saw many beautiful things. She watched them. Ravi was busy in watching scenery. He didn't ask her about purchasing any thing. It was so hard for her. Those things were not costly. She knew that she could easily get them but she couldn't ask for them and Ravi was not thinking about those things. He was just busy in his dreams. She slowly began to feel that walking was not giving her any happiness. She wanted many things but she was getting nothing. She started to sense inferior. She began to feel only if she was staying with her own parents. She could have at least bought balloons. She knew that this thought was childish. But then she felt that it was not wrong. She didn't understand why did her in-law felt so much wrong in her childish demands. She felt so much hurt at every point. She started to remember her childhood. Ravi was busy in his thoughts while she was remembering her childhood. Then Ravi suddenly touched her shoulder, he was giving her sweet smile but she was so upset. Seema " You are not even talking with me." " Come on. I was dreaming about you." "Stop lying." Ravi suddenly started to look angry " Why should I lie? Are you out of your mind? This walk supposed to be romantic but you are turning it into walk of war. I am your husband why did I hate talking with you? I love you." Seema started crying. Ravi began to look nervous. Ravi started to counseling her. Ravi " What happened?" Every one around them started to look at Ravi with anger. Seema sensed that she was doing too much. Seema " I just wanted a balloon." " Balloon?!!" Ravi started laughing loudly. It managed to hurt her so much that she just ran away. She went back in hotel and locked herself in bathroom. It was worst thing for her. She didn't want to remember that incidence. Since in that excitement she slipped on floor of bathroom. It was so painful. She wanted to stand up but she couldn't. Ravi got so scared. He started screaming her name. Soon whole staff of hotel gathered. She could hear it all. Ravi was telling all about their argument. She wanted to tell him to stop it. But she was in such pain. For moment due to shock her voice didn't come out. She was so shocked. She wanted to stop Ravi after that so she started screaming. Then every one started hitting door. It was so worst. She was screaming in pain but door was not opening. Finally Ravi started to tell her that she must come to door. She slowly managed to drag her feet. It was so hard to her. But she wanted to get out of there so she dragged herself. It was worst movement for her. Her whole body was hurting. Finally she came near it. It was hardest movement for her. She had to work so hard. Even today she shivered at that thought. She didn't want to remember it at all. But after that she never went out for trip. Today she decided that she had to go since she won lottery. It was unique moment for her. She knew one thing that she had to go on trip and it was decided by destiny. She started planning for it.
Seema started thinking about trip. This time she was going out with her kids and husband. They all were so excited specially kids. Since they never went on trips before, she sent them on camping trips. But they wanted to go out with their parents like other kids. But Seema always kept avoiding. She knew that it was important but then she was so busy in her daily routine. She knew that a trip was necessary but she started to feel scared about trip. She needed to make it perfect. She had to do all. She counted once again things. She wanted to be sure that she did every thing in perfect way. She was so happy when she finally managed to do packing then suddenly Ravi entered in room. Ravi started laughing. Ravi " Why are you packing now? We need to go on trip on next month." " I know but I want to be fully prepared." " I know we have not went to picnic for long time. But you don't need to get so tense for such trip. It is our picnic not your exam or test. We are suppose to be enjoying but this way you are getting so tense. This is not right way of picnic." " I know but still I feel so tense. I can't change my attitude. I just want to keep this trip perfect." Ravi smiled. " Do as you wish?" Then she started deciding which things would perfect for trip. Even Ravi started to helping her. Soon even kids joined. It was wonderful moment for them but she was so tense. She was so happy when finally she managed to do it. Then they all went out to eat dinner so they managed to many hours in packing of that trip which was in next month. She knew that they had to do many things like homework of kids, Ravi's other work. But they did nothing except packing then when finally it was over. It was time of dinner so they went to dinner. Seema sensed one thing that whole day was just wasted in packing. But then she felt that it was great. After that day she felt that she could feel relaxed. But still she kept feeling scared. She wanted her entire family to be ready and healthy. She started cooking healthy food. It was light diet. She didn't want upset stomach. Then she even took best care of throat. But then suddenly worst thing happened one day suddenly her son Satish sneezed. Seema " What happened Satish? Did you drink something cold?" Her daughter Rita " Come on Mom. We went to birthday party yesterday. Satish drank just one glass of cold drink." " And what did he eat?" "Everything." " My god!! Don't you remember we are supposed to be going on trip? How could drink that cold drink?" " Mom it is after one month." " Not one month. Two days less to one month."" Fine Mom but it is little bit near but still don't you feel it is far away." Seema didn't want to agree but she knew that she had to agree. Seema " But still I don't want any of you to get sick." Satish " Mom stop irritating. This trip is for enjoyment and you are managing to create tension out of it. My friends went to picnic every month. But they even ate ice cream one day before picnic. Stop creating drama out of nothing." Seema " Okay do as you wish? But remember if you drink something wrong which lead to some sickness then you will be cause of destroying picnic." Suddenly both kids started to look tense. She sensed that she had created fear which she wanted to them sense. She smiled happily. From that day Satish and Rita started to feel worst on each day. They wanted happiness. But they just kept feeling scared about everything. Next day Satish went in school. His all friends planned to eat sandwich from hotel. But he didn't want to take risk so he said no to all. But his friends looked upset. " Satish this is too much. Why are you not coming for snacks? I mean your picnic is going to be after one month so why are you on diet now." Satish " I just don't want to get sick." " Now this is madness. You will not get sick by one sandwich and even if you got in one month you can be fine." " But I am scared." " This way you will remain scared for entire life." Other friend " Now let him go ahead his way. You must not tell him to move against his parents." All friends started moving heads so they decided that they would go out without him. So Satish sat all alone in class. It was worst day for him. He just began to wish only if he could avoid this trip. He wanted to enjoy not that trip. Since that trip became worst thing for them, he wanted happiness on every day not on just one day. He decided that it was worst day when he decided to go on Picnic.
Rita was so upset whole time. She knew that her Mom was creating fear unnecessarily. She needed to fight it. She decided that she would not let her Mom scare her. She decided that she would relax and she could eat any thing. She started looking around to find a place where she could eat and relax. But she was so confused. She knew that she must had to eat something to reduce her fear. She started looking around. She saw one coffee shop but she knew that it would look odd. She was so confused. She decided that she must eat something to reduce her fear on this point. She knew that she had to convince her friend about it. She went back in college. Many friends were chatting with each other. She went near them. " Friends let's go for coffee." " But what is occasion?" They all started giving her questioning look. " Come on. Can't we drink coffee without reason?" One friend " It apply to me since my pocket money was not that big." Many friends started laughing. " We all don't have that problem but still why should we waste money on eating outside when we are not hungry. We just had breakfast in home." " My Mom even packed my favorite pasta in my lunch box." " Really I have sweets in it." " I have spicy parathas." So every one started making face which showed they wanted to eat that so Rita had to sit down. She knew that she had skip plan or had to eat alone. She was so tense but still she kept smiling before her friends. But she just wanted to eat something. Finally her friend sensed that she was not paying attention. " What wrong with Rita today? " " Nothing I am just fine." " Well your skin is not longer beautiful. You have lot of pimples." Other friends started nodding. Other friend " Why don't you take treatment?" Now this conversation was taking irritating mode. Rita was so upset. First her friends were not ready to eat with her and now they had started taunting her. She decided that she must escape now. Rita " I need to do some homework in my classroom. I am going bye." " Sure. You are still nothing but a school girl." They all started laughing. Rita gave one forced smile. Every one kept her telling that she must understood joke on herself. But she never accept it. She just felt upset and insulted about it. She needed to understand that it was joke but she never understood it. She started to feel upset about it. She began to sense that she needed to move away from there. She just stood up and ran away. It was getting so hard on each day. She kept trying to hide her tears while those friends kept insulting her. She ran away from them. She was so depressed. She decided that she should just go in classroom. She entered in classroom. She sat there alone. She felt that she needed that Trip. She decided that she might just obey her Mom since she started to getting concern about her skin. She opened her book for studies. She started reading it. She started to concentrate on book. But her mind can't returning to her studies. She started to sense so stressed. She needed to relax. Then teacher entered. Rita turned her full attention to studies. She knew one thing her parents were just her support. She decided that she must cooperate with them. She didn't want to go out with her friends. But soon she sensed even her friends were not missing her. She felt so upset. But then she felt one thing that she never wanted to them to call her. Still somewhere in her soul she was feeling so alone. She wanted some friend with whom she could share her sorrows. But she was all alone in that class. She was so happy in school but college life was not moving the way she wanted. She couldn't able to keep up with her friends. They were fond of different things while those things managed to bore her. She was different than them. Her choices were different. She decided that she must search for other group. But when she looked around in class, she sensed that she didn't have much option. It was so hard to adjust. She decided that she needed trip more than any thing. She opened her tiffin and she started eating it. She began to plan for picnic. She decided that her family was only hope for her. She started to think that she must obey her Mom. She knew that health was wealth for her so she started eating her home made lunch like good girl. She knew that her friends might consider her odd but she knew that she couldn't tolerate their taunts so she was happy without her friends.
When Rita and Satish returned home, they both felt totally different way. Satish " Mom is setting too much restriction on us. I want to go out with my friends." Rita " Satish!! Don't run after those friends. Friends didn't help you when you will become sick."" But why will I become sick? Stop talking like Mom." Seema suddenly entered in room on that moment. She was glad that Rita believed her. Seema " She believed me since she was elder than you and smart than you. " " Really? But yesterday she was talking against you so she got this wisdom in just one day." " Come on stop taunting your elder sister give some respect to her." " Fine do as you wish. But remember you are turning your life into hell." Rita screamed on Satish with anger " No need to act like over smart. You don't understand just shut up." " Really. So you are smart one. Move ahead this way soon. You will sense your smartness is madness." Seema screamed " Enough. I don't want you two keep fighting like that." She turned to Satish " You can move as you wish. But if you get sick it will be your mistake." " Don't worry I will stay in Auntie's house and you can go and enjoy picnic." " Really do you think she will keep you? She had her responsibilities too." " I will manage with her." Then Satish went in room. Seema " He is so stubborn. " " Don't worry Mom. I will take good care of myself." Seema smiled"You are true angel. But sweetheart if Satish get sick." " Don't worry I am sure Auntie will surely take good care of him." They both started laughing at that thought. After that day Seema and Rita started eating proper diet. It was strange sort of craziness. Ravi was watching them. But whenever they started to force it on Satish. He managed to stop it. Soon Satish started to get irritated with thought of going to picnic. Ravi's support was not enough for him. Satish began to hate picnic. He started to tell again and again that he didn't want to go on free trip. Somewhere in heart Seema had same feeling. Seema knew that now saying it out in loud would create worst effect on all. Seema decided that she could lie on this situation. After all she had to encourage kids for picnic. Seema "Don't feel sad Satish. Trust me. You will enjoy it." Satish " Stop pretending. You are the one who created all this mess. You don't even let me enjoy my life." " I am doing it for your good. If you want to get sick then move ahead and do as you wish." " I just want to stay away from picnic. I want to enjoy my life. " Seema was so confused. She began to feel that her kids must not eat outside. It could cause harm to them. " It is not about picnic. I want you to be careful every day." Now every one was shocked. Even Rita began to feel upset. She began to sense things were not moving in right way. Rita " Mom I thought it would be over after trip. We can't keep this on for every day. We need to move ahead every day with hope." Seema started to feel so scared at thought that her family would get sick. She suddenly began to imagine their death which would create worst effect on her mind. She began to imgine death of her every family member. She couldn't control fear. She could see their death. She began to scream on them. She started telling them how risky it was, She could see no one was believing her. She started to try more and more. Soon she began to cry like hysteric woman. She was seeing their death. She started to that no one was believing her. It was getting worst on every step. She started to sense different appeal from soul. She felt that she must save her family in some way. She decided that she might just hurt herself to prove her point. She ran inside kitchen. She took knife in hand. She came out. She showed her veins from other hand and started telling. " I will cut it if any of you eat outside. Did you understood it?" She kept screaming it.
Ravi was so shocked. He sensed one thing that Seema was not normal. He knew that she had phobia regarding going to picnic. But this time he sensed that it was not normal fear. It was something more that just fear. He began to feel strange fear. He began to sense his wife was not normal. Kids were shivering with fear. He could see that she began to have hproblem. Kids were feeling so scared. Ravi went ahead and took hold of knife. When she saw that knife was hurting Ravi, she threw that knife away. Ravi had deep cut on hand. They tried every thing to stop that blood but it didn't work. It was worst day for them all. Seema just kept getting hysteric. She started to get so confused. She began to feel so sad. She just didn't understand what she supposed to do. Then Ravi started telling every one to call Doctor. Rita nodded and she immediately started to call Doctor. Doctor told her to tie it with bandage and come to him immediately. Then Ravi did all. Whole time Seema just kept crying without helping them. It was hardest day of their life. Rita and Ravi had to do every thing while Seema just kept crying. When they finally reached to Doctor, Doctor looked at wound. Doctor " Tell me what happened?" Ravi told every thing to Doctor step by step. Doctor " My God. She need a psychiatrist." Ravi looked at Doctor with confused expression. Ravi " But I don't know any psychiatrist." " Don't worry. I will give you name of psychiatrist." " I will tell you. But take her to him and take her before Trip. I can tell you one thing that she will create lot more issue. I don't understand." Seema " I am just fine. I don't create any problem on Trip. I will go on Trip. I told them all. I just wanted to take care of health of my family. I don't understand why did people consider it as a crime? I did every right thing." Ravi " Sure like trying to cut yourself? Can't you understand you are not fine?" Seema " No I am fine." Ravi started shivering with anger. " Do you want to cure yourself or not? I can't tolerate this any more." Ravi was so upset. He wanted to just take Seema to psychiatrist but she was not ready. Seema " I am fine. I am not going." Ravi was so shocked. Suddenly Rita interfered " Mom you can't stay like that." Seema screamed " I can and I will. If you don't want me then you can move ahead with your life." Ravi was so shocked when Seema called her parents and told them that she wanted to come to them. Ravi sensed that things were not going to be easy. He knew that her parents would not believe him. His parents did many damages to their marriage and he just couldn't manage to stop them in time. So Seema's parents always hated him. He tried to convince her. But nothing seemed to work. Ravi was so shocked when soon he had to manage every thing alone. He tried to talk with Seema but she just didn't want to talk with him. He was so frustrated. He knew that he had to take her to psychiatrist but she was not listening. He had to adjust without her soon. But he began to sense that even Rita started having problem. She became too health conscious. But Rita was immediately agreed to go to psychiatrist. She saw condition of her Mom. Seema kept getting worst day by day. Soon even her parents started suggesting psychiatrist. She took it in wrong way again. One night she came to Ravi. She was looking so strange and weak. He tried to convince her. But nothing worked. Seema " Will you give key of old flat?" " Sure but why did you want them?" " I want to live there." "Why? Aren't you living with your parents?" " No.They want me to go to.."" Psychiatrist?"" You managed to destroy my life." " I didn't just listen to you." " Are you going to give me keys?" Satish came from behind. Satish " Please Dad give them to her. You can even send money or visit her time to time but just keep her away from me. Please!!" Rita was also nodding . Psychiatrist had suggested her that she had to either convince her Mom to go to psychiatrist or stay away from her. Seema "Don't force me or I will kill myself. I will stay in that house." Ravi nodded. He gave her keys but that day was worst day of his life since after that day he saw every day that Seema was getting worst but she was not ready to visit psychiatrist. Once he asked Psychiatrist about her while visiting for Rita. " I feel it must be phobia about Trips but it turned in worst case so it is now generalized anxiety Disorder." " But what can I do for her?" " Wait until she had nervous break down. She will surely have it one day and she will call you and listen to you." Psychiatrist was telling this. But Ravi knew Seema. She was not going to give up. Still he kept hoping that one day she would come to him. But one day she suddenly vanished. She just left one letter telling him that she got some job. She didn't gave address. But she gave number of her lawyer in case he wanted divorce. He didn't want it but still he visited lawyer for her address but he didn't know except email. He went back home and started living life of a single parent with hope that thing would turn right one day. He knew that they would not Seema was already gone far away from them.
The End
Seema began to count items in cupboard. She wanted to be sure that she kept every thing in proper way. Seema knew that she must leave soon. She didn't remember last time when she went out. She used to love travelling but her work just never permitted it. She just began to love her work more than traveling or she was not interested in going out with her in-laws. She was nice girl. She spent her entire life in joint family so she never minded joint family. But she didn't want to go out with her husband's parents since their interference was worst. She just remember first time she went out with them. It was shocking. She never sensed that any one could create so much problem in one trip. She started going out with her husband Ravi one day on beach. When mother-in-law screamed from behind " Don't waste too much money on her. It might seem like romantic but wasting money is not wise." She was so upset. Ravi " Just relax Mom don't keep talking like that but I will purchase what you want." She smiled. Then when they started wandering on beach, she saw many beautiful things. She watched them. Ravi was busy in watching scenery. He didn't ask her about purchasing any thing. It was so hard for her. Those things were not costly. She knew that she could easily get them but she couldn't ask for them and Ravi was not thinking about those things. He was just busy in his dreams. She slowly began to feel that walking was not giving her any happiness. She wanted many things but she was getting nothing. She started to sense inferior. She began to feel only if she was staying with her own parents. She could have at least bought balloons. She knew that this thought was childish. But then she felt that it was not wrong. She didn't understand why did her in-law felt so much wrong in her childish demands. She felt so much hurt at every point. She started to remember her childhood. Ravi was busy in his thoughts while she was remembering her childhood. Then Ravi suddenly touched her shoulder, he was giving her sweet smile but she was so upset. Seema " You are not even talking with me." " Come on. I was dreaming about you." "Stop lying." Ravi suddenly started to look angry " Why should I lie? Are you out of your mind? This walk supposed to be romantic but you are turning it into walk of war. I am your husband why did I hate talking with you? I love you." Seema started crying. Ravi began to look nervous. Ravi started to counseling her. Ravi " What happened?" Every one around them started to look at Ravi with anger. Seema sensed that she was doing too much. Seema " I just wanted a balloon." " Balloon?!!" Ravi started laughing loudly. It managed to hurt her so much that she just ran away. She went back in hotel and locked herself in bathroom. It was worst thing for her. She didn't want to remember that incidence. Since in that excitement she slipped on floor of bathroom. It was so painful. She wanted to stand up but she couldn't. Ravi got so scared. He started screaming her name. Soon whole staff of hotel gathered. She could hear it all. Ravi was telling all about their argument. She wanted to tell him to stop it. But she was in such pain. For moment due to shock her voice didn't come out. She was so shocked. She wanted to stop Ravi after that so she started screaming. Then every one started hitting door. It was so worst. She was screaming in pain but door was not opening. Finally Ravi started to tell her that she must come to door. She slowly managed to drag her feet. It was so hard to her. But she wanted to get out of there so she dragged herself. It was worst movement for her. Her whole body was hurting. Finally she came near it. It was hardest movement for her. She had to work so hard. Even today she shivered at that thought. She didn't want to remember it at all. But after that she never went out for trip. Today she decided that she had to go since she won lottery. It was unique moment for her. She knew one thing that she had to go on trip and it was decided by destiny. She started planning for it.
Seema started thinking about trip. This time she was going out with her kids and husband. They all were so excited specially kids. Since they never went on trips before, she sent them on camping trips. But they wanted to go out with their parents like other kids. But Seema always kept avoiding. She knew that it was important but then she was so busy in her daily routine. She knew that a trip was necessary but she started to feel scared about trip. She needed to make it perfect. She had to do all. She counted once again things. She wanted to be sure that she did every thing in perfect way. She was so happy when she finally managed to do packing then suddenly Ravi entered in room. Ravi started laughing. Ravi " Why are you packing now? We need to go on trip on next month." " I know but I want to be fully prepared." " I know we have not went to picnic for long time. But you don't need to get so tense for such trip. It is our picnic not your exam or test. We are suppose to be enjoying but this way you are getting so tense. This is not right way of picnic." " I know but still I feel so tense. I can't change my attitude. I just want to keep this trip perfect." Ravi smiled. " Do as you wish?" Then she started deciding which things would perfect for trip. Even Ravi started to helping her. Soon even kids joined. It was wonderful moment for them but she was so tense. She was so happy when finally she managed to do it. Then they all went out to eat dinner so they managed to many hours in packing of that trip which was in next month. She knew that they had to do many things like homework of kids, Ravi's other work. But they did nothing except packing then when finally it was over. It was time of dinner so they went to dinner. Seema sensed one thing that whole day was just wasted in packing. But then she felt that it was great. After that day she felt that she could feel relaxed. But still she kept feeling scared. She wanted her entire family to be ready and healthy. She started cooking healthy food. It was light diet. She didn't want upset stomach. Then she even took best care of throat. But then suddenly worst thing happened one day suddenly her son Satish sneezed. Seema " What happened Satish? Did you drink something cold?" Her daughter Rita " Come on Mom. We went to birthday party yesterday. Satish drank just one glass of cold drink." " And what did he eat?" "Everything." " My god!! Don't you remember we are supposed to be going on trip? How could drink that cold drink?" " Mom it is after one month." " Not one month. Two days less to one month."" Fine Mom but it is little bit near but still don't you feel it is far away." Seema didn't want to agree but she knew that she had to agree. Seema " But still I don't want any of you to get sick." Satish " Mom stop irritating. This trip is for enjoyment and you are managing to create tension out of it. My friends went to picnic every month. But they even ate ice cream one day before picnic. Stop creating drama out of nothing." Seema " Okay do as you wish? But remember if you drink something wrong which lead to some sickness then you will be cause of destroying picnic." Suddenly both kids started to look tense. She sensed that she had created fear which she wanted to them sense. She smiled happily. From that day Satish and Rita started to feel worst on each day. They wanted happiness. But they just kept feeling scared about everything. Next day Satish went in school. His all friends planned to eat sandwich from hotel. But he didn't want to take risk so he said no to all. But his friends looked upset. " Satish this is too much. Why are you not coming for snacks? I mean your picnic is going to be after one month so why are you on diet now." Satish " I just don't want to get sick." " Now this is madness. You will not get sick by one sandwich and even if you got in one month you can be fine." " But I am scared." " This way you will remain scared for entire life." Other friend " Now let him go ahead his way. You must not tell him to move against his parents." All friends started moving heads so they decided that they would go out without him. So Satish sat all alone in class. It was worst day for him. He just began to wish only if he could avoid this trip. He wanted to enjoy not that trip. Since that trip became worst thing for them, he wanted happiness on every day not on just one day. He decided that it was worst day when he decided to go on Picnic.
Rita was so upset whole time. She knew that her Mom was creating fear unnecessarily. She needed to fight it. She decided that she would not let her Mom scare her. She decided that she would relax and she could eat any thing. She started looking around to find a place where she could eat and relax. But she was so confused. She knew that she must had to eat something to reduce her fear. She started looking around. She saw one coffee shop but she knew that it would look odd. She was so confused. She decided that she must eat something to reduce her fear on this point. She knew that she had to convince her friend about it. She went back in college. Many friends were chatting with each other. She went near them. " Friends let's go for coffee." " But what is occasion?" They all started giving her questioning look. " Come on. Can't we drink coffee without reason?" One friend " It apply to me since my pocket money was not that big." Many friends started laughing. " We all don't have that problem but still why should we waste money on eating outside when we are not hungry. We just had breakfast in home." " My Mom even packed my favorite pasta in my lunch box." " Really I have sweets in it." " I have spicy parathas." So every one started making face which showed they wanted to eat that so Rita had to sit down. She knew that she had skip plan or had to eat alone. She was so tense but still she kept smiling before her friends. But she just wanted to eat something. Finally her friend sensed that she was not paying attention. " What wrong with Rita today? " " Nothing I am just fine." " Well your skin is not longer beautiful. You have lot of pimples." Other friends started nodding. Other friend " Why don't you take treatment?" Now this conversation was taking irritating mode. Rita was so upset. First her friends were not ready to eat with her and now they had started taunting her. She decided that she must escape now. Rita " I need to do some homework in my classroom. I am going bye." " Sure. You are still nothing but a school girl." They all started laughing. Rita gave one forced smile. Every one kept her telling that she must understood joke on herself. But she never accept it. She just felt upset and insulted about it. She needed to understand that it was joke but she never understood it. She started to feel upset about it. She began to sense that she needed to move away from there. She just stood up and ran away. It was getting so hard on each day. She kept trying to hide her tears while those friends kept insulting her. She ran away from them. She was so depressed. She decided that she should just go in classroom. She entered in classroom. She sat there alone. She felt that she needed that Trip. She decided that she might just obey her Mom since she started to getting concern about her skin. She opened her book for studies. She started reading it. She started to concentrate on book. But her mind can't returning to her studies. She started to sense so stressed. She needed to relax. Then teacher entered. Rita turned her full attention to studies. She knew one thing her parents were just her support. She decided that she must cooperate with them. She didn't want to go out with her friends. But soon she sensed even her friends were not missing her. She felt so upset. But then she felt one thing that she never wanted to them to call her. Still somewhere in her soul she was feeling so alone. She wanted some friend with whom she could share her sorrows. But she was all alone in that class. She was so happy in school but college life was not moving the way she wanted. She couldn't able to keep up with her friends. They were fond of different things while those things managed to bore her. She was different than them. Her choices were different. She decided that she must search for other group. But when she looked around in class, she sensed that she didn't have much option. It was so hard to adjust. She decided that she needed trip more than any thing. She opened her tiffin and she started eating it. She began to plan for picnic. She decided that her family was only hope for her. She started to think that she must obey her Mom. She knew that health was wealth for her so she started eating her home made lunch like good girl. She knew that her friends might consider her odd but she knew that she couldn't tolerate their taunts so she was happy without her friends.
When Rita and Satish returned home, they both felt totally different way. Satish " Mom is setting too much restriction on us. I want to go out with my friends." Rita " Satish!! Don't run after those friends. Friends didn't help you when you will become sick."" But why will I become sick? Stop talking like Mom." Seema suddenly entered in room on that moment. She was glad that Rita believed her. Seema " She believed me since she was elder than you and smart than you. " " Really? But yesterday she was talking against you so she got this wisdom in just one day." " Come on stop taunting your elder sister give some respect to her." " Fine do as you wish. But remember you are turning your life into hell." Rita screamed on Satish with anger " No need to act like over smart. You don't understand just shut up." " Really. So you are smart one. Move ahead this way soon. You will sense your smartness is madness." Seema screamed " Enough. I don't want you two keep fighting like that." She turned to Satish " You can move as you wish. But if you get sick it will be your mistake." " Don't worry I will stay in Auntie's house and you can go and enjoy picnic." " Really do you think she will keep you? She had her responsibilities too." " I will manage with her." Then Satish went in room. Seema " He is so stubborn. " " Don't worry Mom. I will take good care of myself." Seema smiled"You are true angel. But sweetheart if Satish get sick." " Don't worry I am sure Auntie will surely take good care of him." They both started laughing at that thought. After that day Seema and Rita started eating proper diet. It was strange sort of craziness. Ravi was watching them. But whenever they started to force it on Satish. He managed to stop it. Soon Satish started to get irritated with thought of going to picnic. Ravi's support was not enough for him. Satish began to hate picnic. He started to tell again and again that he didn't want to go on free trip. Somewhere in heart Seema had same feeling. Seema knew that now saying it out in loud would create worst effect on all. Seema decided that she could lie on this situation. After all she had to encourage kids for picnic. Seema "Don't feel sad Satish. Trust me. You will enjoy it." Satish " Stop pretending. You are the one who created all this mess. You don't even let me enjoy my life." " I am doing it for your good. If you want to get sick then move ahead and do as you wish." " I just want to stay away from picnic. I want to enjoy my life. " Seema was so confused. She began to feel that her kids must not eat outside. It could cause harm to them. " It is not about picnic. I want you to be careful every day." Now every one was shocked. Even Rita began to feel upset. She began to sense things were not moving in right way. Rita " Mom I thought it would be over after trip. We can't keep this on for every day. We need to move ahead every day with hope." Seema started to feel so scared at thought that her family would get sick. She suddenly began to imagine their death which would create worst effect on her mind. She began to imgine death of her every family member. She couldn't control fear. She could see their death. She began to scream on them. She started telling them how risky it was, She could see no one was believing her. She started to try more and more. Soon she began to cry like hysteric woman. She was seeing their death. She started to that no one was believing her. It was getting worst on every step. She started to sense different appeal from soul. She felt that she must save her family in some way. She decided that she might just hurt herself to prove her point. She ran inside kitchen. She took knife in hand. She came out. She showed her veins from other hand and started telling. " I will cut it if any of you eat outside. Did you understood it?" She kept screaming it.
Ravi was so shocked. He sensed one thing that Seema was not normal. He knew that she had phobia regarding going to picnic. But this time he sensed that it was not normal fear. It was something more that just fear. He began to feel strange fear. He began to sense his wife was not normal. Kids were shivering with fear. He could see that she began to have hproblem. Kids were feeling so scared. Ravi went ahead and took hold of knife. When she saw that knife was hurting Ravi, she threw that knife away. Ravi had deep cut on hand. They tried every thing to stop that blood but it didn't work. It was worst day for them all. Seema just kept getting hysteric. She started to get so confused. She began to feel so sad. She just didn't understand what she supposed to do. Then Ravi started telling every one to call Doctor. Rita nodded and she immediately started to call Doctor. Doctor told her to tie it with bandage and come to him immediately. Then Ravi did all. Whole time Seema just kept crying without helping them. It was hardest day of their life. Rita and Ravi had to do every thing while Seema just kept crying. When they finally reached to Doctor, Doctor looked at wound. Doctor " Tell me what happened?" Ravi told every thing to Doctor step by step. Doctor " My God. She need a psychiatrist." Ravi looked at Doctor with confused expression. Ravi " But I don't know any psychiatrist." " Don't worry. I will give you name of psychiatrist." " I will tell you. But take her to him and take her before Trip. I can tell you one thing that she will create lot more issue. I don't understand." Seema " I am just fine. I don't create any problem on Trip. I will go on Trip. I told them all. I just wanted to take care of health of my family. I don't understand why did people consider it as a crime? I did every right thing." Ravi " Sure like trying to cut yourself? Can't you understand you are not fine?" Seema " No I am fine." Ravi started shivering with anger. " Do you want to cure yourself or not? I can't tolerate this any more." Ravi was so upset. He wanted to just take Seema to psychiatrist but she was not ready. Seema " I am fine. I am not going." Ravi was so shocked. Suddenly Rita interfered " Mom you can't stay like that." Seema screamed " I can and I will. If you don't want me then you can move ahead with your life." Ravi was so shocked when Seema called her parents and told them that she wanted to come to them. Ravi sensed that things were not going to be easy. He knew that her parents would not believe him. His parents did many damages to their marriage and he just couldn't manage to stop them in time. So Seema's parents always hated him. He tried to convince her. But nothing seemed to work. Ravi was so shocked when soon he had to manage every thing alone. He tried to talk with Seema but she just didn't want to talk with him. He was so frustrated. He knew that he had to take her to psychiatrist but she was not listening. He had to adjust without her soon. But he began to sense that even Rita started having problem. She became too health conscious. But Rita was immediately agreed to go to psychiatrist. She saw condition of her Mom. Seema kept getting worst day by day. Soon even her parents started suggesting psychiatrist. She took it in wrong way again. One night she came to Ravi. She was looking so strange and weak. He tried to convince her. But nothing worked. Seema " Will you give key of old flat?" " Sure but why did you want them?" " I want to live there." "Why? Aren't you living with your parents?" " No.They want me to go to.."" Psychiatrist?"" You managed to destroy my life." " I didn't just listen to you." " Are you going to give me keys?" Satish came from behind. Satish " Please Dad give them to her. You can even send money or visit her time to time but just keep her away from me. Please!!" Rita was also nodding . Psychiatrist had suggested her that she had to either convince her Mom to go to psychiatrist or stay away from her. Seema "Don't force me or I will kill myself. I will stay in that house." Ravi nodded. He gave her keys but that day was worst day of his life since after that day he saw every day that Seema was getting worst but she was not ready to visit psychiatrist. Once he asked Psychiatrist about her while visiting for Rita. " I feel it must be phobia about Trips but it turned in worst case so it is now generalized anxiety Disorder." " But what can I do for her?" " Wait until she had nervous break down. She will surely have it one day and she will call you and listen to you." Psychiatrist was telling this. But Ravi knew Seema. She was not going to give up. Still he kept hoping that one day she would come to him. But one day she suddenly vanished. She just left one letter telling him that she got some job. She didn't gave address. But she gave number of her lawyer in case he wanted divorce. He didn't want it but still he visited lawyer for her address but he didn't know except email. He went back home and started living life of a single parent with hope that thing would turn right one day. He knew that they would not Seema was already gone far away from them.
The End
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